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i had woken up at like half six and went to get a drink and stuff even caught up on some soaps I hadn't finished watching the night before. But one thing that was going through my mind was I couldn't for thee life of me, recall anything dream wise.

I am so exausted at the moment so I just shut off my phone and went back to sleep with the thought of how I need to start recalling my dreams and boom.i have a lucid.

I was at this holiday place with animals everywhere. I met a lady who worked there and told me I was welcome to work here because I was so good at working With animals. But as I was talking to this young lady I looked to the floor and when I looked back she was a middle aged old woman.

I was like i m not passing this oppotunity up so I shouted in her face IM DREAMING and then ran of demanding clarity. Obviously the first thing I wanted to do was talk to the guy I like so I shouted that I wanted to see him and sure enough he appears.

But I have this problem in dreams where once I know I'm dreaming my eyes refuse to stay open but I just kept repeating I CAN DO THIS and demanding clarity and it just about worked. But when I found the guy he was at a sleep over thing. I layer next to him and he told me we can't keep this secret any longer (what secret I don't know) he went to sleep and I closed my eyes next to him.

When I opened them I was back in my bed room. And I immediately picked up my tablet to write it down, I was like false awakening? No. i can read.


The eye thing happened in my last lucid too except I couldn't control it. So I guess baby steps and yayayayay I had a lucid. And I'm glad because my motivation was begging to frail.

HAYYYY.

I kinda went away for a while then a lot of... stuff went down... But whateves. I'm here now.

SO on the dream side of everything... I'm kinda sucking right now.

I wake up and I'm like okay what dreams did I have and I'll lay there till I remember but for like a week now my brain is just...

"No. I'm not going to tell you what you dreamt."

Literally.

I have this distant almost screenshot of the dream in my head, like you know when you try to remember a word and it's on the tip of your tongue but you just can't... reach it? It's like that but with a dream memory.

So..

yeah.

I'm sleeping rubbish though, and I mean RUBBISH. midnight to 2am... 3 to 4am... 6 to 10am, you get it. But it's touch and go.

I tend to listen to music when I can't sleep and it calms me but prevents me from actually going to sleep yet when I don't listen to it, I'm tense and can't sleep.

Ooh!

I just recalled something just because I was remembering the last dream I could recall...

I was leaving sainsburys with my weekly shopping and this lady comes up to me and asks me to take care of her baby for the day while she has a rest or something. So I do and when I come back she's still there. Me and the baby have a hard time paring because we had gotten really close.

Okay.

More sleep for tonight I guesssss...