linx's dream journal =)

[linxx]

wayy back, spring 08 I had a really cool house with some sort of play house in the front and this giant Red Bull, using a giant skateboard as reigns, flew it off into the sky. It was at night and when you looked up into the sky it was beautifully lit up with stars and you could see all these giant objects lit up and moving around up there. Like there was a bus and it was lit up with blinking colors and moving like a snake in the sky. My mom wouldn't believe why the play house was gone even though everyone else had seen what had happened.

[linxx]

First LUCID!! uhm beginning summer 08 ish (I was really excited)"I had my first lucid dream! Really, I know it was real, it seems now like a million miles away, but I know it was real! And it was amazing! So when I first realized I was dreaming I was like Oh Shit! U gotta make this good. And then I tried swimming but I couldn't make my surroundings change so I had to deal with the dream I was already in. And sadly enough, if you can believe, I can't remember what I did for the most part of it, but I distinctly remember how real it was. I remember thinking at the end of the dream how long it lasted, like it was a whole other life I was living while I was asleep, and if it was gonna seem as long when I woke up and I seemed to think I was gonna be exausted but I'm not! I'm exstatic! That was so amazing, I can't wait to do it again! The dream and the things that happened could have been better, but who cares! I did it! "So I gotta write what I remember. I was in some basement when it happened and I was like Ah! So I wanted to do something cool and I tried to swim, but I was just doing the motions in blue black space. So I stopped that and my sister came downstairs and I was like hey Mariah, let's kickbox(for some reason I always fight people in my dreams) and that was cool cuz we had cool moves and anti-gravity sorta. Then some weird shuff, it was like my birthday cuz I had a present and I wanted to open it but I couldn't find my mom. I remember getting dressed up at one point to go to some party/dance? I ended up on a bus alone going somewhere I didn't want to go. And get this, I was too shy to get out of it. I remember thinking, Am I too shy that even in a dream I can't do this? So I think my frusteration with that led to me seeing something out the window, weird evil stuff, so I duck down, and then we see army guys outsideand when we get off we are given army supplies and weapons and told to discard our belongings. I remember thinking I had entered a previous dream and being dissapointed, so I was standing reading the words printed on my army gear when I woke up. But no matter what happened, I know the feeling in my heart right now, and I know lucidity is everything and more than I could have imagined!" corny shit, i know

[linxx]

couple days later I signed up to do boxing and when we were getting our partners I was paired up with this HUGE goth chick, so I was kinda like oh shit. I said something that hurt her feelings and she turned away and talked with her friends. I was even more freaked out when I learned we didn't get gloves, it was just bare fists. (I don't remember the actual fight, but I'm sure I beat her ass) After, I went through this trap door and my mom was having a Christmas party and I wanted to have one of each cookie. And I woke up! Damnit, I never even got one cookie, I was pissed.

[linxx]

couple days later Me, Chance, and Chris all got jobs at Petsmart. We weren't really working yet, just chillin, checking things out, and then all of a sudden we had uniforms on but the guy at the front counter got freaked out cuz he didn't recognize us and he turned the alarms on. Me and Chance just took off our shirts and held em above our heads but Chris had to be tough and he just walked out and got fired. We were bummed cause we like Chris. He took off with my keys and then wouldn't answer his phone.

[linxx]

uhh... little while later i guess At my dad's and I'm in the backyard. There's this humungous panther in a cage and I start walking over to it. But all of a sudden it breaks off in a dead sprint, hops the fence, and there's this wilderbeast hangin out back there and it gets takin downnnn. The panther grabs ahold of its neck and you could hear it crunching and see all this blood pouring out. So I'm like oh boy! and I head back inside to tell my dad about it, but as I'm walking in the door a little tiny penguin hops in the door with me and is just waddling around the kitchen. So me and my dad have to get it out but when we get the penguin out, theres this little tiny earless rabbit that hops right in. That kept happening over and over, tiny pigs and cats, it was funny.

[linxx]

probably mid summer 08 by now... Mike picked me up from somewhere with his friends and we rode in the back, talking and kissing and whatnot. So we go this guys house and then all of a sudden Mike becomes Michelle(his ex=/) and we're on a couch and she's telling me about Mike and a dream he had and football. Then some of his friends walk in and she tries to talk to them but none really seem to like her. And then I did a DEILD! I woke up and immediately started thinking about the room I was just in, the people, and the feelings, and before I knew it sensations were washing over me. I opened my eyes to my darkened room but I automatically knew it was a false awakening cause there was a deck of cards on my bed. But I did an rc anyway, I put my finger through my hand, and that was way cool but it was dark and I could hardly see so I tried turning on the light switch but, of course, it didn't work. I came out into the living room and tried to look at my body but it was all distorted and out of focus. Then I decided I wanted to be naked(heh!) cause it was a dream and I took off my shirt but left my pants on. I was worried it was gonna be cold outside but as I walked out, the weather was perfect and the sun was just coming up. I wanted to try to flyy so I started walking to the backyard cause theres mongo trees in the front yard. As I'm walking though, everything starts falling out, I was dizzy and couldn't find my footinng and the next thing I know I'm back in bed.

[linxx]

Couple days later again... Another one! So this time the dream I was in before hand was depressing and morbid, so wasn't too good of an atmosphere. Anyhow, I'm in some dark loft, and Bam, no reasoning, I'm just lucid and Jake's there and he asks if the mom was happy and Carrol said yes. So I stare at my hands to try to gain some clarity and my fingers were mini! Like those little mini weiners and I couldn't get em long but it was funny. Then I head down the stairs with Jake who's not really Jake anymore at this point and I ask him how it feels to be a dream character and at first he doesn't understand and I ask him again and he says something along the lines of shitty. Up in the loft it was night but outside it's dawn and perfect weather. Before I leave though I decide to look at my hands once more to get some more clarity and it's a lot clearer this time. I observe all the lines and textures of my skin and notice some dirt under my fingernails. Then I see that my rings broken and I was all bummed out, and I had thought I had broken it in the dream I was in prior. Weird. So I'm walking out and this kid from my school who I've never even talked to comes up to me and starts goin on and on about ping pong balls I need to get to him. I'm trying to get away but I don't want to be rude, and as I'm waiting for him to shut up I think about kissing him to see what it was like, but right as I tarted thinking about it I really looked at him and he was just not attractive so I was like psh. Finally I get away from him and start walking out in this park and it's such a beautiful day but there's people everywhere! I hate people. And then my dad and his gf start coming out, mind I hate his gf as well. I want to try to fly and I jump and that was cool. But then I just couldn't take the people and wanted some privacy. So I closed my eyes and told myself that when I opened them, everyone would be gone but then my eyes got sealed shut. I tried dream spinning but I just couldnt get my eyes to open back up and when I finally did, it was to the darkness of my room.

[linxx]

again... couple days later... Here we go again! I become lucid in my dad's house and this time there was some weird shit goin on outside and I think that's what made me realize I was dreaming. So down the hallway theres some steps that aren't normally there and I jump and float to the bottom, but my landing wasn't too great. Then there's this cat in the middle of the floor eating food and as I passed I happily told it that I was dreaming, somewhat hoping for a reply, but I didn't recieve one. And as I'm going out the door I go to look at my hands and WHAT. They were soo beautiful and I studied them for awhile so I could remember, and the whole time I was thinking I have to draw this when I wake up. They had green sparkling leaves on them, artistically arranged with silver and gold lines. It's hard to remember now but I know they were absolutely stunning. And then I saw my dad in the front yard so I head down and lean in to talk to him, almost chopped myself with a saw blade, and asked him if he could make it a little more vivid and clear for me. He said something like "I'll see what I can do." And then I didn't know what to do so I just asked out loud. Then there's this girl I've never met and she says well let's see what you have and she takes out this tin and opens it and theres a lot of money and weed(ha typical) so I take a little of both and head out toward town with this chick. We're walking and she starts talking about a movie or something and points to a poster and she was really talking about a dream I had just had and I told her I didn't want to talk about it. Then we're walking up the hill and having a really good conversation,, and I'm talking like suchhhh a stoner, like more than usual haha. Then towards the top my slippers were annoying me so I just ditched em. We end up at this thing and I started climbing it and I was like wouldn't it be cool to go rock climbing, just do a bunch of crazy moves, withouth a belay or anything wha. Then the girl got ahead of me and was joking around so I jokingly swung all the way past her and to the end. So I was just looking around and I didn't realize what was happening till I was already waking up and then when I still hadn't move or opened my eyes I tried to think about the dream I was last in but I couldn't remember a bit of it. Alll over.

[linxx]

nightmarey shit allllll caught up this was just last night I'm chillin at my dad's and theres this blonde kid, probably around 8 or 9, with us that I guess we were watching. I'm pretty sure he was nice at first but then shit just went evil. My dad was on one end of the couch and the kid goes over to him and touches him or something and my dad starts goin out of it, his eyes close and he's knodding off and I know somethings terribly wrong. Then my dads trying to hit this kid so I go over and the kid turns on me. I'm fuckin paralyzed, I have no control over any of my muscles, I try to scream for my dad but I can't make any noise. I was just slowly falling to the ground, everything was coming down around me. It was a feeling of utter hopelessness. After that I demanded my dad to get it out of the fucking house, I was freaking the fuck out and no way was I gonna have that evil thing around. We start taking it out, and for some reason now it's cellphone, and it's freaking me out cause it keeps turning on and off and making weird noises, and on the way toward the car it hops down on the ground and starts moving around in the grass. I run it down and tackle it, then smash it down as hard as i can on the sidewalk. Then I go get it again, and throw it down even harder against the concrete, so that this time pieces fly off. It started crawling again though and this time I couldn't catch it and it went under the garage or something. So I'm back in the kitchen with my dad and his gf and I am going off like no other. I'm so scared I'm crying uncontrollably and I said I can't sleep alone tonight. I was terrified of it. I knew that it was coming back, I imagined it changing into a bug and crawling through a crack, it was just a matter of when and I didn't want to wake up to that fucking kid kneeling by my bed, like I'd be able to sleep in the first place. But my dad kept saying no. His gf was here and they always sleep in his bed and he's not gonna make her sleep alone. I kept begging, I was so terrified, and he just wouldn't give in. So I finally said, "Fine, you're staying up with me all fucking night then."

[linxx]

"I think everytime you went to a smoke house... you made a lot of buddies" "Isn't it funny how everybody loves you on drugs?" Very enlightening comments at the time.

[linxx]

Beggining of the dream is hazy, "Mike wasn't ok, and his dad was responsible. He was keeping us in his house and we were both in danger, so when he had someone come over, I booked it to the front door." This lady friend of his was right behind me so instead of going straight out, when I exited the front door I took an immediate left and hopped reallly high into the neighbor's yard and was just landing in the bushes as the lady was coming out after me. As I'm crouching waiting for her to leave so I can make my get away, this other neighbor had something to ask me. I tried to make her be quiet but she didn't understand, so I was like "thanks a lot" and I hopped the fence and started booking it down the street. Here's where it gets good. This is the most vivid dream I can ever recall having. The lady who's after me takes out a rifle and shoots at me. I see the bullet leave the gun and follow its whole path down the street in slow motion. I can see myself running and the bullet sort of curving as it barely misses me and whizzes past. It's heading toward a house now, and all of a sudden a bird flies in its path. Still in slow motion, I see the bullet penetrate the bird and the impact as it gets thrown backward. I see feathers flying off of it and out of the wound, not a splatter, but a big glop of blood hung suspended in front of it, not only dark thick red, but with little chunks in it, it looked amazingly realistic. Then I was just walking around, the whole lady situation completely gone from my mind, and all the birds and animals were in pairs. I was thinking to myself, what a dumb movie, not everything comes in pairs, you see single birds all the time.

[linxx]

Haha. This was enjoyable. I was with this group of peoplee who were hanging out with Leo(Tommy Chong from That 70's show) and he went to go play this arcade game. I went in and he like couldn't figure it out and had the whole thing busted open and a wire in it or something lol. Anyhow, he was screwing with it and it started shooting out dollar bills. Then I was like Leo, keep doing that and the money kept shooting out, and the bills kept getting larger. We got off with a huge stack of money. Alos, my mom got the inside of her mouth pierced in like 20 different places, ugh. So, as you can imagine, waking up from that one was shitty. "My money..."

[linxx]

I'm just gonna type exactly what I wrote, it'll be easier that way. "And I almost forgot, I became lucid last night. (HA) We were climbing over all this debree looking for this guy's wife and there were these gross grey spiders that I was trying to avoid. Then I told myself all I had to do was not pay attention to it and it would dissapear and that's when I realized I was dreaming. I immediately started going back down because it was a shitty dream place and I didn't even know the people I was with. "When I turned around there was this sort of gloomy green valley with a house. I wanted to go let Preima(my dad's dog)(i miss her=/) out but as I start going down the steps I start falling out and then it's black and I'm in my bed. "So I lean my head back and try to re-enter a dream. Except this time I don't want to go back to the same dream, although maybe I did try to think of it and it was just hard to remember. Anyhow, I went into IDK if it was a dream or hypnogic imagery because it was just blackness and theen this rectanglular screen was in the middle playing some sort of video, so I started thinking of a tree. I figured it would be easier than creating a whole dream scene at once so I thought hard about a tree and made objects in the screen morph into tree like shapes. It was in my concentrating that I woke up again, or atleast came out of that state, to no success at re-entry."

[Hukif]

Hm, I like it, the animals as DS, the nightmare and the improvement shown in the journal entries, keep the good job.

[linxx]

I dont remember this one too well, I never even wrote it down, really it's more about the feelings and emotion. It's just one I dont wanna forget. So I'm falling through the air and there's peeople falling around me, I think we were all skydiving. Simply put, nothing really happened, I just experienced the most euphoric feeling I have ever felt. Like, have you ever had a sex dream/dream with sexual content that leaves you feeling unbelievably aroused? Like you wake up and the feeling is still with you and you wish you could get that turned on IRL but you just know it's not possible? Well it was like that, plus the feeling of flying, which in its own is an amazing and indiscribable feeling. Then I would bend backward, my whole body completely outstretched, and let the sensations completely take over my whole being. Then I woke up, sadly, and rode the feelings out as long as I could. ugggh..

[linxx]

I was in my grandparents' house with my mom and my cousin. We were hanging out and then Goose was there(my cat that ran away like 3 weeks ago), but like a grey Goose, and I was so happy that she was finally back and not dead. Then I decided to do a reality check to make sure I wasn't dreaming and she really was back for good. Sure enough, turns out I could breath through my plugged nose. I'm dreaming! I put my finger through my hand, which my mom actuaclly acknowledged like, that's cool. So I told them I was gonna go hang out, and as I walk outside it's night, so I yell for the sun to come up a couple times, which didn't work. I'm going down the hill to the street so I decide to jump onto it. My landing, as usual, was rough and I slammed into the fence. I get back to the middle of the street and try again, this time I didn't have enough acceleration and my landing was weird again. Then I decided I needed to just go with it, expect that I was going to fly and the next time I jumped, I kept going up. I got higher and higher and it was so amazing. Then I couldn't really get any higher or go the same direction , it felt like wind was forcing me back, even though it wasn't windy. So I turned around and started flying back the other way aaand... woke up.

[LifeStandsStill]

I'm dreaming! I put my finger through my hand, which my mom actuaclly acknowledged like, that's cool. Haha. For some reason I find that amusing. Keep it up yo ;O 0___<

[linxx]

"I just became lucid... I was hanging out with these guys at night and I tried to put my finger through my hand and it wouldnt go through so I plugged my nose and breathed through it. So I tell them I got to go and start walking o nthe street. I'm looking for a light because I need to stare at my hands. I yell for the sun to come up again, try using my finger to direct it up, "come on, it's my dream..." So I end up back on my dad's street and I swing on a close-line. I'm heading for the street light so I can stare at my hands before I fly and a cat starts coming down the street. I bend down to pet it and wake up."

[linxx]

I was in my dad's backyard looking at the clouds. They were so beautiful and colorful and artistic, I was in awe. (Funny thing, I acknowledged how beautiful the clouds were a couple days prior to this dream) There's this old bench out there and there were big puffy white clouds forming right over it and they would slowly drift off and then up into the sky. I went over, reached toward them, and plucked one out of the air. It was like a big cotton ball, except rougher, and I took it to show my dad and some other people. They all came out to see and I was running and I jumped up and grabbed a cloud out of the air and tumbled dback down in the soft dirt. I did that a couple times before the sprinklers came on, and at first I was bummed out, but then I kept doing it in the water, and then Preima was there playing with me, too.

[linxx]

I had consecutive FAs last night. The first automatically made me lucid. I woke up in my bed and kind of just automatically knew something was really wrong, I can't remember what it was that was bothering me but when I tried to get up I couldn't move, something was over me and I tried to scream but nothing would come out. Finally I got up and I was pissed and scared that my dream had started like it had, but I was having a lucid dream so I tried to ignore those feelings and just get outside to make the best of it. Leaving my room, I saw my sister, and then I was terrified I was gonna see my mom.(Which I thankfully didn't) Went outside to stare at my hands, sat down on the porch, and there were like three dogs that came over and started jumping on me and trying to lick me. I started toward the gate so that I could concentrate on my hands with the dogs locked in, and of course, there was no gate. So I just went out to the alley and tried to fly. It seemed a lot harder this time, cars were driving by, it was really windy. Took me a few tries, but I finally got in the air. When I was up there though, the wind was too powerful so I turned around so I could go with the wind, but the houses I was flying toward were black and white and fuzzy... Then I had a FA again but I didn't become lucid. I woke up and there was a bunch of shit beside my bed that didn't belong there, but like any other non-lucid dream, it made perfect sense at the time.

[linxx]

10/11 "I just had a lucid! The dream I was in before was really cool, too bad I didn't get a chance to write it down, but we were hang gliding out in the mountains for (my high school) and (my aunt) was there giving me pointers and stuff so anyway, I guess it was my turn to go hang glide and (my aunt) took me to this plane and I got in the back and there was this like plastic hatch on the top and as I was loading myself in, I went "wait..." and I became lucid. "So I'm coming out of the hatch as I realize I'm dreaming and I hurry to do an RC and I manage to stick my finger through my palm. The plane starts to go and I shout "Increase lucidity now!" a couple times and then we're in the air. I decide to just sit on the side of the hatch and relax and enjoy the ride. I'm flying over beautiful hills with flowers and rivers, I again acknowledged how real it was. "The plane did some fun turns and I said "Increase lucidity now!" again and it seemed to work for a second but then I wanted to jump off my cozy seat on the plane and fly so as the plane was on its next turn I flung myself into the air over this river and at that point I knew I was gonna wake up soon."

[linxx]

11/02 "There was this little tiny bird goin under a fence and there was a dog on the other side trying to pick it up with his mouth. I wanted to pick it up first though cuz I was afraid the dog was gonna hurt it. The dog eventually got it though and he was very gentle and didn't hurt the bird."

[High Hunter]

10/11 "I just had a lucid! The dream I was in before was really cool, too bad I didn't get a chance to write it down, but we were hang gliding out in the mountains for (my high school) and (my aunt) was there giving me pointers and stuff so anyway, I guess it was my turn to go hang glide and (my aunt) took me to this plane and I got in the back and there was this like plastic hatch on the top and as I was loading myself in, I went "wait..." and I became lucid. "So I'm coming out of the hatch as I realize I'm dreaming and I hurry to do an RC and I manage to stick my finger through my palm. The plane starts to go and I shout "Increase lucidity now!" a couple times and then we're in the air. I decide to just sit on the side of the hatch and relax and enjoy the ride. I'm flying over beautiful hills with flowers and rivers, I again acknowledged how real it was. "The plane did some fun turns and I said "Increase lucidity now!" again and it seemed to work for a second but then I wanted to jump off my cozy seat on the plane and fly so as the plane was on its next turn I flung myself into the air over this river and at that point I knew I was gonna wake up soon." Ah man, that's fucking awesome! Keep on flying

[oniman7]

It seems to me all your lucids end rather fast. This is probably because you get so excited when it happens. When you do realize it's lucid, try spinning and rubbing your hands, along with shouting things like "clarity now"

[linxx]

thanks for the advice and thankyouuuuu huntman, i miss your ass