suicidal dreaming

[suicide]

My Dream started with me on a trip to Israel which I am going on in June. On the trip I had loads of fun but on the last day or something at night there was an open grave and it was very wide. The leader of the trip dared people to get in the grave as a joke and didn't want anybody to actually get in it. Me and my old friend that I don't talk to anymore got in the grave and we were laughing. When I went back to school my maths teacher wanted to see me and that friend. We went to her and when we got to her office she was working on a computer and she didn't look up from it and said "kill yourself" and handed us a red blanket. I think it might have been a punishment from the grave thing. She still didn't look up and said "do it quickly". I then said to her "I rather do it with paracetemol, the whole box." she looked at me sadly and gave it to me. She looked at me like that because I had already decided how to kill myself. Me and my friend then ran away and lots of people tried to catch us and bring us back to her. They might have been two separate dreams though. also I have never really trusted that teacher and she makes me feel a bit uneasy. The thing that concerns me in this dream is that whenever I think about the bit about killing myself slowly I get this strange feeling in my stomach. I have been thinking a lot about committing suicide lately. Please can someone help me.

[Baron Samedi]

My Dream started with me on a trip to Israel which I am going on in June. On the trip I had loads of fun but on the last day or something at night there was an open grave and it was very wide. The leader of the trip dared people to get in the grave as a joke and didn't want anybody to actually get in it. Me and my old friend that I don't talk to anymore got in the grave and we were laughing. When I went back to school my maths teacher wanted to see me and that friend. We went to her and when we got to her office she was working on a computer and she didn't look up from it and said "kill yourself" and handed us a red blanket. I think it might have been a punishment from the grave thing. She still didn't look up and said "do it quickly". I then said to her "I rather do it with paracetemol, the whole box." she looked at me sadly and gave it to me. She looked at me like that because I had already decided how to kill myself. Me and my friend then ran away and lots of people tried to catch us and bring us back to her. They might have been two separate dreams though. also I have never really trusted that teacher and she makes me feel a bit uneasy. The thing that concerns me in this dream is that whenever I think about the bit about killing myself slowly I get this strange feeling in my stomach. I have been thinking a lot about committing suicide lately. Please can someone help me. You need to find some really good friends or relatives you can talk to. Maybe call this suicide hotline below. Lifeline

[Superman1]

Well you might not think you could have loads of fun, so you might see life or death or the future trip as a bit of a joke. But your friend is like the good times or relationship you had but may not have now, and you feel dead. But it looks like you won't look up in your thinking, or maybe won't stop thinking. Because then you think of killing yourself for real. I think the red blanket is your dangerous comfort that thought of suicide can give, that punishes you. You'd rather the pain stop. As well as what was suggested, Killing yourself can mean killing the negative side, which can happen slowly. You can stop giving it so much energy. You can choose to reject those thoughts. It would give room for the positive ones. It could also be quickly, dependant on you. You ran away from suicide, but the side of you that wants to live, or most of you, tried to bring you back to the negative thoughts. So it's true you shouldn't trust your side that said kill yourself. Get a substitute teacher in you that thinks good, and can add up logically.