If it helps I will tell what I remember before that. I was with friends. One of the girls was crying so I leaned over and hugged her and comforted her..I was thinking about my other girlfriend there though. She seemed to have some animosity for this girl. That worried me because I didn't want to lose either as a friend. I believe the girl who was crying was my other friend's ex boyfriend's new girlfriend. Then I did something bad. When no one was looking the boyfriend leaned into kiss me and I kissed him back. (Bear in mind I have never had any attraction to him in waking life, but he has tried things on me before.) This part might be a little TMI so prepare. We girls were all in a hallway. They had their pants off and I noticed they were all on their periods and I wasn't. I pointed it out. One of them threw their used...pad at me. It was disgusting. I'm sorry to bring it up but it might mean something. Anyway I was totally disgusted. Then I was somewhere else. It looked like a boardwalk. I walked into this building, I think it was a lighthouse. But Wal-Mart employees worked there and I was wondering why. They were also from a pretty distant town. Not the Wal-Mart close to us. I inquired about a job there and they told me where they were from, I realized how far that was and that I didn't have a vehicle to make it there. I had nostalgia in this lighthouse. I saw pictures of my teenage self. I was a lot thinner and I felt an ache to go back. That's when I saw a picture of me in a bathtub and it turned into reality. In the picture the hairdryer was submerged in the water and that's why I felt it was safe to put it there, and that I should. Because I was smiling in the bathtub. It obviously wasn't harming me. |
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