non-lucid

no lucid dreams... yet, just more loud pops and bangs (in my head why?) and those strange glowing white outlines of my room... weird or wot?

Kat (my kitty) keeps coming and lying on me too, like cats do when they sense you're worried about something? her purring making the whole bed vibrate at times (maybe she wants to lucid dream too hehe)

and that's basically it... ho hum

it's so boring when nothing ever happens?

and then it scares the poo out of ya when it does??

oh pleeease let tonite be the nite! hehehe

Another really weird effect, this time last nite!

i.e. just as i was finally going to sleep after watching those white lines again and nothing else happening... all of a sudden it was as though a jet plane flew through my room with a bang and roar so loud i thought the house was falling down! i literally sat bolt upright in shock!

i also felt like i'd been hit over the head with a good-sized mallet! lol my heart was really beating!

what the heck was that??

These are my eyes last night haha tryin' again to see in the dark

and then it was just the same old same old as per usual... nada!

now it's that time again i guess...

will he wont he, will he wont he...will he dream or not!

I can only try...

Nothing last night neither (d'oh) - what a life!

Still with the white lines tho', which is actually quite interesting in its own right?

It really feels as though you're seeing the room through closed eyes!

I know it's probably not really doing that, but why is it happening + why also the strange consistency?

I'd have thought of 'inventing' something like that to happen!

I'm keeping my fingers crossed that it 'might' be something!

One can but live in hope...

Was reading today about someone once spending 35 minutes trying to see through his 'third eye' (or something) and eventually succeeding in seeing the sky at dawn as though through a hole in their roof...

has anyone else here had similar experiences perhaps? and if so, what did it eventually all turn out to be?

anyway, i'm gonna try this tonite just to see what happens seeing as I've been seeing these what 'appears' to be white outlines of my room as though seen through closed eyes

i've more chance of this than some lucid dreaming with my history innit heh

wish me luck!

And yup... sunday nite... big surprise: nothing! as well... just those whitish outlines in the dark

This has gotta' be like some kinda' record no? 2 years of seriously tryin' has gots me nowhere??

Everyone else lucid dreams except me!

Nothing much else I can do around here then really, no-thing to contribute otherwise but maybe just keep this journal going until... 'something happens'

Anything!

Why can't I do it??

Ain't gonna give up though, oh no...

I'm comin' to get you you lucid dream you! - Just you wait!