The Stories of my Dreaming Mind

I kept waking up in the morning but didn't want my dream to stop so I kept returning to them. I lost count of how many times I WBTB. The dreams were all connected as well, it was all in the same dream but I can't remember the order of everything so I will post things in parts. Probably very confusing parts. Only the environment and landscapes of this dream were vivid, but the people seemed to be very foggy, and some parts were just the foggiest ever.

I am playing/am inside final fantasy 1 or something. The location is the forest road from my house, from the community center. The road is different than in real life, but I know it is the same road in the dream. The characters looks like they do in the actual game as I remember them, especially if viewed from above, and I am just me. There is a nice field of white flowers and a stream that we cross that I view and appreciate the view of before leaving it behind. I think "I'll see this place again." It was a familiar field, I think I was there before in another dream. I move on.

I am at the lockers on the left wall in the hallway from the north of the main lobby. I am taking two or three lockers and storing them with clothes. These clothes keep reassembling and reorganizing and disappearing and reappearing once I take my eye off the ones I already put in. At the top of the lockers are small lockers with rectangular holes at the bottom for ventilation. I put my shoes in there. Then I stack my clothes in the larger locker area below it. Someone asks me about how I am putting clothes in my locker, they seem to be questioning it a little but seemingly, after I tell them what I am doing or why, they understand and leave. I have a feeling this part is connected with the cottage beach parts later on.

I am at the back field of the school, and it is nighttime and very creepy. I am near a metal structure of some kind, with bare trees scattered across the landscape, and dead leaves covering the ground. It feels like Halloween. Wes from Wong Fu Productions is standing under the metal structure and walks towards me. I know him in the dream, and we talk like we are friends. He gives off a bit of a creepy feeling though, I think to myself, and I don't feel interested in him romantically although attracted by his appearance. We walk downward toward and then around the side of the school.

Then we are in cottage country or something, walking down a white rock or pebble path. The light looks like the sun is setting to the left of us. On the left there is an ocean or a lake, and a path leading to a deck that belongs to my property. We walk down there, get to the deck and watch the orange sun on the ocean water. The trees around us are mostly coniferous, and the environment is warm and comfortable. Then we smell smoke or fire and hear an alarm. At first we ignore it, but then it goes louder. The cottage/beach house next to us has a fire! We see some smoke rising from the house, and a bit of the fire. We talk about something. and then I think I might've gone into that house, but I might just be confusing it with a memory from another dream. Too foggy to tell. I also have a vague and foggy memory of going swimming in these sun setting waters.

I am at school, in the main lobby, sitting with many other people around that I recognize as being glee auditions, and Sarah, and other people. We are awaiting the results of who got into glee club. There is a school television standing in front of us. We are facing the wall that the doors are on, but are not at the doors, we are sitting in the open between the hallway and the lobby. The television starts playing. My nervous trying-to-calm-down breathing is showcased at the beginning for humour. I am embarrassed, and people laugh. Then it is showing every audition or every person. I don't recall the result of whether I got in or not, but I think I did.

Then the locker scene comes back on I think.

Then I am waiting at a bus stop to get home. I talk with Barbara, and we walk down the sloped sidewalk. We cross some train tracks, and then I see my bus going by. I run to catch up with it, but my finger gets trapped in the train tracks, and so does my foot, and I don't even notice the sounds of the train coming in. Every one is screaming for me to get outta there. I panic, try to get out, but then accept it and the train runs over my index finger and my other arm or some limb I can't pinpoint. I don't feel much pain, and I think, that wasn't so bad. But I realize it was probably the suddenness of the even that caused me to not notice the pain. I keep walking up, in shock. Every one is staring in shock. There there is a fire starting. There's fire everywhere around me, and I feel the fire scorching my body, again not as painful as I expected.

After the fire subsides, I manage to still be alive. There doesn't seem to be anyone around me. I keep walking, the bus is gone. Suddenly I find out I have super powers, and I think it is from the train track and the fire that I have these powers. I find myself at a great height above the ground, and as I fall, I am able to slow down the impact and land safely and awesomely with circular fire beams around my feet and hands, which then leave a mark on the grass. I play around with this. Wes is there, and I tell him of this awesome power I now have. He tells me it's probably from the fire etc. I agree. Then things turn into a journey again, like the part in the beginning with final fantasy 1. However, in this part I see Giotto from Reborn, Tsuna - who in the dream is called 'Sanada' - a name that in waking life I wouldn't be able to recall, but interestingly enough, in the dream, I did. - and when I hear someone call him Sanada, then he turns into Tsuna and I remember who he is. We continue our journey. We are on a ridge or something, I can't describe it very well, but it's the type of place that you would find in a grassy setting in a final fantasy game, but with extra flowers around to decorate and beautify the landscape. There is some sort of conflict, and we are arguing over a mistake one of us (I think it was me) made in a battle previously. Some other stuff happens that I can't pinpoint on what it was, and then I wake up.

Then I go back to sleep, and I dream of being in the living room of my house. There is a black toilet beside Jerry cage. I suddenly need to poo, and I think it is probably alright to use this toilet so I do. Then I have worries over if it is even connected to the plumbing system. Afterwards, I find out that this toilet is going to be given to a family friend of my mom's, Iva. I panic, and try to excuse myself and reason with my mom. She seems to understand, or is just being passive, and ends up having to clean out the toilet... Then I am upstairs, avoiding any confrontation, and I hear my brother talking to my mom about it, and I feel embarrassed, but I ignore them talking. Then I go back downstairs when my brother leaves, and ask my mom about something whatever and more foggy stuff happens, and then I wake up for the last time.

Like I said, the order that these are in might not even be correct, parts were repeated and reorganized, re experienced each time I WBTB, maybe there were even more parts that I am missing, but this is the jist of it I guess.

These dreams were extremely vivid this time. I was really amazed by how vivid. I remembered every single detail of the dreams right when I woke up, but gradually forgot most detail until writing some key notes.

This vividness perhaps has to do with getting very close to successfully WILDing at bedtime before the dreams. My heart started beating really fast when I was this close, and I couldn't calm it down, so I decided to stop and ask at the forums the next day and went to sleep naturally, and TA-DA! Super vivid dreams, much more than I've had in a long while.

It kinda sucks that I happened to fall asleep in the middle of the night in a not as good as super happy mood because that would've been really great, being that these dreams were super vivid. But no, both or all of them were kind of that awkward helpless and self-conscious doing stupid things feeling I sometimes get in social situations when I'm not feeling super happy and confident like I want to.

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I am in Art Class with Mr. Gamble in the print-making room (not in the room where you paint and print and apply acid, but the other room where you draw mostly). The room is full of students, some of them are standing up, some are sitting down, some are sitting down on impractical objects. I am sitting down on the table near the center, but slightly close to the rack in the corner of the room. I am swinging my legs around, minding my own business, doing nothing, just sitting there and observing or daydreaming a little bit. Lauren, Liz, and Bruce are nowhere to be found thank goodness for me in my waking reality looking back.

Mr. Gamble asks me about something, an assignment that I need to get done, this part of the dream probably associated with my anxiety IWL about completing the pop-up art. I apologize to him and say I'll get it in for sure on time. I begged god not to let him over-talk like usual. Thankfully, after asking me about that thing he walks away. I think he tells something to the class but I wasn't listening. Then I think he walks out the door.

Ms. Taylor is now in the classroom. Then I watch my brother come into the classroom. He has some friends waiting outside the door, the same and more friends as in the dream I had the previous night. He asks Ms. Taylor is he could go out to the food places down the street, as if Ms. Taylor was our mom. I don't question this at all. All I could think about at this point is coming with him. Ms. Taylor says "Yeah, go ahead." I say I will go with them. Then Josef leaves out the door not even noticing me there. I am hesitant to follow them now because it would be weird. Ms. Taylor says "well, go?." I feel rushed and embarrassed, and angry at Ms. Taylor for being angry at me. I run out the door to the hallway and I look down the hall towards staircase A. I see my brother walking back and from a distance, holding a pizza form or box or something, he tells Ms. Taylor that there's a group pizza thing and asks if he could buy it for him and his friends. She says yes, and he starts running back towards staircase A, into the distance. I wasn't able to ask him if I could go with him, and for that I feel frustrated and bad. He didn't notice me standing there speechless and waiting to speak at all! It's like I wasn't even there the whole time! Well I don't think that, I'm really just having vague 'forever alone' thoughts and feelings come to me. I impulsively follow him. Everyone is wearing light winter coats. It is snowing very lightly, and there is snow about a foot and a half deep on the other side of the drive in road of the school on the side toward the park, while the snow in the main grass area in the middle is also either about a foot deep, deeper, or lightly buried that you can see some grass. As I am walking toward my brother leaving the school and starting up to the middle area, I am playing with my cellphone, and it makes a loud noise that I don't even recall now from reading my notes. Then I am playing with some kind of thin chord from my cellphone that could be a part of a headphone. I trip and fall into the snow as I cross the drive in road toward the park, and hide in the snow, for the first time noticing and watching my brother play snowball fight. I then notice that the sliding part of the cellphone and the thin chord has submersed into ice cold snow, and am worried that it will break. I somehow check if it still works. Then I continue watching my brother. I feel left out, and want to reach out to him but he is so far away, and if I did, it would be awkward and embarrassing.

Then I wake up.

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This next dream I only clearly remember the part with Liz eating a butterfly. The rest is a very foggy memory of being on a bus with some awkward moments among friends that I blame on myself.

I'm not sure if we were also on a bus at this part or not, but it appeared to be a dark, small or hidden, location. I am there with Lauren and Liz. Liz is sitting on a bench or some higher seat above me and Lauren, and Lauren and I are looking slightly up at her. I don't see Lauren face very often in this fragment. Both of our eyes are focused on just Liz. I actually remembered completely clearly every single word and a phrase that stood out, that Liz said to us, and our responses. We are talking about butterflies for some reason. Liz says she hates butterflies, and starts eating one. We see her eating one, but it's like a thought form imagination that we each share or something, because none of us think she is actually eating a butterfly. The butterfly looked a little foggy as well. Then, to tease us even more, Liz uses a Harry Potter wand she had laid out beside her and casts and quick spell to manifest a real butterfly. It was a very large butterfly - noticing after waking up from the dream - but none of us questioned the size, we all knew it was real. She slowly starts eating the butterfly, tearing off the wing material from it's stems, one area by one. My and Laurens' reactions to this include super sad partially fake crying, yelling, "NO!!"'s, "STOP IT"'s, and EWW's. I am feeling very sad seeing this happen. In the end, she tore off 3 sections of the left wing. We were all so sad. The butterfly was very beautiful and very still while this was going on. It looked like a monarch, but was blue.

Observation: I seem to unknowingly control the situation in the dream by having hopes about something and worries about something. Ie: With Mr. Gamble, he rarely ever stop talking in real life, but in this dream I really wanted him to not talk so much as he does, and somehow felt like I had a bit of control over this by commanding it in my mind, and it worked! Maybe if I learn to notice these control coincidences and increased law of attraction in dreams, I will be able to recognize I can control things much more easily and thus have a lucid dream.