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[INDENT][RIGHT][SIZE="1"][COLOR="#4682B4"]29.08.2010[/COLOR][/SIZE][/RIGHT]
[SIZE="4"][COLOR="Red"][B]Shrinking Respect[/B][/COLOR][/SIZE] [SIZE="1"][COLOR="#4682B4"](Non-lucid)[/COLOR][/SIZE]

[COLOR="Blue"][B][SIZE="3"]Non Lucid 7[/SIZE][/B][/COLOR]

[SIZE="1"][COLOR="#4682B4"]NON-DREAM[/COLOR] [COLOR="#800080"]DREAM[/COLOR] [COLOR="#00008B"]LUCID[/COLOR][/SIZE]

[COLOR="#4682B4"][/COLOR][COLOR="#4682B4"]Note About My Dad And I: My Dad demands I respect him even though he's never done that deserves respect, he get's angry over anything, whenever something goes wrong, its my fault, he thinks that I should be seen and not heard, he's randomly punches me when he's in a bad mood, takes all his problems out on me, and worst of all raised me to believe that I was worthless, good for nothing, expendable and stuff like that, which has caused me to be depressed, crushed and alone with no friends or hope for anything to be good in my life.

Just A Few Examples, sorry for dumping my troubles on you, but it relates to this dream.

[/COLOR][COLOR="#800080"]Ok, so, I seem to be at school, going through classes with my dad for some reason, I don't remember a real order of events for this part, but i'll try. I remember being in home group with my dad, going between classes in a hallway, him starting a meaningless arguement and me and this played out,

Me: I'm really starting to get tired of you, I don't know why I put up with you

Dad: HEY, you WILL show me respect, It's because of me that you exist, i'm your dad

Me: Genetically yes, otherwise, you were never a dad to me, you've just made me miserable my whole life, my mum somehow putting up with you, you apparently used to be different

Dad: Remember, if it wasn't for me, you wouldn't exist

Me: If me not existing came with you never meeting my mum, so be it, she can be happy

Dad: You're just worthless in every way, you're a disgrace to me, it's why you have no friends and you deserve it

Me: I know I'm worthless, but so are you

[/COLOR][COLOR="#4682B4"]This is a pretty realistic arguement.

[/COLOR][COLOR="#800080"]When we got home, my brother and older nephew were there. [/COLOR][COLOR="#4682B4"](I'm 14, my bro's 39, my nephew's 15) [/COLOR][COLOR="#800080"]They were apparently making blow up...building, they asked me to help, they had already made an eiffel tower about 30 metres high, it was red, white and blue, for the Australian flag. When I tried to help make a new building I didn't do much.[/COLOR][/INDENT]