Thread: Caradon's Dream Journal

Was unable to record dreams yesterday.
Seven hours of sleep last night.
No nap today.

Vivid recall all night. Even after only 20 minutes of sleeping I woke up from vivid dreams. The rebound from three nights of little sleep must have really kicked in. Also, I have started getting the nose pinch HI again. That's a good sign. Won't be able to record everything. this is the most interesting dream of the night.

Prison
I recently watched a show about prisons on Discovery.

I'm in prison for some crime I don't remember. I remember feeling like my prison term would be fairly short, though. I'm on one of the higher levels, when one of the other inmates suddenly goes nuts, rushing at me, and attacking. I grab the guy, lifting him off the ground, and throw him over the railing. He falls a long way before hitting the concrete floor below. He lays there unmoving, in a widening pool of blood. Now I'm really in a lot of trouble. I think to myself. But at least the rest of the inmates will think twice about messing with me.

I'm taken to another room by the authorities. They have video cameras set up, and I'm thinking that they want to get a video confession of the murder from me. Then out of the blue an officer says to me." Medical results are showing that you have Aids. Can you tell us how you contracted this. " I don't know" I say, " Maybe somebody spit on me.(On the show I watched, it said that Aids really spreads in prison. And some inmates with Aids, will spit on other people to try and infect them with it.)

I'm actually a little relieved to hear I have it now. Because after killing the other inmate, I know I will have to spend a long long time in this prison. I would rather be dead than spend my life here. Though, I don't know how long it will take to kill me.

I remember leaving the room, and walking down a stair well. there is loud machinery running. It is always running, and always very loud. My time here is going to be hell indeed. There is a small window on the side of the wall. it's open, and I'm able to put
my face outside a little ways. There is a refreshing cool breeze. I can see over the surrounding guard wall, to rolling hills in the distance. And for a moment I mourn the freedom that I will never see again. Then wake.

I used to have terrifying dreams about being locked up all the time. Normally I manage to escape somehow. This one wasn't as scary as they usually are. But it still had an intense feel to it.

Cookie Monster
Have to post this one because of how comical it was.

I'm in a very beautiful golf course. I'm so relaxed. I'm sitting on a bench near one of the water traps. It's big, like a small lake. I can see a bird, with a long white neck out on the water. Randomly, this large blue creature begins to rise from the lake. It looks like Grimace, from McDonald's. Though, I believe it to be the cookie monster. There is a box of cookies near by. I grab them and run, not wanting the cookie monster to get them. The cookie monster chases me all across the golf course. This isn't scary, I think it's a big joke, keeping the cookies from the cookie monster. I eventually stop, and tell him that I will give him just one cookie. That's all I remember from that one. I have no idea where that one came from.

8 hours of sleep with a 2 1/2 hour nap.
Because of no nap yesterday my recall wasn't very good for the first half of the night.
8 dreams recalled, including fragments. Nearly Lucid a couple of times.
I missed my best dreamsign. Just goes to show how far I let things slip.
Not worried, though, I'm on track now, the Lucids will come.



Dirt biking
Best dreamsign missed

I'm on my dirt bike. There is a deep trench cut into the side of a steep mountain type slope. At the bottom of the trench are many ruts, cut out by other dirt bikers. I'm racing down this trench at a fast pace. My front tire hits something that knocks me out of control. (probably hit a rut in an awkward way.) I go flying up the right, inside wall of the trench, and I catch some big air coming out of it. But it's an awkward jump. The bike is out of control in the air, nose diving badly. I hit the throttle in an attempt to bring the front end level. (Called a panic rev.) It works, the front end comes up.
And I'm now lined up perfectly for a nice landing, on the slope of the mountain.

I land smoothly, on a smooth wide dirt tack. I can see a large jump some distance ahead. It's like I'm racing down a dirt version of one of those Olympic ski jumps.
I punch the throttle, trying to get as much speed as I can. I accelerate faster, and faster. Until I hit the jump. I catch so much air, that I'm flying through the sky. Totally thrilled, I pull back on the handle bars, doing a complete back flip. After the back flip, I still have plenty of air time, so I do a tail whip too. In the middle of the tail whip my perspective shifts, So that I'm watching myself. I land the bike, and think I should have gotten Lucid from that.

Haunting

I'm in the upstairs of a home. There is an unknown man and woman with me. We are going to move in to this place, and are just checking it out. It's very cozy, with a free standing fireplace in the center of the room. We are discussing the pleasant uses of this room. We get up to leave. Though, for some reason I know this place is haunted.
As we leave the room, I start talking shit about the ghost that dwells in this place.
The door to the room suddenly slams hard, trying to hit me. Out in the hall, near the stairs. I feel a strong invisible force pushing me hard, trying to knock me down the steps. I push back as hard as I can, forcing it down the hall. I'm not afraid of this ghost at all. Out loud, I tell it that I was just joking, and that it is more than welcome to stay in the house with us. After that the activity ceases. Next thing I remember is that I'm in another room of the house. There is a picture of a little boy on a wall. I know that the boy is the one that haunts the place. Somebody has put the picture there to put a face on the invisible presence. There are people in the room, and candles lit. They are trying to communicate with the boy.


Dentist
I had a dentist appointment today, and one of my later dreams was of getting up and getting ready to go there.

I have an FA. I get up and start getting ready. There is a bunch of stuff about me doing stuff around the house. There is a knock at the door. It's my ride. My ride to the dentist happens to be a bus full of people. They are all hanging around on the front of the porch waiting for me. I go out there and talk to the driver. "Why are you here so early"? I ask. " There is a couple of hours before I have to go." " Oh, it's OK." He says. " We wanted to get here early just to hang out for a while." The entire time I'm outside
I have this weird feeling. It's like I'm really tired, but more like I'm drugged or something. I feel really heavy, and my vision is all distorted. (This happened in a couple of dreams last night.)

I go back into the house. Once in the house I feel normal again. I suddenly realize that the reason I felt so odd outside, is because I was in a dreaming. Only I don't realize I'm still dreaming no, in the house. There is a lot more doing stuff around the house before I end up at the dentist. I don't remember going there, I'm just suddenly there. I'm kicked back in the chair, there are three women dentist getting ready to work on me. One of them has a long syringe, getting ready to inject me with something. I'm listening to them talk about problems with my teeth that need to be fixed. (There were no problems by the way. Another year with no cavities. Yay!)
Thankfully I wake up before they start doing any work on me. That could have been odd.

There was one other time I almost became Lucid because of the weird tired drugged feeling as well.

That's all I feel like recording.

Before going to sleep last night I checked out DV, and saw a disturbing video of a US soldier throwing a puppy off a cliff. I was so upset by it that I didn't get to sleep for a while. But on the bright side, I got Lucid.

Less than 3 hours of sleep, with a 2 hour nap. Three dreams recalled. 1 Lucid, and a Lucid fragment with The Cusp in my nap.



A Lucid Dream
Tuesday/March/24/ 2009
Lucid Dream # 9 of 2009
Video game transition to Lucidity
This one took place after hitting snooze a couple times in the morning.


I'm on my computer, and I download some video game. I begin playing it. I have this male character with a loose jacket. My character is in a museum, and the objective is to steal as many art pieces as I can, to use them for something in an upcoming level of the game. I make the character pick things up, and stuff them into some deep inside pockets of his jacket. I notice groups of security that are on to me. They begin chasing my character as I go about my work. Also, traps begin to be triggered. There are huge spinning blades and stuff flying out of walls at me.

I make my character run around as fast as I can. Just barley, mostly by luck, avoiding getting hit by blades. My character now has this huge person sized mallet. I use it bash one of the security to the floor. Once he is down I keep bashing him, trying to see if his body will explode. It doesn't though, and I guess that blood and gore just isn't programmed into the game.

After that, I am now in the scene. I have become the character in the museum. I see a woman carrying a small child. Maybe one or two years old. I go up to her, and take the kid. I want to see if I can steal him, and what reaction it will cause in the game.
"Go ahead and keep him." The woman says. Then walks away. A little surprised and disappointed by the lack of reaction, I take the kid and run for the Exit. I'm hoping that maybe other people in the game will react.

At some point here, I know I'm dreaming.
I'm not sure of exactly when the transition of thinking I'm in a game, and knowing it's a dream comes though. I run with the child, past a bunch of people standing in a line. It's like a check out line or something. I'm not getting any reaction from anyone but my sister, that I now see standing in line. " Isn't that a crime your committing"? My sister asks. " It would be if this was real." I reply. "But none of this is real." My sister turns to my mom and says. " He thinks he is dreaming." "Oh, I don't think I'm dreaming." I say. "I know I'm dreaming." I do a quick nose pinch to confirm it, and I can breath easy.

I suddenly believe that I have the power to point my finger at people and make them Lucid. ( I lose the kid at some point her.) I walk along the line of people, firsts pointing my finger at my mom, and say. " Get Lucid!" "I'm getting there. But it's still a pretty low level she says." I move on and point my finger at my sister and say." Get Lucid!" She just kind of stares at me, like I'm whacked. I move on to the next woman, who is just some random DC. "Get Lucid!" I command. " I already am" She calmly Says.
I think that's pretty cool. She has been standing there Lucid the whole time. Alarm goes off.




In my nap I had some low level Lucidity at the end of some crazy adventure dream that I only remember a little bit of. I was in some apocalyptic world. There were bad guys slaughtering people. I end up on a jet plane, fighting the pilot, who is one of the bad guys. The plane crashes into the ocean, and we are flying under water. Somebody sets off a bomb that was on the plane, from a remote location. I am now watching the dream. as the scene shifts to the surface of the water. Though I believe this to be The Cusps dream. I can hear The Cusp narrating, as if I'm reading his journal. The Cusp is Lucid, and he stands up and walks across the surface of the water. There is plane wreckage everywhere, and bodies. He walks on water to one of the floating bodies. And begins talking to it. He knows it's not dead, because it's a DC that can not die.
I can't remember exactly what he says to it.

Four hours of sleep. With a three hour nap. Seven dreams recalled, but a lot of it not very well. Realized I was dreaming one time, but woke up right away.

Evacuation
Brief moment of Lucidity

I'm in some town, and there is some kind of disaster happening. I'm not exactly sure what it was. I think maybe it was a flood. The town is evacuating, me included. Every one is getting into hot air balloons to float away to safety. I get into a balloon and start to float away. I'm having trouble getting the balloon to go very high. I'm just barely getting over the rooftops of houses. My balloon floats out over an ocean of water.
There is something about the way the water looks that I find very inviting. I think that it would be so cool if this was a dream and I I could dive off into the water. And as I stare down at the water, I start to think that this is a dream. Lucidity is slow in coming.
But after a few moments of just staring at the water, I become fully aware that I'm dreaming. I barely have a chance to be happy about being Lucid, before I wake up.


Car wreck
this one was the most vividly recalled dream.

I'm driving my car, It's dark. It's suddenly pitch black, I can't see where I'm going at all. I realize that my headlights must have gone out on me. (I've had some real life problems with my headlight switch again.) I push on the headlight switch. The lights flicker on for a moment, then go dark again. I keep driving but I can't even tell if I'm staying on the road. It's so dark, it's as if I have my eyes closed. I think that some part of me was mildly aware that I was dreaming here. It was like I was WILDing and waiting for the scene to fade back in.

I can see a little bit now, and I'm coming into one of those freeway tunnels. I notice that there are emergency vehicles just up ahead. Now I notice the wrecked cars all over. I try to slow down, but it's already to late. I swerve to the left side trying to avoid hitting cars and people. I lose control of my car, and slam into some cement pillars off to the side of the tunnel. the front of my car is caved in, but just stops short of crushing me inside. I get out of my car, a little pissed that my car is wrecked. but I'm mostly glad I didn't get crushed inside it. I start walking away from the car, then wake.

Thats all I'm going to have time for. But on an interesting note. There is this female DC with red hair that has been in my dreams three different times in the last couple of days. It's not someone I know. I've never had the same DC show up multiple times like that before. That I can remember anyway.

Just a brief recap of the last couple of days. I don't have much time.

Friday night I only slept two hours. But what an awesome two hours of dreaming I had. It felt like it was all REM. And when I woke up, it felt like I had been sleeping a lot longer than two hours. Some of the dreams I had were just amazing. At one point I was so blown away by the complexity, and intensity of the environment, That I recognized it as a dreamsign. I did a nose RC to check, But I didn't end up getting Lucid for some reason. I'm not sure exactly what happened. But I don't think the RC completely failed. I think It was just a case of me not doing it right, and then forgetting about it. Anyway, that dream was so fun that I honestly didn't even care. I woke up pretty excited and full of energy. And just happy that I came that close to Lucidity. I don't think it will be too much longer before I'm getting Lucid regularly again.

By the time I got home from work Saturday it was so late, and I was so exhausted. I laid down at 7:00 pm with the intention of just sleeping for an hour or two. But I just ended up passing out and sleeping until 3:00 am. Didn't have a lot of good recall in that period. I just remembered one dream really clearly, and a couple of fragments. Got a short nap in today, so I'm hoping for decent recall tonight. I get to sleep in tonight. I wasn't as focused on getting Lucid as I wanted to be today. I had a lot of distractions at work. I'll be happy just to get some more, good, fun, recall.

A Lucid Dream
Sunday/March/29/2009
Lucid Dream # 10 of 2009
Random reality check induced Lucidity

Well, the RC wasn't completely random. I was dreaming about Lucid Dreaming. And since I had Lucid Dreaming on my mind, I did an RC. This one took place about six and a half hours into sleep. And sometime after two ten minute WBTB's

I'm in a place that is like a library. There are many rows of book shelves. And an open area with rows of tables. And even a service desk. Both M and V, A couple of women from my work ( quite a few years older than me) Are there.
In the dream, I'm thinking of this place as more of a dreaming forum. Not really a library.

I'm talking with M, and she is telling me about how she has had 100 Lucid Dreams. "You have already had 100 Lucids this year?" I ask. " Wow, thats a lot." "No not this year. That's how many I've had total." she says. "Oh."
I tell her about the dry spell I've been in. And how I'm starting to get it back.

I then walk away. I'm not exactly sure what I was doing, but since I'm thinking about Lucid dreaming, I decide to do an RC. I pinch my nose, and can breath! "What!" I pinch my nose again, and can still breath. I'm a little confused. Because I know I'm not dreaming. And I don't understand how I can be breathing through a pinched nose, if I'm not in a dream.

I decide I need to go show M that I can breath through a pinched nose, and see what she has to say about it. But On my way back to M, I remember that I should look at my watch. (thank goodness.) I look at my watch, and see some very small text written across the top. Where the date is supposed to be shown. That's not right. Now I suspect that I probably am dreaming.
I'm not sure what the text said. It was so small I couldn't make out the words. I look away and look back at it.

The numbers changed, and I now know for sure that I'm dreaming. Fascinated by my watch, I look away and look back several more times. every time I look at it there is something different displayed. from scrambled numbers and letters, to weird squiggly symbols. There is a dark haired man standing near the service desk. I'm thinking of him as like an administrator of the forum. I walk up to him and tell him that this is a dream. He is not really paying much attention. He is trying to make a phone call, and he keeps hitting the hang up button like he is not getting a dial tone are something.

I give him a friendly smack on the shoulder and say." Do some reality checks man!" then walk away, not really caring if he figures it out. I make my way back to M. "M, this is a dream right now! Look at my watch!" I hold my arm up so that she can see it.
Now, there is no watch. Just some digital numbers floating above my wrist. " That is so weird!" M exclaims. " I know!"

Just then, the man from the service desk comes running by, all excited. It seems, he has taken my advice, and done some RC's. He is now Lucid. Now it's time to celebrate being Lucid again. I get all excited and start running around, jumping off things. I jump off something and fly around the room Superman style a little bit. Then I end up stopping in a spider-man style crouch on top of one of the bookshelves, near the ceiling. I survey the room. I see V standing near by. And I can see the man running around much like I just was. I notice that his eyes have turned blood red. I say to V. " Maybe that's why my eye has been all red like that. It must be Lucidity that causes it." V looks at me and says." now your eyes are glowing green, though. "Really!?" I say. I think it's pretty cool that I have green glowing eyes.

I then leap from my position, from on top of the book shelves. And land on some near by tables, jumping across them. I then begin having fun doing handsprings across the table tops until I wake.

7 hours of sleep. No nap yesterday, or today. mainly because of staying up until 6:00 am, and sleeping until 1:00 Pm. Not the best thing to do, it really ruins a day off. Not the best recall last night, and nothing close to Lucidity.

Rescue
There is a man caught on something, I'm not sure what it was. But it was big, and heavy enough to keep him trapped, and held down. He is in water, and the water level is rising. There are a couple of other people besides me, working to try and free him before he is completely submerged, and drowns. The water level ends up rising over his head. I somehow mange to get him free just before it's too late.

Eye doctor
I go to the eye doctor and ask him if he thinks there is something serious going on with my eye. Or if it will be OK to just leave it heal on it's own. He takes a quick look, and tells me that I need to schedule surgery right away. He lists a chain of bad things that would happen if I ignore it, that would eventually cause me to lose my vision in that eye.

Animal attack
Don't remember it very well. I'm in the wilderness somewhere. There are dogs with me.
I'm attacked by a crazy fox that charges at me out of the woods. It leaps off the ground and bites into my arm. I struggle with it, pull it away, and throw the thing as far away from me as I can. Just then several deer charge out of the woods. They run right by me and keep on going. The fox gets up and chases the deer. And the dogs with me also chase the deer. I follow, and find the dogs, and the fox injured by something that attacked them. Something more vicious than a deer. I gather the dogs, and begin to go back. As I start to walk away, the fox barks at me like a dog would to get your attention. I look back and see that the fox has at least one broken leg, and is all bloody. It barked at me to ask for help. The fox does not want me to leave it here alone. I feel really bad for it now, and decide to help it.

Haunting
I'm in a haunted place. There is a baby in a high chair that can see ghosts. The baby is looking around, and giggling at people only it can see. The baby stares over the shoulder of a nearby woman. And it's eyes open wide in terror. What ever it sees now, is not friendly.

Construction
I'm standing on the side of a newly constructed road. A man gets into some type of road working vehicle and begins to drive away. For some reason I decide I want to race him. I start running along side, barely able to keep up.
There is more to it that I don't really understand well enough to describe.

Creek trail
I'm walking along a creek. The water is crystal clear, and there are beautiful rock formations under the water. There are fish that are jumping high out of the water, trying to catch food.

Just remembered another part. Possibly of the same dream, not sure. there is a man with a pet fish. He is carrying it around in his hands and petting it. It's a pretty big fish.

Sex dream
The last and best recalled dream of the night. Lately I've been occasionally watching this interesting sex show on HBO, called cat-house the series. It's about well, A real brothel.

I'm at the cat-house, and one of the girls randomly takes my hand, and leads me into a room. It turns into a really long and fun sex dream. I can't seem to finish, but I'm right on the edge of orgasm the whole time. I keep going and going, It feels really good and realistic. I don't care how long it takes, It doesn't matter. I'll just keep going. I think I would have finished eventually, but I woke up before that happened.

5 hours of sleep with a three hour nap. Crappy recall last night. Probably because of a combination of not having a nap yesterday, and having my mind too much on other things.

Fragment
I find some frozen burritos that I had forgotten out on the counter and now they are all thawed out. Disgusted, I don't expect them top be too good now.

Nap fragment
I'm in a room sitting on the edge of a bed. I have this little square box in my hand. It looks much like a distortion pedal for an electric guitar. It has a bunch of small buttons on it. I start pushing the buttons, and they make musical notes, like a keyboard. I start jamming out this tune, and I'm really into it. My sister comes into the room and says. "Since your in such a groove, why don't you set up the Christmas tree. And be careful not to wreck any of the decorations. " Hell no!" I say. " I don't even like Christmas anymore. I don't care about any Christmas tree." I wake up and I'm about to take a note on this, when I slip into a dream that I'm taking a note on it. after a moment of writing I realize I'm just dreaming of taking the note, and startle myself awake. because I don't want to lose the dream. And take down the note for real.

There was more stuff in my nap I think I lost because I didn't get notes on it.

Little bit of WILD stuff
For the last week or so I've been half heartedly trying to WILD a little bit again.
I've had a little none Lucid HI here and there. But last night I got a Little bit of Lucid HI, and in my nap too.

#1 I begin to hear the voices of a group of women laughing with each other. Then slide out of it.

#2 I see a very odd looking black man. He walks up to me, crouches down, and stares right into my face, from a couple inches away. It startles me awake.

# 3 Nap: This was after I had been sleeping for a little while, and had woke up.
I lay there saying this is a dream over and over. I then start to see the image of myself holding a lemon in my hand. As I hold it, I turn it and examine it, as I continue to repeat, this is a dream. As I do this, I think about how interesting it is that I'm not really trying to visualize the lemon. The image is just easily coming to me on it's own.

Less than three hours of sleep with lots of interruptions. About a two hour nap. Six short dreams recalled in less than three hours. Some vague moment of mild Lucidity that I can hardly remember.

Fragment
I'm at home. My step Dad is there. He is saying something to me about me not having an alarm clock, or any clock at all. (I do for real, but in the dream I didn't) I remember that it doesn't matter because I have my watch. I look at my watch and the time. I don't remember what it said, but I didn't notice anything abnormal about it. Then something wakes me up.

Flute
I'm in a room alone. But There are people in another room. I have a musical instrument. It looks like a combination of a flute, and a trumpet or something.( don't really know my wind instruments.) It plays like a flute, but it has a horn like end. I spend a lot of time blowing into the mouth piece, and putting my fingers over the holes in different positions, trying to get some kind of sound. But for a long time I can't get it to make any musical notes. I keep adjusting the way I do it, until it finally starts to work. It works well, and I'm making good music with it now. Some people enter the room, and are impressed At how well I can play an instrument I never played before.


The fish
I'm in an indoor place, I'm not sure where. There is this indoor pond near by me. There is a leather jacket laying on the ground near the pond. There is a little fish that is glowing with a soft blue light. It is on the leather jacket, and swimming through the folds of the leather. There is something special, or magical about this fish. After some time of watching it swim through the jacket, I reach down to scoop it up. It takes me a little bit, but I eventually scoop it into the palm of my hand. I carry it over to the pond,a nd set it in the water. There is a lot of fish swimming together in the water. There is something very fascinating about the way they are swimming around each other. It's very hypnotic, and I just watch them mesmerized until I wake up.

Back from the dead
I'm watching TV, and there is a guy on some kind of talk show. He is telling a story about how he was talking on a phone during a thunderstorm, and was struck by lightning through the phone. He claims to have died, and went to some other world.
He describes in detail the places he went, and the things he saw. And the things he learned while there. There is another group of people on this show. There goal is to debunk this man, and prove that he is making everything up. I'm not sure how, but they somehow prove that he is telling lies just to sell books and make money.

Video machine
I have this odd video machine. It's a big black square box. I have it hooked up to my TV, It has this control, with all sorts of buttons and pads. This machine somehow makes all cable channels interactive. This dream was more than a fragment, but there was a lot of weird stuff going on that I don't know how to describe.

Work dream
I was at work, and everything that happened was a common work dream sign for me. (should have gotten Lucid.) First off, I was in a hurry trying to my work done. I couldn't get anything done because everywhere I turned there was someone, or something in my way. I get extremely pissed off and start cussing at my boss about how I can't get anything done. The boss that I'm bitching at, I have not worked with in years. There is a new boss that comes along, The person knows nothing about my job, and is trying to tell me how to do my work. Which makes me even more angry. There is another person there that I have not worked with in years. I actually notice this. I think it is quite odd that the person is working there again, but I don't think to RC this time.

I have a very vague memory of a dream where I realized that something happened because it was a dream. But It was like, no wonder that happened... Because I'm dreaming. But then I just forgot about it and went on to something else that I don't remember.

I woke up with some recall in my nap, but I fell asleep before taking any notes and lost it.

A couple of dreams from the last couple of days. I have not had time to record anything. But recall is still continuing to improve regardless. And I've been trying to work harder at my awareness stuff.



The escape

I'm in a cell. Some type of jail, I think. There are several people in the cell with me. There is a pit in the center of the floor with a black grate over it. This is supposed to be used for people to piss in. One man walks up to the grate in the floor. He has several containers of colored powders. He begins pouring them into the pit. He then walks to the cell door, pulls it open, and walks out. I realize that he had just created some sort of chemical reaction to cause the cell door to unlock.

The door closed behind the guy and I worry that it had locked again. I rush to it and pull it open. Luckily it's not locked. I run out into the hall, and the rest of the prisoners follow. We come to some kind of lobby near the exit. It looks like a place that would be in a fancy hotel or something. There is a desk with three security guards sitting there.
I'm not sure what to do, but I just go past hoping that they won't realize that I'm one of the prisoners.

I almost make it. But then one gets up and shouts, "stop!" The other guards get up too. There is a lot of commotion. all the prisoners running around, and guards trying to stop them. There is a guard suddenly near me, and he pulls a gun on me. I knock it out of his hand. The gun goes flying, then skids across the floor. I run and dive for it, as does the guard. I barely manage to get the gun before the guard does. I point it at him, and he backs off. I make my way out of the building with the gun in hand.

I run for a little while, not sure which way to go. I stop and try to walk casual. to people come out of a building I just passed, and are walking behind me. They are plain clothed cops. I can hear them talking about the escape. They don't know that I'm one of the escapees. I'm holding the gun close in front of me, so that they can not see it. I feel like they are going to realize who I am at any moment, and try to grab me.
So instead of waiting for them to attack me, I turn and shoot them. First one, and then the other. They scream, and hold a hand over their bullet wounds. I turn to run away.
But I realize that I have somehow been shot as well. There is a bloody mortal wound in my stomach. I stumble away, then lay down in the grass to die. I remember thinking it hurt a lot at the time, but it really didn't. I was just expecting that it should. I lay there for a moment before waking.



The race
Partial Lucidity

I'm driving a fancy red mustang through a lit up city at night. I'm in some kind of race where you have to beat the clock. There are no other racers present. I can hear a voice navigating. It's coming from a speaker our something, I don't know. I really have no idea where I am, or which way to go. I'm just following the directions of the voice.
The voice gives good directions, I can see everything it describes, and I make all the right turns. I have great control of this car, I'm an awesome racer. I eventually come to this suspension bridge, the finish is on the other side. I pull the steering wheel hard to the right, causing the car to spin seemingly out of control. I'm in control though, I'm just making a show of crossing the finish. There is a crowd of people watching from the sides.

I come to a stop, and everyone is cheering.

Scene shifts, and I'm in an apartment building. the adoring crowed is there too. People are worshiping me, bringing me gifts. Like I'm some kind of hero. Somewhere around here, I become partially aware that I'm dreaming. I have that feeling where I know I can do anything because it's not real. I easily convince every one to get naked, and I do too. I'm getting to go walking through the city naked, but I wake before that happens.



Demonstration of Lucidity
Near fully Lucid, but not quite.

I'm in a car with another person. We are pulling into the parking lot of an apartment building. We are meeting some people in an apartment, and I'm supposed to be having a talk with them about Lucid Dreaming. We ark and get out. The other person hurries inside the building, and is gone. The ground I'm standing on is icy, and I begin skating towards the building on my feet. I pick up a lot of speed. I decide it will be better to demonstrate what it's like being Lucid, rather than to explain it. There is a sidewalk near the side of the building. There is a curb, and a little bit of snow has drifted up against the curb. I make for the little curb drift as fast as I can, planning to use it as a jump.

I hit it, and fly up and hit the side of the building. I kick off and land out in the parking lot. Thinking that the people I'm supposed to be meeting are watching out a window, I try again. I'm hoping to hit the little ramp and fly straight up into the sky, missing the building. I get up my speed again and hit the ramp. I hit the side of the building again, though. I kick off as hard as I can, and do a flip through the air.
There is another building opposite. I land on the side of the wall, and stick there.
I stand there, on the side of the wall for a moment, showing them how easy it is to stick to walls in dreams. I then walk across the side of the apartment building, then jump off. There is a little bit more of this skating jumping and sticking to walls.

But then the dream shifts, and I'm having a discussion with somebody about Lucid Dreaming. The discussion is about how to get over the frustration of dry spells.

A Lucid Dream
Thursday/April/9/2009
Lucid Dream # 11 of 2009
Best dreamsign recognized

This one took place around an hour and forty minutes into sleep. That was all I slept last night, and this was the only dream recalled in that period.

I'm at the cabin. R and my brother are there. we are getting ready to go get gas for the four wheelers. (I actually have only one there.) There was some stuff that I don't remember very well. Then R and my brother had decided to take the four wheelers for a a little spin first. I watch as they come tearing out of the woods and around the cabin.(doesn't look much like the cabin area now.) R is following my brother, and rides over to an area where he has built this huge jump. I walk over there just in time to see my brother go flying off this jump.

The jump is like an almost vertical wall of dirt, only it's built like two ramps together. So that you catch air half way up the ramp, and either completely clear the top half, or briefly land on the top part, and jump off again. After seeing my brother go flying off the top part. I climb it on foot, and look down the other side. From the top looking down, it seems very high. Like hundreds of feet. I can see my brother riding below.

I get excited now, thinking I'm going to jump this. And when I do, I'll get Lucid. Only I'm going to do it on foot. I get down from the ramp and run around the property in a wide circle, getting up speed. Then run straight for the ramp. As I approach the ramp I get a little confused, wondering why I think I can make such I high jump without being hurt. But I shrug it off. I'm committed, and I somehow just know it will be alright.

I run up the face of the ramp, and when I reach the end of the first part of the ramp. I leap off it as hard as I can. I'm just barely able to clear the top part of it, and I dive head first into open air. I have a very brief moment of fear, but then I'm Lucid.

I fall a short way, then swoop upward into the air, flying. I put out both of my arms like a bird, and I feel as if I'm an eagle gliding on the wind. I circle the area rising higher and higher. "This is a dream." I repeat a couple of times. Just to be sure that I'm fully Lucid. I can see R pointing up at me while shouting to my brother. But my brother isn't paying attention. I'm wearing a loose white shirt, and I can feel the wind flowing through it, making the material flap violently. But not uncomfortably so. I just continue to circle, riding the air currents, gaining altitude all the time. It was a beautiful moment. I eventually get so high, that R and my brother are so tiny I can hardly make them out any more. And I just glide until I wake.

Had a really sucky week. No time to record any dreams. Though, been doing plenty of the mental awareness work. Been a little more motivated every day.

A Lucid Dream
Sunday/April/12/2009
Lucid Dream # 12 of 2009
Tornado dreamsign recognized
Reality check induced Lucidity

I normally probably wouldn't count a Lucid this short. But this one was significant to me for several reasons, so I'm going to count it. It took place about seven hours into sleep, and after one, ten minute WBTB. It's also the second tornado dream I had this week.

Going to skip over some of the beginning.
I'm with my my nephew, and I decide to go with him for a bike ride. We are going to ride to the park preserve trails. By the time we get there, we are no longer on bikes. We are walking. As we near the park we walk along a lake that's on the left of us. I'm watching the waves roll across the surface of the water. It begins to rain, and I can see the rain drops hitting the water too.

We are a ways from home, and I Think that it sucks that we are going to get caught in the rain now. It was nice when we left. I look to the sky, and I see some really low hanging clouds. I see one spot that is reaching a little lower than the rest, almost like a funnel. I look to my nephew and say,"If this was a dream those clouds would form into a tornado for sure." I'm pretty sure I do a quick nose RC here, but I don't get Lucid. It either failed or I didn't do it right again, I'm not sure.

The cloud does begin to form into a thin tornado, and touches down. And not too far away is a larger thicker one. I'm not even sure if it's a tornado, because there is no rotation to it. It just looks like a wide pillar of white cloud reaching from the sky to the ground. But, in the distance I can see even another tornado, this one is spinning fast, and tearing across the land. I don't feel any kind of wind yet.

My nephew and I, look for a place to take shelter. I'm on the verge of Lucidity the entire time because I feel very aware and clear thinking, and I'm strangely unafraid.
I can remember the tornado dream I had earlier this week, and I'm comparing my experience now, with the dream I had then.

We follow a road into the park preserve, there are some buildings, and picnic shelters. I can see lots of people around. I can see some woman getting blown away. She is sliding across the ground out of control. And there is lots of flying dust in the air. Yet, I don't feel the wind. But I think I'm about to. I find a place for us to hide. Kind of hard to describe it. It's just a narrow space between some buildings, almost completely surrounded by concrete. But one side is open. My nephew, some other woman, and I, hide in this spot.

Through the open space, I can see a tornado spin by, the back track it's course. I do another nose RC, proud of myself for remembering to RC even in this dire situation.
This time I can breath through my nose. But it feels weird, like my nose is full of boogers and I'm just breathing because I can't get my nose completely closed.
For a moment I get distracted by the tornado again. I point out to my nephew, the life like nature of this tornado. It is moving back and forth right outside the opening of our shelter. It is like it knows we are there, and is checking us out. (In my previous tornado dream, a face formed on the tornado. It became a living creature that tried to reach into my shelter and suck me out.)

I remember this as I watch it become thiner and and thiner. Then dissipate altogether.
Again I do another nose RC, and can breath. But with the same difficulty as before. I do it a couple of times, but there is no way I can trust this RC. I then remember to look at my watch. I look at it, and look away. "Wait a minute, did the numbers just change?" A bit excited now, pretty sure that I really am dreaming, I try it again. But now I'm having trouble seeing the numbers properly. I do the RC several times trying to get a for sure sign. My watch just doesn't look right. Then I finally get a bunch of squiggly scrambled symbols that I remember from the last dream I did this.

OK, now I'm 99% sure I'm dreaming. I just have a little bit of doubt. I decide to show my watch to my nephew to get his opinion. He has already left the shelter. I go to look for him. He is not far, I show him my watch and ask him what he thinks. He laughs and says, " Your watch says Caradons gift!" (Uses my real name, though.) "What?"
I turn the watch back and look at it. My watch now looks like a red heart shaped Valentine. With white around the edges. There are three words on it, one just above the other. "Caradons gift shop." (real name again, though.)

I look to my nephew and say, " Now there is no doubt at all!" I look at my watch again, and it still has that Valentine look to it. It seems so funny to me that I start laughing so fracking hard that I bend over double holding my stomach. My nephew starts laughing too. I laugh so hard that I wake myself up.

I like "The Escape". Interesting description of how it felt to accept your death.

And laughing so hard you wake up is definitely the way to end a lucid dream.

i would be scared if i were u

Originally Posted by Robot_Butler

I like "The Escape". Interesting description of how it felt to accept your death.

And laughing so hard you wake up is definitely the way to end a lucid dream.

Hi Robot. Thanks. yeah, that was an interesting dream. I've had a lot of jail dreams lately. I hope it's not a bad omen.

Yeah, laughing is a good way to wake up. I've done that a couple of times. Too bad I didn't get a little more Lucid time first, though.

Originally Posted by LD Java

i would be scared if i were u

Thanks for reading Java. Do you mean scared of the tornado's?

Hmm, they can be scary sometimes. But I'm one of those weird people that enjoys a good scary dream. The scarier the better actually. If I get scared enough I will get Lucid for sure, and I'm not afraid once I get Lucid. And I've gotten pretty good at recognizing tornado's as dreamsigns. So I welcome those dreams. I will probably get more of them with the tornado season coming up. Now real life torbnado's I'm scared of. I had a couple of near misses last year. One touched down right near my house while I was taking a nap one day.

I'm pretty tired so I'm not sure how well I'll be able to describe these dreams, but I got Lucid the last two nights.

A Lucid Dream
Thursday/April/16/2009
Lucid Dream # 13 of 2009
Movie transition to Lucidity

This one took place about seven hours into sleep. It was a night of bad recall because of having my sleeping schedule disrupted. But I ended up remembering a Lucid at the end of the night anyway. It was the only dream I recalled.

The first thing I remember is walking down a road through the most beautiful mountain scene. Though, I know it's not real. I believe that I'm in a movie theater watching a digital 3D movie. The mountains have snow on them, and I'm just blown away by the beauty of the scene. And I'm so amazed that I'm so immersed in the movie, that It actually feels like I'm walking down the road. I try to get a sense of myself sitting in my chair in the theater, but I can hardly tell that I'm in a theater. I move along the road for some time, just gaping in wonder at the mountain scene.

Scene shifts. My next memory is that I'm in a house, and I'm fully aware I'm dreaming now. I can hear the voices of children upstairs. And I begin to make my way in that direction. I briefly think about trying to will the scene to change, but everything seems as solid and real as real life, so I just make my way up the stairs.

There is a kind of an eerie feel to the scene. I feel as if I'm in an end of the world scenario. Once upstairs, I am in a room with two children. My memory is a little vague here, and I think my Lucidity level gets fairly low for a little bit. I remember some images on a TV about things that are going on in the world outside. Then I lay down to go to sleep. I remember that I was planning to go into a dream Lucid. But then I get up for some reason, to get something, I think.

Then full Lucidity comes back to me. And I think to myself, why do I want to go to sleep in a dream. That's a waste of Lucid time. Now, the children have become dogs. One of them is my dog, and the other is my Moms. (That I watched all winter while she was in Mexico.) I look at my moms dog and see if I can will him to come to me with my thoughts alone. He does, He actually gets up and runs to me as fast as he can, and wagging his tail. I think that's pretty cool. Just then my alarm goes off.

I had set my alarm a half an hour early to get into work early too. I regret doing that now.

A Lucid Dream
Friday/April/17/2009
Lucid Dream # 14 of 2009
Best dreamsign recognized
No reality check needed
Basic Lucid task completed

I woke up from this one after about an hour and a half of sleeping. That's all I slept last night, and I recalled other dreams too. I had better recall in that hour and a half than I did in the seven hours of the night before. That's because I had a good nap in earlier in the afternoon.

Going to skip over some of the beginng stuff. There was stuff about me having an apartment, and sharing it with some other college kids. In the dream, I'm a kid in college. And the apartment is like a dorm room or something. One thing leads to another, and eventually there is a group of us out on the street walking, doing I don't know what. It's outside the college, and there are lots of people around.

Somewhere along the line, I find this long wooden pole. It's a little longer than I am tall. And I'm about six three. The pole isn't very wide around. It actually reminds me of the pole in my closet for hanging coats on, only longer. I decide I'm going to use this to pole vault along. And I also think about how if I was in a dream, doing this could easily get me Lucid.

I take a couple of running steps and vault off of this sloping grassy hill, trying to get as high as I can. Suddenly I'm airborne, and floating higher. Instantly Lucidity washes over me.

I say to some my friends, "Hey, this is a dream! Look at me, I'm flying!"
I kind of float along, not all that high in the air. It's like gravity is gone. I'm not even really trying to fly. I'm still carrying my long pole. One of the other guys has a long pole as well, and he decides to take a whack at me with it. It's kind of a playful friendly attack. He isn't really trying to cause me harm. Still floating, I use my pole like a staff, and easily block. We have this little battle, and I think it's cool how I can wield this staff like a pro. I know exactly how to spin it, and swing it just right, to block every strike that comes at me. It's kind of fun.

After a little bit of this I lose interest, and kind of drift away and land. There are many pretty college girls around, and I am unable to completely resist the urge to play with one a little. There is one standing on the side of the street, facing away from me. I walk up behind her, and slide my right hand around her waist. Then move it upwards, until I feel the pleasant softness of her breast beneath my hand. Then I nibble on the side of her neck just a little. Then I back off, not wanting to push my luck. I don't want to lose the dream, and this kind of thing always causes me to wake up.

I do something here, I can't remember what exactly. There is a slight gap in my memory. But then I'm on a street, and it feels as if I've been in this dream for a while now, and I think it's pretty cool. Then I think, Hmm, what to do now. I now remember the Lucid task of the month. I didn't really set the intention to do the task before hand. But I remembered reading it, and thinking I would do it if I got the chance. The one I think of, is to go diving. This is something I've wanted to do anyway.

I take a quick look around and I can see the ocean not far off. Did I just inadvertently summon the ocean? I don't know, but I don't remember seeing it before. I make my way there. I make my way there, and the water is rough. there are lots of waves crashing to shore. Wow, I think. This is those most realistic looking water. I can hardly wait to dive in. But suddenly the ocean waves are rushing at me fast. I'm hit by the water with force. And it's more like a rushing white water river now. I get completely submerged and I can't see a thing, because the water is all white and bubbly. I start to feel like I'm suffocating, but then remember I can breath water. I take a deep breath, and I can breath easy. I get water in my mouth and I'm amazed that it tastes as salty as the real ocean.

But then suddenly the raging torrent is gone, and I'm left sitting on dry ground. The rest of the ocean is just a few feet from me, and it's just a flat calm now. I walk up to it, and the water is clear. I dive back in, and swim beneath the surface. I take a deep breath through my nose, and I can actually feel the water burn the inside of my nose a little. I know that I don't have to feel that, and it goes away.

I swim to the bottom. It isn't all that deep. the first thing I notice is brown leaves rolling across the ocean floor. It's kind of odd. But then I see these long, weird looking fish swimming near me. I try to touch one of them but they are just out of reach, and I can't get close enough.

But then I'm startled by the next thing I see. It's I big male lion walking along the bottom of the ocean floor! And it's coming towards me. After my initial surprise I think it's pretty cool. I swim up to it and start to pet it. The lion rolls over onto it's back, and I scratch it's belly. I then turn and go to find something else. I notice the lion is following me now. But then I wake. I think my alarm clock went off just then, I'm not sure though.

Damn, Lucid four times in the last two nights but lost most of it because of some bad recall. I'm counting this one I had my nap, just because I'm pissed about losing so much.

A Lucid Dream
Sunday/April/19/2009
Lucid Dream # 15 of 2009
Lucidity trigger unknown

I had woken up from a Lucid in my nap, and was excited about getting Lucid again. But I fell right back to sleep and entered another dream Lucid. It was like a continuation of the one I woke up from. There was somebody with me, and I was telling them about the dream I was just having. There was something about a big stadium, and I was doing tricks for a crowed. Going of big jumps doing acrobatic stunts. I was telling the person with me about this. and I was Lucid while telling them about it.

Then I decide to show off. I say, "Watch this." I'm in a room, and there s a chair. I run towards the chair. I jump into the air, kick off the backrest of the chair, then tuck into a ball doing a slow but perfect back flip. While spinning in the air, I think, ahh that feels good. Then I land perfectly on my feet, and wake up again.

And I have hardly any recall of the Lucid I was having before that.

Some crazy adventure stuff last night. But a lot of it's to confusing to record well. I've been having a lot of dreams about heights. lately, That's my mind trying to get me Lucid.

The rope swing

The dream starts out with me running through some snowy wilderness landscape. I run into a polar bear. At first I'm afraid and run away. But the bear becomes friendly, then becomes a person that continues with me in the rest of the dream. There is something about a snow plow making roads through the wilderness. Then I end up on this rope that is swinging off the side of this cliff. The only reason for me to be on it, is to face my fear of heights. I'm ok for a Little bit, but then I look down and can see the rocks far below. I get very afraid and need to get off that rope. I need help from somebody that is on the cliff. The person helps to pull the rope to where I can climb off it.

Then I'm in some house just hanging out. Some old lady has this big box of jelly beans, or some kind of similar candy. At first I don't want any. But I try one, and they taste so good that I eat bunch more. They had a very strong, sweet, fruit flavor.

Baltar and the savage mutant thing
A crazy adventure dream That I can't remember most of I remember some stuff about the idiot Baltar, from BSG. There is some kind of underground train system,a nd Baltar is trying to jump onto a train. Everyone has abandoned him on some planet, and he is trying to save himself.

Next thing I remember is a group of soldiers in dark uniforms escorting some people. It's an outdoor scene, The sun is hot and bright. One of the people being escorted morphs into some kind of mutant creature, like something from "Resident Evil." It attacks everyone, ripping them to pieces. The is a very vivid image of a soldier practically torn in half, his insides spread out on the ground around him. He is squirming around, but he is Left to die there in the hot sun.

Girl Fragment
Just a fragment of me in a bed with some girl. We don't have sex before I wake up, but things were definitely going in that direction.

Some nap stuff

There is a park. Some people I know had designed and built this amusement park ride. It's like a ferris wheel. but you sit in these small cage like cars that spin around, twirling you upside down, as the whole thing rotates into the air. Standing on the ground looking up at this ride, I get extreme vertigo. And I know that I will never get on it.
Then there is something about a girl I'm with. And we are talking about Lucid Dreaming, and awareness exercises. Then there was some stuff where I think I was Lucid, but I'm not quite sure because I can't remember it very well. I remember walking around doing something, then waking up with the feeling that I new I was dreaming. I know I was at least partially Lucid if not fully.

Couldn't remember much more from my nap, even though I slept longer trying to get more dreams. But I didn't take anymore notes, and lost what little I did remember.



Oh, there was another dream I forgot to post. About being in a jungle and trying to trap some wild animal. I think it was a tiger. I remember having a poison blow dart and shootting somebody who was trying to imitate being the animal lol.

Damn, you're on a roll lately. Any idea why you're getting such great dreams? Are you trying anything new?

Originally Posted by Robot_Butler

Damn, you're on a roll lately. Any idea why you're getting such great dreams? Are you trying anything new?

Thanks Robot_Butler. Well, I'm still just using the same time tested awareness techniques that I've always used. I've just been more motivated, and working a lot harder at it lately. I messed up my dreaming at the beginning of the year, and I've been slow to get things going again. I'm going to have to try and make up for lost time. We'll see.

lots of really vivid recall last night. About four hours of sleep, and a two hour nap when I got home.

Brief moment of Lucidity

I'm talking on the phone to an old friend. He asks me for my phone number. I can't remember the number for this phone, but I know I have it written down in my wallet.
I get out my wallet and start digging through it. I look at my drivers license. I see that it has a different name on it. It says my name is Ashwood or something similar. I can't remember the last name it said. I tell my friend on the phone what my new name is. Then I have this weird thought. I think it's funny that I'm completely accepting the fact that I have a different name, without becoming Lucid. Then I look at my watch. I don't think I was really intending to do an RC. But the face of my watch looks like it's filled with sand or something. When I see this I think That I'm probably dreaming. I turn my watch away and back again. Now there is no sand, it looks normal. I now know I'm dreaming, and think, Yay I'm Lucid again. But then the dream slips away and I wake.
I think I woke because I had just fallen asleep after getting up to use the bathroom. And I just wasn't into the dream deep enough yet. But then I WILD for a second. I slip back into a dream fully Lucid, but I come out of it right away again.


Dinosaur park and more REAL D

I'm in another country. Mexico, I think. I have to get on a bus to go to some town. I catch the bus, it's very crowded. I'm scrunched up on in the front. The bus driver asks me if I know where the place is that I'm going. I tell him that I don't. I then wonder if he will take me to the right place, or just drop me off somewhere and tell me that I'm in the right town.

We drive past this big park, with dinosaur statues that are life sized. They are kind of scary looking. there are people in the park. people pull on these cords hanging off the statues, and it makes the dinosaur roar very loudly. I see this pod thing on the ground. It looks like the pods from the Aliens movies. I watch as the pod flowers open. Then an almond shaped seed shoots out of it, landing some distance away. This seed opens like the other pod just did, then shoots out another smaller seed. This seed lands, then opens and shoots out a bunch of smaller seeds that scatter on the ground all around it.
These smaller seeds all grow into these little furry creatures that attack and try to eat each other.

Next thing I remember, I'm in a movie theater with my brother. We are going to see some digital 3D movie. My brother goes to the concession stand. And I go find a place to sit. I sit down in a chair, and the movie has already started. The movie is a computer generated cartoon, and the 3D effect has me sitting in the middle of the scene. I'm like, "whoa" I'm sitting in my theater chair, but I'm in the middle of this cartoon looking office room. It's kind of a boring place, there are people sitting at office desks typing on computers and stuff. I look all around me and everything I see is the movie. I can't even tell I'm in a movie theater. This guy walks up to me, and sits in the chair right next to me. He is all catoon looking and I realize that he is a movie character. I'm thinking wholly crap, this is the most realistic 3D movie yet! Where is my brother anyway, He has to see this! I see my brother come walking into the room, he has the big plastic 3D glasses on, and is carrying a tub of popcorn. I wake up.

Too bad, this so could have turned Lucid if I had gotten into the movie a little more.

I had a lot more dreams. In one I was viewing a beautiful sunset sky. In another I was using telekinesis. I don't have time to record everything.

More vivid recall last night, didn't sleep very much, about three hours maybe. Another two hour nap. Unfortunately I don't have time to properly record anything. So a brief description.

A scary action packed adventure dream about being in a jungle with a small group of people. We get attacked by some jungle tribe people. We are hugely outnumbered, and just fighting to survive. There is lots of killing with swords and arrows. Before the end I find a place to hide. I'm very afraid. I had stabbed and hacked up some people with my sword in self defense. It was so horrifyingly realistic that I was just as afraid of having to kill anyone else, as I was of getting killed myself. So I try to hide to avoid it altogether.

Some pretty good recall in my nap too. Not much to describe though. just some weird stuff about being in a creepy rickety old house. With spiderwebs everywhere. And it's raining outside. The house seemed like it should have been a scary place, but I found it oddly comforting and relaxing.

That reminds me of the time I parked a rental car near this waterfall in Costa Rica. There was this little old man with a machete who wanted me to pay him to watch my car. I imagined what he would have to do with that machete if some Ticos decided they really wanted my car. I decided I would rather pay him to promise to do abosulutely nothing if someone wanted to steal the car. I imagined coming back after a swim and finding this nice old man full of bullet holes, and the car smeared with gore from the 12 year old kids he hacked to death with his machete. "Dude, I've got insurance."