lucid

i had woken up at like half six and went to get a drink and stuff even caught up on some soaps I hadn't finished watching the night before. But one thing that was going through my mind was I couldn't for thee life of me, recall anything dream wise.

I am so exausted at the moment so I just shut off my phone and went back to sleep with the thought of how I need to start recalling my dreams and boom.i have a lucid.

I was at this holiday place with animals everywhere. I met a lady who worked there and told me I was welcome to work here because I was so good at working With animals. But as I was talking to this young lady I looked to the floor and when I looked back she was a middle aged old woman.

I was like i m not passing this oppotunity up so I shouted in her face IM DREAMING and then ran of demanding clarity. Obviously the first thing I wanted to do was talk to the guy I like so I shouted that I wanted to see him and sure enough he appears.

But I have this problem in dreams where once I know I'm dreaming my eyes refuse to stay open but I just kept repeating I CAN DO THIS and demanding clarity and it just about worked. But when I found the guy he was at a sleep over thing. I layer next to him and he told me we can't keep this secret any longer (what secret I don't know) he went to sleep and I closed my eyes next to him.

When I opened them I was back in my bed room. And I immediately picked up my tablet to write it down, I was like false awakening? No. i can read.


The eye thing happened in my last lucid too except I couldn't control it. So I guess baby steps and yayayayay I had a lucid. And I'm glad because my motivation was begging to frail.

(Been having absolutely rubbish luck with lucid EVERYTHING recently, I think I had been trying TOO hard. But I posted on the forums and got some advice. The one that worked best was taking some time off lucid and dream recall all together. Just a few days after that I started remembering my dreams unwillingly and they would linger in my mind hours later. Then last night I HAD A LUCID. Pretty excited to get back into lucid stuff again but this time i'm going to be way more chill.)

*Dream is kinda personal so I'm just gonna post the end. I believe I wasn't lucid most of the first half of the dream so when I did a nose plug my time was limited. It lasted just minutes I reckon.*

I go into the car park and head to the car, (I am scarily aware that I am dreaming that I don't need to clarify or demand clarity) but suddenly, like the end of a movie or cartoon my vision suddenly shrinks in a circle fashion until I can't see anything. I manage to open my eyes but they felt tired and I could NOT keep them open. The brief flashes I got of where I was not in the car park, but in my room. I was standing by my chest of drawers and for some stupid reason my dream self thought that meant the end of the lucid dream. I flash between the carpark and my room until I am in the car park again, struggling to keep my eyes open. I demand clarity but It doesn't work and I lose lucidity and the dream ends.

So if anyone has any advice on why I couldn't control the dream despite my efforts, please do tell me. This is my first lucid since an RC in February this year. I'll be honest I really haven't been trying but I'm going to do a FILD later this week and The last time I did it I believe it worked so... yeah. I keep losing the motivation even though I love it.

Okay I'm going to stop now..