Dear Cube,
You missed a wonderful opportunity when you was shot in the head during that dream. In just a few more seconds, had you stuck with it, you would have realized that you were not really dead, and you would have been able to get up and brush yourself off, although with a sizeable hole in your head. This would have confirmed to you that you have nothing to fear while in a dream. But since you allowed the dream to end while you were still quite dead, and since you woke up somewhat traumatized by the whole experience, then, quite the opposite effect will engulf you, and that is that you will have even more anxieties and fears while dreaming, and not less.
Please, go over in your mind, so that the notion will be fixed and ready to play out the next time, that you should not panic and wake up the next time you are killed (it hardly matters whether you add 'in a dream' or not) that you will stay calm and wait the 10 or 20 seconds it takes for a 'Dead Dreamer' to rouse back to Life.
Also, yes, the dreams do show you to be a non-violent person. That indeed is the reason why you are hiding these guns -- you are suppressing your anger and violent tendencies. Good for you. The whole World would be much better off if everybody were to actively suppress their violent tendencies. you can be sure George Busk has no such dreams.
But you do have plenty of anxieties concerning violence. That is simply in the nature of our World. it is difficult to control our environment and our situations. However, you should keep in mind that opportunities do sometimes arise which you could take advantage of. For instance, do you now live in a urban area with a high crime rate? If you do, then it would not hurt for you to look for job opportunities in more quiet and subdued rural areas.
Additionally, you can minimizer your exposure to violence simply by listening to your own inner warning voices. So many people ignore their own better sense about such things, and though they have strong suspicions that they are walking straight toward trouble -- young men clustered on a street corner with nobody else in sight -- they tell themselves that they are just being paranoid and that they should not let fear run their lives -- and so they get mugged or raped because they did not heed the warning voices that were sounding as loud as sirens in their head. refer back to your own dream, where you made no effort to conceal yourself from or to evade a known enemy.
In a violent world, one is not wise to suppress every consideration of sensible caution. Many people who find it to be an ideal for themselves to be 'non-violent', an admirable quality, decide to suppress not only the aggressive side of violence, but also every consideration of defense and escape, as though they were acting as though violence does not exist for them. But it does.
I was a World Traveler for awhile and spoke to many other World Travelers, and we nearly all found that World Travelers develop a Six Sense Instinct for avoiding dangers. When one is on foreign soil and knows nothing of one's surroundings or the people milling about, then one learns to listen closely for that small voice in the head that whispers of caution and approves of going right while holding one back from going left, and one stops considering whether or not one had any 'good reasons' for doing what simply seems best because it feels that way.
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