non-lucid

my sister calls me. I answer the phone and say, "mom's dead, isn't she?"

I appeared alone in a forest for her funeral, crying. there are clear tubes wrapped all through the trees and then music started playing. the music was absolutely beautiful, like nothing I had ever heard. when the music started playing, this liquid started flowing slowly through the tubes and changing colors. I started crying hysterically at this point because she was the liquid and she was there, right in the forest. I heard my mom say that she was happy she had a brother who set this up for her.

my grandmother appeared and I wanted her to see what I saw so I played the tape again. the music was really weird and off and my grandmother was confused so I started trying to rewind it for her, but she disappeared. I cried more and more in the forest, then something told me I could switch places with her. I almost did because I couldn't bear it. but then I thought of how hard it would be for her in my place and I decided against it.

notes: my grandmother died a little over a month ago and my mom doesn't have a brother.

in my dream i was very hungry. i found french fries stacked in boxes all over the house and in the refrigerator so i made a plate of them. all of a sudden i get lifted onto a seat for a restaurant rollercoaster and my fries are just blowing away. people were cheering, watching the ride and waiting to get on with their food. eventually the second part of the ride, this mechanical crane, is supposed to take you individually to the ground safely, but i wasn't ready and instead it grabbed me by the neck. when i got to the ground i could hear the staff saying "jen steele is missing, she didn't get off the ride." and i was looking right at them. then my friends made eye contact with me and said "we have to go find jen steele."