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6/29/2011.F.hs.paulasMissedRC
5:30 AM

... I'm in hs rushing between classes. I don't have time to smoke and I'm pissed.

Stairwells. Hitler? Secret books? Escaping by eating our way through a giant pancake?

Later, after waking up and trying to mild...

Paul and I are looking into a doorway, watching his mom (Paula) look at her hands to see if its a dream. Her hands are huge. Paul doesn't seem to care. The dream continues and I soon wake up.

I can't believe that I missed such an obvious sign...

6/27/2011.bulletTime.gig.hotel

1st Dream
5:50am
... I have super powers and a group of us is escaping some kind of prison. I am pretty conscious and excerpt a lot of dream control, but never go lucid. I drop off the roof, hanging by one arm to a brick building and tell everyone to meet up at this secret spot, like two tunnels or a cave.

<should they bring friends? We'd be better fighting back, but someone might reveal our secret location...> as I think this I'm sneaking across a field to the hide out. I see we have been betrayed, they have set up cannons to attack us.

I start yelling for everyone to get inside, I will hold them off. The base is an entrance into the hill, it seems to light up with a white cross type waypoint. I turn back around to face the cannons and everything goes bullet time.

I notice there are hundreds of projectiles, like chunks of concrete coming towards us. There are many more than I expected and some of them are about to hit me. I wake up.

....

I am waiting around before playing a gig, sitting on a brick wall at the entrance to the venue (its like a fairground) across from the door guy. He's got on a black tshirt and has a long gray beard, typical roadie / door guy look.

This other guy tries to go in, but the door guy stops him. Other guy points at me and asks why I don't have to pay. I tell him I'm in the band and make piano fingers at him. The door guy gives me bracelet w pictures of all the bands on it in black and white. My band's picture is hard to see cause there are so many people on it.

I go walking thru the grounds. There are all these booths set up. There is a black girl singing and joking. Later there are white, redneck type people bitching about all the black people dancing. I shake my head at them.

...I'm back in the hotel room w dave and tim. I turn around and walk down the hall past the showr which has an angled long black tray for soap, similar to something you'd see in the nissan plant. It has food residue on it, from earlier, which I think is gross.

I walk down to the end of the hall and its like I'm looking into a bamboo forest and these eyes are staring back at me. Dave comes up and says "there's an ocelot in the room" then quickly hightails it out of there.



i wake up shortly after that.

6.25.11.GLD.skydive.islandCastle

<thoughts>
non-lucid
lucid

my goals:
WILD X
stablize X
incubate a beach dream ?
fly higher / faster than i have before X
talk to a DC X
repeat june TOTM

i laid back down on my back for a while, repeating a mantra of something like "i will remember im dreaming" while visualizing being on the beach, hearing the ocean, and draggin my hands through the sand. i have a hard time getting back to sleep. i rub my jaws and try to keep my focus on dreaming. i turn over and start listening in to the tinnitus in my ears. flashes of light and images start to form.

i am standing behind the couch i am sleeping on. i also have a mixed memory of being in a bathroom looking in a mirror. these are hypnogogic images and very unclear. i can feel that my hands and parts of my body can move away from the other parts, sort of like im swaying in the wind. i remember NOT doing a RC from the previous dream so i look at my hand. ive only got two fingers. sweet! i keep pushing forward and waving my hands but the couch is in the way. i do a forward roll and i am free! i am on the floor in front of the couch like i have just flung myself over it. i believe i have just forcefully separated myself from the hypnogogic imagery into a 3 dimensional dream.

my vision is the classic fuzzy gray and purple. i have on a sleep mask IRL, and it seems i am sort of peeking under the corner of it but i dont want to mess with it just yet, in case i move my physical body and wake myself up. any<that shouldnt really make a difference.> i start rubbing the carpet and my vision improves. it is my living room pretty much as it is IRL. i crawl forward to where some of my rocks are and i pick up a hercamer diamond ive had since i was a boy and start rubbing it. i recall someone on the forum talking about picking up some dirt and i decide to keep it with me and continue to rub it.

i walk to the door and open it. things are fuzzy but somehow i see. i walk down my steps outside and to the sidewalk. i decide im going to ride a skateboard, i imagine myself dragging it along the ground and kicking off and then im skating! i ride down the set of steps and into the parking lot. at first i only do tricks i know and have done IRL. i ollie, then i do a kickflip, then i barely pull off a 180 backside kickflip. then i start doing more complicated things (360 flips) that i cant do IRL. i have on black shoes and it feels kind of overcast (as it is IRL.)

i decide im going to fly now, as ive had a goal to fly higher and faster. i can usually only get about 20 ft in the air. the skateboard has already dissappeared. i lift up my hands and start raising into the air. at first i am just slowly floating up, then i start swimming and pulling myself because im not going fast enough. <i dont have to do this. i can just fly!> once i realize this i rocket way up into the air. my vision goes dim. i hold my hands out in front of my face until they come into focus. i realize i am up in the clouds and i cannot even see the ground. i am a little freaked out by this and start to fall.

at first i am alarmed by the fall, then i think <if royer can jump out of plane, i can at least do this> and i let myself feel all the sensations of the falling, the weightlessness, the wind and clouds rushing by me. it is very realistic and feels exhilerating! my vision fades again and i repeat the hand peering trick. as i do this i see an island fade into sparkling, colorful view, like a swipe cut on video starting at the center and moving to the top and bottom at the same time as i move my hands away from my eyes. it is a vivid green and brown tiny island with a single huge stone building on it.



(i had been trying to incubate a dream of going to the beach and i also wanted to try the TOTM by sitting on the beach and summoning a treasure chest so i guess this was as close as i got, heh. ive also been imagining this elaborate castle / dream home thing that sits overlooking the ocean and this actually could have been my first glimpse of it.)

i am falling fast and i try to level out so i dont hit the water but i do. i splash and land in the water, looking at the apt building. i feel this tremendous force sucking me down. at first i panic and hold my breath. then i relax, knowing no harm can come to me and i breath in the water like its air and make my way towards the island. one of my goals was to talk to a DC so i decide to go and see who i can find.

there is a small rectangular entrance at the base of the gray stone wall that the island sits on. its tiny, or at least it looks tiny. it does something weird to my vision like its in a small window surrounded by black. i go in, but i barely fit in the opening. it seems like im in a cardboard box. i stretch and push on the walls until the area is a little better fit for me, but it's still pretty tight. there are several characters there, and i know they are some kind of covert operations team preparing for a mission. its like a secret tunnel beneath the island. but they are like lego characters and it all seems very "8-bit" so to speak. i remember that i am supposed to talk to a DC and i ask them what they represent. they reply as one "your need for adventure!" which i find very amusing.



then i hear noise IRL and i sense that my gf has come out into the living room to find me asleep on the couch (i had told her i would be getting up and taking the G+C and probably end up on the couch.) suddenly i am sitting in a cardboard box in my living room (there is one there IRL that has a new baby stroller in it) that is all done up like my daughter has been playing in it. i hear my gf moving around and talking to me so i get out of the box and walk around behind the couch.

she is sitting on top of me and she has pulled her shirt up and is putting her breast in my mouth. i smack her on the ass, but she cant seem to feel it. i try to make my body tell her that im dreaming, but i just hear a muffled sound "out there." finally i get right up next to her ear and whisper "im out here." she falls off the couch in surprise, but laughs a bit, knowing about the LD. i decide to get back into my body and take her up on the breast offer. i direct my focus to my body and wake up, facedown, on the couch, no gf, and certainly no breasts in my mouth.

6/15/2011
6:53 AM

I am in something like a log cabin. There is a celebration for paul and jaimie. Paul goes to take a shower and I am sitting w jaimie on the bed. When he leaves she pulls closer, pulls a blanket over, and says "I bet you have a nice penis. Have you been thinking about me and my friends?"

I'm shocked and say "No, not at all."

I'm wondering if paul is ok with this when he returns from the shower. She pulls back, so I know he is not ok w it. I feel condescending towards her, but I don't say anything.

We go out and down some stairs into this restaurant / hotel type place. It seems it might be late and hard to find a place to go. I feel like this is my responsibility, so I talk to a manager type. We can go here, but we can't have any hamburgers.

There is a section that feels like a grayish british cobblestone street. British soldiers / guards and these roundish pole things are blocking our way. I try to get by, argue, and I think I might have forced my way by to this stair / doorway where I hide w/ chad wight?

We are in a stone basement, almost like a dungeon. There are people down there w hamburgers on trays. I ask them about it and they say these are for a private party.

...

The groups is walking forward in a line carrying a thick white sheet. We are somehow standing on it and I realize we have gone too far and are in the water. I say something as a warning, but people fall in the water.

There is a little girl who is drowning / sinking and I pull her up out of the water. When we are back ashore I realize I have lost my bracelets and rings, which are personally valuable to me.

...

There is a large group of us back in the cabin, like we are in a class discussing cyanide? There is a country of cyanide and we are supposed to take this jewelry / paper / stickers and get samples. <how is this possible? Some kind of teleportation? This is disrupting the rest of the dream and out of place. Where are all of my stickers?>

...

I'm standing outside under a white pavillion w/ danny, paul, and some others. Danny has a white wooden case / cabinet of liquors
<Wait danny doesn't drink? Ah, danny must be drinking again.>

My alarm goes off and I wake up.

This was after working a night shift, coming home and sleeping maybe 5 hrs, getting up taking 2 l-theanine, a fish oil, 4 mg galantamine, 200mg choline, and a Flintstones, which has an additional 60mg choline.

I am at joel and kate's house. I might live there, but it seems I have not been there in a while. The ceilings are vaulted, the walls are a brown stucco, and the floors are dark hardwood.

I am sitting w jessi outside an arch leading into the kitchen and there is a small blue ball of feathers that looks like it has been run over. I feel kind of sad for it. To my surprise, it starts to move and it ends up it is a tiny tropical bird rolled up in a ball. First the legs pop out, then the feathers, until its all reconstituted into a small bird with a blue body and has some red and green on it. (Its like some kind of roadkill phoenix.) I ask joel when that got here and he grumbles something about last year. I feel bad for not knowing about it.

I am in the kitchen (its like a restaurant kitchen,) joel and kate are doing something to my left, moving something which is connected to the ceiling via some metalwork and some shelves are about to fall on a girls head in front of me. I say something about it to them. I feel like I've saved the day.

Later on I'm in a larger room. There is some kind of cooking competition / show going on. I'm trying to cut some veggies at a sort of picnic table, but the knife is stuck to my hand at an odd angle. I find this strange.

I go to my right and behind the bar there is a chef. It looks like he is cutting up packets of white fish. I need to lift up the counter to get back there but all these boxes are stacked precariously. I find this strange (but I still don't figure it out.)

I'm behind the counter trying to ask the chef if he can help me with the knife, I know he's terribly busy and all that. It turns out the chef is Simon Cowell. He turns away and when he turns back he has long blonde girl hair, like its a bad wig. Its pretty atrocious looking.

Aha! This is a dream! The knife is no longer stuck to my hands and the dream starts to fade. I drop to the floor and start rubbing the carpet. Its thick and white and I rub my hands over it till I feel the dream is more stable.

I stand up and look around. Its like a bar, there are lots of people in it, some gathered around a pool table. I look over and see a blonde girl on a black dudes lap and his penis is hanging out. I walk towards them and the dream fades.

I go back to sleep and into another dream...

I'm walking down a road with several people. It seems the landscape is sort of barren and part of the road is packed dirt. There is a kid smashing someone's phone on the ground. He either throws it down and stomps on it or he rides his bike over it. I know it is Joel's phone and it makes me really angry.

The kid's bike is more like a tricycle and the back two wheel are connected by a chain. I grab it and make him wreck, but I don't think I really do it, I think I just day-dream about it inside of the dream.

... I am walking down a long, concrete tunnel. Jessi is ahead of me. There is a guy in front of me blowing into a long metal tube that's stuck under the wall. Seconds after he blows into it a guy stumbles out just ahead covered with mud. I instinctively know he is trying to catch people illegally crossing the border who are crawling through in a secret tunnel next to this one. They arrest the man.

I go through a doorway and into this all concrete room with writing all over the walls. I look at the writing and everything is in what I believe to be French. "Ahh, that makes sense," I say to myself. "After all, we ARE in France."

Then I think about this and realize that this must be in a dream as I haven't actually gone to France yet or heard back from the booking guys there.

I look at the writing on the wall, look away, and look back. The words are still gibberish to me, but it is different. I am definitely dreaming and everything seems pretty solid. I walk the rest of the way out of the tunnel.

I come out and I'm on top of a hill looking out over a little valley type park that reminds me of the greenbelt area near the old library in Maryville. There are people on the grass, the sky is clear and bright, and it is a very happy, beautiful scene.



I recall the tasks of the month and set out to dive into some water. I float up off the ledge overlooking the field below and see my girlfriend Jessi walking down the path. I wave to her as I float up, thinking about how cool I must look, then I fly up into the air and dive back down towards the field, only expecting to find water there, which I do.

I dive down into this green murky water (after all it had been a field only seconds before, so of course it's green?) and keep swimming down deeper. I know I don't have to worry about breathing and I try to imagine finding a pirate ship at the bottom of the water. I keep trying to go deeper and deeper but I cannot see cause the water is so dark. I make a ball of light in my hand, but all it does is make the green brighter.

As I dive, I hear this creepy evil child's voice coming from my left and up. It is trying to scare me or do something to my mind. I quickly emerge from the water to take care of it and there is a child by the water, maybe 5-7. I'm not quite sure if it's a boy or a girl, but I know it is the source of the evil voice. I slap my open palm over it's head, in a classic exorcist style move, and the kid fall's quiet. To my left, on the concrete bank is a tiny chest, about 8 inches across. But standing over it is the kid's Dad, who does not seem pleased I just Benny Hinn'ed his Kid on the head.



I turn to swim back towards the bottom and I see the moon up in the sky. I have the idea to translocate to the moon and from there try to get to Jupiter, but I don't have any faith it's going to work. I look up at the moon, close my eyes, and imagine myself beaming there, but when I open them I am still in the water and my dream fades away.

(This is a re-up after the site crash :-(

I'm definitely not going to take the time to post all of my dreams on here, but I will use this DJ to post a chosen few interesting or well written ones. A lot of them are just rough notes or outlines, but occasionally I have the time and inclination to flesh them out more.

Just a note that most of my DJ entries will be coming from my phone and have a sort of self-imposed format, which makes it easier for me to enter and manipulate. (If anyone is really that interested, heh.)

They look something like this:
6/11/2011.GLD.joelsKitchen.birdBall

Date
G - means a Galantamine attempt
LD - means Lucid Dream (duh!)
and then the key elements of the dream separated by periods
<entries in here are my thoughts in the dream>
... means a significant break in the narrative / memory or a switch of scenes

Dream on!