You know those 'silent' background thoughts that aren't in words? For me, these are the ones i can't control. As an example, if i'm trying to remember the nights dreams, i'd be thinking 'out loud' (or 'in words') about the process, but on a deeper level i'm remembering things. When i'm concentrating properly the silent thoughts are where they're meant to be. The silent thoughts are 'me' and the ones in words are just the analysis.
I'm not sure if you understand what i'm talking about, but i'll get to the point anyway. You'll probably get what i mean by 'silent thoughts' in a bit.
In a dream these thoughts are the ones that actually influence the dream. No matter what i tell myself, i have to believe it. I have to expect it. I can't change the silent thoughts. They dont lie. If i believe something, then that's what they'll be thinking about. That's what will happen.
Before i continue, i would like to share an example of how you can be thinking one thing out loud, but inside the silent thoughts might be different. In a nightmare, someone might be telling themself its ok, its only a dream. But inside they're terrified. Before that, they might be wondering if the man will cross the street and chase them. Inside, they're expecting him too. Really, why else would they be asking the question if they didn't expect it? If they expected him to walk right past, the thought wouldn't cross their mind.
So heres the problem, the person sees a man across the street. Its dark.
"Is he going to cross," they think. Now, of course, he crosses the street.
"He looks nasty, should i run?" They're wondering if he's going to start chasing them or not. Now at this point, assume they're lucid. What if they wanted to change the entire scene, make the man turn into an old friend, change it to a bright sunny day.
They could think "This isn't what i want to be doing, i'd better change it."
But, how can they start to believe its a sunny day, when this entire decision is based on a foundation of fear, and expecting the man to turn into an axe murderer? If this person is only vaguely lucid, they could probably just forget the situation in a few seconds anyway. But what if its ultra real, and actually pretty scary?
You can say to yourself "Its just a dream!" But too bad if you're only thinking that because you're afraid. You can't just forget it then, you have to believe it. Its seems like asking you to start believing something contradictory.
Now.. i realising i'm creating an idea based of something pretty specific.. so dont assume i'm saying this applies to everything. Its not always contradictory, sometimes you can just happily accept its just a dream.
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Thanks for reading, i'm hoping i've elaborated well on what i was thinking.
I realise now once you actually know its a dream, deep down, you can keep that in mind, and its really not that contradicting.
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