Ok well im 18 years old and i've been having a certain type of dream every once in awhile. Usually when i wake up from this dream i'm literally shaking and terrified over something that would not scare me at all normally, and i think back to it later and it is one of the most stupidest thoughts ever. I use to pretty much be crying as a younger kid when i had this dream and i would run into my parents room being terrified. I might have this dream a couple times a year, but every time i have this dream it is slightly different in some type of way, but is still similar enough to all the other dreams i have like it. I really have no way to even try to explain it, as i cannot remember the dream when i wake up because i can hardly even describe what is possibly going on. The only thing i can make from these dreams is that in EVERY dream i'm either trying to get to something/someone or trying to run away from the weirdest thing ever. The dream is honestly like a bad trip.

I will TRY to explain to you some of the dreams I've had like this.

The most recent dream i had of this was a few months ago i believe and all i can remember was some type of spaceship type thing that was launching and i kept trying to get to it, but these weird things kept getting in my way, i have no idea what the things even were, they were something that i've never even seen before, like roots from a tree that kept coming together and blocking the way. And everytime they blocked the way from where i was trying to go i would get terrified, literally terrified and starting to panic in my dream, and it felt as if i was going to die. Then things would get peaceful and i would be extremely content and happy, then it went crazy again. Then that continues over and over until i wake up terrified and it feels like im in a completely different world when i wake up for the first few moments.

Another time that i can slightly remember having a dream like this. In the dream i was trying to chase after something? Like a ball that was bouncing away and i would like finally reach the ball, and when i finally got it everything was all calm, it was like the whole word stops and everything is just perfectly calm, and then seconds later the ball gets away and everything just turns into chaos and it feels like something is blocking my way again or preventing my from doing something (i have no idea what, its not even something real that is blocking my way, its like the most random things ever are stopping me that idek what they are, and its like my whole vision is filled up with lines and i cant see whats really going on) and once again i start freaking out and it feels like im going to die or like the worst thing in the world just happened and i keep trying to chase it again

Another time i remember is i was running in a circle around some what seemed like a horse racing track, and i was trying to what seemed like putting together a math problem. I was trying to solve this (what i think was) a math problem soooo badly. It was like it was the most important thing and i just HAD to do it. i would try to solve it but once again, these random THINGS would stop me, and my whole thought/image would just be crowded with things that i have no idea what they are. And once again it felt like i was having an anxiety attack, i was going crazy and didn't know what to do. But then they would all go away and everything was calm and it was like it was the most peaceful time in the world, but then these crazy things would come back and i would go crazy.

I truly can only remember those three times that i've had this dream. But i have had this dream MANY times over my whole life, and in every dream it's different in one way like the thing im trying to get to, or im trying to do something, or im just doing the most random thing ever. But ALWAYS, at one point in time im so calm and happy, and it's like the best feeling in the world. But then things just start going crazy and i start freaking out in the dream and in my mind im getting terrified. Then i wake up just terrified, over something that isn't scary at all, but in the dream im TERRIFIED.

I have a twin brother that said he also has dreams like this that he can't even explain but gets terrified and is just freaked out. I don't know how to explain this, i've never lost any loved family members really, or never had anything truly terrible happen in my life that would be relating my dreams to that. And i've been having these dreams for almost as long as i can remember. That is all i can really tell you about this because i cant really remember much else. The dream is pretty much like a really bad trip that you really can't explain with words.

Please someone tell me if they also have dreams like this, or can help me in any way as to what this might mean. Thanks.