Poet of the Myst's Dream Journal

[Poet of the Myst]

hello, for I while I wont be posting in order I was driving on a highway at night, and my car broke down. When it did, the place turned into a forest in the fall, and it was day time. I got out, and I saw my best friends car break down. We were joking about the coincidence, and she got into my car, and waited. After a while she said “I can get my car fixed, I'm going to go try” So she did, and left. Moments after 3-4 people got in my car, I couldn't see what they looked like. They were joking about having a broke car party in my back seat(where they were all sitting), and they were having fun, and games. I was just at the front wanting to go home. They wanted to play checkers, or some game like that, and the man said “oh yeah, and disadvantage the blind man.” Or something like that to that effect. It was in a joking way though. They were almost celebrating because of something else, as if they wanted the same thing I did, but they were ecstatic about everything. I appeared in my house at night time, but it looked different My balcony was bigger. I had a Rosicrucian book – it had a big red rose on it, and was labeled “Wisdom of the Rose” or something to that effect, and I was practicing mysticism. I brought a guy with me from when I had a broke down car to practice it, but he was not really into spiritual things, but maybe he should have been he just was more for living life carelessly. He had left soon after. I was doing something with candles then my friend came over. I went in my room, and she was there messing with a home cordless phone. Soon after she left, I went outside, and heard my brother talking about how I practiced mysticism. He didn't really respect it. I was practicing something out of the book trying to contact really anyone in higher dimensions pleading to leave the 3rd dimension behind. I had become lethargic, and my moral was low with helping out humanity though I strongly desired to. All of a sudden I got the message “don't have any doubts, we are coming to pick you up, and you did all that was needed, and served out your mission.” I was more than happy. All of a sudden things started becoming more surreal. My room all of a sudden had a door on it that would disappear, and re-appear so the dream could show different things to me. The ground started getting lower, but my house didn't move at all.(or was it my house was getting higher), and the buildings started disappearing, and being replaced by mountains. I started feeling like I was about to die, which I was actually joyful about. I walked in my house to the loft, and my foot couldn't go certain places on the floor. Soon as I reached the hallway – it turned into a corridor, and sorta turned so I was falling down it. As I was falling – I almost felt if I was falling up, and I saw many of my spiritual family in another dimension getting read to come and get me. Before I fell to the other side, the hallway turned right side up, and I was in front of my room. I went in And my room was coated with a deep blue cloth, and where my guitars, and computer were were patched with black cloth. My digital clock was on my bed – the time was 2:34. As I tried to call a friend, the electricity in the house cut off. It was if I was just suppose to wait for them to come. So I went to the other door(appeared), and went to the balcony. As I was on the balcony, I seemed to start losing hope again with being saved. Again I heard someone say something to the effect of "it's ok if you feel hopeless, just hang on till we get there" I noticed my brother started acting strange. He was doing something with candles, He now had a door to the balcony from his room. I noticed it were open as if he had been spying on me looking for some conspiracy evidence in my Rosicrucian book. He walked out, and I started to go interrogate him. He said “whoa there, dream symbolism: physical brother equals spiritual brother. I stepped into your brothers body to send you message, and wait here with you. Your calls have been heard, and we are gonna come pick you up.” The End. I wanted to stay a sleep more, and hear more of what he had so say, but I felt as if I were being purposely woken up, and as I was I could feel my standing up inside my bed(OBE).

[Poet of the Myst]

this boy was looked at as God. This boy had the personality disorder of NO personality, and so he had the gift of see the secret parts of the personalities like the parts of someone that were hidden. He saw the good in people and his heart became filled with love, and he was able to cast miracles. So this cult looked at him as God. They created a big oil refinery/industrialplace/church all in one out in the middle of the desert. I came there to work at the refinery, but when I got there to work, the cultists became insane, and sadistic, and so had their boy god. They made crude oil ditches, and lined walls with corpses that they had killed. So me and 14 others were trying to escape, and the boy approached me out of nowhere and whispered "I looked too deep. I looked too deep and saw the bad people hold inside them." Then he was pale white with a suite with a red tie, and his face looked blank, but his eyes always soaked in the personalities of others always acting out what was inside of others. He became influenced by the bad in others so he became a charls manson/ Hitler/cannibal. The cultists believed in him, and so when he started doing bad things, then so did they. I gave him a look like: Just kill me already. He turned away, and started setting the oil ditches on fire. I had to run out before the place exploded, and the others trying to escape already did. When I ran by the fire I slipped, and my leg started getting burned by some of the flames. and it was like I REALLY felt my leg burning like a pheonix coming down with fire claws and burning, and tearing the skin of my leg off. after that I woke up, and went back to sleep. and I was outside the compound, and all I could think was "I’m alive! I got alot to live for", but then I heard the boy say "I’m alive, and I’m not done yet." and it ends inside the charred remains of the compound and there more cultists (censored)

[Poet of the Myst]

I was in the room debating the existence of my alarm clock with me, and plants. I in bed said well of course there is no such thing as a alarm clock in my room, and there are no such thing as alarm clocks at all! *alarm goes off in real life*. Then other me right in front of me says "well thats your alarm going off. How can you deny that. Me in bed said " hahaha your funny there IS NOT ALARM GOING OFF!" Me standing says "But its right there, use you third eye if you have to, James". bed me looked and said "HA I told you there is no alarm clock, and I am even looking with my eyes, third eye, and my ears, and I dont hear, see, sense an alarm clock." standing me got frustrated, and said "you can even ask the plants outside your window across the street" So bed me did, and the plants said "well of course theres an alarm clock, we can here it all the way from over here!" It went like that for 10 min. Then my mom knocked on my door in real life, I got up and said "damn, there is an alarm clock!" Goes without saying.... I didnt want to get up.

[Poet of the Myst]

I woke up in heaven next to my wife, and she was waiting for me laying next to me. I told her I had the strangest dream. I told her "I was a guy named James, and I was born in this odd fascinating world called earth, where people killed, loved, hated eachother, and I went to this country named Germany". all I told her was a discription of my current waking life. The room had bright vanilla walls. White curtains, bed sheets. Outside was a vast ocean of seaming Light. In the sky were waves of sound. Bliss - you could see the near by planets if you wanted.

[Poet of the Myst]

I was driving through the woods and got into a car wreck I instantly got knocked unconscious. I woke up, and noticed I was in a war and everyone looked at me as if I were their leader. I fought the battle hard with my army against these demons. We went all over the forest fighting them. one Day. It seemed like we were winning, and then apeared the shadow with a gun to the head of a woman I fell in love with... I never told her... Never knew how to. the shadow told her everything I felt about her as I and all my army watched helplessly. I pleaded with it to let me take her place. it wouldnt lestin. then the shadow shot her, and left. I held her, and fell asleep with her in my arms. When I woke up, I was still in the car. no one was there to help. there was blood everywhere. I fainted

[Poet of the Myst]

there was this girl that lived in Europe in a small town with a old 100 year old church on a green grassy hill she would go to this church to be counciled by the priest for PTSD, depression, and a hate that in her heart without a reason. she was afraid of the dark, resentful towards her family especially her father. she would have anxiety attacks alll throughout the night, and hyperventilate. her name... Emily she new not of why all these negative factors were in her life... her family was just neglectful... or so she thought. i watched upon her and knew otherwise i came to her one night, and her and i decided to share each others minds... literally it seemed. I found out quickly for i took on her scared personality, but i knew i had to. i had to help her have a heaven on earth. i found out quickly that there were things in her heart that not even she knew... things that haunted her secretly... things that put that hatred and rage into her heart that not even the priest saw. in her memory her dad died when she was around 15 or 13. she was around 21 now, and had come to except her fathers death even though she didn’t remember why he died. her and her family lived in that town ever since she could remember. possibly even before she was born. from the start i was suspicious of her past... something had to have happened to be living in such a hate filled hell. i would soon find out that she had another memory... a darker one. her mother was the neglecting one, that was never there. why? her father was an abusive one to her. but he was very different to his daughter... strange. it was almost as if he saw Emily as his wife he was indeed a pedophile. and raped Emily many times. while she was growing up. i will spare even the toughest the details. there was something more but when i found this out. the secret was also out to Emily. i started to hyperventilate, as did she. but there was more in her mind. she did not know. i found out that he would molest her inside the church on the hill. till one day. someone shot at the church. hitting Emily’s father in the throat. while he was shot she was in a hall in the church. this took place at night time. back then the church had no wiring and was dark at night. i soon found out this was a lie also. she had 2 false memory’s on top of the truth. the truth is on that night she had gotten so much hatred in her heart that she punched the stainless glass window, and broke it. her father came to see what the commotion was. and no one was around. but her. he made her sit on his lap and asked her what had happened, and proceeded to molest her. she got soo enraged that no one would come to her rescue, and he was doing this that she took a piece of the glass on the chair, and jammed it into his throat, and watched him bleed out and into death slowly. after that she decided to forget everything. i don’t know how she got away with it, but i am sure someone defended her, and lied for her. i don’t know where her mother is in all this. all this was now unlocked and conscious in her mind. she now knew why her heart was full of hate, and why she was the way she was. and our minds separated. she now went to the church on the hill, and sat where he dad sat not knowing what to do or think. i appeared before her, and put my hand on her shoulder as i sat next to her. she was hysterical. I spoke to her. I couldn’t remember much after that what I said, and did, but I helped her to forgive her father, and her past.

[Poet of the Myst]

this dream this dream had multiple dimensions it took place in the past the present and future this dream had no boundrys but trapped itself in a old hotel this dream had no light to gleam no sun to shine no light to show what was in the darkness this dream had God and the devil in one person this dream was about bleeding out again again and again this dream was just a supernatural metephore that was symbolic of the effects that life had on me this dream sent me to save me in this old hotel old woman was there and so were you this took place while i meditated my mind was unlocked but had no insight my eyes saw through countless walls but never into my own heart this dream was a paradoxical phenomena that can only happen to the tourchered spirits on earth this dream made me God but still no light could shine through the blackness of night this dream will remain in me i can only hope to bleed out one more time.... for the last time

[Poet of the Myst]

I woke up one mourning and walked down stairs and some men were tearing up the carpet to re-carpet the living room. so i start going towards the garage and I see what appears to be a upright shadow figure. I thought my mind was just playing tricks on me. but i get something to drink and i go into a living room and everyone was looking at something on the floor. It was a pentagram so I was like what the heck, and everyone else stund and in fear. all of a sudden this banged on our door, so i went to go open it and it was this fanatical church group that was yelling get out of the house or else. I was like whatever and my mom tolled them to leave. So I go to school that day and there is this girl named Jane. I lightly knew her but I thought that I would go up and say hi, so I did. She said it doesn't matter anymore. I said what doesn't matter. she looked at me and said aren't you the one with the pentagram on his floor? I was like how did you know? she said it didn't matter, and that Satan was coming for her. I said if you need anything at all just tell me. she walked off. I was doing my work and all of a sudden it was like in a movie where it switches to a different person. I saw her and she was in the bathroom committing suicide... with a broken mirror. then I saw me again I asked to go to the bathroom, and so i went and she was in there dead. I held her and cried. that day school was let out early because of the it. I got home and I started heading towards the kitchen to get a drink when I saw that shadow walking towards the garage again. so I followed it. when i went into the garage it was standing there... waiting for me. it said "do you want to see your friend who damned herself?" I said yes but she is dead. he said give me your shell. i walked up to him and he took my spirit out of my body. he said something like so my spirit would become contaminated. Everything goes dark and next thing i know i am on this train in space. and the shadow is there. he said "her first hell" I black out and have this picture in my mind, and its of her at her dads funeral. he said "she is afraid to lose her dad and now she shall lose him for eternity" (warning it gets violent) the train goes into a cave that apears to be in some meteor, it stops, when i get out I see her, and she is bloody from head to toe coverd in her own blood and is decorated with bruises cuts and all. she comes running to me begging me to save her, when all of a sudden a demon splits her head open with an axe. I was shocked but the shadow said "no one excapes after they haven been judged" so we start walking and I am filled with grief. when the cave gets smaller and smallr and there is a door and the end. we walk through it and was apear on this metal platform and behind me now is the bluest sea i have ever seen, but to the front were countless numbers of people being tortured in any and every way possible. I looked back to the door then up and there I assumed was satan and a couple others sitting on a throne stuffing there faces of and being given lap dances. I look ahead and Jane was carried out tied onto a chair. you could see her. her body was like a book that you read to see what they did to her. she was beaten raped tortured in many different was and put back together just so she could be tortured again. her screams as well as the countless other tortured souls filled the light blue sky of lies. a guy with a shot gun walked out and behind her, and started beating her while he was posing. the shadow figure said "see! do you see! this is what man gets, and deserves!" he started preaching to me about how all of mankind was going to hell and they all deserved it. then he said "be good James or you will accompany her." in a low voice. the man with the shot gun put the gun up to Janes head (and it was a mess). he said "any last words" and she cried out GOD LIVES IN US ALL! right when she said that the shotgun went off. everything seemed to quiet down as everyone was surprised. all of a sudden the light blue sky turned into a cave cielling, the massive ocean turned into a lava pit, and the people who were being tortured started to burn as where they stood turned into a lake of fire. Then after that everything seemed to go backwards and i appeared back in my garage... looking at the door with a scrambled mind. then i saw my face in a close view i was looking towerd the ground, then i look up, and wake up.

[Poet of the Myst]

"Welcome back" from Lumaria I had this one dream that I woke up in this big bed and i was in the beautiful room surrounded with vines that were growing into the wall. It was a great setting everything was decorated with fruit, flowers and vines. the structures looked like that of ancient Greece mixed with Aztec pyramids. I got up and looked outside and i was in a pyramid and there were 3 more pyramids to the sides and front of me, and at the middle was a pathway to something. I think it was a alter. surrounding the pyramids were things of ever variety that grew fruit. a guy walked up to me and said "some think this is heaven, and others Gods garden". (or something like that). I said i know its my dream. he said it can be a reality if you want... come back whenever you like. the place had lots of people with clothing that seem to be apart of the culture of India mixed with ancient Greece. the sky was a beautiful golden color, the and every plant that grew flourished and I looked humid outside, but I was actuly just right. when people wanted to go somewhere they would jump towerds that place and just float. A woman landed by me and said something like "the gravity here isn't like your earths is nowdays. its fun just jump." so i did it was like I was gliding. She yelled to me "come back when you like!" then i woke up. I while later I had that dream again... and everyone said "welcome back."

[Poet of the Myst]

Brother had been having a headache for 2 weeks straight, and last night a few minuites after he walked into the room, I got a headache. Maybe I'm just to sensitive at times. bleh I had a dream that there was this boy living with his family out in the swamp. Kinda the country folk. He had a lot of anger issues at home, and one day his sister was either killed by him or committed suicide. The dream was played out as if she had barley died, and the boy was at the door watching her(the dream left room for speculation on purpose), but he didn't show emotion. Her wrists were cut, and she was bleeding white blood which attracted bugs, and the spiders came, and started eating the bugs. The blood started to look alive. The boy was late to school one day, and the mother had gotten mad at him. The boy started to run to school, and with his anger and hatred he gained speed. He found that he could turn into a fish, and swim faster, or turn into a bird. He always tried to walk on water, but he never could. When he got to the school, I was there in the forest starring at him(I was wearing a black trench coat, and jeans, and I had a black indiana Jones hat(think I was a grave digger). The school looked like a church, and his teacher was this lady with blond hair with 2 big braids, and white shirt, and blue dress, that enjoyed talking to him. The end.

[Poet of the Myst]

Everyone I know, went to this high tech science lab. The place was outside, and the scientists made a discovery based off crystals. I was approached by these people, and they said that their souls were going to die, and could I do them a last favor. So I went on these quests so give them some comfort. I can't remember much of what they were besides there were eggs, and I had to break the dolls out of the eggs, and bring them a gold ring with a fake ruby on it. At the end when I go back to the people who claimed that their soul was going to die, I got an urge that these scientists were doing something they shouldn't. The people who claimed their soul was going to die started falling down dead. A moment after they did that, their finger tips light with a bright glow, and they started disappearing. The glow on their fingers would rise to the sky, and make circles before disappearing. What it was is the scientists found, they could make replicas of people using machine, and crystals. They amplified their power to manifest energy so greatly that it turned energy into matter. The energy clones would get to a point that their insides would dissipate(their energy would become non-physical again). So they would fall down dead, and the light at their finger tips was an anomaly. I looked around, and atheists were like "great discovery", and many people who believed in God were losing faith. I got the feeling there was something wrong about it. I told the scientists that they should destroy the technology, or else I would. Then my dream started getting funny, because they made something to make someones urine smell good, and be blue(lmao), and their computer screens could turn into toilet seats. I went to the bathroom in the wrong monitor though. lmao Needless to say, I got up and went.

[Poet of the Myst]

were in Egypt looked a lot like Hathors temple, but a lot... newer. there were steps, and a Oasis near by. For some reason everyone was carrying these daggers that looked like talons, and I wasn't sure why she was on high guard. At first it seemed like I was on some assassination mission, but was something else. My teacher told me that I couldn't approach her out in the open, but I tried it. She flew towards me and kicked me, and my teacher rewound time it seemed. Then we were in front of the temple, and someone said that she was coming around the corner, so I waited for her, and surprised her. Then I realized I was suppose to speak to her for some reason(it wasn't clear). She started speaking about her life, and how she grew up in a poor town in Asia by the sea. I had flashes of her upbringing in this set of houses that looked like shacks hanging on the cliff. Then I started waking up, and the dream stared becoming nonsensical, and I don't remember anything after that. The dream is odd to me because most of my dreams don't make any 'physical' sense.

[darknightedlady]

Some of the themes in your dreams are vaguely similar to mine...the crystals, science, floating...! I have been reading other journals to find people who may have some similar themes. I plan to subscribe, if that's okay? I like the poem you wrote, very nice. Thanks for sharing... Oh, and I really like the one of the boy who said, "I looked too deep".

[Poet of the Myst]

Some of the themes in your dreams are vaguely similar to mine...the crystals, science, floating...! I have been reading other journals to find people who may have some similar themes. I plan to subscribe, if that's okay? I like the poem you wrote, very nice. Thanks for sharing... Oh, and I really like the one of the boy who said, "I looked too deep". Thank you dark nighted lady I will check it out

[Poet of the Myst]

Ok.. in middle school, I had a dream of this guy. Bald head, blue eyes, and very creepy. he was chasing me, and you know how in dreams you can barly run but they don't catch you? He did!, and broke my neck in the dream Now flash forward to this time last year about I had a dream of being in the bathtub and that same damn creep man comes in and just slowly coming in the door with those beady blue eyes that seem to stare into nothing So I'm like fuck this I'm waking up So I woke up On my bed, in my room that was on the 2nd floor , and when I did I looked up out my window AND HE WAS THERE! slowly creeping up on me from outside Starring at me Turns out he was my teacher. I asked him and he laughed and said "Evil twin"

[Poet of the Myst]

Hmm. where to start.Since I can remember a thing some call a demon, or shadow would stalk me in life, and in dreams. Come to think of it now, it's this chick pulling the strings. A bed of spikes I'll start from elementary school: The dream started with me walking down the street towards my old house from school. I first saw the shadow there walk into my house. I heard a voice "someone wants to meet you". I was puzzled to say the least. When I walked inside there was a gigantic bucket, and in it were needles big and small. people were hanging from the ceiling, and being swung into the needles, then dropped in. The shadow said "do you like what we have done? marvelous we finally put humans into good use as decorations." I quickly went into panic mode, and ran to my moms room. There was a woman tied up, and crying. Ultimicia was there, and looked at me. She said "we ran out of spikes so I will make my own little bed of spikes." She took out a ceremonial knife, and started stabbing the woman to death. I was in the process of turning around, and running out the door, and she said "aww don't worry honey, I won't hurt you too much yet." I ran to the door passed the bucket of bloody spikes, and tried to open it, but chains had appeared on the door. So I ran upstairs to my room, and my brother was sitting on my bed in some sort of trance. The shadow was there, and started preaching to me about how humanity was basically fail. My brother took a knife, and stabbed himself. I woke up Hateful Angel The dream started with me waking up in my bed. The shadow was waiting for me. I went with him down my street, and there was a gate to hell, and the gatekeeper. And angel came down - pale face, jet black hair, and in leather armor, and gigantic white wings. She held in her hands a key, and she said it was to heaven, and I must win the apocalypse with her so we could go to heaven and be in love forever. She told me to go through the gates to hell with the gatekeeper The gate keeper took me down to hell, and showed me around the lake of fire where the lake keeper was knocking down people who tried to escape the wrath of the unholy blaze. I saw places of unholy, and 'anti-divine' worship to combat God. I went in a pitch black place with a blood painted pentagram on the floor. The shadow was waiting there he said "better not disappoint us" I went into a room and the devil was waiting for me with a pen and a paper. He told me that I could have whatever I wanted, power greater than Gods, the world even. He said I was the chosen one and I would make all of humanity worship me. I chose the light, to fight on the side of God, and the divine, and free humanity from its hatred, and any grasps of hell. Then I tried to fight the devil which I would kick off his limbs, and the would grow back quickly. The devil kicked me out of hell, and I was standing in front of the angel. She had a look of disgust on her face... More than that, she was filled with rage, and hate. her wings turned black, and the light she came from turned to a disturbing black aura, her eyes blue deep eyes, turned into a glowing red storm from an abyss. She threw the key somewhere, and said "you will regret this!". I flew away, and the gate to hell closed, and I layed on the floor crying thinking that the angel that I was in love with and that I dreamed of, and wanted for so long had forsaken me, and I was the one to blame for it. ... Now that I think of it, she was Ultimicia bed of spikes repeat but in different variations Seriously I had dreams that would put Japanese horror films to shame. the bed of spikes wasn't the worst Revelations: alternate ending I was on the shores of some coast with a bunch of angels, and humans. Everyone was relying on me to be the one that saved the day. I was looking forward to killing that damn shadow. Ultimicia who I thought was an actual angel was there. I told her I was sorry, and she very fakely said "you are forgiven" and gave a sarcastic little wink. All of a sudden the battle started, and from the start I was knocked out. everything went black... When I woke up, the ocean was blood, it was still day and light didnt exist, the sun was gone, but I could still see. There were piles of dead bodies, bodies hanging from streetlights. I walked away from the beach into the city... may have been some place like California or Miami. Everyone was dead windows were shattered because people were thrown like ragdolls. I walk inside a house, and the family and children were dead. The shadow was in there. I had lost the will to even fight the damn thing. I walk into the bathroom, and stare at myself in complete loss. It was standing behind me saying that I failed a race that was destined to fail anyways. I didn't notice if it was my true form or not. But my eyes turned to a dark red, and my tears were blood. I walked up the street, and the shadow told me that I would now have to walk the earth forever alone in true sadness.

[Baron Samedi]

oh my god.

[Poet of the Myst]

oh my god. Yes, Snuffing her in the "hateful angel" didn't make it any better. She let me know I could feel pain of any sort in dreams...

[Poet of the Myst]

I had a little run in with the mother Jaguar the other day. I guess I treaded to closely near her while she was on alert, but I wasn't willing to fight, though I'm not from that lineage. She pinned me down, and took a close look at me, her eyes widened, and called me Quetzalcoatl, annnnnd that was about it.

[Baron Samedi]

I also dreamed of her last night. Quetzalcoatl means Naga.