Anna's Dream Journal

[AnnaCG07]

Well. As you probably already know this is my attempt at a dream journal. I had one that I wrote in, and it worked fairly well, I got kind of close to a LD, but then I had no time, ect., and I can type faster than I hand write. This is one little..er misgiving I have about this. LD seems to be REALLY related to 'New Age' stuff, which, for the most part, I am..well, really against(being a Christian and all=D). But LD is just a dream that you are conscious in; so I don't think it's wrong at all... Since this is the first entry, I plan on writing the dream I have tonight, tomorrow. So, this one will just have some of my cool dreams. =D -Once, not to long ago, when I first got interested in LD, I was working real hard to have a LD. Anyho, I remember I was on a broom, and was slowly flying into the adjacent bathroom. It was really realistic, I remember thinking 'I want this more realistic' and making the details stand out. It was quite short unfortunately. -Once(upon a time=P) I remember I was running through my school, it was dark and I was looking for my friends, it was lunch time. I rushed through rooms yet found no-one. I was starting to freak out, knives were falling from the ceiling. One fell right beside me, and I was like 'I could've died!'. So I closed my eyes and wanted to be on the beach with my friends. The last thing I remember is the warmth of the sun on my closed eyes and I knew that my friends were with me. -I was going to fly to China. I really didn't want to-they were accusing me of a crime that I did not commit. I knew that when I got there, they would torture me into admitting a crime that I didn't do. I was so scared, I was spending some of my last time with my family before I had to go. I can't explain what it felt like to realize that you will most likely die, or experience horrible pain, so soon, and this is your last time to be with your family and friends. Its horrible. I woke up scared, it took me a sec. to realize that it was just a dream, thankful that my country would not let me forced into another country to be tortured into admitting a crime that I didn't do. I can't explain the relief I felt...=) SO, I'm looking forward to this, and I hope that this will help me have a LD. =D -Comments/ect. are appreciated! EDIT: Now that I've had a LD or two, I've decided to put them in dark green.

[AnnaCG07]

Well..last night all I remember is just a few glimpses. -Someone was making their character(nanowimo.org) on sims2 and had a problem making the color go on certain parts of the skin. You see, you can't have color on just the back of the neck on Sims 2-it has to be on front and back at the same time. -A glimpse of a 3D type hand, once again above character creation. It was faintly blue. And then, this morning, I walked by the tv my brother had on, and saw a commercial for Halo 3. This seemed to ring a bell..I tried to remember..but couldn't.

[AnnaCG07]

Another day when all I remember are glimpses of my dream. -It was Halloween and my friend and I were out. All I remember is a glimpse of a brown house and an old car, blue maybe. My friend does actually have a older style blue car.. -There was a boy, perhaps a little older than I. He was with his 'mentor' they were toasting, perhaps holiday. The boy had some resentment against the 'mentor' though I don't know why...The 'mentor' asked something about what they boy had done. The boy admitted that once, long ago, his parents had bought this really good wine. The boy had tasted it and liked it alot, but was mad when he learned his parents were taking that to this party/thing and that he wasn't allowed to come. So, he had stolen the bottle and drank some, but was ashamed of what he had done. They walked out of the room they had been in..which was oddly shaded blue...and the boys' little brother was there, he asked his older brother if he could have a sip of the wine. The brother thought of what had happened(above) and said no. The little boy was just like aww man. Well. That second one is a lot longer on paper...=P

[AnnaCG07]

I KNOW I had a dream. I Know I had a dream. I know I had a dream... But of what? What I remember most is waking up, and the room was lite lightly, making it look like it was the sun shinning through the window. Yet the sun hadn't shone in days. I relax, thinking, yay, today's Friday, and I have school off! Then I realized that it was only Thursday and I did NOT have school off. I bolt up and see that the light was my own(my dads way of waking me up, turning on the light)and it's late so I rush to get everything done. Which pretty much killed my dream recall... So I'll post if I remember anything..

[AnnaCG07]

Oh goodness....this is a long one. -I was watching some tv, and this competition was on. You were on this board and went through tunnels and stuff, the fastest one would be the first on the team. There were two openings, two teams. The next person would be the captain. Anyho I watched that for a while. Then, we went to my grandparents house and were at this old house turned museum. What I was really interested in was that the game I had been watching, you could do it outside. So I went and got inline and one of the famous players was in line. Everyone was excited about him, 'cept me, didn't really care. I was next to a tall black boy, perhaps my age, dressed fancy in a brown suite with glasses. Really tall and skinny. He bends down so that his head is level with my head. Looking for the red diamond? He asks..well I hear it in my head, but his mouth hadn't moved. So I thought he spoke telepathically..cool. Anyho, when I didn't reply, he repeated it, this time I saw his mouth move a little. Soon it was our groups turn, and the lady led us to the barn. One by one we were to scan a picture of ourselves, to create our little character. I realized that I had forgotten a picture. So, I took of running to the museum and found my mom. But she said she didn't have a picture of me. So I ran to my grandparents house and went room to room looking for a recent picture. When I just couldn't find one, I wanted to leave. But couldn't find the door. I looked and looked-I found one, but it led to the lake, I was barefoot and didn't want to try to walk from there to where the door I wanted opened. Anyho, I was just frustrated I could not find that door. All of the sudden, this elderly guy-didn't see his face, just long beard-said, 'Maybe the Mormon children should go to school'. Which in hindsight sounds like complete gibberish...But I understood. I went to this one small shelf, and took the contents off-they had spiderwebs all over them. I started to push the pile of stuff away, and I accidentally hit a frame on the floor. It fell over and a part of it chipped off. Feeling bad, I knelt down and saw that this had happened many times. Just then, my great-grandmother on my grandfathers side walked in to put something down. She said, I am expecting a lot of x's and o's later! Or something like that. I just nodded with a smile. That great-grandmother has been dead for several years. I finally pulled the self back to revel the more of a crawlspace than a door..when I realized that my grandparents might have pictures of my conformation that I could use. So I took off running through the house looking for that. Various members of my family on my mothers side appeared, but had small roles. Talking amongst themselves. Anyho, I finally found a blended picture that had my face on the edge. I had no idea where the picture can from but it was recent. That's when that dream ended.

[AnnaCG07]

-I was at a horse camp with my best friend Brittany(the one with the blue car). Anyho, I remember before going off, I was with my mom and a girl from school, Maya. I absently doodled on the back on these pair of pants. All the sudden I realized what I was doing. Trying to impress the girl, I ripped that section of the pants out before remembering that those were my favorite pants. My mom helped my sew them up. At horse camp. It was my first day, and I was in the room with some other kids working and the head guy was there. He had just told everyone to be quite, but I hadn't heard. I was leaning over my friend Lauren's desk and talked to her...which didn't go well with the head guy. Next thing I know, I'm with one group and they're discussing when you'll have what class. I got in trouble for making a leaf burst into flames with some help from the sun. The head guy was mad 'cause it could've hurt the stables. I was walking to meet him with some other girls and asked them nervously if he killed(I was trying to joke) they said he was a pretty nice guy so I shouldn't worry too much. I wished that I could go home, I was feeling lonely, till I remembered that my friend was there.

[AnnaCG07]

-I was in band, but the low brass had been replaced with low strings, such as the cello, that big bass cello, ect. We had just played a hard song(hah! as if my band could do that) and the student teacher was telling us to warm up while he did something. We were all like, we don't need to warm up! We just played! At this time I woke up 'cause it was cool and I had only a thin sheet. The cat was sleeping on the blanket, but I pulled on to me. I realized that I could try to have a LD, it had been a couple hours since I went to sleep. So I got fully awake but forgot what to do. I ended up getting so excited I couldn't get to sleep. At all. My eye was hurting, my mind just refused to go back to sleep so I had to stay awake for a while 'till I finally went to sleep. -All I remember are brief glimpses of James Herriot, not really seeing them, but knowing they were there, as he treated farm animals(I'm reading some of his books right now). I think I was a little lucid, 'cause I was glad that I was dreaming, because that meant I was sleeping, which I need to, I was tired.

[AnnaCG07]

Well. I MIGHT have had my first LD or rather close to a LD. The problem is, I just don't know.. Let me explain. I've been sleeping horribly with this stupid eye thing, it looks like pink eye yet isn't, but I managed to get a few hours last night. -I had gone away somewhere..far away..perhaps to France to be with Sixtine(French family friend). I don't know. What I do remember is feeling shy, I was living with this family, and driving over a beautiful river surrounded by forest. I also remember the father was taking me someone, and I was digging through my little bag, going, ohmigosh, I could not have just brought one bra! But I hadn't.. -Anyho, I had a feeling that this dream happened when I was away. I was in the band room, and pinched my nose yet breathed through it. I had recently read a journal and saw that someone else had done that and realized they were dreaming. I realized I was dreaming and was soo excited that I couldn't concentrate on one thing to happen. I felt my legs..odd sensation..kind of like vibrations. I eventually settled on one picture that I wanted to become real. A picture of Star Trek: TNG, the bridge. I tried and tried, yet nothing happened..or at least that was the last thing I remember, trying to change my surroundings. Now, looking at that, it looks like a lucid dream..but..I'm hesitant to call it a LD mostly 'cause I don't remember 'being' there..oh..it's hard to explain. I..it was more like a dream..like I was only recalling what had happened, instead of acting it out in the present. I'm also worried that I just dreamed about what I read earlier..someone else's experience.. But! Since it is a very promising dream, I hope that it will lead to a more in depth LD. I would love to hear any suggestions or thoughts...=D

[AnnaCG07]

Well. My dreams last night were..rather dull. -My family and I were eating in the hall way at school on a table, good lunch. Anyho, lunch was over and I headed to math. I ended up in a large auditorium, metal, with thin windows at the top letting in sunlight. Before class, we all had to go to the teachers desk. BUT, the desk was surrounded by water, to get there you had to get on this floating pieces of metal with animal shapes on the front. I didn't want to, I had a book in my hand and didn't want to get it wet. This girl from school next to me said, oh you won't get wet! (thinking back, this would have been a great time for a RT..:p) I just sighed, and got on one, and my foot fell into the dark water. So, I got out from on top quickly and stepped on the next one..'cept that was one of the hard ones..I walked quickly on the strips of copper and got on a piece of metal with a polar bear had on it. I got to the deck, and realized my hand had been under water..with the book. So it was soaked. There was a guy at the teachers desk, and the real teacher was there to take your picture with a big flash.

[AnnaCG07]

Another not particular exciting dream(s).. -I was like a sidekick to the sidekick of a hero, we were racing out of a building and had to steal the car of the 'terrorist bombing' type fraternity house..we were on a college campus..anyho, the sidekick was like 'think they'll have a normal car?' and the hero was like 'what do you think?! It's the terrorist bombing house!'. The car was extremely small kind of like a air plane cockpit the seats were nearly laying down. There was only two seats and I tried to hand on as they zoomed off, I grabbed the sidekicks hand but he was trying to shake me off 'cause I was dragging the car down and they needed to get away. I watched them race off. -I was in a video game rental store, like movie gallery, and was watching a shelf. I hear someone explaining who was getting what on Friday night. 'Anna's getting this and this' they explain, and I'm like yeah..that's right. Some game like Zelda..

[AnnaCG07]

Since it's November, NaNo has started. This means, my time will be spent on writing my novel..but I'll try to cont. writing here. Don't 'member much about my dream last night...'cept -I was a hero type and was on a quest, searching for someone..who I don't know. If I remember more I'll post here EDIT: here's more on the dream -They had one of us. Captured. We were by the opening of the tunnel, watching the schematics of that tunnel flash on the screen. I was scared, scared to go rescue the man. We had been putting it off, and were going to do it, but when? Then one guy said now. I felt a sudden fear of death, then thought, 'Well, if I die it won't hurt much, and I'll be with my friends, fighting for a good cause.' With that, we ran into the tunnel, following my friend as she knew which opening to take. We had made it to a hill overlooking the final barrier to over come. Farms had surround the hill top, but they were deserted because of the danger. A glimpse of a purple clarinet. A ladder led to the hill top, as the thing was vertical. No fear.

[AnnaCG07]

NaNo. 'Nuff said. Really, I added more to last night, and can't remember my dream from last night..=D EDIT: -I was sitting at my desk and a huge bug..like..a..cockroach crawled on the side. I tried to kill it with my flag but missed. He crawled under speaker then crawled back out again. This time I slowly put the small end of the red flag on him and push until I know he's dead. -shudder-Just thinking of that bug...=K -My mom and I were at this event on a baseball field, but it wasn't baseball. We had to lift a water bucket over our heads and I slipped my hands, and the bucket emptied on Mom. -We were driving home from somewhere and the clouds were unreal. They were showing a picture of a man, clearly.

[AnnaCG07]

- I had snuck off to a concert with my friends, a boy with black hair who was 16 drove me, and we met up there. I felt bad, 'cause I hadn't told my parents...so I eventually called them and told them. They were mad, of course, and came to pick me up. Oddly, I was getting in their good graces by taking this A.R. test on Monday.

[AnnaCG07]

I had been reading a lot about WILD, so I decided I would try to do it. Well, first i tried before I went to bed. After a while, when nothing happened, I told myself to wake up a 2 a.m to try it then. I repeat that over and over. I woke up at 4 a.m, quite proud of myself and tried it again. I lay on my back, closed my eyes and relaxed, breathing in and out, counting 1-I'm gonna be lucid 2-I'm gonna be lucid..over and over and over..I did it forever it seems like, yet nothing happened. Eventually I just rolled over and tried to go back to sleep. -One thing...I was trying to do this balla(?) move my friend taught me a while back, but just could not get it right. Oh, and I think I'm gonna try to get adopted=) Sounds like a great way to deepen my knowledge and skill.

[AnnaCG07]

I'm getting a little discouraged by the NO results I have been getting. Also, when I wake up to do a WILD, I have no dream recall, just little snippets or themes. So, last night I didn't try to wake myself at a certain time, and my dream recall is a little better. -Enterprise, newest Star Trek, was reality. I remember watching T'Pol crouch down in the hallway, scanning something on the floor. Her hair was oddly longer than in the show (now that I think of it, great time for a RC).

[AnnaCG07]

So, last night, I have been a little dream-deprived, seeing how I've been waking up in the middle of the night to try a WILD, I decided to just sleep and dream. -I was running on the street at the local forest. I remembered hearing how the 'Weekend Warriors' (in the dream, I couldn't remember the real name for the life of me-they are the National Guard) were training here this weekend, I look off the road to a path and see some people. Then, I jump down to this nearby path that starts in a gully. I was jogging, passing the NG people, who all wore packs. I come to this place, very, very beautiful, I can't descibe it. The path hugged the side of this hill, looking over these ruins, with hill/mount. near by, with fog clinging to it. It was breathtaking.

[The Cusp]

Well. I MIGHT have had my first LD or rather close to a LD. The problem is, I just don't know.. Let me explain. I've been sleeping horribly with this stupid eye thing, it looks like pink eye yet isn't, but I managed to get a few hours last night. -I had gone away somewhere..far away..perhaps to France to be with Sixtine(French family friend). I don't know. What I do remember is feeling shy, I was living with this family, and driving over a beautiful river surrounded by forest. I also remember the father was taking me someone, and I was digging through my little bag, going, ohmigosh, I could not have just brought one bra! But I hadn't.. -Anyho, I had a feeling that this dream happened when I was away. I was in the band room, and pinched my nose yet breathed through it. I had recently read a journal and saw that someone else had done that and realized they were dreaming. I realized I was dreaming and was soo excited that I couldn't concentrate on one thing to happen. I felt my legs..odd sensation..kind of like vibrations. I eventually settled on one picture that I wanted to become real. A picture of Star Trek: TNG, the bridge. I tried and tried, yet nothing happened..or at least that was the last thing I remember, trying to change my surroundings. Now, looking at that, it looks like a lucid dream..but..I'm hesitant to call it a LD mostly 'cause I don't remember 'being' there..oh..it's hard to explain. I..it was more like a dream..like I was only recalling what had happened, instead of acting it out in the present. I'm also worried that I just dreamed about what I read earlier..someone else's experience.. But! Since it is a very promising dream, I hope that it will lead to a more in depth LD. I would love to hear any suggestions or thoughts...=D Sounds like a full fledged lucid to me. They come in various levels of clarity and control, and things don't always work out the way you want them to, like when you couldn't materialize the bridge. But it's a very good sign that you tried to take control of your dream. That should make things easier for you next time around, as things you practice in one lucid tend to come easier next time you're lucid.

[AnnaCG07]

I kind of totally forgot about dreams this morning and didn't even try to remember mine. Which makes it kind of hard now to think of them. It doesn't help I'm behind in NaNo...=P Also- Thanks for the comment 'The Cusp'! I see what you mean by different levels of clairty. I'm hoping to get close to a LD or a LD soon..=D I'll post more if I remember more about my dreams last night=)

[AnnaCG07]

Okay.. -night before last night- We were, my parents and I, walking through a zoo. It had recently rained, and the wooden walkways were wet. I looked down under the semibridge and saw a Doberman, a dog, dead, suspended in the water, its muzzle pointing upwards. -last night- -My family and I were in this apartment, and it was completely dark. We had to live there, not sure why. I remember that if we said words like 'suicide' then we would all die. Then someone said it. I was worried, but in the end, things changed, lights came on. Something about a high school marching band...=P

[AnnaCG07]

Okay... I'm busy, but I'm gonna write down my dream 'cause it turned into a *gasp* LD! *First off, normal dreams -I was playing the violin, yet no sound would come out...then, the other violin player was like solo! and I was to play, and tried, yet no sound would come out. -Wood, needed different types, time running out. *Now for the LD -I was in band, and we were gathered around a pool-outside in the sun-with our instruments. Some people were taking too long, so I stuck my head in the room and saw my friend Brittany, a baritone player getting her flute, she played flute before baritone. Anoyed that they were taking so long, I returned. We played something, then somehow I was thrown into the pool. Under the water, I took a breath. Almost abstractly, I thought, what a great time this would be a RC. Then I...kind-of 'woke up'. I had this choice. I could wake up, or just go back to the normal dream. I choose to wake up and I realized that I was dreaming. To make sure, I closed my nose and breathed through it. Odd vibrations went through my legs. I remember diving deeper and desperately wanting to breath, but not trusting it. I did, and was able to breath under water again. I got out of pool and walked into the nearby stable, which turned into a farm house. I was soo excited, I couldn't settle on what I wanted to happened, so many parts of things happened. Things changing fast ect. Finally, I remember Star Trek and pictured myself on the bridge and was there. I remember my worst fear was that I was really awake, just day dreaming. I could 'see' my room, as if I was waking up, through partly closed eyes. My brother was walking by, in normal clothes, and I tried to convince myself I was in a dream, and I returned to the bridge. (later, when I thought about it, I knew it must have been a dream 'cause my brother doesn't get up till noon(if he's not going to church, then he gets up just before then) and here he was dressed before seven on a Sunday? No way). The dream then dissolved. Now, this LD was more clear and more real. While it still feels a little like I am only remembering this, and not actually acting it out in the present, it is getting better. I also changed things, which I was not able to do in my last LD. All in all, it's very exciting, and I hope that soon it'll be more in the 'present' instead of remembering what had happened. (hope this makes sense)

[AnnaCG07]

Last night flew by and all I remember are some snippets.. -Watching my friend do some math problem and being totally lost. Which is odd, as I am one of the top in my class...

[AnnaCG07]

Okay, only thing I remember about my dreams is... Blue and a bus. O_O Okay then...

[AnnaCG07]

Yes, I did abandoned this thing. 'Cause of NaNo. But now I'm back, and had the oddest/coolest dream last night. But first I must ask a question that may seem rudimentary to most. Can you feel pain in you dreams? Everything I have ever read says a blatant no. But there have been instances where I am sure that I have felt pain in my dreams. Not much, but it was there.. Anyway on to the dream. Quick note to explain: In the dream I think I had come to a 'parrallel' type world, similar to ours, but different (if that makes sense) I had, I think, wanted to come, until I realized what it was like. -It was supposed to be an Edan. A place where everything was perfect, a home in the wilderness. But it wasn't. Everything was different, opposites. Everyone who was my friend back home was my enemy in this parallel world. They wanted to make me be submissive, I think I was trying to get away. It was night, and they had drugged me. My body was unresponsive, I wanted to move, but it wouldn't. My vision doubled, first I would see one star, then it would become two. I staggered out of defiance, I was not going to fall asleep where they had laid me outside, under a tree. Somehow, I made my way, walking drunkenly across wet leaves to another spot nearby. They were watching me, I knew it. I could not see them, but could almost hear snippets of what they were saying. Almost. I collapsed and the next thing I knew it was morning. Of course, I was still almost in shock at being in this new world, but already I wanted back home. I think I was almost at a slave level to them, below those who were my friends back home. I overheard my best friend back home (my enemy in this parallel world) taking to a guy that I could not see; we were all at a table for breakfast. She was talking about how it had been pleasing to her, almost fun to see that I could not fight the drug. I was fuming, but could say nothing. It was supposed to be perfect! This place was where my dreams were to come true! There was so much land so explore, I had always had the explorers spirit, but it was not the Edan it was supposed to be. They took me to this place, it was a portal to perhaps home, perhaps another world. They hooked this cord up to a metal implant in my hip. The pain was not unbearable, more like a sharp pinprick every couple of seconds. I hated it, it did something for them, what I'm not sure. Then it was over. Another one of the girls who is my friend here, but not in the dream, was almost a leader of sorts, and told them to do it again. I punched her on the shoulder, and I think slapped her, I did not want that to happened. But it made no difference, as if she did not feel the blows, and they hooked it up again. We ran back to the portal and back to the home in the wilderness. I remember seeing my reflection and wishing it was a dream, but telling myself that this was my reality and I had to live with it. I tried to dig my fingernail into my palm, to see if I could feel the pain, but I didn't feel anything (Heh, great time for a RC! XP). A lady who was semi-kind was showing me a rough map of the surrounding wilderness, talking about how I could see them, as if to make me like this new world more. The map only reminded me of home, which made me sad.

[The Cusp]

Yeah, pain in dreams happens. Thankfully not to often, but it does happen. What was the cord in your hip attached to? (besides the metal implant)

[AnnaCG07]

Er..kind of like a metal implant..that had a USB type outlit to it..it was just under the skin. What it was hooked to..er... I think it may have been related to my heart and took some form of energy from me, how, I really don't know...=)