side notes

Ok so because I attempted to do wilds last night or actually it wasnt my real intentions but it ended up happening anyways I was unable to dream very well. Im not mad though, because tonight I realized I am now remembering my dreams starting from the very first Rem cycle. Their Fragments right now but hey, its progress.

Ok so I first had a fragment of me walking down one of the isles in my office building and realizing the company was shut down. I was extremely sad because I was afraid this was going to happen and now I wont be able to save up as much as I could.

Had another Fragment, slightly longer of me in my bed during the midday with my brother sleeping on the bed beside me. I had received a call from my friend Dasean earlier to hang out but I didnt want to. I dont remember this happening but I just had a recollection of it in my dream itself. To my surprise when I slowly got out of bed, I heard someone knocking on my window. I knew who it was going to be and of course it was Dasean. When I looked through the blinds and saw him, he said he needed to talk to me but when he told me that, I heard my mom walking down the hall. I raised my finger to indicate to give me a min. When I saw my mom walk by, I moved the blinds and opened the window a bit. I asked whats up but then I heard my mom again so I quickly closed the window and blinds. My mom came in kind of suspicious but didnt notice anything. She asked me something I can no longer remember and she left. When I opened the window again, Dasean was on the wall to left waiting and again when he was going to ask me something my mom came in all of a sudden. I instinctly closed the blinds and she asked what I was doing. I said I wanted to look outside and she believed me. When she closed my door, my dream ended.

Had one more first Rem dream even longer then the last, of some friends I dont really know and I, driving in my car to somewhere. I know that we were getting ready to go smoke because one of the girls had a bunch of joints and blunts rolled up. My dream was a little all over the place because next thing I know one of the kids im with is injured and we needed to take him to a doctor. While driving we saw a firestation and thought we could just bring him to them and they should be able to heal him. I pulled into the station and while walking with the injured kid we placed him on a platform under a pavilion type roof just outside the station. I told some of the people I was with to go in and get help so they did. While waiting one of the girls decided to light a Jay and I quickly stopped her and told her that first of all, she didnt double wrap it so itll burn quickly and second of all we should wait till the firemen take care of the injured person. She understood and gave it to me to put it out. My dream switches me to a pool right below the platform because I assumed the firemen were going to take a while and while chilling in the pool one of the girls I think asked to have sex with me but I denied. Then some guy got mad for whatever reason and threw one of the fat blunts in the pool. I quickly picked it up and threw it out in hopes of drying it but i knew it was ruined. At one point in the pool, I looked up at the stars and could see all the constellations regardless of it still being bright out. I saw an alignment of stars that I knew for some reason would come together on December 21, 2012 (When the mayan calender ends) and on that day something wonderful would happen. Woke up somewhere around there.

After waking up from the last dream, I stood awake for about half an hour to meditate and get a drink. After meditating, I tryd to go to sleep but just couldnt for some reason no matter how clear my mind was. I was getting frustrated because I knew it was because I drank fucking Soda before bed! (Sorry for language)

After about half an hour of no sleep, I turned over to my most comfortable position. After a few more minutes I began to see a beautiful woman laying on her back in bed almost as if she was right next to me. I knew she had just got done having sex with a man and she wanted him to stay with her longer but I thought to myself almost as if like I was communicating with her "He's not going to stay, now that you gave him what he wanted". She seemed upset to hear this or realize this and when he leaned in to kiss her I saw his face. He had short blond hair and was pretty good looking. After the kiss he said he had to go and she left her alone, more disappointed in herself then sad. While this whole things played out, I felt my body begin to vibrate tremendously and I heard that whooshing sound again get louder and louder the more clearer the vision played out. When I began to realize what was happening and knowing i was entering SP and a possible dream, I woke or interrupted the process again. My entire body was literally burning up, I was sweating profusely from what im assuming is the vibrations.

It took me a while to fall asleep again with little time to actually dream fully again because of work. I managed to get a short dream of my friend Nicole sending me txt messages of her naked. The first text said "Enjoy " and the rest were pics of her in different positions.

I wish to ask you guys a question if you can answer in the comments. How do I remain calm and relaxed when I realize im going through SP?? its really hard to mantain a calm mind once i know whats happening and one more thing. Does your body begin to burn up in heat as well through the process?

I had multiple dreams again but I didnt sleep very comfortably meaning i kept waking up. So my dreams are hard to remember, on the other hand, i had something weird happen to me that i havent had since I was a kid.I highlighted it just in case you guys dont want to read the unimportant stuff.

First Dream I remember I found myself outside in a park or a neighborhood? All i can recall is seeing a sidewalk and some trees the rest seemed to be fogged out. This guy comes out of a Cabin looking house and tells me to follow inside. I find myself inside being scanned by a machine and when done he shows me my face and says "You have multiple tumors, one on the eye, the mouth, and the nose." The screen showed some built up 'junk' that i guess would resemble tumors but even my dream self knew this guy was full of shit. Soon after showing me, I began to sneeze some snot out of my nose in a sink and cough out some flem from my throat. I was thinking omg this guy was right, when all of a sudden a sexy blonde girl comes in with a pistol ready, sees me doing that and says "Eww thats disgusting!" She proceeds to come near me but her target is the guy. She bends him over the tub thats there and shoots him in the back like an execution. I didnt care. Woke up soon after.

Another dream was of me driving to mike and kristins house because they invited me over to try and win back my friendship (Were no longer friends due to them being bad friends in general) I remember having to go through some gates to find the place and once i parked. I didnt want to go inside because i knew it was a bad idea in the first place. The entire dream it was pouring down rain and it was a good excuse not to go inside. Some friends who were in there with them came running out and got in my car. It was ryan who i havent seen since highschool and Victor whos in P.R. right now. Ryan was saying something but i wasnt paying attention. I noticed him and said "Sorry man, how have you been its been too long" he replied with "Its been good man" I asked "Hows life?" and he stated "Its whatever, have some problems but who doesnt" I told him that "Yeah, I guess life is the same for everyone but just experiances in a different way". I decided to drive around in the rain to listen to my system but it wouldnt work sometimes. IRL Im having some technical problems. I woke up when we parked again.

This dream was the shortest but for a good reason. I found myself in a movie theater walking around to find a good seat. I sat down in a chair next to a girl who im pretty sure said something to me but i dont remember what. She was two seats next to me and on my right were no more chairs. Suddenly from behind me I feel a womans hand with semi long nails grab the back of my head and slowly move her nails through my hair. The dream was not very vivid nor clear but this hand felt so real I woke up in a jumpy way. As im typing this i can still feel what the hand felt like and i just know that it wasnt part of my dream rather either a spirit touching me while i sleep or a psychic trying to reach out to me. I also knew that whatever or whoever touched me was not malicious because i didnt feel scared nor any bad energy from it.

I had a few more dreams but dont deem them too significant to type. Id like to make note that this has actually happened to my mom a lot but for her its more stronger. She would feel someone lay in bed next to her while she was dreaming and sometimes something would lay their hands on her. Its happened when i was a little kid as well but I guess now its because ive been meditating and increasing my vibrations.