I don't know if I'm posting in the right forum here, but essentially I have just woke from a dream and I am afraid to actually go back to sleep. I won't go into details of the dream as it literally felt like a lifetime and I'm still a little shaken up.

About 5 years ago I really tried to get into lucid dreaming, and it went okay at first I started noticing after I had woke up 'Wow, this is actually real' - i thought it was just a myth.
But nothing ever major happened and when it did I had no control so I eventually just sort of give up with the conclusion that I couldnt do it.

I went on with my life through school, then college and now through a couple of jobs without the thought of lucid dreaming ever enter my head.

Which brings us to the past few months, and especially this week. I have not told anybody in my family or anyone even remotely close because I think that they will think that I am actually crazy; and I might be.

I have had what I describe as 'hyper-real' dreams almost every night. Some i forget and just know they happened sort of thing. But some... Some have terrified me more than anything in my life up until this point and I am actually beginning to fear sleep; and like i say i have just woke from what i would consider to be the worst of the lot.

It wouldn't even be that bad, but when i wake up, the feelings from the dream are kind of still swimming round my head and it just freezes me to my bed, and i'm scared to even turn my head. Then any little noise i hear just freaks me out to the point where on one occasion I just left my house very quickly and didnt come back until daytime.

Now the reason i come here is because i want to know how i can control these dreams. I know i can because i feel myself doing it very briefly in the midst of these dreams but as i mentioned i would describe them as hyper-real rather than lucid. I am not trying to have lucid dreams. I am almost fully aware of what is happening but it's like i'm just a passenger. Watching everything and being affected by everything but not being able to do anything, and whenever i seem to have had an opportunity to sort of take control, i seem to amplify the horror. For example: in this dream i just had i had done something that i would say is unthinkable in the real world, and i really sort of felt the shock of it, then, within the dream i sort of blacked out, and then i woke in the dream still. i turned to my friend and i was like "phew, i just dreamt it man it wasn't real" and he was like "no, you did it mate, what are you talking about?"
And then within the dream my nose started to bleed, and i mean the blood was just rushing from my face, it was so warm and incomprehensively terrifying. Then within the dream it felt like i lived on from that moment with the regret of what i did for what i would describe as years; it was just uncountable time. All the while i was telling myself 'i'm sure it was a dream, why would i do something so horrible' - So i'm questioning my dreams WITHIN my dreams - this is so messed up. And that seems to be a recurring theme, i constantly do things in my dreams that I would just never do in my real life.

My dreams always end in a moment of extreme fear, something always happens that is uncontrollably scary and only then do I seem to tell myself 'wait, this is a dream, this can NOT be happening to me'
And then i wake and feel petrified for hours.

For a while now I would just sit and write lyrics that were inspired by these dreams and just sort of use them as artistic inspiration.

But now i'm loosing my mind and i am afraid of sleeping it's like a real life nightmare on elm street only I am my own Freddy.

Someone please tell me how i can control this,
I really do not like asking others for help. But im kinda begging here. I did not even think this kind of stuff was possible.
Please.