Crusader's Journal

Spring 2013

Dreamed that I see a beautiful girl on the beach. And in next moment I'm flying out of my body to her, she was an image before, it was a clear sense - separation of the astral body.

Fully lucid here, fly up to her and kiss, feel I kiss an animal, but rather why the otter, even was quiet growl or something, and she begins to disappear, and disappeared into thin air.

Look around, I was on the beach, near the river flows, about 100m wide, fast flowing and dark deep water. Looked away toward of river, see a beautiful sky, clouds tinged with pink, like the dawn, get inspiration from it. Looked at my hands, they are almost like in real life, only lines more clearly expressed. Sat down, touch the sand, feeling soft not quite same as in physical, took a handful, he pours through fingers. Look again at sky and river, and I could not resist so wanted to swim, jumped into it, but it seems I was not ready and caught awakening. The last thing I saw a man floating down the river with a very high speed.

(Here I'll say shortly about my practice of that time. I start to practice exercise of retrospection from "The Rosicrucian Cosmo-Conception" by Max Heindel in december 2012, and I do it everyday for about two years, to january 2015. This retrospection in my opinion is best practice to start lucid dreaming. In fact it is repentance. The concentration, second exercise, is the mantra, I do it from time to time, as it is written in text of exercises at the end of the book. You can find and read.)

Consciousness comes in some industrial premises, all is dark around me. I am on the stairs, it is iron, and suddenly heard a voice: "Rise Up" and I ran upstairs, ran a few flights of stairs, but do not remember where it rose higher.

Realize that a dream in the traditional Chinese temple. Sing children's choir, children in a beautiful traditional dress, but I do not remember singing, I remember that play music like a rock opera. With pleasure I ran around the temple, jumped on its roof, and ran on it. Me looked at the sky, the sky white light, bright light source, and I with all forces flew to him, but could not fly into it, I was kicked out with a feeling similar to like Neo in The Matrix when he took a pill, a strong vibration and woke.

It was the second attempt to fly into the light, in another dream and day. I realize there during the flight, the light was right, he was a blue-white and waves around the edges, but just awoke while attempting to fly into it.

...Met a small dwarf, he was like a pig from the movie only brown or gray, his nose like a pig. He invited me to his home, I went, it was a small, windowless and entirely without objects inside, the walls are bare, only one door. We talked with him, remember I asked: "You are live here in a small empty room?" he said, "so yes i live"...

Realize myself at dream in the night city. Around me many moving people, one guy looked at me with some sort of surprise. I remembered that I wanted to fly into space, quickly take off, rose to the sky for a few seconds, was in some tight dark space... woke.

Hello everyone! I'm from Russia, and want to share my experience of lucid dreaming on English. It will hard to me, with this special theme, because my English is not good, but I want to try, and Google translator helps me. Sorry for mistakes.

I started practicing from the beginning of 2013, but had some experiences from early childhood. I had blog in the Russian Internet (and still have from 2015, since 2013 is now closed as a personal, but experiences are written in it) and I will translate the best experience out of it, and add new ones.

So I go with first lucid dream from my old journal.

January 2013, I read "Clairvoyance" by C. W. Leadbeater and at night I had a first lucid dream after understanding this phenomenon:

Dreaming that I'm going on the road in two quarters from the house where I live, and find myself on the market which is not in the real world, and in this moment awareness comes to me.

The first time I drew attention to my body in a dream and felt it, my movements slowed down and I pulled hands forward, I swayed. I was approached by a man who traded in the market and he said, "I'll help you". He put me beside his shop. Traded in it green cabbage. With him was a woman, probably his wife. I said to him something like "you are trading cabbage?" and laughed that cabbage traded in a lucid dream, I thought it was funny by inexperienced. What more I do not remember exactly, but it was awake or I lost awareness.