Argh I just typed up a whole page and tried posting and it said I wasn't logged in even though I was.

Anyways. I've had about six lucids so far and the first two were fairly short but decent I guess. But the last four lucid dreams I've had have been more like lucid nightmares. Every Saturday I use the wbtb combined with the mild technique and it seems to be working well for me as far as gaining lucidity but I have very very little control in my lucid dreams.

The last four lucid dreams have been very similar in that I will be in my room and suddenly realize I’m dreaming without noticing anything strange or doing reality checks I just recognize the dream feeling and I think the mild also helps. So I usually start out on my bed and say to myself “wtf am I doing in my room I got shit to do!” So I try to walk to my door but every time it seems a seemingly impossible task.

It’s usually dark and I have very little visual clarity. I try to move but my dream body doesn’t quite function properly. My room looks all distorted and when I do manage to walk I’m hunched over and walking very slow and it requires great effort just to move. If I manage to reach my door I will suddenly appear in my bed again. Again I will try to move but with little luck. In one lucid I had I reached the door and respawned in my bed five times in a row. It is extremely frustrating.

I’ve tried rubbing my hands but it has very little effect. I have also tried dream spinning and it does nothing either although every once in a while after dream spinning an ominous figure will appear in my room. One time a huge snake appeared in my room and another time I saw a shadowy figure that looked like me staring at me.

It’s like my subconscious is taunting me. I use the mild technique using mantras to get my subconscious to help me become lucid. It’s like my subconscious is like ok I’ll give you a lucid but it will be a shitty one in which you will have no control. Any ideas?