Tuesday, December 18
This is pretty long, but pretty deep as well.
I signed up for these forums last night. I had been here before, but never really got into it. This time though, I read through a lot of posts and stories, etc., and decided I would really give it a try (you all make it sound so amazing, I just couldn't resist ). Anyways, when I finally went to bed and fell asleep, I started to dream. Unfortunately, I must have been trying too hard to exert control over the dreams once they started, and I half-woke up multiple times (probably 4-5 times). I decided I should stop trying so hard and went to sleep.
A dream came. It started off with me taking a math/science exam in a small classroom by myself (I just had finals). I finished and left the room, giving my test to an elderly professor waiting outside. Next thing I remember, the rest of the class showed up to take the test. I guess I was taking it early for some reason unbeknownst to me. We were all standing outside in a kind of urban environment (alot like Crossfire on CoD4), and the professor was talking to the rest of the students about the test. Suddenly, I hear "BEAST!" yelled in my mind; it wasn't audible in the dream. I even saw BEAST! come up like subtitles on a movie. It confused me, because nobody else seemed to hear it. It happened again. This time it was "louder," as if the person saying it got closer. I suddenly took a shotgun shell to the back, pointblank, which killed me. As I fell dying I saw the person behind was crouched, wearing all black with a black hood on, and I think someone else was right behind them.
You'd think the dream would end there, but it just changed drastically, and I think I was partially lucid during this part. I was aware it was a dream, but I couldn't control anything.
I was dead, and the world of the dead in my dream was...well...dreamy. It was like a dreamworld within my dreamworld. I was walking down a street nearby where I had just died, and the world had a fuzzy golden tint to it. There were some ruins to either side of the street, as well as some perfectly intact, nice homes. There were even some people doing things outside of their houses, but none of them could see me...I was dead. Anyways, I seemed to be in complete harmony with everything, and I was happy as I walked.
I started to hear a voice that was hard to understand at first, but slowly became clearer. It was God. He was saying something along the lines of "You are the One, chosen..." I don't remember exactly what was said, only the general idea of me being vastly important for some reason. When I heard these words, I could see a huge city on the horizon, and I think it represented the whole world. As the words faded, I started to return to the "real world" (my dreamworld). I was going to be some kind of savior or something like that for the world. The last thing I remember was recognizing that it was a dream, but thinking it was something more than just a dream, that God had really spoken to me. As my consciousness, and the dream, faded, I said a prayer. I don't remember exactly what I prayed, but I think it was for the general well-being of the world, and the people living in it.
Then I woke up. I'm not too religious of a person. I do believe in God and in Jesus, but I'm very cynical about religion in general, especially with modern Christianity. But for some reason this dream felt like it pulled me closer to God. Is that absurd? Was it all just fabrications of my mind? I've never had a dream like this one before...I don't know, perhaps tonight will reveal more answers, and maybe I can have a conversation with "the Voice."
Thanks for reading, and I would appreciate any thoughts or comments from anyone, especially the more experienced LD'ers.
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