Quick Silver

I've been waiting and hoping for a new Ipod4g so I could do voice memos. I got it finally and I got my first dream recorded dow on it, the beauty of this is that now I can store and see my recordings.

However I nearly blew it. I had a false awakening this morning and I recorded everything in the dream. I did the same after I woke up a second time. I haven't had a false awakening in a while. And I could hear my radio in the BG in the dream which added to the realism of the dream. The only problem was I found a few things wrong; I was sleeping in a futon in the living room (we used to have one), I somehow materialized a book in front of me and was able to write everything down but the fact that I wrote it down left me in question, and the recording I did sounded differently and that woke me up. I need to do RCs when I wake up from now on, I should've been doing them from the start. And after next week I'm going to dive into WILDs again. In the meantime I have a new toy that I'm going to frack around with. I'm going to try a timmed recorder so I can literally tell my self that I am dreaming from the out side. I'm a light sleeper and I can hear things clearly in my sleep from the outside, so I should take advantage of that. 4:00 should be a good time to get started on.

I can get up to the HIs but it gets tricky after this, I start to fade into sleep and then I kind of wake up again and I'm back to the step before the HI. I've had the transition stage before, but that was before I started looking into LDs. So I should shoot for that same feeling. I'm counting myself into it, and it seems to work, but I trail off after the HI stage and become less focused. This is tricky, but at least this is progress I can actively control. I'll keep trying.

I've done alot of reading up on it and I've been telling myself to master DILDs first. But after this month I've had a change of heart. I'm going to master both WILDs and DILDs I need more control over my sleeping pattern and I'm truthfully (and regrettably) becoming impatient with the results that DILD is producing alone. I would either have an LD and then lose all of the minimal control that I already have by doing something stupid and extravagant (Like a Kamehameha wave). I'd rush the LD, or I'd become too exited and go into a free falling tailspin and get knocked so hard that i'm in twilight. And I have no say about what happens because of my excitement. So I'm going to preform and try WILDs every night before sleep (which I know is a no no; it should be 4 to 5 hours into sleep) until I get it. I already have some knowledge of what a partial WILD is because I've been up to the hallucination level more than once. But I used to get freaked out and wonder if I was going crazy because I'd hear voices so many times. So if anyone has any comments, criticisms, questions, concerns, let me know because I'm going into this head first, and I'm not stopping. Until I can do both or at least one of them.

I didn't obtain lucidity, however, when I get the chance here I'll post up the dreams. I had 3 and a half dreams, which is a record. I want to take it up higher so I can increase the probability of having a lucid. All I did the day before was guzzle a Big Gulp jug that was full of water through out the day. That increased my recall pretty well and I had some pretty well sized dreams. I'm very confident that I can become lucid. All of my hard work and everything has to start paying off. I want to also get to the point where this becomes 2nd nature. As long as I hack away at it then I can start looking into WILD.

Every morning I've woken up and I have written down so...many....pages.... But no matter what I do, when I have lucidity, I lose it just as fast as I gained it, or I'm aware but I can't do anything significant. This doesn't discourage me from repeatedly trying again and again and again until I get it. But it's a little frustrating to know that I have only so much knowledge of what it feels like to be lucid. My basic idea (and when I mean basic, I mean that I really can't confirm it but it would seem about right) is that I suddenly feel like I just woke up, and I went back into the dream or I'm thinking about the dream as if I was awake. There has to be a way to get myself to mount firmly before I lose that control. Because I lose it as soon as I see it. How do I know that the feeling is lucidity? Well I checked back to my first experience (which was the most vivid of them all) and I realized that after seeing that I was in fact dreaming, and then getting my arse knocked around in that tail spin because I got too exited, that same feeling followed, and it was there with me while I was in my spinny, blurry, limbo. then I realized that I've had this same feeling many many many times before especially when I'm in a tail spin. So my question is, how the heck do I mount myself in the dream before I lose the control? I don't think the "I'm an anchor" thing works. Anyone have any suggestions?