Key words are depression, hardships, and trouble. Even trouble with the law which can mean with what is right, and liking fighting.
These are sides we all have sometimes, and can be like a form of suicide as in self-defeating. And being narcissistic and impulsive.
So your troubled upbringing can be why you dreamt of this rapper.
THE CONFRONTATION
Why you dream about him, when there are other dead musicians that you look up to and know much more about may be you don't know enough about this side of you, and really could be the more important to know or deal with.
Also, him being dead might reflect you wanting this part dead or thought it was, or essentially it is dead as in not life-giving. But it probably keeps coming back.
That can be the meaning of you seeing him though he was dead, that puzzled you.
Maybe this part of you gets loud, shaking you deeply, and is like a brat being out of control, or needing more control and right things or the 'law.'
It upset you. It's confronting. And smoking may mean addictive thought and behaviour, to what is harmful.
THE LAW
Ski Mask seems the consequence of the face being covered, or not seen. Yours or others. Maybe you act oblivious, but you were spying on it.
The apartment complex is part of you, or your part and how you are joined with others or interact.
And it came to being attacked, pushing and shoving, calling you a name and finally anger.
If it's not literally like that, it can reflect how you feel, with this unruly side.
Even unwinding at a bar may not be the solution, though it's social, drink can mean slowly losing control.
GOING HOME
Looks like being against a wall, but leaning on it.
And puts you on an angry tangent for all the bad things that have happened it might not seem clear who is responsible for.
Or it might go so far, that it seems others are responsible where they are not. Or you blame them.
THE CORRECTION
Then, leaving that alone, perhaps you saw it was just best to be sorry for it, for the whole mess.
This would enable better relations, and you could come along to the party.
Maybe the weed means focusing on this, it's not so out of control like drinking. It magnifies awareness actually, gives peace, and connection to others.
Though a bit blasé, or with nothing to lose, you saw then you elevated things.
Going to bed drunk probably exasperated this side of things, and confusion. But brought it to a head.
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