Fluffy Bunny Feet's First Dream Journal!

**Fluffy Bunny Feet** · 09-29-2008 08:05 PM

I've been having crazy dreams for many years, thought maybe having an online journal would give me more motivation to keep track of them. Had lots of them last night, so now is probably a good time to start.

Regular text will be in black.
Dreams in Blue
Particularly interesting dreams/parts of dreams in red bold
Thoughts, summaries, and themes will be noted at the end of each night in green

Dream #1- I was in high school again, except it was very different than I remembered it. These girls that I used to go to school with were taunting me and making fun of me, and then decided to attack me physically. I tried to fight back, but they were bigger than me and there was too many. So I ran away, managing to outsmart them and make them go the wrong way in a series of hallways. Then I went down some stairs, past the cafeteria and kitchen, and hid in the walk-in freezer. Eventually they found me there, though. Then I remembered I had this power of white light, so I made the light come out of me, toward them. And then they stopped bothering me.

Dream #2- I woke up (false awakening) at my parent's house, I was kinda disappointed to be there and my husband wasn't with me either. I could hear my mom walking around, making noise and wished she'd stop so I could get back to sleep. I realized I'd set the alarm for 12:15 and I had to be to work at 1, and there was no way I could drive from my hometown to Madison in that time. Then I remembered that I'd asked my husband to set the alarm, so I must actually be at home, which was a relief.

Dream #3- I was back in my hometown again, riding my bike around. I remembered this other dream where I fell off my bike and there was this guy abusing his wife, and I had to go inside some weird people's house to help her. This seemed to be the same place, and I had gotten off the bike. I was sitting on a porch swing with this lady and her dog was circling around us. Each time the dog went around, it's leash wrapped around my waist and it kept getting tighter and tighter. I was afraid it was going to cut me in half, but then the dog stopped.

Dream #4- This is where it gets really strange. I was at this thing like a flea market, except it was at school. There were all these things I really wanted but didn't have a chance to buy. I had found this little stuffed rabbit in bad shape on the ground. Someone asked me about it and I told her I had made it, even though I hadn't. I felt guilty about lying about it and that someone may have lost it, so I left it back on the ground. Then there was some sort of assembly, except there was this girl on stage who was going to be sacrificed. I felt terrible for her, like I needed to do something, so I used the white light again, to make the guys that was doing it stop. Everyone was either mad at me or in awe of me then. Some people were like worshiping me and it made me very uncomfortable to be praised so, I was afraid it would go to my head. Then it was decided that I would be sacrificed instead. They tied me to a platform of some sort, the rope were very tight but I though maybe I could get out of them if I had a chance. They kept pulling them tighter though, and it was really starting to hurt. They took me on stage and starting walking around in circles with me. I decided to use the light again, it was the only way I could think to make them stop. I looked each one of them in the eyes and saw a glint of light, and each one would stop after that. Except there was one girl that only had one eye that it didn't work on, and another that I didn't use it on..she ran away with me and I convinced her that I wasn't bad or anything. That made me realize that I need to use words to convince people of this, because the light could could only work on person at a time. Then it was time to leave, some people were arguing about what I had said, they had it all wrong, but I wasn't allowed to tell them that. So I had to go back home, and I remember walking by this river and being afraid my backpack was going to get wet. Then my alarm went off...

Thoughts/Themes for the night- The last dream seemed almost like an epic thing, I was almost like Jesus figure in it. I found it a strange position to be in. The white light is a power I've only recently discovered. It takes a fair amount of concentration, but so far it seems to work very well in warding off evil. I wonder if it has other potential uses as well, such as healing the sick or dying... Also, when I was being tied up so tightly, it was mostly around my waist, similar to the dog leash dream. All of these dreams took place at high school or in my home town, but that seems to be the case every night. Does this mean I'm stuck in the past?

**Fluffy Bunny Feet** · 09-30-2008 09:02 PM

Dream #1- I was laying in bed next to my husband. He was talking about this symbol, he didn't know what it meant. It was on a necklace he had...it was like three teardrops in a row, the first two were upside down. I picked up the necklace and threw it to the side. Then this girl appeared, she asked me if I had touched the necklace and I said yes. She said that meant that either me or my husband was going to die today. I was horrified, I begged her for it not to be true but she kept saying it. Then I told her I didn't believe her, that my dream characters always told me my husband was about to die, yet he's still around. She seemed offended but I felt a little better.

Dream #2- I was at school. The teacher was making these life and death decisions and decided to send my husband off to be killed. Then she started harassing me. We were doing some sort of cakewalk and I accidently sat in the bucket of paper mache glue and got it all over my butt. Then suddenly, the teacher had gotten everyone to pick on and harrass me. She had this big remote control helicopter and kept using it to hit me in the head. Then she had this electric razor type thing and she shaved off half my hair. I was very upset and ran off into the hall, trying to find a place to hide with them chasing me. I accidently got myself into a dead end with a bathroom. I went into the bathroom and told a girl in their to please not believe what the teacher says, she's just brainwashing everyone. Then I looked at myself in the mirror, and somehow I was naked, half bald and covered in blood and dirt. Not a pretty sight. I peaked down the hall to see where everyone was, but someone saw me. And so I was running for my life again. I came upon the entrance of the school, but there was some sort of high security system where there were a bunch of doors, and each one took a while to open. I was afraid they were going to catch up with me, but it actually served to slow them down. I ended up in the basement somewhere and collapsed, exhausted, finally thinking I was safe. But then the evil teacher saw me through a window and flew right through it at me. I was again running, down a starcase, and she had this giant laser gun she was shooting at me. Then I remember the white light, and used it on her gun, which made it stop working. I used it on her, which seemed to make her angrier. Then I awoke.

Dream #3- I was laying in my bed, surrounded by pure whiteness. The evil lady from last dream appeared, except she was like a drawing, black outlines on the white. I tried to use the white light again, but it didn't work this time, possibly because of the white background. She came right up to me and talked in my ear. She hated me, was angry that I'd escaped her last time, and this time she was going to get me good. It was almost seductive the way she said this into my ear. She seemed to be some sort of ancient high priestess, and she was angry that I didn't believe in her gods. I told her I didn't really believe in any gods. She showed me this book that was like a bible of her religion. There was a picture of this demonic beast, I think it's name was Gog. Then they were carrying me away with my bed, they were going to sacrifice me to this beast. The first question that came to my mind was, "Like on King Kong?" And she said yes, like on King Kong. I had visions of being held by this big ape and decided I'd rather not go through with it, so I used my only remaning defense and made myself wake up.

Dream #4- I was at high school (again!). There was some kind of special event going on, like a contest sort of thing where you sort of beat each other around and the last person to cross the finish line was the winner. Everyone was dressed in these elaborate costumes, like a masquerade ball. I was doing pretty well in the contest and there was a group of more popular girls that didn't like this. They were led my this girl who I'll call An, who in real life bullied me teribly in 6th grade. Anyway, this group of girls were doing everything they could to keep me down, keep me from winning. I spent most of my time trying to hide from them. Then I got stopped by this tall guy who was kinda dorky attacking me. I asked him why and he said it was because I'd slept with some of his friends. I asked him who he meant and he said a few names that I didn't recognize...I told him I'd never even heard of those people and he believed me. But a little later a couple of his friends came to me, didn't believe me and were harrassing me. I told them I'd never even had sex with anyone before, I was so not cool that I couldn't get laid if I tried. That seemed to satisfy them. The competition was getting really heated at that point, so I went putside for a while and hid behind a tree. When I tried to go back in, the door was locked. There was this band that was going to play getting set up near another door and they let me through. The singer was talking to me for a while, and then they let this leopard out. I was impressed and a little scared that they'd brought a leopard with them. But then I realized it was just a guy in a suit. I went back to the contest area, and the only one still competing was An. Everyone else was having this fancy dinner and dance. When she saw me, suddenly her attitude seemed to change completely and she playful and friendly to me. I asked her what the purpose of the competition was and she confirmed what I had thought. We were walking together toward the finish line when she asked me to hold some of her pills for her. I accidently dropped a couple so we were on the floor looking for them, they seemed very important to her. Then I saw a kitten with both back legs broken dragging itself across the floor. I felt terrible for it, like we should do something, but it didn't seem likely that it would survive. An was still desperately looking for her pills, and she looked kind of pathetic searcing the ground like that. I wondered if she had more serious problems than she let on. At this point I could feel myself waking up, which I tried to stop because I wanted to know what would happen. But alas, I couldn't stop it and so I woke up.

Thoughts & Themes- Once again we have the theme of school and being picked on. These things happens to me just about every night in my dreams. In the first two, there was also the theme of losing my husband, another fairly common dream for me. I've always been afraid of losing the ones I love most. The symbol in the first dream was interesting to me though I don't know what it meant...possibly represents a number...for some reason 663 came to mind in another dream.

Dream #2 & #3 were pretty typical for me, though the religious themes at the end of #3 were interesting. I googled Gog when I woke up to find out if it had any meaning. Apparently it's a common character in mythology and often refers to a giant or demonic being. Kinda spooky. In dream #4 I was fascinated with how my relationship to An changed once her friends were gone. She almost become a weak pathetic creature...kinda like the cats in the dream. The leopard that was really just a costume, and the kitten with broken legs. I actually felt bad for them and her, even though she had been so cruel to me. This is something I'm not sure I've expereinced before, so I find it to be a promising sign.

**Fluffy Bunny Feet** · 10-01-2008 09:57 PM

Dream #1- I was at some sort of breakfast buffet. I got myself an omlet and some pancakes. Something distracted me and my food got cold, though I ate it anyway. I don't remember much about this dream, but somehow there was a background feeling of evil, something ominous. I don't know what it was.

Dream #2- I can't remember! But there was that evil feeling again.

Dream #3- I was sleeping at my house and some people I knew came in but I couldn't wake up. This one guy I know in RL, I'll refer to him as Ch, put a post-it with a note to me on my forehead. Somehow, I couldn't read it. He had brought this video about the history of our house. It showed that it used to have a really nasty bathroom, and a fancy fireplace and glass wall, like some rich people lived here. I was walking around the house trying to comprehend this when I realized I wasn't in my house. I took a shower but couldn't find any shampoo. I went outside with just a towel on, looking for my house. I came across another girl in just a towel who had the same problem. I pointed out the house I had come from, thinking maybe it was hers. I asked he where Lane St (the street I live on) was. She pointed to the left a few blocks. But there were a bunch of big buildings there, so I knew that couldn't be it.

Dream #4- I was at my Grandma's old house, and there were these cartoon guy superheros having some kind of meeting. There was this spaceman guy who seemed to like me. He kept chasing me around and it was really annoying, almost like a stalker. I had to physically fight him off several times.

Dream #5- I was on vacation with my family, my husband, and some cousins. We stopped for ice cream at Dairy Queen. I saw that they had everything half price between the hours of 5-7 and was really excited. I went to ask my husband what time it was. He pulled out his cell phone, which was really huge for some reason, but couldn't get the time on it. We figured it was probably too late for ice cream. I went back in the camper we were all staying in. I had to go to the bathroom to wash my hands and the bathroom was on the bottom part (2 story camper!). I got up to the sink but there was a used tampon next to it. I was totally grossed out and didn't want to use it, so I tried to go back upstairs, but the hallway was so narrow I could hardly get past it. I was looking around desperately for some mlp's that I had stolen.

Dream #6- Don't remember this one well. There was a house and when I tried to go into the basement, it was too narrow and I was afraid of getting stuck. I was in the Madison campus area, and there was serious flooding going on, everything had turned into a river. I was running up a hill to try to avoid it. There was a helicopter chasing after me.

Dream #7- I was at a school cafeteria getting some food. Beavis (yes, from Beavis & Butthead) was standing there at the entrance and so I gave him a beer, which I knew was going to get me in trouble. The food all looked pretty gross and most of it fell off my tray because the trays were so flimsey. The lunch ladies wouldn't give me more. I went and sat down next to some old high school friends, but they were mostly ignoring me and my meal consisted of one bite of hash browns. I started dancing, it seemed to come really naturally. Before long I was gliding through the air, flying while dancing. Some guy told me that my haircut wasn't very stylish and I told him I didn't care.

Thoughts and Themes- Well, I don't know what to say. I didn't find last nights dreams to be terribly interesting and there were so many I was having trouble remembering. I would like to know what the evil thing in the first two was, it was something very hellish. Other than that, there were a couple food/buffet dreams which I seem to have quite often...it always seems like I can never get the food I want even though it's right in front of me, which is frustrating.

**Fluffy Bunny Feet** · 10-02-2008 09:35 PM

Once again, though I did much dreaming last night, I don't remember most of it, but here's what I do.

Dream #1- My and hubby were on vacation, at my uncle J's place (though it looked nothing like it). I don't know much of what happened here, but at some point, some psychotic girl stabbed Grant in the back. I remembered the white light and thinking it could be used for healing, so I tried it and it worked. Then we were running from this girl. At some point we came to a spiral staircase that went way down. I figured I could fly down quickly, so I told Grant to hold onto me, but somehow he fell and severely injured his legs. I must have brought him to this room, it was like a hospital room, and tried to heal him again with the light. I was having a hard time concentrating though, because the crazy girl was right there, trying to get in the way. Eventually I suceeded. All I remember after that is being in someone else's hotel room and watching tv. I thought I head the person coming so I sneaked out, but couldn't get the tv to turn off.

Dream #2- I was sleeping in my bed, and I could hear the old neighbor lady talking to someone. She was telling them about all the houses around here, and then she'd take them into each house and comment on everything. She came into our house and I was feeling a little odd cause I was sleeping naked in my bed, though she didn't come upstairs.

Dream #3- We were at my Grandma B's for Christmas. All of my cousins were there and we were all much younger than we are now. There were lots of sweets and cookies. My pet rats were running around the house, and tended to turn really tiny sometimes (I have this dream all the time). I ate tons of cookies cause I knew I was dreaming, but I started to feel sick despite this. My little cousin L had a She-Ra castle and some mlp's that I was jealous of. Then it was time to go and I was taking some cookies with me. I was excited to discovered some frosted ones. I put a bunch into a bag, and then L came over and was mad at me for taking their frosted ones, even though they had 8 boxes of them. We were packing stuff into the car, and at some point my cousins were carrying out a toilet. We were about ready to go but then I remembered I had to run in and get the rats. I found them, though they all seemed really heavy somehow. I came back out and everyone was complaining that they had to wait for the sake of rats. I pointed out that it had only taken 2 minutes to get them. My mom was like, "That's 2 minutes I'll never get back," I said, "If we got home 2 mintues earlier, you'd just spend the extra time watching tv anyway." They seemed unable to argue with that.

Thoughts & Themes- once again, I was rather bored with my dreams last night and I think that's why I don't remember that much. I don't see much to link them together, honestly. The only thing that interests me is my use of the light in the first one. I had been suspecting it could be used for healing and I was glad to discover that it is.

**Fluffy Bunny Feet** · 10-04-2008 01:21 AM

Dream #1- I was at some sort of celebration/buffet. This girl I was friends with in grade school, I'll call her Al was sitting next to me. She was getting on my nerves so I told her I had to go sit by my family. When She got up, I noticed she had these crazy pink patterned contacts in her eyes and there was a giant eyeball in her belly that was looking around. Apparently this was her halloween costume. My cousin Lisa wanted me to sit with her, but there was only one spot at the table. I went to sit with my parents instead. I got up to get some food but accidently went to the wrong side of the buffet. By the time I got out the food was gone.

Dream #2- I was hanging out with this girl that used to pick on me a lot, I'll call her J. Somehow I earned her friendship. Then I went home to look at my mlp collection and I realized one of them was a fakie, which I hadn't known before. J admitted she had secretly switched one of hers with mine. I went to look at her collection and she had some really rare things that I'd never seen before. I was scheming to think of a way that I could get them from her cheaply, knowing that they were worth a lot. Then there was this beanbag bunny from my Grandma S's old house sitting next to my bed. And there were 3 red ones that looked just like it but a little bigger. One of them had fallen apart. It had been filled with beads, and all the beads were strung along on my bed, many of them falling off. It made me very sad. And there was an ornament on the Christmas tree at home that was broken which upset me as well.

Dream #3- I was in grade school again. I was hanging out with some kids, determined not to become the one that gets picked on all the time, so every time they made a comment about me, I blew it off with some smart-ass remark. We were walking down a hallway and there were a bunch of those plastic animals that look like they're shitting when you squeeze them. I stole one and everyone thought it was really cool. Then we were sitting at a picnic table and I had all these different colored pills that I was bragging about. Then the pills turned into pasta salad and we ate it. In the distance I saw a big wave coming. Before I knew it, the wave hit us. I grabbed onto a dock so it would carry me away. But another wave was after it, and then another, each one bigger than the last. I help my breath as they passed, but then a really gigantic one approached. I figured I would have to hold my breath for 2 mintues and 40 seconds, which I didn't think I could do.

Dream #4- I was walking around the block with Grandma B. We came across this guy who suddenly thought that he was in a relationship with me. I told that I'd been married for over 5 years and he was angry that I hadn't told him sooner. I said that was because I'd only known him for 2 minutes. He said he didn't realize that. Then he said something like "Get your ass over here babe so I can spank you." I told him no but he kept insisting. I finally looked him in the eyes and told him absolutely not. This seemed to really piss him off, so I flew away so he couldn't get me. I went back home, but I had to do some sort of test to make sure I hadn't done something wrong. It involved me being tied and hanging from some pole. I didn't want to do this because I knew it was going to say I'd done something wrong, I knew all the evidence was going to point to that, though I hadn't done wrong. I kept trying to convince my parents to make the test stop. I thought it was ridiculous and kept commenting on how stupid this was, at one point remarking, "This is like being in a bad horror movie." I flew up to the roof and decided that I didn't like this dream, so I started spinning.

The next thing I went to, I just remember seeing a bunch of toilets and shit, which I didn't care for so I spun again.

This time I decided I was going to have to create some some nice scenery so I decided on mountains. All I could get were rocky bluffs, though it was still pretty so I figured good enough. I made snow on the ground and started walking through it. Then I remembered snow was supposed to be cold, and I became very cold, so I made myself some boots and a coat and snowpants. I walked up the bluff and began to see bigger mountains in the distance. I was really enjoying the dream at this point, I decided the only thing that would make it better was some companionship, so I made my husband and my parents be along. Somehow then the dream changed character, we were walking into some underground pit filled with lava. I remember telling my husband not to die (he always seems to die in my dreams). It seems like he just disappeared, along with my parents. There were these giant figures floating around like gods, or demons. They wanted to sacrifice me to the lava. I was on this platform that was lowering down into it. I didn't want this, so tried to wake myself up.

I woke up (false awakening) not knowing where I was. I deduced that I was at a Chuck E. Cheeses. I was topless so I borrowed a little blanket from a kid. I figured I was in downtown Madison, though creeped out that I didn't know how I'd got there. I was thinking that even if I found a payphone that I could call for help, I didn't have any money on me. Then I caught a glimpse of my reflaction in a window and I realized I had the same strange hairstyle from the last dream. I was horrified, and ended up back in the hellish place. I spun again.

Now I was surrounded by metal. Everything was space age and silver, like something out a sci-fi movie. This lady was inviting me into this big ballroom type room, but I didn't trust her, I thought it was going to be hell again. In the other direction there was a hallway with stores and things. Behind me, going down, was the "furnace room." I asked what temperature the furnace burned at and they said 65. I didn't think that seemed too hot, so I decided to go that direction, thinking that the furnace room couldn't be hell because that would be too obvious. I was wrong. There was a big friendly furnace with a cartoon face. Then things got dark and hellish again. The demons returned, angry at me for eluding them again. They talked in these horrible demonic voices. They turned part of me to metal, which felt very strange, and welded me to something so I couldn't move or spin. I made myself wake up.

Dream #5- Something told me that my uncle Jerry had just died. I was talking to my Grandma B and she was saying that she wrote her will inside all these little plastic Easter eggs. The eggs had become lost somehow and this was very upsetting to her. Then this guy who had apparently been her neighbor came up with a few of the eggs, only they looked like polished marble. He said he knew where the rest were. I asked him to show me, and I was taken into Grandma's old house. I don't remember how it was activated, but there was this sword against a wall that you had to make go up. I wasn't sure if the sword was there in real life (it isn't), so I promised to ask my dad about it. The next thing I remember is being a theatre at school. There was this guy I knew, and I was telling him I didn't have time to talk, I had more work to do. I had to rescue this blue cow that was on the stage, I flew down and hooked onto it with some kind of plunger thing and flew it up to the balcony, where this little elf or something was waiting. It thanked me and then flew off with the cow. I knew there was one other thing I was supposed to do, and I found some old high school friends that were telling me what it was. They wanted me to edit some webpage. I thought this was weird given that I'm not great with computers. I asked them if I could do it psychically, they said yes but they wanted me to do it on the computer. I asked them why they didn't get someone who was better with computers to do it, which they didn't seem to have an answer for.

Thoughts & Themes- Oh boy, where to start. I had so many dreams last night, I'm quite sure I'm missing some in the journal. But I don't have 3 hours a day to devote to this. There were a lot of things that are common for me- giant waves, being sacrificed, hell-like imagery, contact with dead grandmas, buffets that I can never seem to eat, etc. In a lot of my school dreams I get picked on, but I seem to have found a way to avoid that. Unfortunately it involves acting like someone who I don't really feel is me. And it seems like I got punished for that in the dreams.

The most interesting dream for me was #4, particularily the lucid part with the bluffs and snow. I had tried the technique of spinning, that I read about on here, for the first time. Although I'm often aware I'm dreaming and can generally control my actions, it's rare for me to be able to change the scenery to such an extent. It was a very refreshing experience. Unfortunately, it went bad and I'm not sure why. This whole thing about being sacrificed seems to follow me sometimes, and it kept coming back no matter how I tried to change it, so I resorted to waking myself up, as I inevitably do in these sorts of dreams. I'm wondering though, if I shouldn't just allow myself to be sacrificed and see what happens. I'm always afraid that something terrible is going to happen to me because of it, but if I don't let it happen it'll probably keep haunting me. I don't know what to do...

**Fluffy Bunny Feet** · 10-04-2008 08:44 PM

I don't remember much from last night, mostly fragments. I spent a lot of time thinking I heard my husband talking on the phone, which was rather uninteresting.

Dream #1- This is the only one I remember substantially. It was sort of like 3 dreams in one. I was in my bedroom at my parents' house. There was this message on my answering machine that I couldn't figure out where it came from. It was an unfamilier voice, and I heard myself talking to it on the message. The person was telling me I should volunteer for the church picnic because it might help me find a job. I said "Yeah ok," without intending to, though I had no memory of this. I went downstairs to watch tv. I saw a kitty-cat at the door...except it was a mountain lion. My brother's old friend was standing by the door, I warned him not to open it but it was too late. The mountain lion came in and was snarling at us. I held onto my dog Buster tightly so he wouldn't go try to play with it, but he was scared anyway.

I woke up in my old bedroom again (false awakening). My mom came in and I told her about the crazy cougar dream I just had. I realized I hadn't seem their dog for a while and asked where she was. My mom suddenly looked very sad. She said that the dog had run into something very hard. My dad brought the dog up and she was missing both back legs. I felt terrible for her, though she was still able to get around a bit. I went up and petted her and she was very friendly to me (in RL she's very cautious and shy). I felt very sad that she wouldn't be able to play with Buster anymore.

Once again I was sitting on my old bed. I wasn't sure if the dog thing had been real or a dream. My mom and brother Mike were sitting there too, saying there's something they needed to tell me. Mike was angry at my mom because she didn't seem to care enough about what happened to him. I asked him what it was and he told me to look at him and see if I noticed anything strange. I didn't. He showed me his ear and it was blue, like it was deeply bruised. Then I noticed he had bruises all over his face. I asked him if he got into a fight. He said yes, there were four guys that somehow turned his truck over (he doesn't have a truck) and beat him up. Then one of the guys came over "and fucked me in the ass," he said. I was horrified but luckily waking up at this point.

Dream #2- We were at my Grandma S's house, sleeping over. Except it was like a motel and daycare in one. Me and a couple cousins got stuck in the daycare room, which was like a bunch of seats and a pool of water, reminded me of the oceanarium at the Shedd aquarium in Chicago. In the morning it was time to go and we helped everyone load up the car. Then when we came back to the daycare room to get our backpacks, it was completely filled with kids and they were driving me nuts. My backpack was soaking wet, some kid had thrown it into the water. I was very upset because my cell phone was completely ruined and I didn't want to have to buy a new one.

Dream #3- We were at my Grandma S's house, playing some sort of wild west game with guns and stuff. We were running from the shooters and came upon this little store. They were selling fake halloween bullet wounds and I thought it would be clever to put some on and fool them into thinking they'd killed us. The only other thing I remembered here was running through the woods.

Dream #4- I'm not sure exactly where this one occured in the sequence, I just remembered it. Once again, there were giant waves coming toward. I had to keep looking away from them and concentrating on something else to make them not hit me. I somehow called Gamera, the mythic giant flying turtle from cheesy Japanese monster movies. Gamera picked me up and I flew along with him. I decided it was safe to let the waves come back because we could fly over them. Then a really huge wave came and we had to fly really high, but we were able to go over the top of it. After the waves ceased, Gamera dropped me off on land. Unfortunately he seemed to be melting into a pile of green goo by this point.

Thoughts & Themes- Again, the only one here I really found interesting was the first one. Between the mountain lion, the dog amputee, and my brother getting raped, it was like a triple punch. Yikes. I used to very often dream of wild animals being at my parents' door but I think it's been a while since I had it. I dream a lot of injured pets as well. I'm not sure what they all mean...

Dream #4 I take to be a positive sign. It says to me that not only can I make my problems less severe by re-focusing, but I can actually overcome them no matter how huge they seem. I just may require some help to do so.

**Fluffy Bunny Feet** · 11-21-2008 01:54 AM

Wow, last night I had one of the craziest, sickest dreams in memory. I wish I could figure out how to put private entries in this thing. The best I can do is to write it in white, so read at your own risk!

Dream- I was back in junior high. The school was made of ancient underground aqueducts and pools, like something from Roman times. I was on my period and leaving a trail of blood everywhere. Some guy tried to attack me and I fought him off by spraying blood at him (!!). There was this little river where all the girls would shave their gentitals before gym class (!!). Then me and maybe 20 other girls were in this big fancy underground pool with fountains and steps and things. Everyone was on their period. The water in the pool turned red from all the blood. We were all naked and touching and making out with each other while covered in blood (!!). I remember thinking, I can't believe I'm doing this, but it was all very powerful, like some ancient ritual., and I couldn't resist it.

For reference's sake, I am on my period right now. I don't think I've ever had a dream like that though! Would make for a nice, disturbing painting, if I had the ambition.[/COLOR]

**Fluffy Bunny Feet** · 11-21-2008 08:28 PM

From now on, this journal only details the more intense dreams that made an impression on me, and I'm skipping the boring stuff. Another bad dream about my hubby last night that I need to get out.

Dream- I was playing all these video games, except it was like I was actually in them. They kept changing. I ended up in one that was supposed to be like candy land. There was this little train going around a big pool. It was in bad shape though and the cars kept falling into the water. Suddenly there was a big earthquake or something that turned the building on it's side. As this happened, I surprisingly saw Grant. He had been working on some geeky project for months with a few guys in the room next door. I was worried that he might be hurt.

Then I was in high school again and Grant was there but he was acting really strange, like he was really dumb and yelling things that made no sense. He looked weird, had a bad haircut and hadn't shaved for a week. Then he got back to normal and we kissed and were happy to be reunited. We went into a girl's bathroom, which pissed off some girls. Then his geeky friends were there too and I recognized one of them as T, a photographer we know.

There was a break where I woke up, and then I was in a class. I was worried about Grant and trying to call him on my cell phone. It wasn't working, as usual. Finally, the phone rang, and Grant was hysterical, saying they had trapped him and were holding him and doing bad things to him. I realized his voice was coming from behind a nearby wall. There were a bunch of big folding tables blocking him in. I started to tear them away. Then I realized he had become a deformed giant, made me think of "the Amazing Colossal Man." I wanted so badly to be with him, but as soon as he got loose, someone threw acid on him and he started melting. By the time I got to him, only a bit of his head was left. I told him that I loved him, and thought maybe this had been a past life of his...