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9.4.11.WILD.muffinBattle.txt

this is after a night of gigging, coming home, then getting up a few hours later to do a photoshoot / album cover thing. i napped later, but still felt totally sleep deprived.

i almost accidentally wilded into this. as soon as i closed my eyes there were intense purple swirls, so i decided to count and stay alert. i probably only got to 15 or so... i cant recall the beginning but i was lucid for a while before deciding to do a RC.

i am in the corner of a blue-green painted room. like a baby's room maybe. i look at my hand, its all wavy and electric. at one point i am what i think is under a bed, but now it seems like i was actually looking out of crib railing. i rub my hands together. i am still somewhat aware of my body in bed as i do this, but it feels pretty solid.

i remember to look at myself (i have on striped pajamas?) indeed, i remember to think about my goals and waking life, but the only one i can recall doing is asking dream characters what they represent, and ive forgotten many of them as well.

... i am at a party, in the kitchen, feeling confident and curious about the dream. there are lots of loud girls. im talking to a really drunk blonde about working at the christian academy. the girl is telling me to take the job, implying that there would be lots of willing co workers.
shes trying to get me, i think. then she jumps on my back and when i grab at her my hand brushes her vagina and she makes a moan. this happens when there is dip in the volume of the conversation and everyone starts laughing.

here things get fuzzy, i remember asking characters at the party what they stand for and getting some enlightening answers, but its all very fuzzy. i do recall asking a portly young lad in a booth who was eating what he represented, and ruminating on his answer, but i can't remember it now.

also, my good friend and former trumpet player was there, but he was simultaneously like the Conan O'Brian Triumph the insult comic dog. i found his presence like this amusing and asked what he represented. he said "when you stick to your dreams you can go far." (Our trumpeter had just completed his undergrad and moved to Florida for his masters, while traveling and playing shows with some good sized bands. So this answer makes total sense.")

...

me, dad, and another younger kid go to this fancy hotel / spa / resort type place. dad thinks he has a good plan to somehow get all kinds of free stuff.

we go in and this server woman brings a big pot of coffee, some candy, and some kind of black USB thumb-drive. i know this is a bad idea. the thumb-drive has something to do with how yo pay for stuff. i was ripping the place off a little bit, but dad is wanting to totally not pay for anything. i refuse the coffee and sweets and decide to change the scene.

i wake up and move a bit then go back into the dream.

... i am in a compound / mansion type place, almost like a hospital or mental asylum. its sort of late Victorian, but i have all manner of futuristic technology, like a small hover ship. the place is bad.. not quite evil, but there is a bad dark haired man in charge. i play tricks and pranks on them. there is dark haired kid, as if he is my young doppelganger or is getting blamed for all the stuff i do.

these two girls / nurses are trying to catch me but i keep moving this black bag they put out to catch me. i keep draggin it through the walls. one girl comments on it. then another guy shows up and says, its time we consider this is something else, like im a ghost or something.

at one point i pass through this courtyard and tied to a tree is a big hagrid looking type monster / giant, swinging a club at me. i ask him what he represents and he growls "your fear of the unknown!" all the while trying to get me. (right before bed i had watched some history channel thing on Sasquatch being a primitive human.)

the dark haired man is chasing me in the grocery store, floating and then firing various foods at me, muffin / cupcakes in one scene. i am able to deflect them. then he has some secret configuration that i cannot stop, i decide this is enough and decide to show them power they have never seen before. i forcefully stop everything and wave my hand in righteous fury, dissolving the scene and fading it into something else.

... i am driving up a tiny road, at a ridiculous incline. its almost like i am driving up the side of an obelisk. i seem to remember this road and how dangerous it is, so i have to be careful. here, i lose lucidity, because i am worried about the fall if i don't make it. i am not properly on the road and when i reach the top my way is blocked by a black cable. i reach out and grab it, moving it aside so i can pass and i end up hanging off the edge of the road / tower. i pull myself up and there is a tiny, grey, foot high mailbox. i think this is odd.

... i am riding in a car down the freeway, talking to guy who looks like spy. i say i will be going to Addison virtual academy and he says i will be working for him. i awaken.

7.30.11.GLD.movieTheater.cloudBattle.txt

i woke up and took:
G+C+1 Ltheanine + kril oil + 1b6

i couldnt get back to sleep, my gf and daughter kept waking me up. i took another l-theanine later.

i am trying to fall asleep and sort of passively wilding, watching the lights behind my eyes. a dream starts to form, but its very dark and doesnt feel 3d, it feels third person-ish. i let it go, but i keep my wits about me and every so often i try to move off, to separate myself, to feel or see my body, but i feel stuck.

... im at a huge outdoor concert, but my perspective is that of a video camera surrounded by heavy cloth looking out onto the drums. one of the TOTMs was to play an instrument in a lucid dream. i have being trying to incubate this by focusing on it before bed, either playing a huge concert or playing the piano (which i succesfully did non-lucid last night.) but i cannot move, i am frozen in the camera perspective. when i try to move again the scene shifts.

... and i am out in an impossibly huge concrete skatepark, again in third person. the concert is happening off in the distance, which i think is pretty cool. there are two guys on a longboard, but one of them has one foot on another longboard, and they are carving the huge banks. (just like me, half-asleep, still aware of my body, with one foot in the dream world) <there is no way, they are gonna make it, how is he still standing?> they head straight for me and the scene shifts again...

... i am in a movie theater, sitting along the wall with my gf, waiting for the movie to start. this scene is another step towards the dream. there has been some kind of technical problem and we are all impatient. (i find this to be a reflection of me WILDING and waiting on the dream to start.) i see my friend danny over by some tables and go to talk to him, still feeling my body and not quite "in" the dream, but getting closer.

he has been on a trip, as our recent (imagined) messages have indicated and we talk for a moment. my gf comes over, grumpy and pregnant, and impatient. (this whole time she is sleeping next to me, occasionally moving and making noises.) we find some seats, but i have to force another guy to move so we can sit together.

the image on the movie screen is too small (another comment on the WILD transition) and a guy's voice starts droning. now its more like a class auditorium. he is expounding on the virtues of some scientist, all his accomplishments. i focus on his voice. it gets louder and louder. i try to contain my excitement because i know the real show is about to start! his words starts to blend together and get louder and rumblier and more jumbled together. soon it sounds like a jet engine...

... and i am in!i feel a shift and suddenly motion. i am in a fighter at a tremendous altitude. i look out the window and see full color, 3d, lifelike clouds. i hear machine gun fire as we zoom close to a cloud bank and i see that it is actually some kind of enemy turret disguised in the clouds.

<how am i going to get out? i know, i am a paratrooper and they will "fire" me into the mothership! i can then have some fun before i teleport / fly out and take care of the TOTM or one of my other goals.>



i look out the window again and see a huge floating fortress come into view. it is brown and has long tentacles floating, there are other ships battling around it. just as they are about to lanch my "pod"...

my gfs phone rings and i hurtle back to my body with almost painful force.

ahhh life is so beautiful.