I'm warning now, some of this may be a little graphic. Almost all of my dreams lately have been of YouTubers that I think are attractive. It's obviously because I've been watching a lot of YouTube. Now, the dreams are really lucid which is whatever, and a lot of times these dreams end up in semi-realistic situations with me and which ever one in the dream that night by ourselves, and sometimes we get close enough for it to be (sorry) a little sexually tension filled.

But the thing is before or sometimes after we kiss or do anything, the dream turns a different way, I wake up, or they just suddenly stop and it leaves me like "wait no this isn't over yet, there's more." It never escalates to actual sex, which might mean that I don't commit to stuff irl. Almost all the dreams end up with my desires unfulfilled but I accept it after because ik that sometimes I can't get what I always want. If I don't wake up in the dream, then me and the youtuber usually either hang out while I pretend to be okay (I'm secretly really upset in the dream but I hide it) or we kinda split off.

I know it's kind of weird to explain to strangers, but im thinking it might mean that I'm scared to take risks because I don't let the dream go freely into what looks like I want, or I'm not having the chance to get what I want with my desires, not a satisfying relationship, or stopping short in my goals. I know it's a deeper meaning than it seems, since it's happened about 6 times now.

If anyone else has gotten this frustrating type of dream, I wouldn't mind listening to your interpretation on it. It would make me feel better knowing I'm not the only one.