Background info:
I am a recovering addict of an opiate addiction.
My fiance is in jail, hopefully getting out soon, and has been studying and practicing Islam.
I looked into Islam, as I looked into many religions, finding them all very interesting.
I fully believe in God, one God. But on other subjects I am "if-y" at this moment..
I have been though military training and in army reserves, graduated high school. and have been to jail "for a few days only".


My dream..
(in the begining i was with my bf, holding into him, happy, joking, he had to go somewhere, and i was going to meet him later when i arrived at the location, but idk where it was)
(So the part of my dream that i remember scared me very bad, woke up with a panic attack, felt like an apocalypse dream and took me a second to realize it didnt happen)

Me and a group of others were walking through a hallway in what seemed to be our high school. We stopped and ate dinner in the cafeteria, but one girl asked me if I can come back with her later, because she has to do something in the gym now and doesn't have time to eat. I said I would.
The group of us is walking through the hallway again and we see a large machine, with a satellite, which there were two scientists standing beside, taking notes, and making adjustments to the dials. "Back away from the machine" they said, and explained how it emitted a certain level of radiation which is very dangerous to us. (at this time i realized they were wearing protective gear while we were just dresses normally. We were also being lead by someone who was dressed the same way as they were.) After walking past them, i heard them talking about how this experiment had to be done due to the fact that there is no such thing as religion. The group of us then walked into another hallway, and big metal doors shut and locked us out of the hallway with the machine, (like a jail door or a heavily secured hospital) There was a man at a little wooden table with a notebook, and the group started signing out two by two, and walking to the exit all the way down the end of the hallway and getting on buses (i didn't see them leave but i assumed they were buses) and heading for somewhere "safe". (at this point i felt like the people who worked there were keeping something from the group of us. it felt very eerie.) When it was almost my turn, the girl who missed dinner came up to me and said to hurry up, she has to go get her food now. I felt like i was being rushed, and we didn't have time to do all that. She ran off. I started running, but it felt like i was running in place and the walls were moving, but my feet weren't. Eventually I got to the cafeteria. Waiting for the girl to return, I looked at a boy i know and asked "do you think that there is a direct correlation between the machine in the hallway and their talking about there not being such thing as religion?" he said "yea, are you kidding, look around" and i looked around the cafe, people sitting down eating from trays. All the same food and portion sizes, the same drinks, all set up the same. he said "What if everyone was sitting here and one day someone says 'stop. do you hear that?' and people stop and listen and look around, and someone notices that the juice they gave us isn't really juice, but they gave us ice water" what they heard was the ice cubes, but we didnt see them?? this though had made a big impact on me.. i was thinking that maybe he was right, and how we viewed reality wasn't real they way things were, but maybe they gave us medicines or tricked us somehow to see or hear things that weren't really there.. My vision got blurry and i felt like "reality" was slipping away from me, and was starting to have an anxiety attack.. I tried looking around the room..

and i woke up.