Let's see what I got...
This dream is coming back to me more and more... backwards...
The earliest part that I can remember that I know is unique to this dream involves me walking down a narrow cobble stone road, filled with people and life and pubs on either side. I don't think I remember walking along with my friend Melissa, but the next thing I remember is her finding the person she was supposed to meet in the entrance of one of the pubs - this person turns out to my ex-girlfriend from over three years ago with whom I had a complicated romance. As I'm passing the doorway that Melissa goes through, I throw my arm out to wave as I pass the window, just to not be rude when my ex obviously sees me, but then she runs out into the street to give me a proper hello. Surprising myself, I reached for a big hug from her, and then there is a gaping hole in the flow of my dream as I am suddenly transported to my old high school music room. Or at least a variation thereof.... this rooms appears to be a conglomeration of all the high school music rooms I spent some time in.
Anyways, so I'm in my music room, with various friends and my ex, and it appears we're just milling around. I'm not participating in any particular conversation, I'm mostly exchanging awkward glances with my ex. I remember going over to the instrument shelf where there were some trumpets (not in cases) and I wanted to play one. I avoided the one that I knew belonged to my ex, and instead picked up an old black-plated bugle. "Hey, look guys!" I proceeded to show off my play-any-instrument-I-touch talent to everybody by sweeping one note through the harmonic series as high as I can. I have a vague recollection that something else dramatic happened with my ex-girlfriend... I think it may have just been a passing thought that I wanted to kiss her, but there was only enough time for me to be disturbed by this fact.
Anyway, then the music room was filled with many more people, and we were discussing some kind of community problem. I can't remember for sure what the problem was, but if I guessed that it had something to do with an over-crowded budgie population that was disturbing our environment, I'd probably be close. Another old friend of mine, one that is not fondly remembered, suddenly appeared and began to share her theory on how to solve this budgie dilemma. I remember distinctly that as soon as she began to talk, somebody else in the room shot me a look that said "oh no, is she really going to?" Her theory was something along the lines of... since budgies all grow out of dinner plates, why won't we just smash all of our extra dinner plates so that they don't turn into budgies? While everybody was agreeing how stupid this all sounded, I had my hand held high in the air, waiting to be address so I could present my theory which I knew would definitely solve the problem once and for all. (I have no idea what my theory actually was, but I think I did in my dream. Maybe I will remember later.) However, I got passed over a few times as other people got their say first, and then suddenly I had another instantaneous scene change.
Now I'm walking down the aisle in the auditorium at Humber college, making sure that I find a seat that is a few rows in front of my ex and her friends. At this point I have a funny feeling that my cousins from England were in my dream, but I can't be sure. Anyway, what seemed to be a concert has now suddenly turned into some sort of council meeting. There is a head judge with a gavel, and some sort of king-leader figure. Various people in the auditorium are making suggestions, or presenting problems, or are seconding motions, and all this time I'm still holding my hand up in the air so that I can present my sure-fire solution to the budgie overpopulation crisis. But my name is never called, and I suddenly find myself outside the council chamber (no longer at Humber) where I am complaining how I never had my say. "Look let me tell you this idea, the meeting hasn't really been adjourned yet." "Yes it has, didn't you see me swing my gavel?" "But you really have to listen to this." For some reason the king-leader-figure agreed to hear my speech, and then I launched into this tirade about how we need to lift all sorts of bans that have turned our (country/city/something) into a totalitarianistic state. At this point, the head judge is making major objections to the things I am saying, but the king invites me into his private chambers so I can finish what I am saying in peace. I continue on how we can no longer persecute people for things like heresy, because it is limiting our advancement of science and culture. The king is very somberly agreeing with me, and is clearly distressed yet calm, deep in thought. Then the king tells me that he will indeed start reform as I have suggested, but then he DIES! He's lying on the floor and I am sobbing over his body... first crying "you were like my father" and eventually just the words "my father".
This part at the end of the dream is nice and random. At this point, crying over my king-father's body, I decided that I need to peel away part of the tin foil wrapper from around his head so that I can see his face. Which is now, like the rest of him, made of molded chocolate. The dream ends with a shocked head judge entering the king's chambers to see what was going on, only to find the king dead and on the floor, and me weeping over his body smearing chocolate all over my face. What a scene.
..and scene. I'm thrilled that I was able to recollect something with quite a bit of detail this time. Enough detail that many of those scenes are imprinted like photographs in my memory. Watching my friend Melissa go into that pub, with my ex just inside recognizing me through the window.... picking up the bugle and playing it... peeling away the chocolate wrapper from the head of my king-maybe-father... Much of it is quite vivid, but a lot of it has holes too... Also, not only am I missing a whole bunch, but I can't say for sure that some of what I just wrote isn't just my imagination filling in gaps.
In any case, I'm happy I got something, because, like last night, I woke up several times in the night with the tiniest fragment of dream memory, and I just fell back to sleep instead of recording it. Thankfully my last dream really stayed with me.
At this stage, I'm not too interested in analyzing some of the symbols that may have been present in that dream. In the long-run I want to concern myself with the fact that this same ex-girlfriend has been a character in several of my dreams since we broke up. Obviously at first she was around my dreams a lot, but now that I have had a wonderful (better) new girlfriend for over a year, you'd think that she (the ex) would hang around my dreams less. That is why I get so disturbed when my dream exhibits any affection towards her. I don't really feel like that in real life. At least I don't think so. But anyways, this is exactly what I didn't want to do now. Another thing that struck me was how I was calling that king figure my dad at the end... I have a rather estranged relationship with my father, perhaps it is haunting me too.
But again, all this is beside the point. I'm just happy that I have a good solid entry now in my dream journal. I hope I continue to improve at this.
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