just chillin till I LD

I was rushing down the stairs to the high school cafeteria before the janitor locked the door. I knew what we were getting ready for , but I didn't say anything when my brother comes in with a list of people he'd already shot. I didn't know anyone on the list(3 people) but I wanted to quit right there. I got sick, then thought it was probably just a movie, but I didn't want to interact until I knew 100 percent. I got my things then ran to the field where a gay teacher was instructing the others (he was a part of the killers) I pretended to be a part of them and he called out everyone and hesitated on my name. "Vince!" "See you're good at this. You should be able to join." I found my way out but got lost. I dialed my pops and he told me I had to get back to the school. I saw my friend's mom (who I haven't met in RL) and she didn't believe I got lost. I just asked are you...Mom? Yes. She was quick to help, until she accused me of truancy. My brother was at the mall and he took his time leaving .

Its been so long
I guess the most important parts are my lucid dreams
i had two . one was barely lucid the other i was partly again but i had a false awakening. the third Oh yea i had 3 i had sex somewhat LOL
yeah

These past couple of nights I have had dreams with depressing themes:
Death
Crime
Violence
Rape

Dream sign would have to be dead dogs... and a nearby town (the location of murders in my dreams)
I think I had a couple false awakenings, where I recount my dream and then wake up later without anything written in my dj

• syd offered me chocolare i offered her a club
• brother was a member of my school, in there more than a year
• beat my brother for having my ipod taken
• was on the bridge with syd
• tarantula in room
• i asked myself if i was dreaming, i was
• got distracted by people arrested outside
• brought a gun didnt shoot
• chocolate was in shape of heart and delicious
• c'est tout

non-lucid nap. in library with class kept asking lenning for instructions. saw my favorite teach and her husband .

Last night I had two lucids- which I'll elaborate on after I explain how i induced them (requested)
Induction technique, before I'm fully lucid, there's a moment when I know I am dreaming, but I want to wake up...The best way to explain this is a nightmare, If you wake up before the "worst" part , then you have the same moments. Anyway, I get these but before I open my eyes I imagine a roller coaster. Once I feel comfortable, I open my eyes and that's where I am After that , it clicks. I am in a dream, anything else I imagine I do it with the same method. Close eyes, imagine, open them, start engine.
FOR THE ACTUAL LUCID DREAM
I used the above technique but I kept viewing boxes instead of the full picture, I tried again and the next time was a success. I ended up an apartment where I examined the walls some dudes baldness and tested my senses. I tasted a piece of chocolate which was the best. But let me tell you about perception, it's the worst part because if you have a preconcieved notion than you don't get an authentic experience. you get expectations. For example the smell, I had no idea what it was like I saw someone with a gas tank. So my dream environment smelled like gas. The chocolate tasted good ( I read on here the best food is within a dream) I examined little things...they were little.

The rubbing your hands method...
I do this a lot but the problem is I never realize I'm fading out of lucidity. The method assumes your dream is fading, instead of your consiousness.
With the latter problem, I stop long conversations. The problem with long conversations is I get trapped in a fixation like finding an answer to a problem, or question. Before I realize it , I become less aware that I am dreaming. I always remind myself to keep dreaming. Don't chase after answers, let them come to you.

MR.lenning asked about my weekend said basic made up stuff. Like i went to church really late, talked to random person and rode my bike. he said was that all necessary? no? then told me to see how many other people sleep with there m. I read a girl's paper he wrote forgiven. And I read a part it had a "w/" as with. I thought how weird... then bre was talking to me i think she said to add her

I recalled my LD last night, but I can't remember how I came to awareness. I tried the nose-plug and it worked . I was in shock, but not as excited this time, because I became aware the night before and then forgot the whole dream. Last night was a similar situation, except I remember more than becoming aware. After the nose plug worked, I made the same mistake as last time- chasing an ex gf of mine. I got her to show up, but I couldn't kiss her. I tried flying instead. Someone said I couldn't do it, so it gave me the motivation to prove him wrong. I was flying by applying the freestyle technique for swimming to the air. It didn't last too long next thing I know I'm getting told I'm going to be late, but I know that my brother is lying because the clocks read different times. My iPod said 509 or something weird...I then remembered how I should explore more in the dreamworld than my fantasies. I tried to meet with my subconscious, but couldn't find "it" to save my dream. I woke up recalling fragments of this lucid dream and a vivid non lucid.
Overall, in my next lucid I will try to wake up after I meet my conscious so I can remember it.

Not anywhere near the real thing. I won't get into dem details.

i've had many vivid dreams the past couple of nights with 3-4
Tonight I had dreams, but I can't remember them in chronological order so I will just record how I remembered them.
One dream my top and bottom teeth were crooked and had to get braces .
Another I saw my dean's sheets and passes on the street.
The last I was with Luke and we were planning on making an escape but I said he would drown me and he laughed and agreed.
I remembered later on I also dreamt of seeing J and her bf in the store. She was getting undressed and something slipped she smiled blushing and I didn't catch it but my dream rewinded the scene...I was in the mall holding a cute baby when the head falls off and it's a doll's head. I put the head back on and continue to hold it and percieve it as a real baby. I was getting undress and I stated turn around dude . I was too sexy. Another guy was talking about his sex drive and his inability to not want to rape things...a friend of mine said immature dude. he kept repeating that.

sitting at bench asking all them questions lol to Luke on is it because i'm ugly hell na. just replied i was normal walking from school. we saw cheerleaders walkin past . then they went back to where they originally came from.

took a nap today and had terrible recall, but I'll rewrite the notes I took. I was walking to class when I saw Dane. Walked past and entered the class. I was taking etymology then I left without notice to say hi to dane. btw, as I was in the class i heard D say hi to S.E. That's what made me go out there. I was talking about my birthday and D did not believe I was so old. I had a "wtf" moment because I was younger than the kids of my grade. Anyway, there was an after school bookclub which I went to and pretended I knew what my professor was talking about. I Facebooked him and found out he was an actor in a short film on youtube. Then I stole a lolipop from John and then I went in the store w/ him to get more. and took 2 but then didn't have the money for them...I left with both in my mouth. I was taking all the chocolate oreos. There were some with yellow frosting so I put them back and ate the rest. The club was cancelled.

i rejoined a class and kept getting called on. a different teacher was in it and they said a test was goiing to be today i was like wtf ;( kid had her painting in gym i was saying how great it looked and the teacher came over and said i need to see who did this . i was pointing at kid and she walked away then i said kid vocally. she said no and i asked myself why am i so gullible? then i found a young girl who was talking about bdays and i asked when it was the 9th. i asked if today was the 9th than i kept speaking to her in french. while my teacher translate "bon aniversaire!". we sang the song and i asked quel age a tu she replied i forget how old .then i rode my bike to my desk.

zaria thre fit at dean said i needed to see her why i was standing up counseler stood closer to fuentes and cntinued talking with boy zaria hit fuentes but she was nice about it. mom won lottery we told ellen but bot how much she interview portia who was in the same movie first mom said oh ses interviewing her wife? we webt shopping and at gmas tickled tony but tony lost weight on lwgs especially pointed it out. then we webt to get lottery money and it didnt work cuz 711 jipped us with pretzel. i was in french arguing with L stood up by hannah but teacher asked y i said bc french hasnt started then we played honeles top items i sat out coach said strt i played 2nd round and person hanging things on fence they sai vinny and i got electricyted grandma tellin me te youngest one is alwayz more important cuz theyre like a bby while tony was home

Today's recall featured the harmonious symphony of my piano keys. I was playing them at 3 a.m. in the dark to my sleeping roomate. Lmfao! And then I went into a different room because I suddenly became concerned with his ability to sleep. I came back and he was like can you turn and down? I had a waha moment and was like dude ! i didn't turn on the t.v. i "woke up" at 4 a.m. The beauty of it is even though I wasn't lucid I could tell I was closer to awareness because of my surrounding
yeeea.
tonight i will lucid !