Ww dj

Hand RC, lucid. Not stable, so meditate. 'Don't know' meditation. Begin to float and spin, flying through many scenes, but remain focused on 'don’t know'. Fades, reenter into a stable scene. 'Ego fulfilling, I’m going to play with magic now.' DC enters. Completely break down in front of him. All of it, just not getting it. So conflicted all the time. Nonsocial Lucid Living. No reservation of not being understood in WL. Scene change. Long coherent, vivid, plausible non lucid. Feels off Get mad at becoming lucid. Felt like WL and showed how lucidity is possible by believing. Woman DC talks about Gia, love, people. Very 'life' directed. Balance of dream and purpose. Argued: look I can become lucid, justifying psychedelics. Felt like I don't control becoming lucid, it just happens. Feel like I’m being judged, total confusion