Thread: Fluffy Clouds and Drunken Men With Bottles of Estrogen

I had some crazy dreams last night. Now that I think about it I can barely remember them. I just remember small voids of recollection.

I remember the part where I was with my friends. For some reason I was really angry. It may have been the string of bad luck I had in my life, but I really did not want to be near anyone. I just wanted to be alone. The only contact that I made was when I gave my girlfriend her lunch like I normally do. I was too caught up in myself to remember this was a dream. I almost feel like I was ruining my lunch time with friends before I had to go to class.

I keep having dreams of my band. I remember tidbits of songs that I keep singing. I don't even know what I was singing. I have had many dreams about it. There is me singing, this person on guitar, a bass player, and a friend of mine on drums. We were just playing and practicing. This seems like a continuing dream. Also I found that I had a CD out. It's name is You're Mind is Only Set on Apocylypse. I really have not thought about pursuing a music career even though I love singing. Maybe I might change my mind and this dream will come true.

I had a wonderful dream last night. It allowed me to get some anger out. I am not an advocater of violence, but I thought it was a nice change. Last night I went to see Sin City. The movie was so pointless it was good.

I was dressed in this awesome trenchcoat. I had two submachine guns. I went around shooting peopel running from the cops. Then came Miho (You would have to see the movie) and she wanted to kill me. She pulled out her swords and I replied by throwing a grenade at her. She jumped out of the way and came to attack me. I then quickly pulled out a knife and cut her. It killed her amzingly since people could live after having like 50 bullets in them. I was then fufilled of my hunger for violence and I started maniacially laughing.

I wouldn't be so happy if it wasn't a dream.

Hotel beds suck. My mattress was too hard and I had a hard time sleeping. I have not been in such an uncomfortable bed in a while. That might be why I sleep on the floor now.

I had a dream last night of when I was really little. I was at my mom's house. I love my mother, but when I was little she basically abandoned me. I didn't see her that much. She was too busy studying astrology or taking care of another of my 7 brothers and sisters. I was crying and there were a lot of older looking men with burnt faces. They all had knives and were talking about going to smoke marijuana. I really hoped that they were not going to do it while I was in the room. Then one of my sisters came in the room and yelled at the men. They then knifed her and she died. I just sat and watched as a helpless child.

This dream happened on account of an argument with my dad about my mom. A lot of things went on.

I slept with only a pillow on my friend's floor last night. It was cold.

I dreamt that I was Falco from the game Super Smash Bros Melee. I was in a game with my friends. They were all their best characters. Ness was really pissed at me and we started fighting. He kept trying to beat me with a bat. I kept using a shield and dodging. He kept threating to kick me off the edge. I knew he wouldn't. I am better than him when it comes to dodging and he didn't land a hit on me. Roy kept running around in circles swinging a sword around. I laughed at him. I say "Comon dude get in the game." This seems to anger Ness more. He keeps swinging and I keep jumping. The other Falco just sits and watch. He doesn't do anything. Not that he needs to. We are all preoccupied.

I played a lot of Video Games last night.

I dreamt I was laying in bed reading Old Man by the Sea. I knew I was lucid because I didn't own the book. I never even read the book, but I know it exists. It had some interesting adventures in it with a flying octopus and an evil witch of the sea. It was a good read. I laughed a lot reading it and felt better every page I turned. I was accomplishing the book and I felt good about it. It took a while to read. It was 259 pages long continuously reading.

Today I watched Metallica: Some Kind of Monster. It really got into me. What they had I hope for. I want a successful band that I can call my family. I want to play guitar and sing until I die. I have so much to sing about. I would sing about happiness, depression, and more. It would be different from others, but it would have a likeness of itself.

I took a nap after I watched it and I saw a CD case. It was my CD in there. My heart and soul put on one disc. The complex emotions of me and everyone else I ever knew. I looked at the cover and there was a dark ball. It had bright thunder coming out of it. It is somewhat hard to describe, but it has its own beauty. It was majestic and graceful. The title glided across the cover. I felt complete then. I have said what I wanted to say. That was important. My friend put my hand on my shoulder and said "We did it."

I then woke up.

It took me a while, but I had another dream about the band. I am very happy I did. We were all sitting around writing lyrics on what our next song should be called. I wrote it down. I have the lyrics. I read what I wrote and it was perfect to my soul. It gave me a smile that I never smiled before. I started to cry for joy. Everyone asked why I was crying. I couldn't speak for a long time. I then said the name of the song. It is called As Many Have Said Open Your Eyes. I had it all mapped out. I can't remember the lyrics, but the whole idea of the song was basically telling people to stop talking about realizing what is going on in the world and actually doing something about it. I found out that the CD wasn't actually finished, but I thought the work was going to be the best part. I put on an Atreyu CD and woke up.

I love music and dreaming.

I was listening with the drummer of my band to Silverstien. We were working on new drumming/singing cooperation ideas since the drummer felt that we needed to add something new to our songs. We found a lot of neat ideas in Sirens and Condolence and Giving Up. I can't wait to sing with only drums as my music. I can really feel the beat. I am glad I get to do it with someone I trust. Thank you Samantha.

This dream was a sad one.

I was at school and it was about 7:20 A.M. by the clock. I went into the Cafeteria like I always do. There everyone was. Everything seemed normal except one of my friend's was sad. She asked me to come with her and we went outside the school. She asked me if I would protect her. I asked her "From what." She said "Everyone is bothering me." I told her I would. Just then all my friend's came out like zombies and walked towards us. "Come here Laura" they said. I told them Laura was busy talking to me. They didn't listen. I then realized it was a dream. I then did one of the things I would never do in real life. I hit my friend Colin. I then had to hurt every other one of my friends. It was a hard battle. They fought back. Especially one of my friends. He doesn't feel pain. He lost all his pain nerves. Hard to get him down. I had to do this to protect Laura. I did and then I moved her away from everyone and I woke up.

Not a dream

Today after school before Japanese Club Laura talked to me about all the problems she had with her family. We went outside. People kept tellng us to come inside. We just went really far away. She had a lot of problems with her family and her dog dying. It was said, but I did the best I could to make her feel better. We went back inside.

I had a weird dream. Two of my friends were getting married. They only dated for about 3 weeks. My friend asks me to be his best man. Then there I knew it was a dream. We are not that close friends. I say why not. The wedding was in a couple of hours. I then got to the place where they were having it. It was at the Groom's house. Then when I got there the Bride pulled me aside and said "I don't want to marry him." I told her she didn't have to. She said she had to do it because she loved him and he really wanted to get married. She was scared. I then went and told the Groom and he was shocked. He said that the bride told him that she wanted to do this. I said he should go talk to her. He did and then I woke up.

I had an annoying dream.

I was taking the SAT's and I threw up on the math part. I had to use the vomitted test or pay for a new one. The paper was all wet and nasty. The same thing happpened to me in the 4th grade in reality. The pages were sticky and it was hard to write on it. It took a lot of time to turn pages. It also took away from focusing on the problems. I threw the pencil away when I was done with it. I was grossed out by how green the white paper was. I also had gotten some on the floor and on the shoe of the person on the right of me.

A lot of people glared at me and I wanted to smack them because it didn't matter that much. I really wasn't bothered by it and knew I would still get a high score since I almost always do well on standardized tests. I really don't care what people thought of me. I wish I bathed in cow manure just so I could ruin their days more because they were not helpful when I needed help most. I then laughed and walked out of the testing room and went home. I wanted to go enjoy me lucky charms.

I had a dream about being in a room with a bunch of different kinds of racists. I talked to a bunch of them and they were all racist againt different things like african americans, gays, muslims, etc. There were all kinds. The people all asked me what I was prejudice against. I thought for a moment and said stupid losers and you all seem to fit the description. They glared at me and I laughed at them. I told them they could shove it down thier throats. The people racist against Jews, bisexuals, and whites came up to me. They started making fun of me and everyone laughed. I then said what I normally say which is You don't matter. I hope your hate ruins your life. I then laughed and pointed at everyone. I couldn't stop laughing. People were bickering among themselves calling each other names.

I'm really gonna miss you babe. I really dun dun dun dun I forgot the rest. This song had meaning in my dream. i dreamt that I was a person singing in the scene where the people sing in The Sweetest Thing. Everyone was singing together and we were all having a fun time. We were all crying with joy. We also made cotton candy which was really really good. It was pink and pink cotton candy is awesome. We then started dancing to some Jazz and had a party. The people in the front were still stuck together though.

This glass house is burning down.
You light the fire i'll stick around.
I'll give you everything you want
and wish the worse on what I was.

Taking Back Sunday - Slowdance on the Inside

This was a dream from last week

I was sitting on a couch listening to music. I was having trouble because of people who were taunting "You listen to Emo music." All music has some emotion or it wouldn't be very good. I then went into a room and changed my clothes and I changed into the usual plain black t-shirt and plain black sweat pants. I do it to absorb heat. When I came out people started yelling "Hey look there is a goth who wants to kill himself." I just went back to the couch I was on and continued listening. Chevelle - The Red came on and then they got louder. I asked them to be quiet. One of the kids went "Aww is the Emo Goth going to cry now." I then said "No, but I am annoyed by you people who have no real life outside of insultation. Please be quiet or go somewhere else." They laughed and started shouting more annoying insults. I then went and got an amp and my guitar. I plugged it in. The people went "Oh is poser boy going to play." I said "No, but I will piss you off." I turned up the treble, bass, reverb, and volume high and I played the guitar over and over as hard as I could. The losers started crying and going "The Pain. Make it stop." I laughed and said "You losers. You can't disrespect someone and expect good treament." They then ran away and I continued listening to my music.

Imagination is more important than knowledge,
for knowledge is limited while imagination embraces the entire world.

- Albert Einstein

I was on a hill. It was a meadow. I looked around and it was beautiful. I smiled content with it laughing and crying for joy. There were animals jumping and playing. It was the perfect scene of nature. At the bottom of the hill there was a girl. I never had seen her before. She was running toward me. I decided to meet her so I ran to her. When I got pretty close I hit a wall. Now I know it is pretty cliche and it has happened in many dreams, but this one annoyed me. I hate invisible walls. They ruin the whole point of what could happen in a dream. The girl was on the other side of the wall crying about 30 feet away. I yelled and saw her yelling too, but we couldn't communicate to each other. I tried to run into the wall and break it over and over. I ended up cutting my arm and I ended up bleeding. A lot of blood came out and it rose to the sky. It floated past the clouds. I looked at the girl again and she was on her knees crying. I worded out don't cry with my lips, but it didn't help. I sighed and layed down watching the clouds until I woke up every once in a while looking at the girl.

"The man who does not read good books is at no advantage over the man who can't read them."
-Mark Twain

Books give me life. They fill me with the air of each word. Each letter describes something in it's own way. The comfort of new perspectives really heartwarms me. I love to read new material whether it ranges from fantasy, political, philisophical, self-improving, etc. I feel a joy I can not get from my own life.

In my dream I was in a library. This was a gigantic library. It streched beyond my sight and I feel like it was infinite. I was amazed at all these books. I then looked at one. It caught my eye. Usually in reality when I see a book I feel if it is correct to read. This book felt correct. I went over to it and picked it up. The book had a powerful energy to it. The power it gave off was amazing. I smiled and laughed when I felt it. The book then floated out of my hand high up. It then grew in size. It was a little bigger than me. It then opened itself up and pages flew out and danced around. Some of the pages wrapped themselves around me and the picked me up. My clothes dissappeared off me when they got me. The pages were soft to the touch and felt good against my naked skin. Pages and words were Moving all around. The pages then dissappeared and I was floating in a world. I was in the middle of a field watching a sword battle play out. I saw little flashes of letters come in. It seemed like the letters changed the way the battle happened. After a bit of that I returned to the library wrapped around in the pages. They put me down and another book came out and did the same thing. It seemed like I was experiencing the books. I went through many of hate, pain, happiness, first kisses, and many types of other books. It was amazing.

Amazing dream.. I'm envy you this experience..

"Dreams come true; without that possibility, nature would not incite us to have them."
-John Updike

I had a dream about the band again. I asked Samantha in real life if she wanted to join me in a band, but she said no. That was depressing.

My friend gave me the song list and I saw it. It is completely awesome. I actually wrote one of the songs on there in real life.

1. I Miss Real Thought
2. Eat Your Heart Out Congressional
3. I Like Me More Than I Like Myself
4. Your Mind Is Only Set on Apocylypse
5. As Many Have Said Open Your Eyes
6. Otters Aren't Icky
7. Technicalities of Telecommunication
8. Sit Down and Have a Granola
9. If We Were Angry Would We Cry
10. Can't Wait for the Next Dance
11. Neutraility in Focus
12. No One Told You to Lose
13. Let's Say Hello

I want to write songs with these names. I wonder if Congressional is in the form of representatives or sex.

After I read it I started playing guitar for fun coming up with riffs for fun and trying to sing with lack of coordination.

Mommy: I just take what comes to me

"There was never an angry man that thought his anger unjust."
-St. Francis De Sales

Yesterday I was very angry at my mother. She handled a situation very badly and it costed me to go to bed at 2 AM. I was kind of unsure if I really wanted to post this, but I felt

I was in a court room. I was accusing my mother of wasting time when she promised I wouldn't. It was true she did. I was really mad. We were arguing whether she was guilty or not. I presented my case and the jury clapped. I laughed and sat down. My mother pleaded to the jury, but it did nothing. Finally the jury made their decision. All guilty. My mother was sentenced to let me live on my own until my dad got back. It was like a day, but you know. She asked me "Do you want this?" I said yes. I was really angry at her. She and my little brother then left I felt better.

I am still mad at her.

All the lights on and you are alive
But you can't point the way to your heart
So sublime, when the stars are aligned
But you don't know
You don't know the greatness you are

Cary Brothers - Blue Eyes

I had an intense dream last night. A white aura was around me. It was twirling around me. I could feel it's power from within myself. I started to cry for joy for some reason. Infact there was no reason at all. I just cried. It felt good to do that I then saw a bokken and picked it up to practice with it. I let out all my energy in the art of Jigen Ryu..

"The most common lie is that which one lies to himself; lying to others is relatively an exception."

-Friedrich Nietzsche

I have realized I am lying to myself. I really am not happy with my love life. It is not my girlfriend. In fact my girlfriend is great, but she does not understand me. She doens't really know my life goals and what I want to do. I am trying to help her stop and she is eating more. I like being with my girlfriend. We make each other extremely happy. Her life is also tricky with her being anorexic. I am trying to help her stop and she is eating more. It is hard when she is allergic to sugar. If there was not another girl that I wanted to be with more then I bet my relationship would not seem so bad and in fact it would be better off. I keep thinking about the girl I really love more in all of my sexual and romantic dreams.

My dream last night

I was at the park. It is my cities' main park. I went and put my back against a tree. I looked around for a bit and then a man came up to me and said "You are not happy." I then realized I was lucid when I did a quick reality check and asked him why. He pointed to two people sitting on a bench. To my dismay I knew who those people were. It was the girl I love and her boyfriend. They were kissing. It pained me to see it. The man said that I was only lying to myself. I knew it to be true. I cried being pained into the deepest parts of my soul to see that. All I know is that I want her to be happy even if it means I can't be there.

Sometimes I drive or ride with my eyes closed tight
Because if the skyline looks this way then I don’t want to sleep tonight.
Never giving up, always seeking light,
We must always try, try with all our might.

Mae - Skyline Drive

I entered my dream on a grassy plain.I was walking alone and kept walking farther and farther in a straight line. In the background some music started playing. It was some nice slow music. In a genre you could call it Happy Emotional. I kept going and smiling. This was in 3rd person.

It was clear to him that he had only come to the shop
because of this book. It had called him in some mysterious
way, because it wanted to be his, because it had somehow
always belonged to him.

Michael Ende - The Neverending Story

I had a dream that I was reading Earth's Begotten. It is a book that is out of a print. There are only 50 of them. I loved it so much. I was so happy to have it. I finally got it after so long. I kept reading it over and over. The text in there was beautiful in big cursive words. The pages were on scroll paper. It looked really nice. I kept taking in the words of main characters such as Elua, Naamah, and Cassiel. I seemed to be extremely entranced with every letter I read. When I woke up I was really sad. I still am looking for that book.

"Love is not finding someone to go to bed with, but finding someone you want to wake up next to in the morning. Love is not finding the perfect person, but finding the imperfect person perfect."

-Anonymous

There is one I love so much I would die for her. It is a love so great it takes my whole body to comprehend it. I keep dreaming of her so beautiful and kind. She is just amazing. I love to hear her speak. It is everyday that I see her that I cherish in my heart. I want to protect her. I would do anything if she would just be with me.

My hope to become lover and I were laying on my bed. We were talking about how we could become friends. I told her I loved her and she said that was ok, but she couldn't be with me. She loved another. I said that would be fine as long as I could be near you watching over you and protecting you when you need it. I told her that I only wanted her to be happy. I would be there to watch over her like a guardian angel. She said that she would like that. We kept talking until she said she had to leave. I hugged her and let her go saying goodbye leading her out the door.