been there, done that! years ago I had horrible nightmares. in the nightmarish moment I couldnt become lucid becuase I was so overwhelmed with fear. and if I was lucid, I was so overwhelmed with the fear that I was dealing with something that was real - like a demon of some sort. Which made me feel, even if I was aware that I was just in a dream, powerless. Like your nightmares, most of mine just involved a presence of dark evil. Sometimes its formless, other times manifested as a hooded figure.
I really couldnt do anything in the dream to help stop the cycle. Two things helped me. The first thing was dream reentry. I learned the hard way that after you have a nightmare and wake up you can easily re-enter it against your will if you fall right back asleep. Ofcourse, at first I hated this since I sure as hell didnt want to be in the nightmare again.
But as I became more of a lucid dreamer, especially after joining this forum - I was pissed if any nightmare got the best of me and robbed me of my lucidity. That during those few minutes after I woke up, all I did was think of all the ways I could have beaten up that nightmare and showed it whos boss. That when I fell asleep again and re-entered the nightmare, thats exactly what I did - and conquering a nightmare is really really really fun!
This helped me with the confidence I needed to help battle fear itself that immoblized me during a nightmare. So that later on, I could battle the nightmare right when it happened.
You said your dream climaxes into a nightmare. Ive experienced that too. My dream can be happy and normal, and then something feels eerie. And that eerie feeling grows and grows and grows until it feels like the entire room is closing down on me - to where I just feel trapped in this emotion of impending doom. And when this happens in the dream things go very wrong one after the other; the lights go out, appliances stop working, im all alone. Sinister signs might appear randomnly, like spilled blood on the floor, or distant door slamming shut when no one should be around.
And Im all alone except for this other prescence that slowly inches its way closer and closer to me, making the atmosphere feel thicker and thicker to where I could choke or go crazy.
By the time the dream reaches that stage, its nearly impossible to get it back to normal even with lucidity becuase you are so terrified you cant even think rationally. And even if you are aware you are dreaming (lucidity), the dream will always manifest your thoughts. And if you think youre not in control becuase this evil thing invading your dream is in control, then youre not in control. Its nearly impossible to battle a nightmare at this stage, you cant conquer the nightmare if you are already terrified.
So, if you know that feeling when it starts, when things first start to feel wrong, out of place, eerie. Stop it then.
The last time that happened to me, I got down on my knees, closed my dream eyes so that seeing the lights go out didnt frighten me, and I pounded the ground with my fists and demanded the dream to stop, 'Enough is enough!'. I waited for the feeling of approaching darkness to disappear and then verbally demanded the dream some new happy scenario, like a sunny beach. And when I got back up and opened my eyes, my dream was stabalized and back to normal and met my demands
So be mindful of your own emotions and stop the scenario before your emotions lose control. Fear will immobolize any lucid dreamer
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