help with sexual dream of ex

**vividdreamer23** · 08-23-2013 03:36 PM

My ex always seamed to come around when I needed him most feeling down etc. He recently found me on a social networking site looking for me to call as I changed my number. Last night I dreamed of picking me up in car I was happy but he had people and children with him I did not know. We were searching for tresure in a setting in my dream of which i am searching as well i always feel magical in this setting searching for answers and happiness.After we droped others off I asked him if tresure was real he said yes he had found partially money.he undressed me and himself I wanted to do oral on him after he pleased me with the same.when I looked up I was shocked to see he had two penis. It scared me at first but hetold me he would make it go away and it went back in his skin.it almost looked like a devils tail after I finished.we began to have unprotcted intercourse with me on top he told me I was to have a child by him it was the best feeling felt real and memerable. After the deed was done he held me and told me he loved me.my stomache began to get bigger instantly i felt happiness we then went to a gas station and parked.all of a sudden a car full of people began shooting a gun at us.I was frightened adrinilene pumping.a man in other car said I'm going to kill the people in car in front of u not yall. Told us to back away slowly. My ex did as told and we left. The passenger door I was sitting on I had to hold the bullets broke the door.I asked hin to fo to store and he did I secretly got an aportion pill to take.although I looked very pregnat after intercourse.he then droped me off at my real life fiance house and told me to think about it.in real life I have lost a child and me and fiance have not been able to concieve but with my ex I had a miscarrage a few years back. What could this mean? Thanks!

**JoannaB** · 08-23-2013 04:43 PM

I think part of you wonders whether your ex would be more fertile - whether you would have less trouble conceiving with him. Note this is a subconscious part of you that wonders that, and this is happening in dreams when your waking life inhibitions and morality are asleep and thus not available to you. Even in the dream state you do know that having intercourse with your ex would be wrong, hence the two penises - something is wrong. And you know you do not really want his baby, that's why you have the abortion pill in your dream.

*moved to dream interpretation

**vividdreamer23** · 08-23-2013 07:58 PM

Ok thanks for the welcome : )..your interpretation was on point!it made me feel like it actually happened I woke up gasping for air and my fiance was looking at me like I was talking in my sleep.I hope I didn't say much lol

**Superman1** · 08-26-2013 09:50 AM

I think your ex represents what Joanna said...

YOUR EX
"My ex always seemed to come around when I needed him most feeling down etc."
So your ex may partly represent that quality you need now. You need support.
In looking for answers and happiness, you revealed yourself and wanted to 'eat' or take-in the partial treasure he meant, as what he represented had likewise given you the pleasure of, in your thought and the dream.

DOUBLE-SIDED
But you were shocked perhaps in thinking of your ex, or maybe that twice you had lost a child, or maybe more likely one side of you recalls and fears the 'evil' of losing a child.
Either thinking of conceiving a kid where one was lost was the best feeling, and felt real and memerable.
Or your pregnancy was with the treasure and happiness he represented, which grew instantly in you, after 'intercoursing' with this quality.
Or both, probably.
Maybe if the deed was done - real pregnancy - it would give you love. This treasure is probably pregnancy, or mainly.

YOUR HAPPINESS
In the pursuit of this happiness, you had to fill up to keep it going, but it was being shot down, which terrified you.
So maybe this is the thought of conceiving instantly being shot down, in your fear, which was going to kill what was ahead of you, but not you. So you backed away.
So your fear made an abortion, in view of the past real loss.

MEANING
So the ex represents who you were able to conceive with, which you have not yet been able to with your fiance.
And because of that, I suspect the problem may be psychological - you fear a miscarriage again, understandably. That may be why you cannot conceive yet.

HELP
Maybe you can determine if there may have been a reason for the miscarriage too, if you split for another reason. Maybe it wasn't meant to be. Maybe the unborn child saw what was coming.
But if you see no such problem now in your relationship, perhaps your fear can wither away and die as a product of a past mistake, which is a good idea to understand clearly and not to repeat, so your fear will not again materialize.