Thread: BDSM themes- could someone help me interpret this?

It started out with my family and I moving into a new apartment. There was no explanation given for this and we didn't do any packing or anything, just left straight for the place. The lift we took up to the flat was really small, barely enough to fit the three of us, and I remember thinking to myself that I would probably end up taking the stairs from the next time onwards because I felt like I was going to suffocate in the lift.

We arrived in the flat and I went to check out the room that was going to be mine. It was nothing spectacular- bed, cupboard, small bedside table, furnished very much like a dorm room. It was interesting to me (on hindsight) that the entire apartment was already furnished, and we were thinking of how to fit our possessions into the house (and not the furniture we already owned. Interesting because my parents are fairly fixated on 'heirloom' furniture. It's very difficult for them to get rid of a lot of pieces that we have at home)

The next event in the dream happened probably a while after we moved in. My mother was cooking, or baking, and she was bugging me to help her clean up the house to make it look 'presentable' (as if preparing for the arrival of someone important enough to warrant it -she was fussing quite a lot)

Two people arrived, a man and a woman, and they were immediately invited to sit and eat and drink. The man was definitely older than me (late twenties- early thirties, I'm eighteen) and the woman was probably slightly younger than him. She was attractive, and it was clear to me that she was his wife, or that they were in some kind of romantic relationship. My mother was entertaining them and it was quite clear that I wasn't expected to be in the room. I brought tea and everything seemed very uptight. It was obvious to me that I knew these people and that they knew me, and it was odd that this formality was still being observed despite this.

I left to go to my bedroom, which was still furnished sparsely despite there having been a fairly long duration of time since we'd moved in. Eventually I was joined by the man from earlier. He tied my hands above my head and to the top of the closet in the room- this was obviously a bondage/BDSM kind thing, it was definitely being done in an erotic way. I don't remember us having sex, or anything much else, not even kissing, but aside from exuding a very distinct aura of authority, he was gentle, and his affection for me appeared very genuine.

We eventually left the room together, and my mother and the woman from earlier were deep in conversation on the sofa in the living room. The woman looked troubled, and my mother was consoling her.

The next scene showed the four of us at a circus/acrobatics show together. It was chaotic and people were talking. We were seated with myself beside the man, the woman on his other side and my mother beside the woman. My mother made a comment that it must require a good amount of endurance to be able to perform the stunts, and the man turned to her and said that I had been able to take that amount of pressure and more, and he demonstrated how I had been bound in my bedroom earlier. He sounded approving and turned to me and told me how proud he was of me, but I was notably uncomfortable with the discussion. I turned to him and asked him if he could not talk [about what had happened]. This was interesting because I distinctly remember speaking to him in Chinese (I learned it in school as my second language, my mother doesn't speak it)

He obliged immediately and stopped talking-to my mother. He took my hand and held it for a really long time, and rubbed my hand with his thumb, idk it was a simple gesture but it felt very affectionate and personal.

I'm really sorry for how long this was, but if you read all of it and have any idea if it could mean something/what it could mean, I'd appreciate it very much!

Sounds like maybe your sexuality is repressed, or maybe you just want to get into BDSM.