I definitely think the female cycle influences dreams, however I am not sure how, and I assume not consistently for different women.
When I read your dreams, I thought of the Christmas Carol, where Scrouge is visited by the ghosts of Past, Present, and Future. I think your dreams likewise show your past, present and future, but not in a literal way but more through dream symbolism.
The first dream is futuristic and thus could be about the future, the future of your mind, your potential. It shows that you can be important and admired, you can make a difference. Perhaps not literally by having a job that saves the world, but the dream I think is saying that you can be empowered and be much more than you may think. Do you struggle from low self esteem usually? The reason why I say that is that I do, and yet at times I also have such empowering dreams.
I think low self esteem is common among children of parents who were emotionally abusive. The dream with your mother shows you your past in a sense. It brings back memories of emotional abuse and of watching your mother give birth and not flinch. One could say the not flinching in the situation of high pain may have made it even more stressful for you because you feel the stress of the situation, but your mother does not show pain, so you empethize but have no sense of connection. The chainsaw jaw situation is highly stressful, and your being asked to lie next to your mother is a lot to ask of you, a huge imposition. In a way though it is what you impose on yourself: you choose to empathize and care for your mother even when it is not appreciated or reciprocated. To some extent this dream is about the emotional baggage of your past, what you need to overcome in order to reach the full empowered potential self that the first dream showed you. Of course, the overcoming is not about not empathizing, you are not expected to not feel the pain yourself, but how do you reach your full potential despite the emotional pain baggage, that is your challenge.
The drugged dream I think is in a way about the present. When we sleep we often feel somewhat drugged because we are not fully conscious mostly asleep, and thus dreams of being drugged or drunk are common. However, I don't know about you, but for me when I am not self aware enough, I feel a kind of brain fog that means my mental abilities are inhibited due to emotional impairment. As you say you currently have issues with trust, and this dream shows you that. It points out that you are not willing to leave your child with a family member to game some "me time" - having me time is important for a mother's sanity, being a mother of two myself I highly recommend taking time for oneself and trusting others with one's child at times. The thing is that this will actually make you a better mother, because it will help you revitalize, and then you can be more patient and more attentive as a parent after having a break for yourself. In this dream you are also worried that your husband will see your weakness, however the advantage of having a spouse is that here is someone we can show even our weaknesses too. It's ok to admit that I am not a superhero. It's ok to admit that I need some time for myself, that I need his help at times. If your spouse is a loving spouse, he will understand and hopefully help you out, so you can regroup and are more likely to reach your full potential.
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