Does this dream mean anything? Ex-Boyfriend

[lolokmom]

Here's a little background - dated back in march 2012 broke up in october 2013 - he never introduced me to his friends, kind of wanted me to hide from them, always said he was doing nothing when his friends asked what he was doing and I was clearly beside him - The only thing I asked him to change for me was to tell his friends he was with me instead of doing nothing - I initiated the break up, but because I was "in love" I begged for him to stay - I was miserable the week after the conversation and we just ended it through text. I asked him if we were going to stay friends and he said yeah and his last words to me were "idk" - I had a hard time in school for a couple months and I stopped eating, sleeping, and smiling but when I saw him for the first time after the breakup he ran away and now he won't even look at me and turn his back towards me when he has to walk past me - I have had reoccuring dreams of me and him getting back together but I always say no or am hesitant - After the breakup, people kept telling me how it was the best thing that happened to him, that he was happy and dancing, and I just recently found out he got drunk and slept with one of his exes after we broke up. But anyways, here is the dream: - I was in jail and I met a bunch of really nice people, mostly black, that I really enjoyed talking to. All of them were really nice to me and we got along well just chit chatting and I felt a crush like feeling towards one of the inmates - the moment I walk into another room I am in this dim-litted bathroom and me and my ex-boyfriend start making out on top of a urinal in the public. All of a sudden he starts to poop and I keep yelling at him to do it and he starts fucking me.... this girl I know from school walks in and sees us, I stop for a brief moment then I continute - After that whole odd event, we walk out and we're in a bar/restaurant setting and I tell him " I want to sit here babe" and he says he doesn't like how I told him I wanted to sit there and I apologize - He suddenly kisses my cheek and tells me "I love you" and I just look at him awkwardly because I couldn't say it back then I remember how when we broke up he got drunk and fucked another girl and I just smile and kiss him on the cheek - All of a sudden I take my phone out and start texting but I had a difficult time doing so, it felt like it took forever to type a sentence and I kept messing up. From the corner of my eye I notice his two best friends, who are dating, move to the table in front of us and his girl best friend texts me telling me how my ex and this other girl are meant for each other and she sends me that girl's horoscope, she then proceeds to ask how long I think we would last. - I replied telling her that a relationship is based on the way the people in the relationship feel, and if things don't last they won't but for no we are trying to work things out. And if they were so meant to be why isn't he dating the girl now? and I didn't see a point in her text message. I felt a bit angry. - After I finish the text we get up to leave and I run across some friends from my past, I hug them and they ask me if me and my ex were back together and I just smiled and said no, I don't know. They asked me if we kissed and I said yes and I felt really happy. - As we leave the place, my ex walks me home and I random black girl drives by and yells something at him and he suddenly has the urge to hide. I asked him what he was doing but all he said was that we couldn't see each other for a while and I kept asking why. - He ends up walking me back to my house and as I walk in and close the door behind me he walks away but then turns around and asks me if he could use the bathroom. I walk down the stairs to meet him outside and I tell him that I'm not sure because if my parents saw him they would kill me, and my mom was in the shower. I decided to let him in anyways and my cousins and uncle walk in just as I bring him in and my uncle starts smiling. He asks me if this is the guy who will give him his grand kids and I just start laughing saying nono he's not. I don't plan to have kids anytime soon. As I am caught up in my conversation with my uncle I look at my cousin and I text her asking if what was happening was truly real. I look for my ex and I notice him with my parents and they got along quite well, I was confused because when we were still together they didn't like him at all. - When he leaves I proceed to the living room and I attempt to turn the light on, but have a hard time doing so, and I see myself sleeping on the couch and I "wake up" in my dreams at least, and I feel this overwhelming sense of confusion. I walked to the kitchen table where my backpack was located and I kept asking myself "is this real? are we really back together? and I felt this sense of regret, as if I didn't want to be with him. I checked my phone to see if I texted my cousin and I did, then I went on his twitter and he posted a picture of my upper body, and the upper half of my legs, fully clothed, mentioning something along the lines of she's mine again or we're back in love or something and I read his friends comments telling him how he should treat me well or they did and I just laughed because he never introduced me to this friends before. - All of a sudden I receive a text from him telling me that he can't see me for a bit cause he was really busy, and there was a list as to why he was and I remember that one of them said he had to save 50 dollars for a trip to alaska for some school club and then I woke up in real life, and I was just lost. I thought the dream was real and I felt a sense of sadness and confusion. Any help on interpreting this dream?

[warriorof]

You seem to still be a young woman, and thus have a lot of time to decide who to love. According to your dream, you are confused about how you feel about your ex. You want to be with him perhaps because of a physical attraction to him, but you may be confusing that for actual love. Going to jail with the black people may mean you have friends of many kinds; you don't stick with just one group. This means you have different perspectives on your issue. Perhaps many different types of friends have told you the same thing: that you should move on. His shady behavior in the dream basically reinstates what you experienced with him: you want him, but cannot trust him because of his lies. Your mind is sorting out how you feel about him sleeping with someone else, and you don't trust his honesty towards you. If this is how you feel in the dream, how can you trust him in real life? I think the dream is telling you that you desire honesty more than anything in a lover. Forget about him, and try to move on.