non-lucid

I was on some sort of rollercoaster it seemed. I was just sort of floating around and watching the environment around me. I saw a football game going on. Some people from my old school were talking about it.

Then my vision became sort of like a fb interface. Then VA's chat popped up in my window, and we started talking. He started talking about lucid dreaming to me. I told him that I already knew what it was. He mentioned something about falling asleep into it, and I told him that I couldn't WILD. He then mentioned that he had a DILD once.

Then I was browsing DV and saw my DJ. Then SA starting chatting to me too, and she gave me a link to DV. She asked if it was my account. It was. I wasn't sure if I wanted to tell her it was; surely it couldn't hurt, but do I really want someone looking at what goes through my mind? What if they decipher the meanings, or decipher them wrongly? I was quite puzzled.

I chatted with someone else too, but I can't remember who.

Eventually I ended up in this sort of back yard of some cottage. It was snowy and wintery, but yet I wasn't cold. I was apparently part of some choir, so I started singing. I did pretty horrible. I apologized and said that I didn't know the song, and someone retorted that I should know it. I then went to get the sheet music for a song that I apparently knew. I sang it decently. That was the end of the dream.

Edit: Just remembered another fragment.

Can't remember where I was, but I think AN was maybe there. Someone, I think KA, asked, "So how many people DO like you then?" I shrugged and told her I didn't know. I said that AN seemed to, but who could be sure of everyone else? saw flashes of a few other people, and then it ended

It started off as some Tomb Raider style game, but eventually it changed.

I was in some room, seemed to be a living room of sorts. The walls were beige. I was with KR and I think KA. I needed a phone number for some reason and asked KR for it. She handed me some random phone number so I took it and called it.

The number was some sort of spam hacker thing. I called it, and it asked me for something. I wanted to hang up but I wouldn't for some reason. Somehow I knew that this person was going to hack my email and take over my computer.

Eventually I got away from the phone, but I was constantly worried about that hacker. I scolded myself for being an idiot and not checking the number for anything strange first.

Then it called back, but I didn't actually hear the phone ring or pick it up. The voice was just sort of talking to me and nagging me. It was trying to get me to say my email, and though I was tempted, I wouldn't give it up. I was scared shitless by this person. Even though I didn't know I was dreaming, I started taking control. I imagined a pencil in my hands. I started bending it, taking slight note of the fact that it was bendable and not breaking. I slowly bent it more and more, expecting to feel that snap... and so it did snap. I then used the two bits of pencil and blindly stabbed in front of me. I couldn't see the person, but I could feel it sort of dissipating against my attacks. We fought, and I felt it trying to defend itself and lash out at me again. At the last moment before I woke up, a quick picture of MI passed before my eyes.

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Though it doesn't seem scary, it actually really was scary. Surely you know how exaggerated dream emotions can be. I guess you can call this my first nightmare in quite a while.

I was at the ranch again. I was going out on some ride where we where supposed to warm up the horses. We walk through some winding trail in the snowy forest. I was worried that I was doing something wrong. I looked down at FL's neck and noticed that her mane didn't seem to be there. But it didn't bother me, and I bent down to hug and kiss her warm, soft neck.

Then I realized that I was the only one mounted, while everyone else was on foot leading their horses. Shit, I thought, what if they notice that I wasn't doing it right? I jumped off, hoping that somehow they wouldn't have seen me. The dream ended there.

I was at what was apparently KA's house. It was in some spacious basement. KE and KR were there. We were all hungry and looking for something to eat. I looked in the fridge and saw a cup of chocolate pudding. I really wanted it but didn't impose on it. Then KA was beside me, pulling out a jar of powdered mango pudding from the cupboard above.

"I don't like mango pudding... I hate mangoes!" I groaned.
"Well that's all we have."
"Can't I just find something else?"

I can't remember whether or not she said yes, but either way that chocolate pudding was mine. I grabbed it from the fridge and grabbed a spoon and peeled off the top sticker. It was some delicious stuff.

Eventually we ended up going upstairs and outside for some reason. It was a strange, almost barren and grey city. I remember going up to a concrete building.

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I was outside in some city. There was some girl dressed in black and pink. I was supposed to kiss her or something, but it never happened.

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I was with KR. He was going on the bus with me. We were supposed to make out with each other or something, but we didn't want to do it in public. We waited to get to a more secluded area with the bus. We were passing through a quiet neighbourhood, and I jumped out (didn't clue in to me that I just jumped right through the door, lmao). This caused me to wake up.

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I was at some random house. I think it was a camp of some sort; I was trying to figure out if I had forgotten anything. My mom was there at some point. Then it ended.

I was on the subway with MA and KA. We were supposed to go to MA's house or something. When we were about to board the bus, we had trouble deciding which one to go on. KA said she wanted to go on one that was a 2 hour long bus ride to go to the airport or something like that. We got on it but then I said it was ridiculous. We then got on another bus.

I think eventually we were at the subway again, debating over whose house to go to. MA said we could go to her house, and I really wanted to (at one point in the dream I did slightly wonder why I would even bother hanging out with her) for some reason. But KA kept saying that we should go to her house. Eventually we got on a bus but it ended up being the one to KA's house; I got annoyed and made us switch directions.

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I was eating popcorn, and was about to get the cheese flavoring. The dream then faded.

I had a FA. My ear was itchy, so I randomly got a q-tip and scratched my ear with it. When I took it out, the q-tip was covered with a layer of yellow waxy gunk. It ended there.

Had some other dreams, but I forgot them.

I was in some random building, or city, with AN. We were playing some sort of game or something where I had to run away from him. I don't remember much, but I remember seeing a city at nighttime. There were streetcars going through some street, and there was a park with trees behind it.

The last I remember of it I actually managed to get away from him, and I was hiding in that building.

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I had a few other dreams, but totally forgot them by now

My first dream was lucid, but I don't remember what happened. It faded right when I got lucid, but I DEILDed into a new one.

I was sort of detached from the dream, more like watching a screen than being in it. I tried to visualize stuff so that I would be more immersed in it. I wanted to try to share dreams with AN and make him lucid. I started yelling his name and yelling to get lucid. I then tried to visualize myself going through a door and expecting to find his dreams in there, but it wasn't really working. I wasn't really in the dream, more just like visualizing it and pretending I was there. At one point I was in the dream I think, but I was losing control and starting to do other things.

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I was at the ranch again. I was in the corral with ME, KR, some of KR's apparent friends, KI, DE, and some other random staff. They were closing up for the day or something. KI had just come to ride WO. I said hi to her in a shy manner, and she ignored me. Usually she talks to me, I thought. She was the type of person that would ask me why I hadn't been there since the winter last year. But she remained silent.

KR then gave me a piggyback ride and we ran around the muddy corral like that. She was wearing her faded blue skinny jeans and her converse sneakers and glasses. Eventually I hopped off.

I spent some time running around the pens for one reason or another, trying to avoid something. I think KA was there at one point too. Eventually I returned to the corral.

In the corral there was this white horse that was saddled up. I knew somehow that it wasn't meant to be ridden at all, but the corral was empty, so I took it quietly through the barn to the entrance. I then mounted and urged it into a gentle lope. It didn't want to lope much, and wouldn't go faster when I squeezed it. It was peaceful and enjoyable still. I only rode up the driveway. I saw a bunch of stores when I looked past it. I decided it wasn't a good idea to go further, and rode the horse back to the barn. I dismounted and took it through the barn again. I was scared that there was someone on the other side. When I got there I think ME and DE were there; I tried to go and pretended not to take notice of them. They didn't say anything, and I was quite grateful for that. The dream then ended.

I was in a car with SA and some other random people. I think the car was red. I think there were two SAs. I couldn't stop looking at him. The dream didn't last too long.

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Some fragment where I wanted a banana. I grabbed a bunch from my living room and tore one off. It somehow ended up splitting the skin on three different bananas. There were then two other bananas that were opened. I was worried that I shouldn't leave them open, but I didn't want to eat them either. I attempted to arrange the skin on them again to try to close them. The dream faded.

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I was getting up to go to the bathroom when I noticed this big spider hanging out on my door. I wasn't that freaked out, but pretty disgusted. I wanted to leave it there and let my mom or my cats deal with it, but I was scared of it creeping into my room or something stupid like that. The dream ended.

I was at a big green field, just running in it. It felt so great. So fresh. I felt my muscles working beneath me. I wasn't even getting tired a bit. "This is great, why don't I do this all the time?" I thought (if only running was that easy -.-).

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I was with my mom somewhere, and we had to get home. We waited for a bus. As we got on the bus we took a transfer. It had blue on it. I think we got on the wrong bus or something; I remember watching closely where the bus was taking us.

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I was in my house playing my guitar. LI and I think CH and some others were there. They were playing their cellos and violins and whatnot with me. We were supposed to be playing together or something. We were in my living room. We decided to move to the bed room to start playing. LI wanted to touch my guitar or something, but I didn't want her to and I was getting annoyed.

Finally had some decent recall; my sleep has been really messed up.

I was at the ranch. I was helping out or something, there for some reason. I was inside a building, and watching some people coming in from a ride. I saw JA there and admired her beauty. She was a little stockier than in real life, but she had a clear buckskin coat and gorgeous black mane. There was another horse or two behind her.

Then we started getting this bag full of ragged-looking blankets. There was a baby there or something, and we had to remove the blankets. I wanted to make a joke about how the place could be a daycare, but I held my tongue.

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Had another dream but forgot it now... if i remember I'll post it.

I can't even remember what happened in the dream, but I know for sure it had something to do with JO.

I started off travelling along some land. I was shapeshifting between a human and wolf. It sort of occurred to me that I seemed to be inside of WoW. It kind of confused me though because I could never remember being able to shapeshift into a wolf in WoW.

At first I was running along some grass plane, but then I eventually came across some large molten lava river, which seemed to resemble the one in Cataclysm. It was in a large pit of sorts, with some curving walkway that led up to each side. I didn't notice it at first so I jumped down and over the river.

When I got to the other side and up the slope, I sat there as a human. Some other people from my school came and started talking or something. I also remember something about a sleepover with KA, but I can't remember.

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I was in a video again. I had been in this world before. It was some sort of RPG game, but everyone gets a horse to ride. There also aren't many dungeons. The setting is outdoors, at daytime; it seems like a quaint and peaceful little town.

I had a white pony. I think AN and some other random people were with me too. I jumped up on the pony and rode around for a bit, and then proceeded to a dungeon. There was two wooden shacks (i think they were bathrooms) and they each had a blue portal in the doorway. I went through one.

I ended up with AN and the other random people in some room or something. I can't remember much of what passed, but eventually I figured out that one of the girls with us was a shaman. I think I was some sort or archer.

Eventually I ended up back in the starting area. I whistled for my horse and it came running over. I mounted and started riding around. Someone from our party was complaining about how we didn't know how to play and disperse the classes and roles properly.

I ended up just riding around on the horse. I pushed it to a fast canter and rode around for a while along a stony path before the dream ended.

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I was at the bus stop that was near my house. The bus came, but then I realized that it would be the wrong bus to go on if I was going somewhere, and since I was going home I didn't even need a bus at all. I walked away pretending I hadn't met to stand at the bus stop, and trying to hide my embarrassment.

I walked to my house, and my mom had come with a new table she had bought. It came in a huge package. She was going to bring it through the doorway, but I told her to bring it through our balcony window instead. I waited till she got over the fence to open it so that the cats wouldn't get out. Then I looked over and saw one of them, so I decided I should just lock them in the other area of the apartment. I quickly did so and returned to open the balcony window and help carry the table in. At the same time some random thought, or maybe comment, turned up about glass noodle salad. THe dream ended there.

I was at home, and we were having some sort of party. Randomly Miley Cyrus shows up (though she didn't look like herself; she was blonde I think with blue eyes, and was wearing some blue plaid shirt and jeans). I sort of want to release my hate on her but I decide I should try to be nice for now at least. We ate pizza, and then she went to leave. She went to some van outside and was about to drive away. I called out to her and asked her what instrument she thought I played. Before she could say anything, the dream had faded.

I was at home. Something caused me to go into my living room of my apartment. My mom was there. She told me to look outside; she was really scared. Outside there was a wolf and a cat. They were looking at us and following my cats along the giant window. For some reason this scared the shit out of me; I could feel the wolf about to just break through the glass and kill me or something. The dream ended somewhere there.

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Had a FA. I woke up and started writing down key words of my dream onto a piece of paper. I wrote the words "rejection, cat, dog" on it with my pencil, like I usually do. I then started to get dressed. I remember putting my grey and pink socks on. I know I did some other distinct thing too, but I can't remember.

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In the next dream I became lucid at one point, I'm sure. I was going down some water slides. There was sort of a hint in my mind that I was dreaming, and that nothing could hurt me, though I didn't have enough control to really take over. I was going down these water slides that had sharp panels. I went down them knowing it was a dream and that they couldn't hurt me if I didn't expect them to. It was really quite fun. Eventually the slides turned into highways, and the dream started to change.

Eventually I ended up at some store or bus station with my mom. We were waiting for a bus and commenting on how long it took. When it finally arrived we said something about all the people unloading. The dream ended somewhere there.