I was responsible for my dad's death

[stankboot6]

Growing up my dad and I weren't that close. He was a firefighter, and worked 24 on 48 off. Then he kept getting promoted. In high school my mom left him for being an alcoholic, he went to AA and got a lot better. My dad retired my freshman year of college, and our whole family is together again. I am now really close to my dad. I am away at school. I had this dream where we were in this really weird building and this thing that happens at school here, was going on. I kept trying to get to my room to tell my roommate something and to help her with our scholars (school tradition). I kept falling in front of everyone. I just wanted to go tell her that I kept falling too, I couldn't stop laughing. It was funny how I tripped in front of everyone. But some things happened that irrelevant, and my dad called, I asked him to bring me something from home, home is like an hour away, and he did. But he died, I don't know how but it was my fault. I couldn't tell anyone that it was my fault, but my roommate. I just kept seeing everybody cry, and it killed me inside knowing it was my fault. What does this mean? I am so confused. I am normally good at looking at the bigger picture with my dreams, I mean I learned a lot about them in psychology in high school and college, also Google helps a lot, but I am just lost with this. And I haven't like lied to my dad, or done anything bad.... I am actually doing a lot better and we are all finally happy again. No stress and everything is finding it's place. Does this mean something bad is going to happen to him? or to our relationship? Honestly freaking out.

[Purebred]

Personally, I don't like when people look for deeper meaning in everything. It was just a dream. Dramatic feeling that was left after it will soon fade away. Don't worry and move on. Cling only on positive things (dreams included).