Thread: Sara's journey to lucidity

31-01-2007

Busy day, working with my friend S, done tax administration for my small business (I always wait for the last day )

S the painter
My friend S and I are in a large, modern building (kind of storage for a big shop, empty and with metal walls?) the has paintings and drawings hanging on a wall. I see a very nice one of a cat (reminds me of some picture posted on DV, I think it was in MBs DJ) She carries a box with many pencils, all sorted on color. She calls them by difficult names, of which I didn't even know they were colors. She seems to know a LOT about colors and art and I like the pictures she made.

Comments: She doesn't paint/draw IRL and she was amused when I told her about this dream. Maybe I see some hidden talent in her?

Huge tax at the post office
Surely PDP influenced: I come at the post office and have to pay for shipment of 3 small packages. The bill is almost 90 euros! I say this is very expensive for only 3 packages, but still want to have them sent. The officer says the tax is 50% I'm like this can't be possible! Well, he explains, there's a lot of work involved...

Another PDP dream, thinking about my VAT and stuff... plus a nasty post officer yesterday (but that was about a much smaller amount )

Garden design in the newspaper
Again I'm with my friend S. She has seen a beautiful new idea in a newspaper about placing plants in small squares with all the leaves pointing in the same direction. I look at the picture and think it's quite nice. When I turn around and open the newspaper again to find the picture, I can't find it. I'm going back and forth through the paper, looking in another paper, but the picture is gone. There are others, with plants, but not that specific photo.

DUH of course I couldn't find it... My friends husband has a company in making gardens (dunno english word for it) and has a fair next week. S showed me the new flyers with nice plants

Attacking horses!
Yeah, that dream deserves a bigger title

I'm riding on my moped, going from one student to another (I teach horsemanship, on occasional basis). Halfway, when I'm on a dirt road driving along a farm, I see two Friesian horses (big, black, with long manes) tied to a pole. A car tries to drive past them, but passes them too close and the horses panic. I jump off my moped and try to help them, but before I reach them, they got themselves loose! They gallop towards me, still looking frightened. I try to hide, but there is nothing to stand behind. I fall backwards, the horses still running towards me, making wild movements with their front legs as if they want to kick me. Then they are so close, they rear in front of me, I see big black hooves right in front of my face. Somehow they jump over me, but I don't get hurt. Quickly, I climb onto a tractor, but I can't get high enough. One horse turns around and tries to pull me off with his mouth.

*from here, the events are a bit unclear and unconnected*

Suddenly, the horses are gone and I'm back on the ground.
I see a pink vibrator lying on the ground. I walk away, towards a man working in the garden. A girl followed me and hands me the vibrator I make some excuse that it must have been on the back of my moped and fallen of when I dropped it to help the horses. I'm a little ashamed of her finding it, although I know it's not mine.

I'm inside the farmhouse with the family. There's also a boy, a little younger than me, he's not very intelligent, but he's sweet. We end up alone in a sleeping room and I give him a short kiss on the lips. He says something like 'my mouth wasn't ready for that'
Then I remember we had been kissing behind the shed earlier.

I go outside and am now holding 2 vibrators. I realise the family are all Christians and I shouldn't be walking around with this sex-toys, but they are open minded and don't chase me away. I see the family is leaving for church, but they enter a VERY tiny car (looking like a big, cardboard box ).

Instead of taking my moped and leave, I sit on the back seat of a car. I fall asleep in the car and are woken up an hour later by the girl. The family members (father, son and daughter) are now dressed like Amish and I decide it's better to leave.

Originally Posted by Burned up

Don't know if you have a similar saying in Dutch, but a "dark horse" in the English speaking world (or certainly the UK) also means somebody who we think we know but we don't and actually they've got some kind of talent we don't know about. Like there's something mysterious about a dark horse!

Ohhh, I didn't know that!
Thanks for the explanation, Bu! I read this book and thought the 'dark horse' means the 'shadow side' of some person. But it actually means something like a hidden talent?

It's also the symbol for one of our large banks!

LOL, they got a hidden side as well??

But I suspect your meaning is different (perhaps black horses are mysterious to you too?)

Well, horses have a different meaning to me than for most people I guess. They are like the air I breath, can't live without them!

Funny you, had a horse attack after I left my last post. I didn't have a horse attack. But I ended up having the scariest attack dream ever. A T-Rex this time.

All that stuff with the vibrators was pretty funny.

this is only vaguely related to the whole vibrators thing (which was hilarious by the way ), but this old guy thought I stole his porn i guess . He tried to kill me for it later . It was really crazy.

Originally Posted by Sara

S the painter

Do you draw sara? maybe this dream is telling you to give it a go

Originally Posted by Sara

Huge tax at the post office

ha ha thats bad! I bet you are right when you say its PDP all that tax stuff.

Originally Posted by Sara

Garden design in the newspaper

ha that is mad!! I bet you were totally confused during that dream, I get that all the time....just in real life not dreams lol

Originally Posted by Sara

Attacking horses!

that is just great!! The horses sound a little freaky like. I wounder why they attacked you after all they are usually really friendly in your dreams.

ha ha ha I laughed so hard at the vibrator thing! that is just brilliant

Loved that last dream sequence. Nice to know you have sex toys in your dreams too (there was a strap-on in mine a few days ago) . Love the way it gets more and more embarassing for you. Starting with the girl then the family is Christian then Amish.

Do you think sex toys are un-Christian?

Also wondering what the second vibrator was for. Actually, please don't answer that.

Originally Posted by Burned up

Loved that last dream sequence. Nice to know you have sex toys in your dreams too (there was a strap-on in mine a few days ago) .

Also wondering what the second vibrator was for. Actually, please don't answer that.

Wow you guys are weird.

Originally Posted by Sara

31-01-2007

Busy day, working with my friend S, done tax administration for my small business (I always wait for the last day )

Congrats on having a business. What do you do?

Originally Posted by raklet

Congrats on having a business. What do you do?

Thanks guys, for keeping my DJ alive while I was away
Again apologies for staying away, but well, I think that's how life's going to be for the next month. Working my ass of to get my BSc finished before end of feb and then finish stuff for my MSc before June (sounds weird, but we didn't have msc/bsc system until a few years back, it was all in a 5 year program, so I did msc stuff before I finished my bsc and now I have to finish up both withiin a few months) And I have my own company, 2 actually (1 of myself, another with a friend) in horse business. I own a web shop in special horse equipment and with my friend, I'm writing, filming and programming educational DVDs for horse people.

Originally Posted by Caradon

Funny you, had a horse attack after I left my last post. I didn't have a horse attack. But I ended up having the scariest attack dream ever. A T-Rex this time.

Oh, I'm going to read that tonight!

Originally Posted by mark

Do you draw sara? maybe this dream is telling you to give it a go

No, I'm an awful drawer... Maybe I should, but then it would be digital drawing (like you do in PS!)

ha that is mad!! I bet you were totally confused during that dream, I get that all the time....just in real life not dreams lol

Hehe, tell me about it... just remember to RC when you can't find the info again! This was such a typical dream thing.

that is just great!! The horses sound a little freaky like. I wounder why they attacked you after all they are usually really friendly in your dreams.

I think I blame Caradon for this
Never had animal attack dreams, or just an occasional snake or large spider. But now, they get me more and more

ha ha ha I laughed so hard at the vibrator thing! that is just brilliant

Originally Posted by Caradon

All that stuff with the vibrators was pretty funny.

Originally Posted by Burned up

Loved that last dream sequence. Nice to know you have sex toys in your dreams too (there was a strap-on in mine a few days ago) . Love the way it gets more and more embarassing for you. Starting with the girl then the family is Christian then Amish.

Whaha, I knew guys only think about 1 thing...

Do you think sex toys are un-Christian?

Yep, I think so. Even sex is a 'difficult' item for the more strict Christian people and I think the whole 'don't have sex before marriage' is what makes my SC believe they don't have fun with sex at all

Also wondering what the second vibrator was for. Actually, please don't answer that.

Hehehe, It was just another vibo I was holding in my hand (but you are free to use your own imagination on that... )

Originally Posted by Sara

'don't have sex before marriage'

Yep, that was I me. I was one of those.

Originally Posted by Sara

is what makes my SC believe they don't have fun with sex at all

But, oh how wrong you are!

@ Raklet

Shitty lack of time...
I really wish to spend some more time here, but just can't make it now. I'm not even going to bother about my normal dreams (which I had quite a few as well), but for not totally forgetting my last lucid experiences, I'll quickly write down my WILDs (WILDing is easy if I'm suffering sleep dep and a little stress)

2/2/2008

Not really WILD, cause I started the dream as soon as I fell asleep and it took me a minute before I pinched my nose. I fell asleep with Tobby having his arm around me and I could still feel this in the dream. It kept me from moving freely and my vision was also limited to what I saw in the corner of my eyes. But still, it was a lucid
First a guy was spinning around me. He had a lot to tell, but I couldn't remember a word of what he was saying (like reading text, just impossible to make sense of it). Then I started flying, with Tobby next to me. I was flying through space! Saw clouds, but also planets in the distance. Would be cool to still attempt last months task, so I flew towards a planet. But when I came closer, it was just our own earth
I didn't have any control over my flight, tho
I came closer to earth, the surface looked like in a game (Age of Empires or Civilisation like) with bright blue, green en yellow beaches. I passed a cloud and noticed how real it looked (I've been watching clouds for a few days now, imagining myself flying up to one).

I knew I was soon going to crash onto earth, so of course, I started falling down. We cae through another cloud, but this was made of very large grey, 3D pixels (shoe-box size). I said to Tobby: "Look, Pixel mist"

We landed in a street (yeah, landing is still OK) and wanted to find a groundhog. But Tobby said "no, I want to play golf". Me: "Ahh, please, let me find a groundhog first, it doesn't take long!" Well, I saw a fuzzy brown creature, but then I woke up


When I woke up, I asked Tobby how long I had been asleep. Very short time he said, he didn't even notice that I fell asleep. But he was still holding me
3-2-2008 Hot Pursuit
WILD again, 3 times in a row.


1st time with regular SP noise, which turned out to be a car pursuit. I was sitting on the backseat of a cabrio. We were fired at from behind and I wanted the car to fly. We took off several times, but each time we were about 10m high, we got near a tunnel and I had to go down to prevent a crash. Finally we did crash and I woke up.

2nd WILD -> music and the ugly DV member
First without vision, I heard a typical Dutch carnival song. But when I wanted to focus on the song, it changed to being all songs I knew, mixed up together. Still with rhythmic music, but no understandable word. Vision appeared, I was outside with an ugly guy standing next to me. "Are you from DreamViews" I asked (expecting a no, since I didn't recognise him). YES, of course! he replied. And started talking about his dreams. Then I remembered the task about asking a DC, but as soon as I had the question in mind, I woke up again.

3rd Wild Level is dropping, just plain sex
OK, this was not really interesting. Just me, laying lucid in bed, trying to 'will' myself an orgasm. This felt pretty good, but right before the highlight, I woke again.

GRRRR, all those failing things.... (of which the last one was the most frustrating, hahaha) At least I'm back on lucid-track

shame about the lack of time sara I have missed you round here

Originally Posted by Sara

2/2/2008

nice!! I like the flying in space thing! ah I bet it was cool. When you were falling did you get the funny feeling in you stomach?

Shame you never managed to levitate the ground hog

Originally Posted by Sara

2nd WILD -> music and the ugly DV member

that must have been a strange sound to hear everything at once!

lol I hope that ugly DV member wasnt me ha ha

Originally Posted by Sara

3rd Wild Level is dropping, just plain sex

Ah so close lol thats your SC teasing you lol

Glad you're back, and with lucids too! I'm glad to be back on track too. I hate dry-spells.

Originally Posted by Moonbeam

Wow you guys are weird.

Indeed...

"SC"= Subconscious right?

Yep, it means subconscious.

5-2-2008

Little semi-lucid flying
Just when entering a dream, I was in a car, going around a corner and then trying to fly. This time it worked! But then the car was gone and I was flying myself. Not really high, but at least I didn't crash

All you can eat...
I'm in the 'storage room' at my parents house (where we keep all the food) and it's really full. Someone says we have to make more space, so we need to eat all the food (mainly sweets) with open packages. I stuff it all in my mouth, chocolate sweets with almonds inside, cookies, crisps... It tastes great, but then I realise I was supposed to loose a little weight and if I keep eating all this, I'm only gaining weight! I feel guilty and quit eating.
Task for this week: lots of RC when eating!


My little goat
Yeah, my little black goat was in the dream again! We were outside in my parents garden, I tried to show off to other people, about how good we are on trick training. I hadn't seen her for years, but she still knew all his tricks But she was more shy than she used to be.
I woke up shortly after and felt sad that she's not around anymore

My friend S has 2 goats now, I taught them some tricks last summer:

Leg up:


Rear up together:


Moving my horse around
Sad dream. My friend in France came to Holland for a month. I transported my horse to her place. Then I realised I shouldn't have done that, because he was there without any friends and I couldn't travel there to see him very often. I wanted to take him back to another friends place (S, the one with the goats)

Trying to sleep
I was in my old bedroom (at my parents place) with my sister. We both had a bed in there. I was trying to get asleep, but I was too nervous, still thinking about my horse. Actually, I had a lot of dreams about sleeping or finding/making a place to sleep. Must be some PDP (I was incredibly tired the whole last day).

Oh, reading TS's DJ, the conversation about DCs reminded me of something!
In my first lucid last weekend, I heard Tobby talking in my dream! It was as if I heard his thoughts, while he was trying to fall asleep. He was repeating a sentence like "I'm going to sleep and will have a dream"). But when I woke up, he told me he hadn't been thinking this (too bad, it would have been amazing if it were true...)

Ohh, forgot the really weird action dreams from yesterday. They are worth remembering, cause it's one of my lucid tasks...

4-2-2008

Parachute
I'm on a really high cliff with a group of people and jump off. I remember I was very calm and pulled the cord, so my parachute opens. I fly past another girl. I don't remember the landing, but suddenly I'm back up again. I start wondering why I didn't have any fear and performed a solo jump on my first parachute experience ever...
Instead of doing an RC, the dream explains: We were tied to 2 cords, hanging in the air. People descend by these cords, falling slower than normal, so they have time to open the parachute. I see my own jump played back in the air.

Roller-coaster around the house
Back at my parents house (djeez, it seems like I'm always there in my dreams!) there was an entertainment group. They built a roller-coaster around the roof of the house (at the place where the gutter used to be. I stand in line waiting for a small car, to make a ride. I notice the track is broken at some places and I hope I'm not going to fall off. Instead of a car, a white horse appears. I decide I've been waiting long enough and jump on the horse. A kid is placed behind me.

The track is very wide now, so the horse can walk there. I'm disappointed that we go very slow. Suddenly, a whole group of people is walking in front of us. I get really annoyed, this was supposed to be a thrilling ride! I urge the horse to go faster and pass the group. The people get mad at me, I should better control my horse. A little kid yells "I had better control of my horse in the riding lessons when I used the bit". I tell her "sorry, I don't have any reins". The reins appear, but I still don't stop the horse

The riding felt really natural, I also had a great connection with the horse, cause he knew I wanted to go fast and responded to my cues very lightly

Originally Posted by Sara

The riding felt really natural, I also had a great connection with the horse, cause he knew I wanted to go fast and responded to my cues very lightly

I'm off theorising again...

Maybe my "inner horse" comment wasn't as facetious as I meant it to be. Your horse does seem to represent a closeness for you that's normally associated to opposite-sex DCs. But I suppose the horse is an opposite-sex DC. Do you think a dream featuring a female horse would have been the same?

Originally Posted by Sara

Little semi-lucid flying
Just when entering a dream, I was in a car, going around a corner and then trying to fly. This time it worked! But then the car was gone and I was flying myself. Not really high, but at least I didn't crash

Oh, that sounds like fun! I've only ever flown once in a dream, and it was great. Someday I will do it again.

Originally Posted by Sara

All you can eat...
I'm in the 'storage room' at my parents house (where we keep all the food) and it's really full. Someone says we have to make more space, so we need to eat all the food (mainly sweets) with open packages. I stuff it all in my mouth, chocolate sweets with almonds inside, cookies, crisps.

LOL. I've done that before IRL. I went to visit my two cousins. We found a 3 pound block of dipping chocolate in their mom's storage room. We hid in a corner and ate the whole thing!

Originally Posted by Sara

My little goat
Yeah, my little black goat was in the dream again! We were outside in my parents garden, I tried to show off to other people, about how good we are on trick training. I hadn't seen her for years, but she still knew all his tricks But she was more shy than she used to be.
I woke up shortly after and felt sad that she's not around anymore

You are so talented with animals. I think it is amazing. I can't even teach my dog something simple like sit or stay. Oh, wait...how could I teach him "quiet" so he won't bark outside my window all night long.

Sorry about your goat. Did it die or did you have to give it away when you went o Uni?


[QUOTE=Sara;685889]
Moving my horse around
Sad dream. My friend in France came to Holland for a month. I transported my horse to her place. Then I realised I shouldn't have done that, because he was there without any friends and I couldn't travel there to see him very often. I wanted to take him back to another friends place (S, the one with the goats)

How do you move your horse around? Do you use trailers like this:



or do you do something different?

Originally Posted by Sara

Oh, reading TS's DJ, the conversation about DCs reminded me of something!
In my first lucid last weekend, I heard Tobby talking in my dream! It was as if I heard his thoughts, while he was trying to fall asleep. He was repeating a sentence like "I'm going to sleep and will have a dream"). But when I woke up, he told me he hadn't been thinking this (too bad, it would have been amazing if it were true...)

Is he sure about that? Maybe he doesn't remember!

Originally Posted by Burned up

I'm off theorising again...

Maybe my "inner horse" comment wasn't as facetious as I meant it to be. Your horse does seem to represent a closeness for you that's normally associated to opposite-sex DCs. But I suppose the horse is an opposite-sex DC. Do you think a dream featuring a female horse would have been the same?

Well, you might have a good point there. Maybe they are like the opposite sex for me IRL as well... Horses have about the same value for me as people (in the sense of 'having a relationship with someone') So it's not that strange you can see that in my dreams. (and no, I DON'T have sex with horses, LOL) And yeah, I LOVE my horses. (good thing is: you can have more than 1, love them all and they don't get jealous as long as you don't show the other horse you have 2 partners )

Originally Posted by raklet

Oh, that sounds like fun! I've only ever flown once in a dream, and it was great. Someday I will do it again.

Oh, I bet you will! It's the best thing in the world!

LOL. I've done that before IRL. I went to visit my two cousins. We found a 3 pound block of dipping chocolate in their mom's storage room. We hid in a corner and ate the whole thing!

3 pound? That's a pound per person
You must have been sick afterwards
IRL, I used to snatch a lot of food from the storage room but my mum does it herself, so there were always open packages with cookies or licorice.

You are so talented with animals. I think it is amazing. I can't even teach my dog something simple like sit or stay. Oh, wait...how could I teach him "quiet" so he won't bark outside my window all night long.

Believe me or not, there's about 8 strategies to get your dog to keep quiet
If you are really interested in simple animal training (and human training as well!) buy the small book: Don't shoot the dog, from Karen Pryor. It's very amusing to read and gives you insight on how to change behaviour in your kids as well

Sorry about your goat. Did it die or did you have to give it away when you went o Uni?

It died about 5 years ago. I always believed goats could become 20 or so, but she was only 12

How do you move your horse around? Do you use trailers like this:

Yep, a horse trailer like that, but a lot smaller (why is everything so big in USA )

Is he sure about that? Maybe he doesn't remember!

I asked him the minute I woke up, he wasn't asleep at all and confirmed he hadn't been thinking about that So yeah, pretty sure...

Originally Posted by Sara

Yep, a horse trailer like that, but a lot smaller (why is everything so big in USA )

Big? That's a small model!

Originally Posted by Sara

Well, you might have a good point there. Maybe they are like the opposite sex for me IRL as well... Horses have about the same value for me as people (in the sense of 'having a relationship with someone') So it's not that strange you can see that in my dreams. (and no, I DON'T have sex with horses, LOL) And yeah, I LOVE my horses. (good thing is: you can have more than 1, love them all and they don't get jealous as long as you don't show the other horse you have 2 partners )

Thanks Sara, sounds right to me too from what you say. Don't worry I certainly wasn't suggesting anything sexual

Originally Posted by Sara

Little semi-lucid flying

yeh! flying is cool it always is

Originally Posted by Sara

All you can eat...

mmmm chocolate with nuts in them mmmm I want it lol

Originally Posted by Sara

My little goat

awww those goats are great! I love that your taught them tricks lol! I didnt know you could do that I am impressed

Originally Posted by Sara

Parachute

now that is cool!!!!

I would love to do that in a dream! I bet it was so cool! could you feel the wind and everything?

Hey, nice Lucids and cool pictures. I loved that one where you were flying to another planet and it turned out t o be earth.

to bad you woke up before doing the tasks.

I ended up having a horse dream after the horse stuff in here. it was cool though, the horse was friendly like always, and I rode it bare back. It was a grey horse. It came running to me when I whistled, and started licking my face like a dog does lol.

I didn't get the chance to post that one though.