So... in mid April I lost my grandpa
we were pretty close...
recently I've been having dreams about him..
but all were those "comfort" dreams
like where we're laughing, and he has his arm around me...
but for the first time
this morning I had a dream that wasn't so comforting

we were in some house
and I see my grandpa sitting in a chair
he looks over and winks at me, gives me his little smile
I smile back
and then I realize that hes DEAD
but no one else can see him
I go to sit down next to my grandma
but I turn away to start crying (trying to hide it from her)
and all throughout the dream I continue to see my grandpa show up

does this tell me something about my grieving process?
I'm not sure what it means
I know I miss him
but... does it mean I'm accepting that hes gone? or maybe that I just am mourning him?