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HAYYYY.

I kinda went away for a while then a lot of... stuff went down... But whateves. I'm here now.

SO on the dream side of everything... I'm kinda sucking right now.

I wake up and I'm like okay what dreams did I have and I'll lay there till I remember but for like a week now my brain is just...

"No. I'm not going to tell you what you dreamt."

Literally.

I have this distant almost screenshot of the dream in my head, like you know when you try to remember a word and it's on the tip of your tongue but you just can't... reach it? It's like that but with a dream memory.

So..

yeah.

I'm sleeping rubbish though, and I mean RUBBISH. midnight to 2am... 3 to 4am... 6 to 10am, you get it. But it's touch and go.

I tend to listen to music when I can't sleep and it calms me but prevents me from actually going to sleep yet when I don't listen to it, I'm tense and can't sleep.

Ooh!

I just recalled something just because I was remembering the last dream I could recall...

I was leaving sainsburys with my weekly shopping and this lady comes up to me and asks me to take care of her baby for the day while she has a rest or something. So I do and when I come back she's still there. Me and the baby have a hard time paring because we had gotten really close.

Okay.

More sleep for tonight I guesssss...

when I first woke up I recalled my dreams but as I became completely awake they left me in an instant. I was running late for my commitments as it was, so I didn't have a chance to attempt to remember them.

Gonna try harder tomorrow. At the moment I feel my Dream Recall is terrible, although it used to be great, and that if I did have a Lucid dream... I wouldn't remember it.

Actually now that I think of it, I have a very tiny dream fragment of being in some kind of hunger game.

The thing I don't understand about this dream is I'm not really afraid of anything in real life and this is the first scary dream i have had in ages.
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I was cycling down this road with my best friend and then we suddenly arrived in this like 10 storey car parking lot and we
cycled to the top and PARKED our bikes. My friend goes and pays for the tickets and I wait for her to return.

She doesn't. Instead I am now all alone at the top of a very tall dark car parking building, so after looking around for my friend, I try to find my way out. But I cannot find a way down even though I managed to get up here. The I see this car cleaning group but they are far away and I vaguely hear them say they will take their break now. I call out but they don't hear me. One guy doesn't go to break.

I finally manage to get to him, a tall, broad middle aged guy... with no hair. I stutter and ask If he can help me back down and out.

He just looks around hastily and then without talking walks closer to me. I get the sense something is wrong and begin to run. He has a scary look on his face. I run as fast as I can but he is faster so I grab my phone out of my pocket and PRETEND to call my mom. (I remember thinking my phone had a really complex password so I thought he wouldn't know the difference between a real or fake call)

I cry down the line, now trapped in a corner of the building with the guy closing in. I say to the empty line how a guy is trying to kidnap me and when the guy notices i'm on my phone he backs down a little. I suddenly accidentally drop my phone and he sees it isn't even on and lunges for me.

I scream to high heaven and realise I am running again glad he doesn't have me yet. Then I notice these two security guards and I run like a mad person to get help. I quickly ask one to help but he says how there is a problem, he turns into a cat unpredictably. I ask the other security guard to help but he doesn't move at all. I grab the hand of the first security guard and run to my bike. He pedals and I sit behind, holding on so I don't fall.

He tells me his name is Dave Endurability and I randomly write it down on a coffee cup I am suddenly holding. (It works too. People are always saying how reading and writing is impossible in dreams but I wrote it down, in very messy handwriting, but it was still readable.)

He drops me off where my friend suddenly is, by the side of the road, and then I have a go at my friend but then realise I still have Dave there. I turn to thank him but he is gone.

I spend the rest of the dream trying to find him but all I find... Is a cat. (I forgot what he told me in the dream so I just had the TALKING CAT help me to find him.)
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So something that is really getting on my nerves is these weird, NON REALISTIC things are happening and I act like they are totally normal. But yeah. LOTS of room for improvement.

Woke up after like three epic dreams and FORGOT I HAD BEEN DREAMING and went to get a drink. I lost all of my dreams and the only thing I remember was part of the third dream where I was in some massive punch up.