Thread: Expropriate's Journal

Hello:

In regard to your second dream:

I'm not sure if you study ancient history as it pertains to the bible. However, this dream is very close to Revelation Rev 3:7-13. I'm not going to post text from the bible, but I can explain the basics.

Philadelphia, which means “brotherly love,” was situated in Lydia along the Hermus River valley southeast of Sardis. It was backed by volcanic cliffs and though the land was rich and fertile from the volcanic residue, Philadelphia was a dangerous place to live due to the many earthquakes experienced by the region. Because of its location, the city was in constant danger of earthquakes and experienced shocks as an everyday occurrence. As a result, many of its inhabitants chose to live in huts outside the city in the open country.

The city was founded for a special purpose and with a special intention. It was situated where the borders of Mysia, Lydia and Phrygia met. It was a border town. But it was not as a garrison town that Philadelphia was founded, for there was little danger there. It was founded with the deliberated intention that it might be a missionary of Greek culture and the Greek language to Lydia and Phrygia and it worked because the Lydians had forgotten their own Lydian language and were all but Greeks … That is what the Risen Christ means when he speaks of the open door that is set before Philadelphia.

The door of Philadelphia (in Rev) is only opened by God. “The One opening …” and “And who shuts and no one opens …” are referred to in these verses. So your dream may have ended because only "He" could have opened it.

~Deja

Wow that's very interesting. I picked up a bible myself and looked at Rev 3-7:13 and saw for myself Philadelphia, and the door, and even the mention of a calf! (Holy Cow?) And no, I haven't studied ancient history, but I was reading up on things tuesday afternoon at this site: http://www.revelation13.net/ . I read a bunch of stuff on this site, including about the meteors and armageddon. This is my second apocalypse dream I've had in the past 2 weeks. Love how you interpreted this dream, I would've never known!

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Sept. 29th


I was disrupted this morning earlier than usual ( 5:30 ) and so I only recalled a part of this dream...I know other things happened, but I couldn't recall so here goes what I remember:

Elementary/Middle School Friends & Old Crush

I'm in my elementary/middle school, and I'm with a group of friends, we're talking and laughing about something. We're in the auditorium of the school. Then another one of my friends with a kid I knew back in 5th grade, walks over and he hangs out with us. Next thing I know, I'm walking towards an exit to a hallway, on the right side of the stage. I walk down a hallway and take a left, to the right of me are doors leading to classrooms, and saw a second grade teacher in one of the rooms. She's a nun ( in real life too ) and I had her for second grade too ( I went to a Catholic School ). Anyways she's teaching a class, and I just move on down the hallway. On my left are the restrooms. I come to the end of that hall, and take another left, and then a sharp right and there are stairs there, I start going up them. And I keep going up, and up, and up, and the stairs start getting narrow, and more narrow, and I keep going up, around and around. When I reach the top I see a girl, Samantha, sitting in a fetal position next to a window and smiling at me. I had a major crush on this girl since Kindergarten to 8th grade (Yeah she was in the same class as me, and so were all the friends I was with). Anyways I think we start talking....and I think we're at the top of a lighthouse. I take a peek out the window and I see the sea.... and thats all I remember. There's other things that happened, but I couldn't remember them.

Hello,

I'm glad I could help. Many people have dreams of the "End Times," especially in their youth. I have not formed an opinion as to why, particularly the young, seem to have these dreams more often than adults.

I do believe there are personal messages designed for the dreamer within them - that they are not just broad-scope dreams.

Such as, when you wrote:

"Then I'm really scared, and I see people screaming running away from the meteor and the gas, not running back into their homes but away from them. Another meteor crashes near the cows behind the barn and they all instantly die except for one....the one with the sign. I called it the ' Holy Cow ' , and I remember telling myself I wanted that sign....I didn't want to die."

Pay attention to things in your dream where YOU want something or YOU do something, as opposed to being an observer "watching the world fall apart," so to speak. If you go through your dream again and isolate the "I" statements, you can put together much meaning. Of course, this applies to all dreams, not just those which seem like Armageddon.

Also....

I should have mentioned this at the beginning.

After you write out your dream - try to summarize the feelings associated with the dream while the dream was occuring - not the feelings you had after the dream.

For example:
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I had a dream that ____ _____ _____ _____ (and so on and so forth).

Overall, my emotions during this dream were: a sense of confusion and excitement (or fear, worry, happiness, curiosity, attraction, etc).

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This is important because when someone reads your dream, you don't want them imposing their feelings and emotions on what you experienced. You want them to be able to see/understand it from your state of mind at the time.

P.S. I went to Catholic school also, so I especially enjoyed your last post

~Deja

I'm sorry I've been really busy lately and haven't gotten the chance to type up my dreams, well I got my chance and here are two! I'm going to try to type up maybe another two tonight.

[ I noticed something. I've been watching/seeing TV's in my dreams lately, could it be a dreamsign? ]

9/30/05

Running in Darkness

I woke up about 4:30 am and I was too tired to go and write down what I just dreamt, so I thought hey, let me try a DILD....didn't work, and this is all I can remember from
the dream I had... I was running in darkness, when suddenly someone shoots 8 bullets in my back with a shotgun. I stop and look at the bullet wounds in my stomach, then some guy in a cape (looks like a priest - black clothing) comes around me and bashes the back of my head with a crowbar...or something, and I just die. That's it.

No Feelings....

10/1/05

Los Angeles Volcanoes & Creepy Building

The memories from this dream are kind of mixed up, so I wrote it down in the most logical order; they might be 2 seperate dreams, but It doesn't seem so...

I'm watching the news on TV. I see pictures of Los Angeles from an aeriel view, and they're talking about some volcano that is erupting from under Los Angeles. I see fire spitting out of the ground, and fire catching on houses and stuff. I also see the Hollywood sign being burned... I think the next thing that happens is, I take a plane there with my family to Los Angeles, and on the way there my dad gets a piece of glass stuck in his throat somehow. When we make it there, my dad rents a car and drives over to a station...or gates of Los Angeles. My dad finds a great parking spot by the entrance in an alleyway. The entrance is like a huge gate, and up above there's a sign that says 'Los Angeles'. We go through the entrance, straight ahead of us is a wall. And on the left we see a walkway, so we go down these steps, on the left side as we go down is a chain-link fence covered with vines and behind that is a railroad. At the bottom of the steps we take a right down a little hallway and we reach a fork, we can take a left up a small flight of stairs onto the platform or go straight. We went straight I don't know what happens next, it's a blank spot, I guess we enter Los Angeles. Anyways the next thing I know, we're coming back down from that hallway, and we see a chubby woman and her family. We're at the fork, and she asks us where the trainstation is, my dad tells her to go up these steps on our right (their left). She says thank you and they went up. Then from up on the platform she asks again where the traintracks are, my dad points towards that direction, she looks and says, 'Oh, thank you.'. We keep going, around the bend, up the ramp and we're back at the entrance. We walk over to the other side of the entrance and down the alley-way, my dad says 'Wow, what a perfect parking spot, huh guys?' I said 'yeah.' Then the next thing I know, I'm walking towards an old, tall building. There are steps in front of me leading up to the front door, I don't take them. Instead I go around to the left of the staircase, there's a small passageway leading to a wooden door. I'm carrying a bucket of tar in my right hand as I go down this passageway. I reach the door, open it, and find myself in a small garage/workshop type room. It's quite small. There's a table up against a wall a few steps in front of me, with tools and things scattered all over it. I look around and feel as if I've been there before. I notice another passageway to the left corner of the room, light is shining on the side of the wall. I step to my left a few steps, and look down this passageway and I see lots of green plants; the garden, I thought to myself. I go back in front of that table, and I kneel down and open the tar bucket, I begin spreading the tar on the floor, and I pick up a tool to spread it across the floor. Then I notice there's another door, in the corner of the wall to my right. It looks exactly like the door in my garage leading into the laundry room. I go up to it, open the door, and step up into the room. It's my laundry room, and everything looks abandoned and rusty (I also don't live in an apartment, and the workshop I was just in is suppose to be my garage) I go ahead a few steps and open up another door leading to my living room. I take a step in and stop and look around. It's very dark, it looks abandoned and very ugly (torn walls, etc) I feel a little scared, I feel a sort of presence there. Directly in front of me on the floor I notice theres a folded piece of paper. I pick it up, and it looks filthy, I open it and see drawings, weird symbols, in red and black crayon. I think I hear or see something in the darkness, and I run out quickly, leaving the doors open and not looking back. The next thing I know, I'm somewhere...with my sister, I have no idea where I am. A park maybe. Anyways a woman and her daughter comes up to me and ask me if I've been to 'the building' and I said ' yeah, I have, but you don't want to go there lady.' She then insists she must go, suddenly my sister interrupts what I'm about to say and tells her she can go, and that it's always open to anyone. She says 'Thank You' and leaves. I push my sister at the shoulder and ask her why did she tell her, she said the lady needed to go so let her go. I feel a little mad at her and I just say 'whatever.' The next thing I know, I'm back at the front of the building. This time, I go right into the workshop, into the laundry room, and back to where that piece of paper was. To my right are steps, just like in my house, leading to the front door. I go up the steps, and I stand in front of the front door with my back to it. In front of me are a few more stairs to get up to the second floor. I look ahead and I see a very bright white light shining in the kitchen. I also see lots of green, and plants.(There's 3 windows and a glass door leading out to a deck back in the kitchen/dining table area, in real-life) To my right I see the balcony destroyed, beyond that I see my fireplace is destroyed, and along the walls (it's a wall made up of mirrors, big mirrors, in rl too) it's all covered with soot. It's very dark and black in this area, very disgusting. I'm starting to feel very scared. Then I notice another folded, dirty piece of paper on the steps in front of me. I pick it up, and it's like the last one, except I see stick figures this time, it looks all bloody, and one stick figure has blood squirting from its neck and it looks like its in pain. I drop it and look up to the dark area of the second floor (fireplace-side) and I see the darkness...moving, and the walls move and swirl. There's a sort of creepy drone I hear as well. Then I look to the corner of the hall which leads to the bedrooms, etc (near the kitchen) and I see darkness moving out from it, I feel something very strong. I'm extremely scared now, I believe I see a child peeking out from that darkness. I run out the front door and across the street quickly, and walk down a ramp, into what looks like an empty canal, above me I see wooden planks going across the gap(canal) which I'm in. The path ends and I can either make a left or right. I take a left and ahead of me I see a little boy with blonde hair and a man. The man is lying on the ground, he looks hurt. I walk up to them and the guy tells me 'Hey, you left the tar in there when you left.' I think I said something, but all I know is I felt like leaving, getting out of there. The little kid then says " My daddy always hires irresponsible teenage boys.' The father of this kid is still on the floor, and he's breathing heavily, like he's dying. As I start to walk away, I twist my neck left and right to snap it, the father sees this and says ' Look at him, just like his father. I know he got a piece of glass stuck in his throat on the airlines, I know.' I walk away silently, taking a right down another ramp, and into a tunnel. It ends.

Feelings: Curiousity ( I felt very curious, such as when I'm in the workshop, and I discover that door in the corner, I felt curious. ), Immense Dread ( I was totally scared to death standing there looking at the darkness move in the corridor and on the walls ), Desperation ( I was desperate to leave from wherever I was, to just dissapear from all that. )

10/07/05 2 Dreams

Monkey Business

I'm with a couple of monkeys (about 3) and my brother. We enter a house. My brother is looking for a bathroom, so we search for one. We go into a room, a room that looks like that of a dolls house. The room (walls, ceilings) look and feel miniature (I'm sort of hunched over because the ceiling is so low.) I'm in a sort of living room area, by a regular, but small couch. The monkeys are jumping around me and fooling around. I tell my brother ' Aww, aren't they cute? ' he responds ' Yeah, they are. Is there a bathroom here? ' I look around, and I look over the wall behind the couch....(the wall is like..unfinished. There's a gap between the top of the wall and ceiling...its weird) I find a room back there, and its a bathroom, except the only thing it has is a toilet, which looks extremely old, and dirty, with all kinds of pipes coming out of it. Oddly there's a light on the ceiling in there, flourescent. I tell him "Yeah there's on here, behind a wall.." Then I laugh, and we continue to another room. This room looks pretty messy; its large, looks like a kitchen with a bunch of junk scattered on a very long counter against a wall on my left. Projecting from that wall is some pipe, which connects to a toilet in the center of the room. On the ceiling is a flourescent light, illuminating the whole room. I say " Look, a toilet. " He's really desperate to go (#2). As he's about to go sit down I lift the lid up as he sits down. He sits down and then yells 'hey!' I laugh a bit and I say " You don't like it with the lid up? "he says "No, of course not, what if I fall in..." then across from the toilet is a doorway, and I walk through and the dream ends.

Feelings: Humorous , maybe a little mischievous.


Girlfriend Is a Man

I'm with my girlfriend (Stephanie), in a car, outside of some house at night. We're talking, and then we start arguing. She starts saying that she's a man, not a woman. I ask her,
"Stephanie, what the hell are you talking about?!" then she says "I'm not Stephanie, I'm a man!". For some reason...I remember being with some guy in the car before, and I hear her voice while im looking for something in the glove compartment...anyways. The next thing I know, she gets out of the car (she was sitting in the drivers seat) and I get out of the car and ask her where she's going. I'm feeling pissed off and confused. She doesn't look like my girlfriend... well not really. She goes around the house, walking swiftly across the lawn, away from me. And that's about the last thing I remember.

Feelings: Confusion , Pissed off

A 10/12/05 and 10/15/05 Recalls coming tomorrow! (Catching up) BTW, the missing dates inbetween have no recall.

10/12/05

A Weird Classroom

I'm sitting in a classroom and to my left is a kid named Chris I go to school with(but I'm not friends with), and to his left are large windows going across the wall, beyond that is a parking lot. To the right of me is my sister. Suddenly, Chris asks my sister... "hey, what're you doing friday night?" in which I reply "hey, that's my sister." then he says "so what?" In front of the class I see my dad observing us, just like a teacher. Then across the right side of the room I hear a girl say "What? Chris just asked out that new girl? The fifteen year old..."(My sister isn't 15 yet), then I don't remember what happens after that, but I think I have a conversation at the back of the room with some people. The next thing I know I'm at the front of the classroom, at a corner of the room sitting on a counter by the window, and I'm looking at everyone and out the window too. We're waiting for the bell to ring. The bell rings and I walk out, towards the parking lot, with books in my hands and papers on top. Walking off the curb, my papers fall to the floor, and as I go to pick them up another kid I've seen in school behind me picks them up for me (they look like math papers, and I saw some weird symbols on one of them) I place them back on top of my books and I say thanks, and he says "Now get the fuck out of my country" and
walks away talking on a cellphone. The End!

Feelings: Hmm, defensive, for my sister. That's all.

10/15/05

Lost Highway

I was somewhere with my family, looks like a camp. I'm running around with my brother, away from this girl named Elisa. She was a neighbor I had for about 7 years, up until 2 years ago, when I had to move. We hide behind a car (my dads Ford van) and wait for her. She goes around the car, and we sneak towards the back of the car as she comes around as to not be seen. As she comes around the back, I jump out at her and scare her. The next thing I know, we're in the car. It's dark outside; I look out the window and it looks like we're on the highway. I'm sitting in the backseat, and I'm inbetween my brother and Elisa. Brother on the left, Elisa on the right. My brother is kneeling on the seat with his arms up over the back-support. He's somehow steering the car like this, he's actually driving the car, there is no one in the drivers seat. As he's not paying attention, I move closer to Elisa and start to kiss her, and I'm like totally lusting for her....She suddenly appears naked. My hand goes down her back and then I notice that my brother is noticing us, so I make up an excuse and say "hehe, yeah there was this ball stuck back here". I stop..fondling with her, and I look ahead onto the road, and I see we're going perfectly straight, and then I realize that my brother can't make turns, he's not even looking ahead. I yell at him "What the hell are you doing?! We can have an accident man, let me drive!" I jump into the drivers seat and I take control of the car. As I steer the car around a bend I ask him "Danny, where are we? You got us lost man, where the hell are we?" I'm getting scared. I'm driving this car at night, and I'm lost, none of us know where we are....As I drive I see other cars on the road too, and I see exits on the left and right sides - I don't take them. I look around for signs to tell us where we are, or rather where we're headed. I see one on an arching bridge, and it's somewhere in New Jersey. Then I look to my right I see a movie theater, and the sign which tells you what movies are playing. I say "hey look that place looks familiar." I pull over near an exit, just before an arching bridge. We get out of the car. There's lots of shrubberry covering up the view of the cinema. I notice my brother (who is mysteriously holding a bike) and Elisa aren't behind the white line (they're like on the street - also the car has dissapeared). I tell them "Get out of the there! A car can come by and kill you both, get next to me, behind the white line, as far back as possible." I tell my bro and Elisa "We're gonna get somewhere, buy some soda, and call dad at a phonebooth and we're gonna be just fine." Then I notice in the shruberry two little kids are playing in there. They're moving around in there and giggling, they look like shadows. I don't know what happens next but I listen to an advertisement about a doctor who wants to help parents control their families, or manipulate the kids in a way to make a dysfunctional family, or a family that isn't working right, work. It's like I'm watching a movie, because what happens next has nothing to do with me. I see a woman in the kitchen of a house. She knows about this doctor somehow, and I see a list which says her kids names and how they should behave. She goes up to , 2? of her kids and tells them how the shouldy behave. Then she's looking for her 2 other kids (the kids in the shrubs). She goes out of the house, and goes by the highway, she finds her husband (he's nearby me, looking into the shrubs). She says "I make dinner at 7 everyday, and the kids are always running around not listening to me, by the time you know it they need to go to sleep...." The kids come out of the bushes, its a little boy and girl. She tells them how they need to behave and they all leave. The dream ends.

Feelings: Lust (Strong desire for Elisa), Lost & Scared (I hate getting lost. I was really scared in this one.)

10/16/05

False Awakening?

I woke up and hear the radio on (in real life) It's my 5:30 alarm, and I hear the song - You ain't seen nothing yet, by Backman-Turner Overdrive. I'm too tired to get up and turn it off, besides I like the song, so I listen to it and fall back asleep. I wake up again, and my mom is in another bed across my room by the windows. I get up to turn off the radio, when I do my mom is awake, she tells me " Hey, I was listening to that...." I go back to bed and she gets up and says "I'm gonna go watch TV". I lay in my bed and I'm wide awake, I can't fall back asleep so I decide to go downstairs to watch some TV with my mom. I sit by her on the floor, she's flipping channels and all I see is porno. She stops at a channel There's two lesbian women, well, you know. And then a cutscene with the camera moving from their feet, and going up to their faces showing full nudity along the way. Anyways she changes it to another porno channel and asks me if I want to see that, I shrug and say "I don't know, whatever" she changes it back to the lesbians and asks me again and I say "fine, whatever" then I wake up....quite excited. That's it.

Feelings: Excitement

10/17/05 Nap Dreams

Hiding in a Room

I'm at my old house. I'm sitting in front of my computer in a dark room (this was the computer room); the room is quite small, only one window. The door is a folding door
like that of a closets. I go to close it as I hear someone coming. I lock it with a hook, and then I peek through the horizontal gaps in the door. I see Chris (the kid thats in 2 of my classes) I also see another kid from a class of mine named Drew. They're in the dining room as I can see it. They're looking around for me. Time passes by (that's how it felt) Chris leaves finally, and I thought all of them left, so I open the door and walk out to check. I look towards the living room and I see Drew and quickly go back inside and lock the door. He says "Come on Tommy, come on out!" I don't come out...and then the dream ends.

Feelings: None in particular.


At A Kids Party

I'm at a kids party and I'm dressed all cool. I'm going around the place and acting like a hotshot, and a clown. I see some familiar people. There are adults around dressed in blue, like uniforms. They look like they're supervising the party. One of them announces a game in which we have to find a certain number or note on an item. There are a ton of items in the room, scattered on shelves, tables, etc. I go up to a shelf in a corner and pick up something and I look at it. One of the supervisors walks up to me and tells me I'm not suppose to touch that or pick it up. So I put it back and walk away across the room to a table with cakes and delicacies on it. I look at a piece of cake or something like that on the table, and I pick it up and I look under it, again I'm caught by another supervisor and I set it back down. So then I walk out of there and find a hallway. My dad is in this hallway, and the side of the hallway is like morphed. It's half hallway, half outside like patio area. And in the outside area there are these girls sitting by a ten, looking at me. I go up to my dad and he asks me "Hey Tom, why don't you try sliding down the hallway?" and I say "Hey, I use to do that when I was little, in school" (And I did, back in my Catholic school - I was basically the class clown back then) He then says "Come on, let's go" he runs a bit then slides down the hallway on his knees, taking the carpet along with him on the way down. I step back a few steps and run a bit, then I slide all the way down the hallway, and I'm laughing and having fun. Then the dream ends.

Feelings - Happy (I think I was happy in this dream - going back and doing something I use to do in grammar school.... heh. I think I was revisiting who I was back then)

10/23/05 Morning Dream (It was suppose to be DREAMS, but I forgot the second one like FIVE minutes later, as I was thinking about the first one....argh!!!)

Party Next-Door

There was a party going on next door with a bunch of kids from my school (think I saw Chris again). I was looking at them through the back window in my parents room. Then I saw them throwing junk over the fence and into our backyard. I told my mom and then I went outside with her and my sister. We looked at all the things they were throwing over; I tell my mom "Mom, I'm gonna go grab something, and throw it over to the peoples yard behind their yard; they'll get into bigger trouble with them." So I go and grab a blanket they threw over (which is the same exact blanket I use everynight to go to sleep with) I take it over all the way to the back of the yard, and I go to the corner and I push the blanket over to the other side and I say "Ha, ha, here you go birds" and I also say something like "It's for the birds to eat...." and that's it.

Feelings: I didn't feel much of anything in this one.

// Now about forgetting dreams...I think I'm going to start writing down key words or feelings of the dreams I have, immediately after waking up, that way if I forget one while trying to remember the other one fully...I'll read what I wrote and hopefully remember it. Hope that'll work? \

10/24/05

[b]LUCID DREAM #1

I was doing my daily WILD today, I did my procedures, relaxed, etc. After a long while, I felt like I was still in relaxation phase, so I decided to give up. I got up and took off my earplugs, put them on my desk and turned on my computer. When I get on I notice the time on my clock above, it's 1:00. I realize this is wrong, it couldn't be 1:00 because I had a full day of school today. So I look at my computers time, and it says 3:00. I think to myself, I must be going nuts. So I walk to the kitchen, and I look around and I ask myself "Am I dreaming?" and my mom is there in the kitchen. I then ask my mom, "Mom, am I dreaming?" she says "What? Are you crazy?" I tell her that I looked at my clock in the room and it said 1:00 but its suppose to be around 5. She says "Maybe something went wrong with it" Then I tell her... "Yeah, but mom, my computers time is messed up too it says 3." then I tell her "I'm gonna go check Elizabeths computer." I go there and check, the time is wrong as well. So I'm still confused, am I dreaming? I walk back into my room and i hear some guys in the hallway say they're there to repair the drains and one guy said "It's the circular, tube shaped thing" then another guy said "Found it. Oh God, God! The smell..." Back in my room I'm still trying to think why the time is weird, I look back at my clock and it says some other time, and then I look away a few more times and it kept changing! I kept checking both times on my computer and clock (also the clock displayed not only numbers, but simple words like 'fish') and then I REALIZE IT! I'm dreaming! I start saying "I'm dreaming, I'm dreaming!" then I see everything black out for a second, and I felt myself pushed back too. I sat down on my computer seat quickly, and I started saying to myself "Okay, okay, stay calm, stay calm" but I got way too excited (smiling and all!) and I felt my body back in the bed, and then I was pushed back in my chair and I fell back in my bed - I woke up!

How I think I became lucid: While I was in my WILD practice, I was lying there for a good while, and I felt nothing, no pains, no twitches, nothing but some SP. I must have fallen asleep while thinking of this, so that's when I continued my daily routine in the dream world, as I usually give up the WILD when I've gotten no where with it. I need to know if I'll be able to use this
again to my own advantage and become lucid again!!! I FINALLY HAD ONE! *so excited*

Congrats Ex !!!!!

Since this worked for you, let's try to pinpoint exactly what you did....and what led up to it.

1. What time of the day did you lay down?

2. What time did you awake from the LD?

3. When you say you laid there for "a good while"...how long do you mean?

4. What were your thoughts during WILDs? Such as, did you perceive any visualizations, hear music, ringing of ears, etc?

5. Was the room completely dark or was there ambient light? (or eyemask).

6. How much sleep did you have the night before? More or less than usual?

I don't think "giving up" needs to integrated into your routine. What is REALLY good though is that you get up when WILDs is not working.....after a determined effort. I would keep doing that part of your routine. Even if it is only for a few minutes.

The dream with your mother sounds like it was a False Awakening. It also seemed to be crying out for a RC. Are you doing/practicing Awareness Checks during the day?

Smiles,
Deja

Okay!

1. What time of the day did you lay down?
Around 3:40 is when I usually start my WILD, and that's the time I started yesterday.

2. What time did you awake from the LD?
Exactly at 6

3. When you say you laid there for "a good while"...how long do you mean?
From 3:40 to 6. I didn't get up at all for anything.

4. What were your thoughts during WILDs? Such as, did you perceive any visualizations, hear music, ringing of ears, etc?
I don't remember much of what happens during WILD's for some reason... I thought about the most random things at times. Umm, I might have heard a clicking sound, but I just thought that was my nose or something (my nose is congested).

5. Was the room completely dark or was there ambient light? (or eyemask).
I had my shades halfway closed this time, so there was light coming in and I could see it
if I opened my eyes behind the eyemask and looked down to my feet.

6. How much sleep did you have the night before? More or less than usual?
Less; I went to sleep at 12:30 , where I usually go to sleep at 12.

What is REALLY good though is that you get up when WILDs is not working.....after a determined effort. I would keep doing that part of your routine. Even if it is only for a few minutes. < That's what I meant! I haven't given up , I just do this.

The dream with your mother sounds like it was a False Awakening. It also seemed to be crying out for a RC. Are you doing/practicing Awareness Checks during the day?

-Yes, but not as often as I do Reality Checks. I should probably do more AC's.

Quick question to clarify....

Did you do WILDs at 3:40 AM or PM? I assume PM since you said light was visible under the eyemaks - but want to be sure.

Deja

PM. I always have my WILD practice after school

Recall has been bad lately...

10/29/05

The Movies, Burger King, and a Mansion.

I think there were two or three dreams I had, but it all fits into one somehow.. I'm not sure.. Read on -

I'm somewhere with my family, and I think we're going to go see a movie or something. I'm in the car and we're driving through downtown, Perth Amboy (town I lived in a while back). My mom is driving and I was in the passenger seat, and my dad is in the backseat right behind me. My dad tells me "Tom, you're going to get excited." We talk a little about how males get horny, and how teenage boys get hornier even worse because of hormones and etc. I suppose the movie or whatever we're going to go see contains nudity. So basically he's telling me to masturbate before we go see it. So suddenly I'm browsing the internet on a laptop? I go to to some asian porn sites, and I decide to show my dad a picture I found. But I hesitate and as he's about to look, I go to to the deviantart site. I tell him "Look, it's an art site." and he replies "No, it needs to be erotic, not some artful picture with a mother breast-feeding her baby." That's all I remember from that part....

Then we're somewhere else. We're going out to eat and my mom suggests someplace - Happy, Delight something. It's someplace where they have sandwhiches. So we're going up route something, when we see it to the left on the other side of the road. We see a guy cleaning up outside with a broom and my dad says "Ahh, they're already closing" so instead of making a u-turn to go to that side, my mom continues down a small road and we come across a McDonalds and Burgerking right across the street from eachother. My dad asks "Alright, which one do you guys want?" I immediately say Burger King. (Because I love bk and hate mcdonalds) So we go to burger king. We park, and walk in. It's empty of any customers. It looks very different inside. There is a single cashier behind a podium by a wall, and you can clearly see the people putting together the meals and stuff right in front of you. And the back wall is missing, and I see a huge metallic, grimy room. There's some steps down into it ahead of me, and some guy at the bottom near the steps, he's in front of a grill and slapping burgers on it and frying them. There's a woman nearby throwing garbage cans down the steps, and another guy takes them and shoves it down a huge ramp in the huge metallic room (im standing a few steps away from the steps, looking into this big room, the ramp is to the left) and down into a garbage pit with piles of these trash cans. And against the wall on the right side of this room are people putting together the meals and towards the back is a door with steps leading up to it and rice and food littered all over the floor. The woman shoves the garbage can down the steps again, and hits the grill guy by mistake. He turns around and she says "oops, sorry!" and she takes it and pushes it down the ramp and into the pit. That's all I remember from there.

Then I find myself asking my brother if he's coming to see the "Path Of Neo" trailer (new videogame coming out soon), and to show him the game Fahrenheit. So we go 'home'. We go in, and find ourselves in a mansion. I go up a winding staircase with my brother, and into a room down a hallway. This room has 2 pools in it. I think we saw a bunch of women in bikini's in here...something like that, I'm not sure. Anyways we walk on the right side of these pools, and across the room through another door. We go in, and it's a dark room it looks like the inside of a machine. I tell my brother I'm gonna show him the beginning and maybe the middle part of the game Fahrenheit. We go down some steps on the left and go up to this vault-looking wall. This is suppose to be the inside of my computer... I see Unreal Tournament 2004 (a game) is installed, and I want to uninstall it. (I've uninstalled this a long time ago). So I tell my brother "I'm going to uninstall this crap." He leaves and then I see an annoying little girl, which is a videogame character, starts to annoy me and ask questions and stuff. Now to uninstall the game, I'm going to blow the place up. So I start to place bombs all over the place, and then I run out with a detonater in my hand. I press the detonaters button and it blows up. My brother and I cheer. I remember seeing math problems in the waters of the pool here...something with factor trees, I don't know lol. Well there's a large window, and my brother and I peek through the shades and we see dad is back. He comes out of the car and we see a woman, she looks like our cousin Sabrina. I say "Hey, look it's Sabrina, I'm gonna influence that bitch." (I have no idea...) then my brother says "But she's our cousin." THen we go downstairs and outside, it's night time. I look at the woman, and it's not Sabrina. My dad is talking to her, and then she leaves, but before she does she gives my dad a kiss on the cheek. He comes up to us and said he went out to the motorcycle club for a while. We go back inside, and I tell my mom I'm hungry (something I usually say) and my dad says the same. Then we go up the stairs. The next thing I know I'm on the computer talking to Sabrina in a chatroom, and I'm running a bot called Sex something..., and when I run it it starts to scroll crap in the chatroom and it says its name and version and stuff and then a guy comes in and says "Ahh, that bot...." and he talks about something sexual. And I get scared because my cousin is very religious and after seeing that stuff being scrolled with the word 'sex' in it, I might get into trouble. But then the guy leaves and she says "Wow, did you see that guy?" How stupid was that...all of that junk he said" and the next thing I know we're going to bed. So Danny and I go to 'our' room. It's a completely different room. A bed is by the door as you walk in - it's sideways as you face it. And just behind that one a couple of feet away by a window is another bed, in the corner. I choose the bed by the window, and I as I go to it I see my brother has a nicer blanket then I do on his bed, so I switch it with mine. He comes in and goes to bed, and I go to bed too.

Feelings: Disgust (At the burger king) That's all I believe...

10/30/05

Stealing From a New York Grocery Store

I was across the street from Central Park in NY. I'm with my mom and she's sitting down at the foot of a statue. I think she's holding my dog Wizard by a leash, I go down to pet my dog (he's a miniature pinscher). And then I walk down the block to a grocery store. The grocery store clerk isn't there, it's all empty. I take a look around and I see my favorite junkfood on a stand. I pick about 6 junkfood items and I fit them all into 4 pockets. Two in both pants pockets and one in each of my sweatshirts pockets. I look around to check, and then I decide to walk out, but I hesitate. I sense a detector of some kind is at the door, that'll ring if I walk out with the items. So I go back to the stand and face it, and start to think - "Should I steal this or not?" And I'm there for a while thinking about this. Then a kid and his mother walks into the store, and I get scared and I start to look and pick up items as if shopping. The kid pushes me aside from the junk food stand. There's a seat in front of the stand stretching across to the end of some shelves. I decide to sit down, then his mother who is standing by the door tells her son "Hey, don't steal anything, you know what happened to you before." Then he responded in a 'whatever' kind of way, "yeah yeah, I'm not gonna steal anythin'" and she says "you went to jail." That's when I decided to drop all the stuff from my pockets and leave the store. When I left I felt good about not stealing, and I went back to my mom. That's it.

Feelings: Scared (Stolen goods in my pockets, people walking into the grocery store? Definetely), Happy (I felt great when I didn't steal the stuff, I also breathed in air when I went outside and smiled - in the dream of course.)

11/03/05

Nap Dream - Naked In School

I was at school, without any pants or underwear, just a shirt. I'm in the hallway outside my homeroom, and the lights are all out, its dark. I see my friend Phil nearby (there's light coming from an open classroom door). I tell him that I'm late, I'm suppose to be in French class, and that I better hurry up but first I'm going to the bathroom. So he says something, then goes on his way. I'm holding my pants, underwear, and a towel in my hands. I'm trying to keep my shirt down as far as I can(hiding my nakedness). I also notice some kids looking out at me and laughing I think from the classroom. I go up to a desk in the hallway, with a teacher behind it on bathroom duty. I ask him if I can go to the bathroom, and he said "Oh, thought you were gonna take a walk and go to french?" I said "No, gotta go to the bathroom first." He tells me to sign in first, and puts a blank white shirt in front of me to sign on. I pick up a pen and write down my name but not the time. I walk into the bathroom. It's very different from any bathrooms in my school. I go to the back behind a wall by some stalls. I lean against a sink and start to put on my clothes and as I'm pulling my pants up, I see a girl come in. She starts washing her hands, her back towards me near the door. I find her attractive, and as I'm pulling up my pants, I'm looking at her, hoping she doesn't look back. Then she looks back and sees me, and giggles, then twirls around a wet shirt and wets me and the whole place, and I laugh too and then she leaves. I notice my wet socks on the floor, then a second later a man comes in and stares out the door looking at the girl that he just passed, then he notices me. He's an asian looking man, dressed up formally like a teacher. He comes up to me and says "See how stupid that was? Comes in and starts twirling a shirt, wetting the whole place....what a mess" and he goes on and on about how stupid and 'bozo' people can be. Then another teacher comes in, Mr.Taige. He asks if everything was alright in here, the asian teacher turns around and tells hims everything is fine and that I haven't done anything wrong, that I actually did something good. Then something else happens, they leave...and I walk out. I walk by the classroom thats by the restrooms slowly to see if I see that girl again. But I don't, because they're all turned around facing the back of the classroom and watching a movie. I go to the sign-in desk and see a gym teacher sitting on the desk, I ask him where to sign out and he points to a piece of paper on the left side of him, then I tell him I signed in on a shirt not a piece of paper. He says "Oh, here..." and pulls it out from behind him. As I sign out, I realize I forgot to put the time. So I look for a clock on the desk and I find one. It says it's nearly 3. But that couldn't be possible I realized, but then I just tell myself the clock must be wrong. So I look at my watch and go with whatever was on there. [Almost a lucid dream....]

Feelings: Scared (I was scared I was missing my whole French class), Embaressment (nakedness.)

11/05/05

Short Story Dreams - Mental Hospital, Sam Fisher and The Baby Doll

Mental Hospital

Don't remember too much about this one... I remember I'm at my old house, and I'm looking out some windows, and a movie is being filmed on the street. Next thing I know I'm in a mental hospital. (Maybe I'm part of the movie). I'm with my brother, walking around and exploring narrow/dark hallways of this insane place. It's a very creepy setting. I tell my brother "This is like Session 9 the movie, except it's not scary, it's beautiful, so dark and beautiful." And we see mental patients in their rooms and such.

Sam Fisher

Next thing I know I must be playing a videogame or watching one or something... Sam Fisher, a videogame character from the Tom Clancy's Splinter Cell series is chasing some guy, and the guy runs into an abandoned house and locks the door behind him, and he's breathing heavily and say's "There's no way he can get in here!" then Sam jumps down from a window in the roof, lands perfectly like he does in the games, whips out his pistol and shoots the guy in the head. That's all I remember from there..I know there was something before that though.

The Baby Doll

This one is more detailed, it was the last one I had before I woke up. There's a woman, and her little son holding hands. They go into a toyshop and purchase a baby doll with no hair, and a pamper on. The next thing I know they take a helicopter to the middle of a swamp/jungle place. They walk around holding hands through a swampy area. The little boy decides to abandon the baby doll and throws it into the swamp. Then as they start to walk away, the baby doll becomes alive, it's mad that it was abandoned, so it gets up and attacks the boy and his mother. They both fall to the floor and the kid is crying and the mother is yelling, and the baby doll looks evil, pounding on the mothers stomach. It says some things I don't remember. The baby doll has green stuff all over its face (from the swamp). The next thing I know they're walking towards a beach, on a road. She's holding hands with the doll, and her boy. They're jumping and shaking thier heads from side to side, the woman seems posessed and the baby doll and little boy seem to be wearing clown hair wigs (multi-colored curly hair wig). It looks like they're walking through an African village, I also see African people sun-bathing by the beach as they walk along through the village. She walks into a hut and then it cuts back to the toystore. The FBI are investigating the toystore. An FBI agent is talking to the store owner, asking him questions about the woman and little boy. Then the agent takes out a clown wig from behind him and shows it to the owner. He asks him "Ever seen this before?" The store owner looks nervous and suspicious and says "Uh, no I haven't sir." Then the agent says "I was once posessed by...it. I've been on its trail for years now...I'm going to find it no matter what." The End

Feelings: None

11/06/05

Lucid Dream #2!

I'm in some kind of school type of building. I walk out, and I'm with a girl, she doesn't look very familiar. I chase her around outside across a parking lot and onto some grass, then she runs back into that building down a hallway. I stay back and walk to to a parked car, my dads car. Side door is open and my aunt's broher is there. He tells me about how silly I looked while I was running around on the grass and he demonstrates. Then that girl is back. I think we're about to leave, so as she's going into the car I go behind her and touch her back, and she shakes and moves away from me. Then we both walk down the parking lot and down a path inbetween trees on the left and a park blocked by a chain-link fence. She takes my hand and holds it, and gets close to me. And we walk down this path, and along the way she's going back and forth around me and holding my arm, etc...Then I find my mom on the road just ahead; the girl and I try to hide our holding arms from my mom. And we start to walk with her, then on the right side I see my brother and sister holding bikes and walking them across a basketball court. He says "What happened?! We've been waiting over there for like a half an hour. You guys said 15 minutes, but that was like a half an hour." Next thing I know I'm in the car. My mom is in the drivers seat and we're parked. I have a burger king kids meal bag on my lap, and my brother does too. We're both sitting in the back seat, and he's on my left. Then as we're about to leave, I say "Look, it's Kristina" (the girl has a name I guess...) and I open the door, she hands me her burger king kids meal bag and I put it in a cointainer thats in the door. My mom takes off.....We're driving somewhere...and then I see the meal bag in the container, I touch it and it's warm, then I realize it's Kristina's. So I tell my mom, "Mom, we forgot Kristina" and she says "Hmm, what?" She looks confused. Then I tell her about the bag and I say "It's still warm, look at the bag...we forgot her" then I ask myself "Am I dreaming?" I'm about to do the finger through palm reality check but instead I look at the clock and shift my eyes away, then back, then I realize I'm dreaming. I don't get excited, I sit there calmly and say to myself "I know I'm dreaming.." So I'm sitting there and to increase the realism I look at my hands very closely - suddenly the next thing I remember is I'm in my room. I still know I'm dreaming, my vision is kind of weird, dreamy, like kind of distant...like I'm looking at everything through a big magnifying glass or something...I'm not sure how to explain it. I say things outloud - "Increase lucidity now!" and "Increase realism now!" so then I walk around my bed and I see a mirror against my bed, and I kneel down and look into it. I don't see my reflection at all. I look side to side, nothing. Then I'm thinking...where did I fall asleep? Where am I dreaming? In school? Home? What time is in real life..? Then I think of what to do next and I say " I know, I'll walk outside and explore." So I go down the hallway, to the kitchen. I see my mom there and a vacuum cleaner next to her. I go to her and tell her "I love you mom" and she says "eh?" and I hug her and at that moment I'm thinking "What if she turns into something and stabs me with a knife, anything can happen in a dream.." and I wake up, to the alarm on my watch. It's 6:00 am.

Feelings: Happy (that I was lucid dreaming) Even though it felt like any other dream, I did realize I was dreaming, I knew it..

A lucid dream is a dream in which you know you're dreaming.

then I realize I'm dreaming. I don't get excited, I sit there calmly and say to myself \"I know I'm dreaming..\" [/b]

You be the judge. 8)

Lol, I guess I was lucid. But it didn't feel as vivid and 'real'...

11/08/05

Jumping Fences - Mario Style

I'm with my friend Danny and it's daylight. We're in a small area in the corner of a building, sort of like a terrace, but not totally surrounded by the walls of the apartment, just in the corner - 2 walls. There is a door on one wall, with steps up to it. And on the other wall are some steps going down the side of the wall to another door. We're talking about something. Then he hides in the corner behind some garbage cans I think, and I go down the steps and hide behind the door (on the right side of it, so if it opened I wouldn't be seen.) A man comes out, he sort of looks like Denzel Washington. He's wearing glasses and a trenchcoat, and holding a book. He goes up the stairs, then I hide against the wall across from the door. As he's walking towards the way out, he looks down over the railing and sees the top of my head (I'm a pretty tall guy.) He says "Hey! What are you doing down there?!" I say "Oh...um, nothing..umm, you know you're a very handsome man, and I know a woman...might be interested in..."I then come up the stairs and he stares at me seriously. He walks back down the stairs, and he starts to go through a mailbox or something and says "I'm just checking...." (checking if we stole anything I guess). Then he comes back up and as he leaves, he closes the gate on us, locks it and walks away. I go up to the gate and try opening it, it's locked. I tell my friend who's behind me "He locked us in man!" So then we start to climb over a nearby fence, and we end up in the backyard of a house. Suddenly it's night time. There's another fence up ahead, we run towards it and jump onto it, climb up and jump down to the other side. Then we run across another yard, jump onto the chain-link fence, and jump right into a graveyard. We run across the graveyard, dodging tombstones and find yet another fence, but with smaller chain-links. We can't climb this one, so we step back a few steps, and run and jump right on top of the fence with super jumping powers. We jump right down and there's more graveyard on this side. On the left we can see the sidewalk, and street but its blocked by more chainlink fence with barbed wire on top. So we go ahead, and come across one of those indoor graves (it's like a small walled little house - I'm not sure what they're called), and a black metal fence made of bars; the bars running across the top of the fence were pointy (vertically). We jump on top of the indoor grave and carefully go over the fence and I say "Careful, we can slip and hurt our balls." We make it over, and jump down and we start to walk across the rest of the graveyard, then we see a group of kids walking on the sidewalk on the left. Danny and I start to make noises to spook them (something I've done in real life) and they all look towards the graveyard and one kid says "Did you hear that?" then we do it again and the same kid says "Yo, I think someone is messing with us, let's get them." and then we start to run. We jump up and over the last fence, and take a right and run up a sidewalk. We find an open laundromat and run in. And then we act as if we're doing something in there. I think I see my dad in there too, then the kids come in - that's all.

Feelings: Scared (My heart jumped a beat when that guy saw me hiding; also when those group of kids were chasing us to beat us up.)


I've been hearing voices lately when I go to sleep at night. Once the night I had the second lucid dream, and last night. The first night, as I was going to sleep, I usually tend to move around alot but this time I laid there still on my back. Kind of like a WILD, but not really, because I wanted to go to sleep. Eventually I heard a woman's voice echo 'sleep, SLEEP' first soft..then loud. Then I heard a series of other strange voices/noises. I was telling myself 'It's okay, it's all in my mind' and I hid under my covers like a little kid. Lol

11/10/05 - DREAM SPREE - I recalled 7 dreams in one night! Seven!

Halloween World At School

I went into a classroom, my history class I believe. We have a substitute teacher, one I've had before. She she tells us our teacher left us no work. So we sit around and do nothing, and I put my head down and start to daydream, etc. Eventually the bell rings. I enter the hallway, and the lights in the hallway are all green. The hallway is very busy with people, and I walkdown it. As I walk down it the hallway seems to expand and turn into some halloween world. Everything is decorated with halloween stuff. A kid named Burns, from my history class comes from behind me and asks some kid in front of me if he can borrow his boxing gloves. The kid gives the gloves to him. I continue to walk around, and I see zombie-like creatures walking around. They look alot like teachers. And I see groups of kids in costumes hitting the zombies with things such as their bookbags. I climb up a big pumkin, thats stuck in the ground. Then I eavesdrop on a conversation. An Indian and Asian kid were sitting on a bench together talking about some MMORPG (Massively Multiplayer Online Role Playing Game). And how far their characters are and how powerful, etc. Then I go down and continue to my locker. I suddenly say "I forgot my history book!" and then I see my history teacher as a zombie. I continue to my lock, open it, and I grab my textbook. That's all I remember.

Feelings: None

Strange Tree-House Home

I'm inside of some strange looking house, which is suppose to be my home. The walls are like wood from an oak tree. I'm downstairs in the basement with my brother - I forgot what we were doing down there. Then I come up some stairs, close the door and turn off a switch on the wall. The switch causes the lights from the basement to turn off, but also turn on some kind of fan. I switch it back up and the fan turns off, but I see the light back on. So I turn it back off and then I'm worried that my dad will find the fan on and get mad because we're wasting electricity. Then I find my mom and ask her about it. That's it.

Feelings: Worried (About my dad finding out)

Switching Seats in a Car

I'm in the very back of a car that looks like my dads. I'm sitting next to a girl from my science class, that I barely know. And two other guys are sitting in front of us, both from my science class as well (they're in the middle of the car). They're talking about some stuff, and looking back. Eventually they get out, and we get out too. And then they move to the back of the car. The girl goes around the car and sits in the passenger seat. I go to sit in the driver seat, but theres another girl from my school there. So I shut that door. Then I open the side door and sit in the middle of the car. There are boxes and lots of other junk piled up in the seat next to me. The girl in the passenger seat looks at me every once in a bit. I feel lonely there. That's it

Feelings: Lonely (sitting by myself.)

Art and Swimming Pools

I'm with a group of classmates from all different classes, and old friends from middle school. We go into a big white room. Ahead of us is a long table and 2 teachers on either side with paint brushes in their hands. All across the table are painting tools, paper, paint, etc. The teachers beckon for us to come. Some kids go and take a seat. But I continue around the left side of this table, and find another part of the room with a pool on the left near a back wall. I see two women sitting in front of this small pool, and they look like my middleschoolcounselers I had. They say something which I forgot, then I leave through double doors on the left. It's another bigger room with a bigger pool. I take a left around the pool. I see a waterfall of water pouring into the pool from the ceiling. In the center of the pool is a wall/big block protruding from the wall on my left. I see a kid jump in with all his clothes in front of me, and another jumps in and starts to swim across the pool paddling like a dog. I'm about to go in, and as I put my legs in Mr.Schroeffer my Science teacher started to tell everyone to get out of the pool. So I get back up and then I see my brother and Elisa, I tell them of the other pool. We go to the room with the smaller pool, and the water is now orange). My brother asks "How is the water orange?" I tell him its a coloring. One of the women I saw earlier is now sitting behind the pool by the wall. So we jump in and start to swim around and stuff. And at the middle of the pool is a rope hanging from the ceiling. I grab this rope and I start to swing around with it. I then run along the wall behind the woman sitting in the chair with the rope, and as I run along the wall behind her she disappears - then reappears when I go back in front of her. I tell my brother "Danny, she disappears when you go behind her!" I give him the rope and tell him to take a look. I think he does so then we come to a conclusion that she's holographic. I walk out of the pool and then it turns into another dream...

Feelings: Surprised (Finding out about the holographic woman)

Playing Rakion

I'm playing a game called Rakion that I usually play on the PC. It's an action role-playing game. So I'm playing a warrior character, which I haven't played as yet. And then my character starts to 'lag' as he's walking. It totally messes up and I can't control him, and I get frustrated. Then a GM (a gamemaster, which doesn't exist in this game) by the name of DejaSoul comes up at the bottom of the screen and asks me if I need any help. . The small convo sort of looked like this:

DejaSoul: Do you need any help?
:Yes, my character is messed up, I can't control him
DejaSoul: Ah! I know the problem, and many others have been experiencing this as well (and lots of other things are said, which I don't remember)
DejaSoul: Do you know the meaning of the word _________?

I don't remember the word, but it has to do with the characters uncontrollable movement. Maybe uncontrollable, incapability, maybe frustrated? Something along those lines. I wish I would've remembered that word....sigh. But hey Deja, you were in this dream! Hehe

Feelings: Frustration (Unable to move my character)

The City Room

I'm in a dark place. I look up, and I see stars. It's night, and ahead of me I see tall buildings. I walk forward into this city and see buildings to my left and right. Everything is life size, and fully explorable. As I walk inbetween these buildings they seem to be getting smaller and smaller. Eventually I hit an invisible wall. (I hate invisible walls in linear games). So I decided to fly over the invisible wall, and fly through the rest of the city which I can see ahead. As I fly through the rest of the city beyond the invisible wall, I start to notice that I'm bigger than the buildings, and as I'm flying by I look into the tiny windows of the buildings and put my finger through one of them. I stop flying and I walk through the middle of these buildings which are now half the size of me (I'm 6 Ft. 1in.) Then I reach the end of the city. A wall with christmas lights and painted buildings and glitter all over. I see a christmas ornament on the last building. I poke it and it falls to the floor in front of me. Then I look towards the rest of the room. And I see the fake city, in it's true form. That's it.

Feelings: None

The Carnival Camp

I'm with my family and we're camping out inbetween some carnival looking tents (multi-colored). It's morning and a cop comes to our camp out, and tells everyone to get out (there are other people besides my family and I). We pack all our stuff and I move around some tents. My mom follows me, around these tents into a grassy area. I drop all my stuff on the grass and enter a small circus tent ahead. My mom says "Oh shit! I forgot *something*!" (not sure what). Then as we start to go back, we're stopped by the same cop and he say's "I'm sorry, but you can't go back there." So then my mom starts to cry, and I tell her to calm down. We go back into the tent and she opens up a bag and takes out a gun. I say then, "Mom, what are you gonna do with that? That's a flare-gun..." She points it up above her head and fires twice through a hole in the ceiling. And I hear and see flares explode in the air. Then I tell my mom to run and get the heck outta there. She refuses, until she sees the cop coming towards the tent. I run as well, and I run to the campsite we were staying at. I believe I pick up what my mom wanted and I also find computer files on the floor. (This was really odd.) These files and folders are things which I don't want the cop to find such as Hacking Tools, Illegal Downloads of Applications and Games, Music, things like that. I drag and drop these files and folders into a one big folder titled something... Then I run outta there. I walk through a carnival. There's shops and such in carnival tents on both of my sides, as I walk up a narrow and crooked brick road. I find my dad and mom looking at stuff in an outside shop (like a flea-market). I think I give my mom whatever she wanted, then I go back to where my mom fired the flare gun. I see a cop car driving through the woods nearby. It parks and I see a woman come out. She says "Hello, I'm with the Safety...blah blah..(something I don't remember) and we saw flares coming from this location, is there any problem?" Then I tell her "Oh, I'm sorry, yeah you see the flare guns trigger got stuck and as I tried to unstick it I fired twice by mistake, I'm sorry" and I think she doesn't believe me and starts to question me again. That's all I remember.

Feelings: Not really.

[b]
More coming tomorrow.

11/11/05

Floating Balloon House of Toys

I'm at a beach, looking out towards the sky. I'm enjoying the scenery, when suddenly I noitce a big box floating in the sky with a rope danging from a corner of the box. A balloon is attached to the top making the whole thing float. I watch it drift from the ocean over land and land in the sand nearby. Curious, I go to it. It's a colorful little house, with a miniature door. I open the door which is like a flap on a cardboard box and I crawn in. I see buckets and boxes filled with toys familiar to me. Plastic animals, and more. I think I see a sign on the wall which reads "If you take something, leave something please." I crawl around a corner and I see more toys and random things all over. After exploring, I crawl back out and look at the house from outside. Then it takes off again, and I watch it float across the beach. I see my mom and I run to her and tell her "Mom! Did you see the floating box?" I point to it then I tell her "It's a box that travels around the world , and when it lands people put things into it, then it floats away to other places." Then we watch it as it lands again nearby us, on the shore. We go to it and I think my mom goes in. The next thing I know I'm on google searching for 'the box that floats around the world.' It turns up no results, but one site. The site opens up and I see it's made by the guy that made the box that floats around the world. I see a picture of him on the top-left corner of the screen, and a story of how and why he created the box.

Feelings: Curiousity (about the floating box)

A War Camp

I'm walking through a place that looks like a war camp. I see two radio towers in the corner of this camp near some woods, and I'm with a reporter and a camera man. We walk towards the 2 radio towers. The camera guy goes up to the one further away, and I go to to the one the closest, which is right in front of me. I climb up the ladder and the reporter guy follows me up. We're in a crouching position up there since the ceilings are very low. So we begin to look arond the small tower. (The tower is made of bamboo and such). We open up some cabinets, and find things like toy soldiers. I open up a cabinet that looks and opens exactly like a glove compartment from a car. It's holding jacks and a ball, a game I use to play when I was younger. And I see the reporter guy going back down, I think he says something. So I start to snoop through everything while they're gone. I open a drawer near the ladder and find some junk and money rolled up together. I'm about to to steal it, when I see the camera guy walking towards the tower. He comes up and that's all I remember.

Feelings: Curiousity (about whats in all the drawers, etc)

11/12/05

Video Of My Girlfriend

I'm at home on my computer, it's daylight outside. I'm checking my mail and such, when I hear my mom say that my dad is coming. I check to see if Stephanie is online and she is. With a hacking program I connect to her computer and spy on what she's doing. Then I hear my mom yell out that my dad is here. Except I don't think he is because I don't hear the garage door below my room, open. (I almost became lucid.) I start to rush. I see Stephanie is downloading something. I go and download it before she does. When I start to preview it the video opens up with a picture of my girlfriend. And there's a mans voice narrating the slideshow. He says things about how he can please her everytime he writes on paper, or make her happy (poems and such I believe; something I do.) And I get VERY upset and VERY mad at the same time and I start to cry.

Feelings: Mixed Emotions; Very Upset and Very Mad. (I woke up like this too....there's also been some problems lately with my relationship with her.....sigh.)

Surgery Room

I'm in some sort of surgery room. I'm dressed up in patients clothes, I believe. I'm standing in front of a female doctor, and I'm telling my brother that's nearby that the operation isn't that bad and that they just slice the top of your head off and work with your brain.(Sounds scary to me in RL!) So the doctor starts to look at some tools behind her. She asks me if I want _____ or the romantic one. I tell my brother that I've taken the romantic surgery before.(Transplant or something?) Anyways she injects me with something and I say "and now they pump you with drugs." She blind folds me or I close me eyes, either one. Then when I open my eyes again, I'm still standing in the same spot. I look to my left and I see myself in a mirror; my hair is all messed up and I move my hair to the side and it looks like I have a baldspot. Then I start to get annoyed by some ladybugs that are landing on me from the ceiling just above me. And they all start landing down on my arms and face. I start to brush them off, etc. The next thing I know they're all over me and the doctor, and they're attacking us. So we run out of that room and down a hallway. We see a male nurse holding like a platter, and he stands back away from us. Then he twitches and turns red and starts to snarl and he runs towards me wildly, like some monkey, he tries to ataack me. But when he gets too close to me he collapes and dies. I put my arm around the doctor to protect her. We walk to what looks like a reception place, from the hallway, and we take a right. Then another person jumps over the counter making strange noises, and tries to attack but dies. Then as we start to go down some steps, I turn into a hulk looking kind of creature for a few seconds and the doctor (or I say) "The creature inside of you/me is being unleashed!" (something like that). Then we run out an exit.

Feelings: Annoyance (Ladybugs), Scared (people attacking)

11/13/05
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[size=18]Lucid Dream #3

I was sitting down on the couch, downstairs in my living room. Out of the blue I decided to do a reality check. I looked at my watch, looked away, looked back a few times. Bam, that's when I realized it and say "I'm dreaming!" outloud. I then started to spin around and rub my hands to increase the realism, etc. And I looked around, but it was really dark. So I wanted to try teleporting or creating my own dream scene rather. I started to spin and say "I want to be in a beautiful place with a pool, please" and I ended up in a pool outside of a house. The pools shape was rectangular, very different from my pool. I was in the pool, but the water felt very weird. I looked up to the sky and it was night time. The sky looked weird, the moon was huge, there were no clouds, and I can see many many stars clearly. It was beautiful indeed. I get out of the pool, not wet at all and I decide I want it to be daytime. So I start to spin and say "I want to be in a pool on a very hot summer day." Bam there I was in the same pool. It was daylight and the sun was shining very brightly. It was scorching! I swim in the pool a bit and say 'Wow.....'. Then I see my mom by the pool and she said, "Wow, how are you doing all of this?" And I tell her "I told you mom, this is lucid dreaming, I can do whatever I want!" After swimming around for a few seconds I get out of the pool, dry yet again. I wanted to summon my girlfriend, so I went and stood by a door and said "Now when I turn right into the doorway I will see my girlfriend standing there, and she will be very happy to see me." I go in and voila I see her there standing, except her face is very distorted and I can barely make it out. So then I say "Forget this, let me go do something else." I don't think I ignored this but, the house I was in was completely unfamiliar. I decide to teleport again, to my school cafeteria, with everyone in it just like in RL. I spin and and wish for it, and then I end up there...but without my head. Then I keep spinning and say "With my head and glasses please!" And voila I was in my school cafeteria, and it was crowded with people just like in RL. Noisey and all. I looked around me and I smiled (felt pretty awesome). Then I decided to take a walk around - I wake up.

Feelings: Hazy Dream Feeling - My legs feel weird in lucid dreams....

Untitled Dream

I'm playing some videogame with an old friend of mine named Artem. He's playing a little midget character that reminds me of the mage character from Rakion. We're running around not killing anything, but just going around the place. It looks like a sort of plateau; 2 platforms on top of eachother, the one on the bottom being the biggest, and the one on top being smaller. And theres tunnels going through the top one. I see his character going into a tunnel and I ask "Hey Artem, what're you doing?" and he says "I'm making a map/mod(ification) for (my) friends/people/group." The next thing I know I see his character pouring gasoline all over the place. My character (which im playing in first person view) has matches, so I whip one out and try to light the whole place up with the gasoline, but it won't work. I throw a few more and not even a spark. I tell him "Hey Artem I can't fire up the gas." Then somehow it lights up and it goes a long a trail on the platform, thats it.

Feelings: None

Been a while, but I haven't stopped my Dream Journal. No way, never. I'll catch up....

11/19/05

The Bored Club

I'm in a classroom with a couple of unfamiliar kids, and my history teacher Mr.Defelice. The way the room is arranged is very different from any class I've seen in my school, there are blackboards where windows would obviously be, and my teacher is sitting behind a desk by the wall with the blackboards, in the corner facing the rest of the room. I'm talking and goofing with the kids as if they were my friends. One blonde girl said "Look, doesn't he look like a penguin?!" as I was making a face, and we all started laughing. Then my teachercalls us up. We go up in front of the classroom by his desk and as we settle, the blonde girl stands next to me on my left and hugs me, and kisses my chest. Then my teacher starts talking to us about something. Then everyone goes back to their seats but me; Mr.Defelice tells me to "stay up here." He tells me he's thirsty, and sends me to go get him some orange juice. So I walk out of the classroom, and right outside the classroom in the hallway is a cart full of juices against a wall. I find a carton of Orange Juice and pour it into a cup. I'm a little thirsty so I take a sip of it then I pour something else into it (alcohol I believe). I go back in and serve it to him, he drinks it up. I think he gets drunk or something. I'm still thirsty, so I go back out to the juice cart and find some apple juice. There's no ther cups so I gotta get my teachers cup. I go back in the class and find everyone sleeping, including my teacher. I grab the cup and walk back out and to the cart. As I'm about to pour apple juice, I notice the cup is dirty, so I walk down the hallway a little and go into a bathroom. I wash the cup there then I go back and pour some apple juice and I drink it. I go back into class and everyone is still sleeping. Then the teacher starts to wake up, and everyone else too. I think the bell rings, and everyone starts to leave. Mr.Defelice says "Hey next time there's a holiday, and we're bored like this, we'll [watch,do] something. Hey anybody wanna stay after and help me [stamp,with] something?" The kids just walk out except the blonde girl and I, and then he says "Look at these kids, they don't help at all. Thanks guys." Then he takes out 2 stamps from his pocket and hands one to me and one to her. We go over to the blackboard and he tells the blonde girl to stamp first in the upper left hand corner. The girl prints the stamp and it reads 'banana', then I print mine next to hers and it reads 'nana' and my teacher says "Good, now keep doing the same thing across the board, banana-nana, banana-nana." So we keep printing 'Banana-nana' across the board and when we start a new line we start to get messy and all crooked, thats it.

Feelings: Happy (Goofing around with the other kids)

Walking Home

I walk out of my old Catholic elementary school in my old hometown. I walk down the block and I end up walking through a downtown part of the town (which is nowhere near the school.) Then I walk up to the main road that goes through the whole town called Amboy Avenue. I walk along the sidewalk on Amboy Ave. I decide I want to buy some junkfood, but along the way to a grocery store, I find my moms food set on a table along the sidewalk. I sit down and eat, and when I'm done I continue home. Just a couple of blocks away from my home, I find my dads Toyota parked on a street intersecting Keene St., which was the street my old house was on. I go up to it and find my mom and sister talking in the back seat of the car. I then open the door and talk to my mom, I tell her "Thank you for the food mom, I was gonna eat some junkfood instead.." Then I think I ask for the keys and continue home.

Feelings: Well I was Hungry...heh. Nope.

Unknown Multiplayer Game

I'm playing some videogame online while on the phone with my friend Danny. It's a first-person view game and I believe I was holding a gun, so that would make the game a FPS (First Person Shooter). I start off in some little area with weapons and ammo on a nearby table. I go to them and automatically pick them up, then I continue into a cave. I walk around this cave and I go up some natural ramps and perilous areas, then I get shot and killed and say "Shit! I just got killed man..." then I respawn in the same spot I started and pick up the stuff again. That's it.

Feelings: None

Personal Things

I'm sitting in a classroom with a girl named Halley from my history class. We're talking about something then she asks me if I have any vocabulary notes in my history notebook. I open up my notebook and find a page with notes and a star on the very top of the page. Then I flip back a few pages and find another page of notse with a star. I tell her "Here, the notes are on the pages with the stars" and I hand it to her. Then I watch her as she flips through the pages in my notebook. I start to see personal things as she flips through the pages, like my dream journal entries and notes about/for my girlfriend. I also see scratched at the bottom of a page: Feelings: L o v e d (written in a really sloppy way) I take it away from her and say "nevermind" as I get a little embaressed. Then I start looking through my French folder in search of notes, and I find none.

Feelings: Embaressment

Also: First HI Experience, by WILD. - 12/02/05

I changed my method a little, instead of repeating anything in my head, I decided to think of absolutely NOTHING. I managed to pull this off pretty well, just concentrating on the little stars I see behind my eyelids, and my breathing. Eventually I started drifting in and out of consciousness. Until suddenly my body started to shake violently, and I heard all sorts of weird electronic noises and LOTS of voices! I also felt like I was speeding down a ride or something, and heard like a droning sound go from very loud to very low, and dissapear. I got really scared, and tried to lay there still, the shaking stopped as I used my internal voice. I lay there still then again I felt my body VIBRATE. And it went away....That happened in about 2 hours.

- Besides this, I've had 8 Lucid Dreams so far, all reality checks. Posting more when I can.