Shelli

Around 6am (or so) I awoke from a dream (think it was about fighting) and looked at the clock. Figured I should try a WILD and see how it goes. So I rolled over on my back and just...just...laid there with my eyes clothes and already relaxed. After 10 minutes or so I rolled onto my right side. Soon the mental chatter faded away and there was a void (I've never achieved this state in meditation - though I've tried). I don't remember when I stopped feeling my body or when the dream started. I'd say I was semi lucid.

I didn't see my usual dream signs.

So anyway....the dream was about a trip we're planning in a couple of months. My mom and I were visiting family down south. She was overly excited and annoying (LOL)! It was hot outside so I went in to wash up. But first I stripped my shirt off in the dining room as I head toward the loo. But a supermodel was in there. I knew it would take a long time before I got in. So I went back for my shirt but it was gone. Outside, my mom and her ex husband were showing off a red headed baby. I walked up and held her finger. She looked at me like she knew me.

Next scene my mom and I are driving through town and stop at McDonald's for rest and a quick bite to eat. She's holding up the line talking nonsense. Telling everyone we're from Tennessee when we're not. As I'm trying to get our orders right it starts to rain/hail inside the restaurant. Pretty soon we're getting deluged so we run to the car for shelter.

Not much else happens after that....cuz...ya know...the dog jumped on my bed.

You know what was weird? Being semi aware of my body lying in the bed. I really noticed this state when I woke up. It wasn't a jarring transition. But smooth as if I simply slid out of the dream into full consciousness. It's much subtler than I thought. I expected bells, whistles and someone screaming "You're Lucid Now!"

Still need to work on RC's. Wish I'd remember to do them more. A series of them perhaps. Cuz they don't always work for me.

Had a few dreams last night. But I was too lazy to write them down. However I remember the last one I had:

- My paternal grandmother was badly injured in a house fire. I was angry with someone about it and worried she would die.
- Someone (an authority figure of some sort) was trying to coerce me to do something. Eventually I gave in to please them. But either I woke up or another dream began because I never followed though with it.

I think these dreams correlate with issues I'm having in RL. My subconscious was attempting to work through interpersonal problems I've yet to resolve.

I had the most annoying silly ass dream ever this morning.

There was a town hall meeting going on about race. Lot's of people were there. Mostly black folk and white folk. People were divided but cordial. A well respected black journalist stands up to speak. I'm excited to hear what he has to say. But the good feeling quickly evaporates when he makes an ignorant comment about black people. It was truly stupid. Some people in the crowd smile and nod their heads in agreement. While others are angry and embarrassed. Then out of the back room reality star Nene Leakes stalks up to the journalist (with her stylist in tow) and let's him have it. I can't hear what she says. But her finger wagging and facial expressions say she's giving it to me good. In the middle of this public reprimand the journalist turns into Star Jones.

Silly!

Nevertheless, I think the dreams I have about well known figures aren't really about them but their characteristics or what they represent (to me). If I take the focus off of them in this dream it boils down to this: A public figure embarasses his/her community and sparks feelings of outrage from them.

Though I recognized the journalist I believe he simply represented someone respectable.
Nene and Star Jones represented anger and confrontation.
The crowd symbolizes the public.
The fact that everyone was black or white could represent polarization or stark differences among the populace.

This dream isn't surprising as it's an election year in the US. Or as I like to call it, "the silly season."

Not much to report. My daughter slept with me so I got very little sleep. I only remember fragments of dreams (mostly political) and making square pies. I tried to focus on how my body feels when it's falling asleep. Maybe try to experience SP. But all I felt were god vibrations in my limbs. It was nice. Would've been nicer if I didn't move everytime it happened.

The head buzzing stops when I'm relaxed/sleeping. But comes back upon awakening or thinking about it. I was able to move the energy from left to right and front to back of my head. But I didn't like how it felt at the top. It feels like my crown chakra is open when I focus the energy on my crown. That isn't the norm for me. Maybe I'll do a chakra balancing meditation or quick reiki session to see if that has an effect.

Drank apple juice before bed to see if my dreams were more vivid. The jury is out on that one. But I did recall more than usual. That's cool!

Dream fragment 1:
An old friend of mine were trying to escape his crazy baby-mama. We were driving through our old neighborhood where we grew up.

Dream fragment 2:
A Middle Eastern looking guy laughing and eating jelly beans. Just the orange and brown ones. You could see them all mixed up in his mouth when he laughed. Which was funny and annoying at once.

Full Dream 1:
Crowded event outside a convention center. My (deceased) cousin and step dad were there along with other family members. It was super crowded and we wondered how we'd get inside before the show started. As we walked around the building checking out the entrances Dennis found an unlocked side door and ushered my mom and others inside. My cousin and I decided not to sneak in that way and went through main entrance. Inside we stopped at the concession stand to get a snack. I told the guy behind the counter he looked like some celebrity. He was cute! We flirted a little and the dream ended.

Full Dream 2:
I was in the common area of a multifamily home. Spanish speaking men were performing work inside and teaching me something and quizzing me. Women were preparing something in the background. Basically we were laughing, talking and going about the days tasks. Though I felt more like awelcomed visitor and student than part of the household.

I never gained lucidity in any of the dreams.

I've been sleepy all day which isn't normal for me. In fact, I was so tired this morning I did a few RC's just to be sure I was actually awake.

Also, the upper left side of my head has been buzzing for a few hours. So I'm eager for sleep tonight. And curious to know if the buzzing is a precursor of things to come.

Lots of dream fragments and one full dream recalled:

The fragmented dreams were imagery from a conversation I had with a friend earlier in the day. My mind played back bits and pieces throughout the night. Which makes sense as it was the last real conversation I had before bed.

Some time after 3am I dreamt of a beautiful, lush, green valley with blue lakes and perfect houses / communities. Some of the citizens were being interviewed about the effects of greed on the environment. Wealthier people were using up the resources while the less wealthy suffered.

Three old white guys were talking about the good ol' days before the nonsense started.

Then there was an elderly lady pacing in front of her home. She was distraught, drinking and a little confused. She was losing her house. And the authorities came to get her. She had an adult son inside who was out of work.

Interestingly enough...everyone seemed wealthy. Large homes and idyllic setting but they were troubled.

I know this happened in "dream" Montana because the old guys kept saying so.

5/5 - There was a man walking up concrete stairs to the subway platform above. I was behind him when a quiet commotion broke out on the platform. A veteran (looked Ethiopian/Eritrean) was being arrested by a some kind of swat team. As he was being hustled away the man in front of me turned and said, "What do you expect. Wasn't no outside/inside internet."

That makes no sense. But in the dream I understood it to mean something like.....
"The Internet was an inside job" - which only makes slightly more sense. But not much. Somehow the guy did something to the entire Internet.