In my dream i was looking for my little cousin's school which he no longer attends. My cousin, who is only one was not in the dream. In waking life i went to his little school. I was easily distracted by the toddlers, the smell of baby powder, and gold fish snacks. Inside me i wanted to feel like a parent of my own child although that is not an option right now. I then saw this little girl walk around the room. Cute, blonde hair, and blue ocean eyes, adorable. But here is the thing once i saw her i didn't want to smile and grin at her because i felt restricted to adore some other person's child. I saw her again at a park meeting with my cousin, after that i wondered why i felt like "it could never be the same way for me, I feel like a child in the inside but i want to grow and develop knowing other people's kids are not mine and that i shouldn't have the same as them"? That's what i thought and didn't bother pondering the thought anymore. A couple months later i had a dream that i was looking for my cousin's school but it was at a a old lady's house, who took care of kids but really didn't appreciate them. I thought the look of this place was a wreck and tried to compare the real school and thought "no, its not the same."
I then saw the little girl "Clara's mom" in the parking lot with the little girl clara, the one i described before. There was something very different about them, in fact everything was different, they looked uglier than they did in waking life, they acted different and they didn't greet me at all, in fact they were rather personal about everything. It was like i wanted them to look the way as they did in waking life but everything about them was different, and ugly....
This is possibly a release dream.