Crusader's Journal

Sleep paralysis from dream by a teleportation. I had a dream in which I go to a some place, I needed to ask a permission, but I went there without it. On the walls were laser sensors, that have marked me. I knew that soon I will be found and was so ashamed. This place has no other exit but to go back, so I decided to teleport out of there, no matter where, closed my eyes and wished to teleport, and I appear in my body.
I understand that I was lying in sleep paralysis, lucid comes, no phantom sensations, no vibration. I decide to stabilize by rubbing hands, started rub them, which I haven't seen, but was a some vision, instantly felt the touch, sensation was unpleasant, rubbed them 10 seconds and felt that I get a stabilize. Has decided to move away as possible from the body, and I crawled on hands and knees, the vision was gone (simply get up out of body at then time for some reason I could not), I got down of bed to the floor, crawled to the window and at this point drew attention to awareness, it was almost like in real life. Further happened that I came out the window, as I climbed through the window or wall, and only after a vision appeared. I'm hovered in the air outside the window. I look into the yard, he is not such as in the real life, only grass beautiful soft green color and light mist over it, I say to myself "Astral Oh My God!" and awake! Apparently lost control of delight. Just wake up without sleep paralysis as if he was not. Fall asleep.

And had a long lucid, with ~50 percent of lucidity, but my mind was worked clear. When wake up I forgot many, write episodes.
Dreamed images of people and a lot of things, moving picture in black-white, place like a shopping mall. I was a immaterial observer, and I decided to imagine myself there to enter inside, I imagine that I'm moving there in the body, trying to move quickly to realize, as a result I appear inside with lucidity. It was the first place and I can't remember nothing of here.
Then I remember another place in huge lobby of some cultural facility, very nice, all in stone. Here were guy and girl with me, we are talking of something. At this place was an unusual sculpture, and this guy jumped on it soaring, did a beautiful flip, and landed skillfully on top of the sculpture. They said me to show something like that. I started trying to fly smoothly, began to wave my hands, and with spurts flew on the sculpture. I was told that it was so-so. After that I stayed with girl, she led me to another place, it seems we moved flying, holding hands.
The cave, light, white sand and underground river. There meeting, a lot of people, and the chief speaks, but I do not remember any of it, I was engaged in other observations are not particularly listening, keeping understanding that this is my lucid dream. Guide girl was still here. Remember I drew attention to the quality of dream, in this place picture become worse, appear dimness, unrealistic, gaps in perception. I restored the quality by concentration, peering, and touching sand on the ground, sensations as in real life. I saw the laptop and there is a message, I read, it was not the words, but sets of letters and meaning I could not understand, then I turned away and looked at message two more times and each time the order of the letters changed. I saw cookies and eat one, it seems tasty.
In the cave wall was a passage, I go into it with a man. We come in the some hall, in the twilight, on the floor a very beautiful golden carpet. And why we have started the fight on the carpet, as if sparring, without anger. He defeated me, hit me in the belly so that I could feel slight pain and knocked the breath. At the same time I kept understanding that it a dream.
Last place, I was at some apartment, there a woman, she immediately began to chase me, with something in her hands, I ran to the kitchen and jumped on the windowsill. Stand on it and call for help, "help me <name>!, help me <name>!, help me <name>!" sounds like a song. Then I think that's so stupid to call him because of such nonsense, I folded hands as in prayer and begin to say, "forgive me <name>, that I called you because of this, I'm sorry <name>!". I could not run away from this woman, and awake.

17.09.13

Second falling asleep.
Winter in a dream. Dreamed that I ski, regional competition of skiers. I met a neighbor on the track, he said that necessary to enter to the top eight for a cash reward, I think the top eight is cool. And I skiing without skis, I'm soaring in the air over the track. Then I decided to slide up to my house, a neighbor following me. When I come up and wait him, I'm doing such fun circles near the door, without skis but as with it. It seems a logical conclusion of dream, I realized that, and lucidity come to me.
Think I need to talk with him, went to him, he said "I will go" I asked him "Who are you?" he ask me the same "and who are you?" I say "I'm a man and I have a physical body". More I remember bad, but the main, he said about himself, he is an essence, has no physical body, and even said his name "Lord of the Shadows". The feeling was such that he had no choice when I asked a question and he must tell the truth. He still looked like a neighbor.
After that a second one appeared here, he looked like an old man, who lived here few years ago, but now has moved. First essence which is Lord of the Shadows gone into the house, probably because speaking directly with a person it's hard to him, and his friend came to help. I stayed on the street and spoke with the second, he said me that they are essences and feed mainly on human fear, as well other low feelings. He said that Lord of the Shadows is their boss. While talking with him, I already felt slight fear inside, but I knew I should not show it to them.
Then main moment, old man asked me "do you have gold?" I said, "yes golden cross - holy cross", I instantly realized that he was afraid of him. He became to move away from me, I said "Don't be afraid I will not get it" I wanted to continue talking. His face expression changed, it has become a vampire, but I was not afraid, it was clear that he is not rival to me. But actually, perhaps it was not quite so, and I have been greatly tense, everything went black, and I wake up.

I appear on a very wide field in the dream. I thought that I should be realize, the idea came like if I suggested to myself, and I become move quickly across the field, finally I was realize. Look around, a very beautiful field, green-blue-purple grass, light as on sunrise, far away I see the village houses, and the mountains on another side, I fly to It.
First I tried to fly to the top, but cannot, flew to the foot. Then I had to climb, quickly move up. Orange canyons, sheer cliff 90 degrees, the surface rough and sharp, I feel pain, but I knew that a dream, and do not cut myself.
Remember that I climb up with some aggression, overcoming himself, then specially looked down, it was quite high. Was the moment when I stopped, but realize that I need to move or it will be awake.
Higher I was in a place where could not climb further, the rocks were already gray, was trying to fly but it did not work, a sense of the body has seemed heavy, and somehow I climb up anyway.
At the top is already ice, strong wind and snow, the visibility of several meters. I climbed to the top, it is flat and smooth. I see a small cave on the slope down and in it naked girl, I held her hand and raise up, kiss her, and awake.

I awake and instantly want to go back into sleep, only move to comfortable position. Start repeat the mantra mentally with intention of lucid dreaming. The mantra is the first five verses of St. John's Gospel, as suggested in concentration technique from the "Rosicrucian Cosmo-Conception" book.

See a long dream, where at the end I was put into some prison and at the same time the clinic, skip it.
When I'm walking down the hall, it was no longer madhouse but the normal hospital, and there I realize I'm dreaming. I think about myself in reality, tell myself first and last name, pay attention to the awareness, and it began to amplify. That was my plan in those days.
Then I went into some room, there are many children running around and sit at the tables, I go between them, children touch and look at me. I see the door to the second room, and go to it. At the entrance, on the table I see a girl, she looks like Angelina Jolie. Come up and looked at her, she looks at me, I see that is not Angelina Jolie, and girl 12 years. I go into next room, there is the same, returned to the first room.
Was bored, I want to get out of here, think I need to find a portal to another location or any exit away. I look around, can not find any portal or exit, and I saw the window. I see outside a very beautiful wooded mountain, it is a way out. I went to the window and begin to penetrate through it, there were two glasses, passed through them, standing on the ledge, putting my hands along the wall. Old brick house, facade is not repaired. Children ran up the window and look at me. Feel the cold wind, air is fresh and pleasant. large distance to mountain. I look at the streets of the city, looking down height of about 5 floors, was a bit scared, but I knew that I was in a dream and nothing to fear.
I think what to do, jump or not, decide not to jump because afraid to awake, think maybe I fly down smoothly, but not sure what will happen, decided to just slide down the wall. I turned and took hold of the ledge, it broke at once and I slowly fly down, fragments flying around me. Landing softly, near falling fragments, when hitting the ground broken into black sand. And I become to lose the picture, dream faded, and awake