Thread: LiveInTheDream's Public Dream Journal

11:30pm - Tried the first time in my life for lucid dreams by this WILD technique I learned from the internet. Even though the guide said it normally takes 20-30 minutes, I reached weightlessness after 5 mins. Panicked and forced a wake up.

The time wore on to Sunday: 12/13/09 - 12:30am

Accidentally fell asleep at some unknown time until 4:00am. No memory of sleep or dreams.

At 4:30am, I accidentally fell asleep again, this time achieving lucidity.

First I was in a college dorm, not in body, but spectating like a spirit. I saw a messy desk, covered with pencils, including a single bright red one. The desk was metal and looked to be at least 25 years old. A built-in lamp was mounted beneath the top shelf and cupboard.

Instantly, I was whisked to my living room. I saw a pile of objects that my mind registered as Christmas presents. I was in body then, and handeled each object, finding them to be true to real life things that I own, only these were brand new again. I realized how outdated and deteriorated some of it has become. I saw packaging labels in crystal clarity that I've only seen once my whole life, and some other packages that don't exist, yet they were fully realistic in physics, lighting, and texture. I picked them up, dropped them, spun them around on the glass side table they were on, and found it all to function as expected.

Next I was whisked away to church, where the clarity reached its strongest point. Having not intended to try for lucidity in the first place, I now thought I was there and awake. I was talking to a couple friends of mine. I heard their voices and laughs and saw their expressions and actions in full, accurate detail. Then, another friend of mine walked up to us. "I should ask him about lucid dreaming." I thought, since he is a very knowledgeable fellow. BIG MISTAKE. He replied by going through the steps for having a WILD, directly quoting what I had read on the internet. When he reached the weightlessness part, I said, "That's what freaks me out!" And instantly I realized I was dreaming and as a result of the shock, felt as if I were being sucked into a vortex and put back on my bed.

I was stuck in paralysis. Literally. Couldn't move. A wave of weightlessness started to come over my body, beginning with my toes and moving up. I thought I was WILDing again, but since I had no visualized dream in mind, and rather than go somewhere I didn't want to, I thrust open my eyes and moved my head however I still was able. The paralysis broke when the wave reached my head. Checked the clock and only half-an-hour had gone by; 5:00 am now. I had been a bit afraid that I would get stuck in a dream for a day or more; those fears are now quelled.

I am unharmed; very disoriented, but sitting up for a moment fixed that. Actually, I felt more energetic from that half hour than from a half night of normal sleep.

The process of getting in and out of lucidity still scares me a bit, but coming through it alive makes me more than willing to try again. Besides, lucidity itself is WICKED AWESOME, DUDE!

7:52am - Now that I've fully woken up from my first lucid dreams, I diagnose that lucid dreaming itself has had no negative side effect on me. The lack of sleep is catching up to me, but otherwise I feel fine. Nothing is out of the ordinary for sleep-depravity. I intend to try lucid dreaming again this afternoon, when/where it is safe to give another trial run.

1:26pm - Tried to go to New York and fly over the city using WILD. Didn't panic at weightlessness. Wasn't calm enough, though. My excitement caused my heart to beat very rapidly, almost dangerously so, suspending me in between wake and sleep. I saw the brightness of the New York sky through closed eyelids, saw the faint image of traffic below me on an apartment deck, and heard some city noises, but intentionally left the dream due to heart overactivity. Waking like that faithfully produced a degree of disorientation, but also gave me jitters from working my heart so hard. I MUST LEARN CALMNESS!

Something I just realized is that ALL lucid dreams of mine begin and end with me seeing an eye. It frequently changes shape and occasionally other features (eyebrows, lashes, etc) appear as well.

11:45pm - Attempted to sleep without entering a WILD. Concluded from study that WILD is not the preferable method, and not very successful.
The night wore on, but every time my eyes shut, I'd begin a WILD. Began to fear that I was messing up my brain and wouldn't ever be able to get a good night's sleep again without doctor's aid. Prayed for help which quickly calmed me down and I went to sleep naturally, though it was late.

6:00am-Woke up and quickly reality checked my room. Realized I had successfully escaped a WILD night, and discovered that I was back in control; if I closed my eyes, did not fight movement urges, and did not attempt to maintain concsiousness, I could switch to natural sleep on demand. I also realized that I was in the perfect situation for a successful WILD, but chose to rest instead.

10:00am - Woke up again. I guess I was tired from all the hard work. NEVER slept until 10:00am before. Good thing I don't have anything important to do today.

Very little dream recall...

The first dream, all I can recall is a brief moment of being at a computer and looking at graphs with my mom.

One dream was longer, and involved a (fictional) uncle of mine.

He had a big house and threw a party, and even had a music group play. Everything was fine up until this point. We had arrived at the house, been warmly welcomed, and been treated very hospitably, but something about him bothered me. When the music group began to play, I decided I didn't like the music, and proceeded to sabotage the party to get rid of them. Walked in and out of doors in hallways, past several members of my family, trying to find some way to stop the band from playing anymore. Eventually I found several huge objects that I was somehow able to pick up and move without the least bit of struggle. I then brought them all up to the living room balcony and began knocking over the band players by dropping the objects on their heads

Obviously, this was causing much strife with my 'uncle'. He and the rest of my family all cornered me and began interrogating me with questions about why I would do such a thing when everyone had been so nice to us. For some reason I still thought the band and my 'uncle' were just plain evil, but then I woke up. It was a pretty clear dream; it seems I could have entered lucidity, but unfortunately I did not remember to RC.

I remember having more dreams prior to these, but they left my memory instantly upon awakening.

11:30pm - Went to sleep without WILDing intentionally OR unintentionally, without much help. Every time I would begin to enter WILD, I'd see the eye again, staring back at me, morphing into a million different forms, occasionally revealing an eyebrow or other details in the surrounding area. I would then look away from the eye and stop holding onto consciousness and be fine.

Over the night, I had several dreams, but I can only recall two again, in terms of length, in the same order as before.

The first is very unclear...I saw my dad making a statement about my sister that was bothersome. Something like "She's going back to college and is not allowed to EVER leave!" He also decided on a husband for her to be forcibly married to, though I cannot remember who or why.

The second was longer, but not much happened. Most of the time I was just randomly walking upstairs and downstairs, all around my house, not doing much, just seeing people from my family doing various normal things. I saw some history channel thing about trains on the TV for a brief time. One time when I went upstairs, I found an girl that I had never seen before putting on makeup in the bathroom. When I stepped in there to find out who she was, I saw a wedding dress hung up next to the shower. I decided that she and I must be getting married, and she agreed. We hugged and very nearly...did something else, too, but decided it was better just to wait. We decided we'd be married in two days, so it wouldn't be that long. I went back in my room and found that I had a bunk bed all of a sudden. I got on the bottom and she got on top and we went to sleep.

No lucidity--issue was, I saw no doorways in the dream, and my practice has been to RC when I go through doors. I'm beginning to think that my family is a dream sign. I've seen someone from my family in every dream I've had for the past two nights. Interestingly, WILDing didn't bring me any dreams of my family, but since it doesn't require RC's or signs, it doesn't matter.

Two dreams again. I should have gotten up and recorded the first, because it is mostly lost on me now. However, I remember seeing my parents again.

Second dream was a jumble. Pretty much everything I had thought about that day was in there. Eventually it all worked out to me walking into a room with a small conference of some sort; no more than 50 people. The conference ended soon after I walked in, but first I demonstrated this little sticky, square lightbulb thingy that I had, since the conference leader was talking about it. Maybe they wanted to sell the lights; I don't know. When it was done, everyone was to pick up their chairs and stack them in the corners of the room. One kid with blond hair and glasses passed by. "Hey." I said. "What's your name?" I can't recall his answer. "Where are you from?" was my next question. "The Ford." He replied. "It's just a few hours away from Missouri...have you ever been to Missouri? I've been twice." "I go all the time," I replied. "I live in Kansas and I can drive into Missouri in about 15 minutes!"

I was zipped away then to a false awakening. The thought of reality checking crossed my mind, but unfortunately, I simply thought back "I already did!" I got down out of bed and there were several parksabers.com lightsabers on the floor. They too were part of the previous mish-mash of a dream I had just had. All over the place my mind started posing questions. "How do you know you're not dreaming? What about this is real?" but these questions were very quiet and only managed to cause a bright light to blind me momentarily, multiple times, as if my conscious was trying to break through. But the questions never stopped. Eventually, as I practiced with the saber props, I thought, "Well, if these sabers are from my dream, that would make THIS too a..."

And I awoke, reality checked, and found myself to be really awake.

Several other instances throughout the dream prompted reality checks, but I either excused them with "I already did, just a second ago!" referring to what I did right before I fell asleep, or the posed questions were too 'quiet', like a small voice desperately trying to make itself heard, but in the end being ignored.

Oh yes, and my family members were throughout the dream as well.

I think I'm getting close.

11:47pm - Went to sleep with absolute determination to lucid dream. I really believed I would succeed, even though I had not done very many reality checks that day.

The first dream I recall came in the form of a nature trail. At first we were in a building made of small yellow bricks with squares of green at random places in the walls. The floor was of concrete, and I remember seeing realistic reflections in it. Soon, that building pathway led outside to he nature trail. My family and I were all there, walking it. The path seemed to go on forever, going past trees and creeks and all sorts of plants. The lighting wasn't very realistic here, though. I don't recall any shadows, and the sun didn't shine through the leaves at all as it should have. Eventually we decided to turn back and head home. On the way back, the path itself maintained its integrity; it went the same directions at the same point in the path that it had before. The building we started at, however, was a different story. The colors had switched; now there were green bricks with little yellow squares at random points in the walls. I remarked at the change in the dream, but unfortunately my explanation was: "Oh, they must have painted it while we were gone." Soon after, I entered another dream.

This one also had a lot of trees and other foliage, as well as a dirt road. My friends and I had gathered there and were talking and looking at pictures we'd taken of the jungle/forest, when suddenly someone sped by us and started shooting. I don't think he hit anyone, but we all got in our cars (which were suddenly there with us as if by magic ) and chased him down before he could do more damage. The dirt road was rough, but not realistically so. We easily sped through without ever once spinning out or having difficulty turning. That's not to say we were free from harm, though. Once I went off a jump, right behind the shooter and catching up, and on my way down, a branch hit the windshield and broke the glass. I felt little pieces pierce my skin, and it hurt when I moved, but I kept driving. Others behind me went through similar experiences, though their windshields remained intact. After a long chase like this, we drove into snowy territory, on a mountain (amazing how no one was even slightly cold). The shooter was gone, but there was a structure, and at the top was some huge, gold artifact. Everyone got out of their cars and began to climb the side of the structure. It wasn't too difficult, since only the support structure was left behind; the equivalent of modern beams in 5,000 year-old form. However, the structure was also straddling two sides of a huge snow-covered canyon below. We climbed with caution. Suddenly, the shooter came back, and this time he hit a friend of mine that was almost to reach the gold artifact. My friend fell off, but managed to land on the edge of the canyon rather than fall down in it. I rushed to the top, grabbed the gold, and then dove off the structure to the canyon edge. I rolled as I hit the ground and came up unhurt. The shooter was gone again. I started to pull glass shards out of me, but soon I woke up.

It was still early. I had enough time to do a WBTB so I decided I would give it a shot. Unfortunately, I had only a vague idea of how to properly DO a WBTB, so I didn't get all the way out of bed, but remained fully awake for about 30 seconds and suppressed thoughts about the day ahead or anything but lucid dreaming. Oddly enough, though, that much actually helped! At least, I think it did. I began to feel very lightweight...not totally weightless as if I was WILDing, but very light, and it was like the logic part of my brain was partially shut off while remaining conscious. I considered WILDing then because it seemed the most likely time for it to work, but in the end decided I didn't want to endure the transition and went back to sleep, hoping for a DILD that I never got. Didn't even have any dream recall from this sleep period.

11:14pm

Went to sleep without well-set intentions. "Maybe I'll WBTB...I'll set an alarm for 4:30am. I'll leave my PC on so I can get o DV if I decide to get up." It was still too much 'up-in-the-air', though; I made no firm decision about following through. However, I ended up awakening at 2:21 having already been in REM, so that WBTB failed from the outset, but helped me guess a better time to set the alarm for. Another issue was that having my PC on meant a blue power light was flashing in my eyes all night long...it ended up working on me like a Nova Dreamer and influencing my dreams. For sake of time I'll only put one of them on this dream journal; I've already got the other one written down elsewhere. (yep, I'm still sticking with two dreams recalled every night, but they are increasing in clarity very rapidly now, and I can remember details from them for longer periods of time.)

The first dream began in a dystopia, an island that was mostly covered with water. Still, the water was not too deep for construction. The Vegas-like place was mostly up on stilts, with bridges for roads and sidewalks. In this town, I watched as a spectator as a warning rumor spread around that the water had become mixed with too many chemicals and would explode in one day, causing near-atomic reactions. Many heeded the warning and evacuated in time, but several foolish, wild party-ers remained behind to have 'fun' without the others around to talk bad about their lifestyle. As this went on, the setting sky turned red and orange, reflecting blood in the water. The parties went on. Finally, however, one girl realized something was wrong and pulled her boyfriend out to the docks. "What's going on? Let's go back and have fun!" He said. She paid no attention, but tried to find the fastest boat she could. She made her choice and then proceeded to untie it from the docks. "I think the rumor about this place is right!" She said. "We have to get out of here before something happens...I just know something is going to happen!" The boyfriend didn't seem to care. "Oh come on, let's just go back." "No!" She persisted. "Please! Let's just leave now! We can come back if nothing happens!" A little boom echoed in the distance, as if the beginning of a chain reaction explosion had begun. The boyfriend jumped into the boat with his girlfriend and they tried to speed away before it was too late. They barely made it out of the docks before the entire island combusted and exploded, destroying everything in its path; radiation was very intense. The blast radius was far too big for the two people to escape, though. It caught up to them and destroyed them in the most gruesome way I have ever seen. These weren't your normal Quake gibs...all hair was instantly disintegrated by the radiation, limbs were blown off, bones ripped apart, and entrails exposed. Never before had I witnessed human beings so mutilated. And as if that weren't bad enough, the dream 'rewound' itself and 'played back', showing this scene over and over until I woke up none too soon.

At 4:30am my alarm went off, but I had already had two dreams at that point so I figured the WBTB thing would never work at that point anyway. I only lost sleep from having a nightmare and now being woken up by the alarm. My mind had never asked questions about the possibility of being asleep during the dreams like it did the previous night, and all in all it felt like a lucid dreaming epic fail

Maybe I'll WILD this afternoon to get myself back on track...

6:00am - Woke up a bit earlier than was planned in order to try a WILD again. Haven't WILDed since that first time because the side effects frightened me, but after learning of their harmlessness, I was convinced it was worth a shot again.

The way it worked out, I fell back asleep before I could. However, I still had a lucid dream!!!!!! It was possibly the most unlikely method ever for going lucid, too: falling asleep inside of a dream! I was totally non-lucid at first, just going about my house, when the power went out. Real bad. Lights fell out of the ceiling, anything plugged into the wall was fried, etc. So while we waited for the repairman to come, I decided to catch up on sleep.
And then I was lucid!

Being only a DILD, it wasn't quite as vivid as when I WILDed, but it was plenty good for me! I was out on my driveway, and knew I was dreaming. Unfortunately, I didn't reality check because I was so sure of this. The end result was a lack total control and maximum clarity, but I'm just glad I finally had another lucid dream! Anyway, first I had a personal party for success, and then I walked up inside my garage, which was unusually packed with junk. There was no room for cars anymore. Most of it was boxed up, so I didn't bother to look and see inside them.

Then I 'woke up' in my previous dream, not lucid again. I forgot to reality check, of course, so I thought that was it. I saw that the power had not been fixed, so I soon went back to sleep...and was lucid again!

This time I wasted no time. To start off I rubbed my hands together, and that seemed to bring things into better focus. STILL I did no reality check, though...I don't know why I didn't think to do it just to be safe. However, I was out on the driveway again and the garage still looked the exact same. So I went right in there and approached a mirror. "Now for the fun stuff." I thought. I pulled up my shirt in front of the mirror and then put a hand over my abs with the intention of shapeshifting. BAM! Instant 6-pack! Unfortunately, shapeshifting that way, as expected, kind of shocked me awake a bit. Fortunately, also as planned, I was still there enough to spin around and rub my palms together. I began losing vision...things got darker and darker...but I kept on spinning and rubbing. When things got entirely black, I fell over from spinning, which actually jerked me back into the dream a little bit for registering the sensation of falling and landing on rough concrete. I got back up and continued spinning and rubbing, and slowly my vision returned. First all I could see was my foot on the ground, but as my disorientation began to leave, the scene of the dream returned. Before long, I was completely back in the dream, even clearer than it was before! I cheered for my success and then ran back up into the garage and looked in the mirror. Yep, the 6-pack was still there! For the first time in my life, I successfully shape-shifted something without waking up as a result! I went inside for a moment to share my success with whoever was in there, and my family was all there, just gathered around the TV as usual. I think what they were watching had something to do with dreams, because my Mom remarked, "Dreams sure are interesting." I shouted, "Especially LUCID dreams!!!" She replied, "I don't believe in lucid dreams." I laughed, both at that remark, and at the fact that everyone was almost totally inanimate. They just sat there with blank expressions on their faces, only moving their lips to talk, and they didn't even look at each other when they spoke. I refrained from telling them that they were PART of a lucid dream. Instead I went back out to the garage. "Alright, I've got as long as I need here; time doesn't apply. I can go slowly and shapeshift something and then stabilize, and then do it again." So that's what I intended to do. However, I got overconfident and tried to shapeshift far too much at once. In shock I was thrown down to the ground. I tried to rub my hands, but it was too late. I found myself waking up in the previous dream again. The power was on.

Then I woke up for real.

"Number of DILD's since joining," you ask? Now, there have been 2

Woke up at 5:25am as was set for my watch alarm. As I did the previous day, before I had gone to bed I had watched videos about lucid dreaming, read about lucid dreaming, and wrote about lucid dreaming, all with the hopes of getting lucid dreaming into my mind and making it happen again. The alarm was set for around 6 hours after going to bed as well.

It worked. To make sure I wouldn't fall back asleep too soon and therefore make use of the WBTB method, I let my watch alarm snooze twice before I switched it off. That ensured that I stayed awake for 15 minutes before drifting back off to sleep. I never actually left my bed because I have found that doing that wakes me up too much, so I settled with sitting up and reality checking and being almost fully awake that way.

Anyway, once I fell asleep, I found myself in a maze of a neighborhood. There were houses with sidewalks that worked like a maze, which led to a pool that had a similar maze around it, which led to a restaurant that was laid out like a maze...it was all very closed in, other for parts of it being open to the sky. Most of it was under a ceiling, though. I was looking for a particular friend of mine, who seemed to be nowhere to be found. As time went on, I kind of started to realize that this situation was not normal. It really pushed the boundaries for me, though, when Africans in tuxedos started to appear out of nowhere. Still, I didn't quite recognize the fact that I was dreaming just yet. I walked up to another friend of mine who happened to be just standing there, and I asked her: "Hey, have you seen A.J. anywhere?" She began to reply with ambiguous and answers that really didn't do me any good. I got frustrated pretty quick, and told her, "Just tell me where he is!" "You can't make me." She replied. "Yes I can!" I said. "I'm dreaming! I can do whatever I want...hey. Wait! That's right! I'm dreaming! This is my dream! I'm lucid!!" Suddenly I realized how out of it everyone around me seemed. They weren't actually doing a whole lot. I walked up to one of the guys in a tuxedo just standing there, and he was still as stone. I noticed how realistic his face was, but as I kept looking, he didn't even flinch or look back at me. Silently cheering, I opened a door and went inside, expecting a bathroom to be there. Sure enough, there was. I looked in the mirror and saw myself exactly as I always do when I first wake up. Hair messy, and in a white t-shirt and green shorts. "Yes! I'm lucid! Oh yeah!" I proceeded to rub my hands and spin around and feel the result, just to enjoy the moment. I was surprised at how everything blurred when I spun, just like it would in real life. Then I started to bump into everything around me just so I could feel it. Then I stopped, laughing with joy, and remembered the reality check. "Oh yes, and I can't forget to try this!" I pinched my nose and breathed in. Sure enough, I was able to do it, even though the breath seemed to be drawn in from another consciousness. I didn't realize it was a mistake at first to reality check when I was already lucid, but it became apparent pretty quick that making myself lose connection with my dream body and re-establish connection with my real body was significantly weakening the dream. My vision began to grow weak. I frantically resumed rubbing and spinning, but it seemed to do no good. Everything went black, and I thought the dream was over. But then, all of a sudden, my vision returned! "Ok," I said aloud, "not wasting any more time here." I took a look in the mirror again. "Better start small...well, I gotta have something other than this to wear if I'm going out there." I thought about how to change clothes without physically doing it. I remembered a bit about passive control and force control and decided my plan of action. "When I walk through that door, my clothes will change to some awesome black outfit." I had Jedi robes or something like that in mind. I walked through the door back outside, and then looked down to see if it had worked. There were different clothes on me now, but it was a green t-shirt and black cargo pants. "Dang it! This isn't what I meant. Ok, when I go through that NEXT doorway, my clothes are going to change to black jedi robes." So I walked through the doorway and saw several of my friends conversing together. I looked to the left and saw a mirror again. My hair had been fixed in the process of changing, but I was still in the same outfit. "Oh come on...CHANGE!" The use of direct force startled me awake.

However, although the dream was short, it was the most vivid one yet, and I remembered much of what I've learned about lucid dreams, so in several ways it was a success.

That makes DILDs = 3

6:30am - No lucid dreams.

Recall two dreams again, but not many details. The first one was looking up stuff on wikipedia, as far as I can remember. Can't recall what I was researching, but it had to do with the military, since I remember seeing a picture of a tank with soldiers all around it.

The other dream was working in a movie theater/hospital. Yeah, weird combo. Basically, I had just recently got a job working at this place, and when my family came out to take a look around, they saw a preview play on a wall-mounted TV screen for a movie called (get this): "The Lucid Lucidity" Why that didn't draw my attention I don't know; it might as well have been called "Reality Check NOW, Dude!" But I did nothing of the sort. Anyway, my family decided to go see it the following Monday, and I was to go with them. I liked the idea...there was a girl I worked with that I wanted to ask out, and I saw this as the perfect no-pressure date. I spent all week trying to get to know her better and find out if she cared for me at all. Finally, by Friday, I asked if she'd go with us. She frowned. "I don't know...I might be busy." I took that as "I'm not interested." So I used super-speed to run home and ask my mom what I should have done to get on the girl's good side. She thought I did fine; that the girl might genuinely be busy, and I should ask for another time. (seriously...duh! But this wasn't even a lucid dream, so I'm allowed to be stupid ) I super-sped back to work, where a nurse from the hospital part stopped me. "We don't take visitors after these hours." She said. "I work here," was my reply. "Oh. Go right in." I did, and everyone on the movie theater half of the building was cleaning up for the day. I walked right up to that girl and prepared to ask her if she was free another day. When she turned and saw me coming she smiled, and before I could say anything, she said, "Guess what? I checked my schedule and I'm actually free on Monday! I can come with you after all!" I don't recall anything after that. I guess that's when I woke up. Non-lucid dreams never show the most fun parts

5:30am - Set the alarm for a little bit earlier this time, since 6:30 was obviously way too late for a good WBTB. Again, intended to WILD, but decided against it because I had been up later than usual and was tired. My schedule would most likely allow for a napping WILD anyway.

When I fell asleep, I had two dreams that were very similar, but neither of them fully lucid. I can't say they weren't lucid either, though, because occasionally I'd think something like "oh yeah this is a dream so I can do that." but before it would register in full, I'd slip back into unconsciousness. I would guess that this has to do with my fatigue, and that getting some rest will allow me to successfully lucid dream again soon.

WILDing was outlawed. The US Government decided that since it allowed a single person to have total freedom and control, it was too dangerous. Therefore, they took the key (no really, it was a key) to WILDING and locked it up tight, with many guards to keep it safe. I wanted to have a lucid dream again, so I decided I would get that key and upon taking control via WILDing, I'd eliminate the governmental threat. It took a couple days of traveling on the road to get there, which included stopping at a restaurant in which many people were talking about this outlawing of WILDing. I overheard them talking about trying to get the key, too. One person objected, saying it was impossible. I leaned in and said something like, "Excuse me for overhearing, but I'm going to get the key back, too. If we all work together we just might be able to do it. I can do a few tricks with a computer; if we're fast, I can get us in there and back out just in time to escape the guards." It was a deal, so we all piled up in a van and finished the trek to D. C., where a special facility had been created for the key. There was a huge mob everywhere protesting, but no one paid attention to them. Some tried to climb the barbed wire fence that surrounded the facility, but either found it too painful or were knocked down by one of the guards. By hacking into their computer system, I unlocked a couple doors for my little team to get inside with. The mob turned out to be an excellent distraction. I went in one door while the others from my team went through the other. I had barely gotten inside when massive guard dogs started chasing after me. I continued to run, but with each corner came more dogs, barking loud enough to get the guards' attention over the mob's noise. They very nearly captured me, but somehow I made it back outside and into the midst of the mob where they couldn't find me. By nightfall the mob had fallen apart to just a handful of tired protesters, and me. But finally, I saw the rest of my team escaping. It looked like they had the key.

Then I woke up briefly, before falling back asleep.
The second dream was a lot hazier...for one thing, it included bits and pieces of the first dream, but eventually worked out to me being back at home, only my home was different. Each room was vastly expanded so that it was a mansion. I saw on a newspaper that I had been rewarded a large sum for my part in getting the key to WILDing back. "Well, I guess they did it." I thought. As I walked into the next room, I saw on the TV that the president (though it was a dream character; not the real president) had been impeached because of his actions against WILDing and a man with a surname of Cielvichev (pronounced SEE-uhl-veh-chev) had risen to the presidency in his place. It was good news; this Cielvichev was the kind of person that I would support, and besides, he had restored WILDing to everyone.

After this it's kind of hazy. I didn't know what to do with all the money I had, and somehow I came across this broken family made up of a single mom and her four kids. They somehow were in trouble with the government too, and as I got more involved, I ended up being able to pay off debts and use my reward money to give them their lives back as much as possible. Besides that I remember having a Honda that could turn invisible, and we rode in it to a movie theater to see a dramatization of the story of how my team of guys and I had gotten the key to WILDing back.

Then I woke up. I was kind of disappointed that I hadn't gone lucid when I had come so close so many times, and overall just had a half-sense of being asleep without ever being quite conscious enough to act on it.

I plan on WILDing this afternoon if I find time. I guess we'll see if I can do something better then.

Wow, I really should have elaborated on my notes waaaay sooner today. Got busy and totally forgot about keeping my DJ updated. Now most of the dream is lost on me. So not only did I have terrible recall to begin with (only 1 dream this time, and not lucid) but most of that is hazy now

I was driving...from the back seat. For some reason I refused to sit up front, so I was leaning forward in my Honda Pilot and trying to steer with one hand, stretching myself about as far as I could. To get it going, I had to lean down and push the pedal with my hand until I got up to speed, and then I'd steer for a while. Any sort of sharp turn was impossible, and I was causing a ton of chaos on the roads. Several times I thought I was going to be in a head-on collision, but the other driver would swerve and slow down just in the nick of time. "I'm such a horrible driver! How did this happen? I didn't used to be a bad driver! What's going on?" I thought. Suddenly, my sister appeared in the car next to me and she said: "Why not try riding up front?" Automagically, I found myself zip through the air and into the front seat. Suddenly I could drive again. (fancy that ) But wait, there's more outrageous happenings! When I got home, I started complaining about how my sister had been so distracting and talked to me when I needed to concentrate and started pinning the fault for my horrible driving on her! Then I woke up.

What a positively stupid dream...good for laughs, I suppose, but I wasn't satisfied with that. When I woke up, it was 6:30...not 5:21, as my alarm was set for. (Seriously...5:21am is my perfect WBTB time.) Still, I decided to try a WILD, even though it was late. This was the first time I had the time to WILD long enough to actually get into a dream, so I went through all the crazy stuff from the tingles to the hallucinations to the voices. Interestingly, I found it very enjoyable this time, rather than slightly disturbing or even scary. Never did reach a dream, though, since I just woke up from my last REM for the night...

- Lucid dreaming epic fail...

I think my alarm is broken. It didn't wake me up again last night, and I made sure to have it somewhere where I would hear it. There's no way I could sleep through THAT alarm twice...it's just too loud.

Since there was no WBTB again, and I've been heavily relying on it, there was also no real LD. I did have a continuous dream that seemed to last all night, but I lost most of it the moment I woke up.

I went to school one day, feeling very confident. I recall having been there before and feeling it was all intimidating and unfamiliar, but something was different about me this time. This time I knew that I could control everything, so I was not afraid of anything or anyone. It wasn't really lucidity, though, since I didn't fully know I was dreaming. I just knew I could control the dream. As I walked to class, I passed a group of girls who were chatting by some lockers. One of them glanced at me as I walked by, and her face caught my eye. It was Claire Bennet (from the Heroes TV show, for those of you who don't know). "Oh cool, so I'm not the only one here with powers." I thought. Rather than be in awe at Claire's ability like everyone else, I just said "Hey, Claire" as I passed by, as if she were an old friend. I could hear the other girls laugh, then say, "Does he know what you can do?" Puzzled, Claire replied, "I don't know...there's something different about him. Something...special." I went into class and sat down. The room was empty other than me. Only a few moments later the other students started coming in. Claire grabbed a seat next to me and leaned over. "Hey," she said. "Can we talk at lunch?" "Sure." Next thing I remember we were talking at lunch. I can't remember what exactly we said, but the basic idea of it was that Claire asked if I had any special 'ability' and I told her that I knew what she could do and that I too could do some special things. We both thought it was nice to have someone the same age that could understand what it was like to be 'special'. Back in class, all of a sudden, alarms went off, government agents burst into the building, searching for something. Claire pulled me out of my chair and down low, in the corner of the room. "Was anyone listening to us talk at lunch?" She asked. "I don't know..." suddenly it was like I was seeing lunch again, only from an omniscient perspective. I looked around and saw someone watching us and listening from a short distance. "Yes!" I said. "I just saw him." "They're coming for us! You have to do something!" "Do? Like what?" "Anything!" She pleaded. "You can control whatever you want to! You have to do something before they find us here!" Just then, the SWAT-like agents burst into our classroom. By impulse, I teleported Claire and myself out of there, to some other place that I don't remember.

I lost even partial lucidity then, and went back to just normal dreaming for a long time. However, I can't remember anything else. My dream recall is really getting bad!

Had one very vivid dream recall that may actually have been two...I can't remember if I had the first part, woke up, and then went back to sleep, or had them both and then woke up. Either way, though I could name a lot of details, since the concepts are fairly basic and I'm in a hurry right now, I'll only list the basic concepts here.

There was a carnival coming to town. Everyone was talking about how amazing it was and how we all needed to go. In anticipation (and inspiration) for it, I built some contraptions of my own and ran a little 'carnival' in my basement. Some of them worked, others...not so much. But the sideshow-like machines were still fairly well received by my friends, though I considered them to be a failure.

Perhaps I woke up here, or maybe it was later. Either way, there was a short time lapse.

I was at the carnival, and enjoying it very much, when a couple really tall and heavy guys ambushed me and put a bag over my head. I got pushed and shoved and tossed and turned, and then eventually they pulled the bag off. I found myself standing naked in front of a bunch of tarps laid on the ground. Crowds had gathered and formed walls on either side of the narrow tarps and my captors stood behind me, so there was no chance of running. It wouldn't have mattered if I could, though, since they pushed me down onto the tarps and watched as I slid away, to everyone's uproarious laughter. I could feel some kind of oil on the tarps, and rubbed all over me as well. I heard one person in the crowd laugh that I was covered in 'hog oil', but what that is I don't know. What I do know is that it was very slippery, and I couldn't get up or stop myself from sliding. People in the crowd pushed me along, and whenever I got to a corner in the tarps, they'd start me sliding down the next one, laughing the whole way. I was incredibly angry, so rather than flail around and do no good, I stopped and let them do their deeds for a minute until I was able to figure out a plan; what direction was I spinning on the tarp, how much tarp was there left, how fast was I going, etc. When my mental calculations were complete, I thrust my hands back and kicked my legs in the air, performing a kip-up. It knocked oil everywhere and got some people to clear out of the way, not to mention get me off my back, but the tarp was so slick that when I tried to walk I went right back down again. I rolled over to the clearing I had created in the crowd and again tried to kip-up. I was close to getting to make a mad dash for it, but then the burly guys knocked me a good one on the head and knocked me out.

Horrible dream for a Christmas night...of course that would be the most vivid one I've had for days now! Hopefully I'll be able to get back to lucid dreaming very soon! I'm really getting tired of this dry spell...

Semi-successfully WILD/EILDed this afternoon, for a nap. Used "The_Ultimate_Lucid_Induction.mp3" as my aural assistant. Came VERY close to fully entering the dream state, but there was a flaw with looping that particular MP3 during a WILD: at more than one point, the voice would not blend with the music and this difference would wake me up. Therefore, though it very successfully induced several different dream scenes, each only lasted for a few seconds, never fully encompassing my field of vision, before the song would reach a point that would jerk me out and back into the blackness of my eyelids. They were very definitely legitimate dreams, though! I would have kept on trying; each dream lasted a tiny bit longer than the last; it seemed that eventually my mind would have been able to tune out the song and finish off the WILD. However, all of a sudden, my eyes just opened of their own accord. I didn't want them to, I didn't try to make them, they just did. I thought maybe I was in a false awakening, so I reality checked, and discovered that I really was awake. Really odd situation...

Anyway, getting that close with a lucid dream inducing MP3 is encouraging. Perhaps I'll find a better one for me or be able to edit the one I used today so that it loses the parts that wake me up.

Woke up and forgot my dreams too quickly to write them down. Should have written some simple notes...I remembered the dreams for plenty long to write them down, but I had to go to church, so unfortunately my dreams got lost this time

I tried to WILD again this afternoon, without aural aid, but rather keeping my mind focused by going "[breath in]...1...[breath out]...I'm dreaming...[breath in]...2...[breath out]...I'm dreaming" and so on and visualising the numbers and letters of the words. It was working, and I was having a ton of side effects (which I thought of as a good thing, since recently I've been having very little, proving how far away I was to getting it right)...when suddenly, several noises erupted in my house, caused by the TV being turned on in the livingroom, cooking being started in the kitchen, etc. which woke me up immediately. I didn't move or open my eyes, but the focus was lost, the side effects gone, and even though I kept trying, it was far too loud for me to succeed, and even if I got earplugs or something I'd be moving and thus exiting the attempt, therefore I called it quits again. Yes, I did reality check to ensure that I wasn't in a false awakening.

I got closer, though! Soon I'm going to get this WILDing right again!

Had too busy of a day to write down any dreams when I woke up, and they left me before I could write them down some other time

I determined to WILD. Absolutely determined. I set my alarm in case of failure on the first try, set aside any care for getting any sleep, and got in bed.

First WILD attempt (midnight): Reached full SP by doing the counting method, but drifted off to sleep rather than remain conscious. My dad (who works for the government) apparently stood against everyone else in a major decision. And now they were trying to put him away for it. So he came home one day, told us to pack up whatever we could in the back of our car, and then leave as quickly as possible. Unfortunately, just when we were about done packing, I noticed a camera in our garage door code box. "Wait!" I shouted to someone who was about to walk right by it. I was too late. I ducked behind the car as I heard the camera activate an alarm and a hidden turret, which promptly destroyed whoever it was that walked by. We wasted no more time, but jumped in the car and pulled off, leaving everything else behind. It went alright at first, but eventually the police came after us, and we had to split up. I'm not sure where we got the second car from, but we suddenly had two, so we took separate ways with the hopes of spreading the cops thin and making it possible for us to escape.

Second WILD attempt (5:21am): Woke up to my alarm at 5:21am and tried to WBTB WILD. Again, soon after hitting full SP, I lost consciousness and fell asleep. This time I was in a dream similar to my first WILD experience. I jumped from place to place without trying to, first playing Halo 3 with a friend at his house, then chatting on facebook with another friend on a laptop in my kitchen, and then to my bed. False awakening...and it was all so real I never once realized I was dreaming, nor did I think to reality check. I would have noticed if something was out of order, but I had 10 normally-formed fingers that stayed that way, there were no flying turtles or anything like that. Each time I jumped through space and time, I simply accepted the new location as my present state of existence and didn't give it a thought. Eventually, though, I did figure out one abnormality...I could still hear my friend talking about our game of Halo 3, even though I'd left that far behind! I woke up for real when I realized that, and found myself still in full SP!

Third WILD attempt (time unknown): Rather than break it by opening my eyes or trying to move, I just used my consciousness to finish off a WILD, and sure enough, within moments, I felt earthquake-like tremors in my bed that then seemed to rip me out of my body and into another, as I shot towards a light in the darkness at a magnificent speed. The force of being shot towards the light was so strong my arms were pinned to my sides. "It's working! I'm doing it!" I thought. I don't know if that killed the dream or what, but when I hit the light, I wasn't put into a dream scene with my dream body, but just stuck into a bodiless darkness. I tried to form a dream scene, but none came. Probably too quickly, I gave up, and woke myself up.

Fourth WILD attempt (7:38am): Encouraged from being so close, I tried again, but this time couldn't even reach SP. I concluded that there was no more use in trying; REM was done for the night and there was just no way I was going to succeed at this point.

But I got REALLY close that time! Sooner or later I've just GOT to succeed at WILDing again!

Fell asleep too quickly to even reach SP! So disappointing...dream recall was bad, too. Felt like the dream itself was long, but the instant I woke up all I remembered clearly enough to put in words was driving around in Florida with my sister in the passenger seat, no directions, no map, and trying to find my relatives' house. Eventually I saw the ocean, and was able to use it as a reference point to get to the house, only when we went inside, it was a huge, really nice building, rather than a little house. After that it's entirely unclear. I remember little images from here and there, but nothing I could logically put together or explain in this journal.

Tonight, I really can't fall asleep when I WILD!

No dream recall again, WILD's failed...

Sorry guys, I'm really having a bad dry spell right now!

I'm going to try upping my dosage of daily reality checks and see if that helps anything; maybe I'll be able to DILD again.

Well, I feel stupid! But at least I had a couple dreams last night!

I went to bed with headphones and an MP3 player set to a lucid dreaming MP3 called 'Lucid Spike', which begins with a 20-minute silence to allow time for falling asleep.

I'm not exactly sure what happened, then. I had a dream, in which I was going around in this huge building that a bunch of large, square rooms. At the middle of each end of the square was a hallway that led another such room. Down each hallway was a door on either side that led to a smaller conference room with no more hallways. Everyone I know or have ever known was in that building. I was going through all those rooms, finding people that in real life I need to talk to, accomplishing business with them, and then moving on to the next person. Suddenly, I realized something. "What the heck? Where'd these headphones come from? I didn't put these on!" And I woke up.

At least, I thought I did. I was laying in bed, with the headphones still on and all, as it should have been. But I didn't reality check, and I didn't realize it was a false awakening. I just tried to be still and get SP.

Then I woke up for real, and the headphones were gone. I was like, "Ok, that's weird, I was wearing headphones, and both them and the MP3 player are nowhere. This must be a dream!" So I reality checked and was disappointed to find myself to be awake. That didn't solve the headphone situation, though. I leaned over my bed and found them to be on the floor. When I saw that, I suddenly remembered waking up and for some reason I threw it all off the side of the bed. I wish I knew why I did that!

But for whatever reason, I ditched the MP3 player, which was supossed to help me become lucid, before it could even play anything, and then had a false awakening in which the presence of the MP3 player made me think it was real and not go lucid!

Figure that one out...

The dry spell is broken!!!

Yesterday I made sure to reality check all day long, and before bed I told myself a million times "I WILL lucid dream!" and "I WILL reality check!" but I didn't feel very good about it. I mean, in past dreams, I've though in the dream, "I should probably reality check...nah, I'm sure this is real." I needed something more; a sure dream sign I could use to force myself to reality check. Then it hit me, and I repeated to myself a million times, "The moment my eyes open, or I realize that they are opened, I WILL reality check!" Then I unintentionally practiced it myself. I opened my eyes (by mistake), and followed through with my saying. I felt good about it, and soon was asleep.

My dream began quite long, I was in a place that looked a lot like 'the real world' from The Matrix. Unfortunately, I think it went too long, eating up all the REM that would better have been lucid. I'm not sure what happened in this place, but I had a mission, and I remember someone handing me a device like a large thermometer, only it was not for measuring the temperature. I walked through a doorway and suddenly found myself in my room. "Oh! My eyes are open. I need to reality check." I was sure all of this was real, but I pinched my nose, breathed in, and was shocked to find that I was dreaming! "Yes! I'm lucid!" I said, throwing aside the device. This time I got down to business, without wasting any time celebrating. I tried to fly. Initially I did little more than hover, but then, remembering the Matrix theme to my dream, I told myself, "There is no spoon," reminding myself that none of this actually existed, and I could affect it how I wished. That got me up to the ceiling, but of course that wasn't good enough for me. I looked out the window, and decided I would go right through it. "There is no spoon." I flew right for it, preparing to fly right outside, and...SMACK! I hit the window and was knocked to the ground. It kind of hurt. But I got back up and tried again...slowly. I just stuck out my thumb and pressed against the cold pane of glass. "There is no spoon." Slowly, as I convinced myself of the window's non-existence, my thumb pressed through the glass, until I could reach my entire hand through without a problem. I watched as the glass in the window rippled like water around my arm. Then I pulled my hand out, and jumped through the window, flying as I had originally intended. Unfortunately, I never once stabilized the dream, my REM was running low, and I flew too fast. Therefore, I no more than glimpsed the outside before I woke up, reality checked, and found it to be real.

Although it was a short lucid, it was very significant, seeing it broke my dry spell and I made headway in getting around my mind's strict laws of physics without forcing control!

I remember having at least 6 different dreams last night, however, most of them were very unclear, and upon waking up I was left with only a hazy image of what went on. I remember two pretty well, though. Neither of them were lucid, but I expect this is due to the fact that I threw off my usual WBTB schedule by trying to wake up at 4:21am instead of 5:21am and thus allow more time for lucid dreaming. I learned that that was a bad idea, as it produced no lucid dream, and also that I don't need more time for dreaming, as I was able to enter REM well into 8:00 this morning. Obviously the thing that has made my DILD's be short is the things I do in them that tend to wake me up.

Anyway, on to the dreams.

In the first dream, things began pretty normal--just going about one day with some dream characters that I seemed to know as long-time friends. When we passed by the neighborhood park, however, I saw something strange coming out of it. It was a giant hedgehog that was missing its back legs! "What in the world is THAT?" I exclaimed, pointing. "Oh," replied one of the DC's, "that's one of the flying hedgehogs. Don't get too close, or they'll..." the DC was too late. I had already gotten too close, and it leaped off the ground and flew right into me, knocking me down. I decided I wanted to get out of there, so I turned and ran, the DC's shortly behind me. Suddenly, we were all in this sandy place, like a small canyon, with some buttes scattered throughout. Wooden beams had been laid down to connect the buttes together from the top. How anyone got up there in the first place I'm not sure. But we didn't pay much attention to the scenery; we just ran around the corner of one big rock and ducked. Peaking around the corner, I saw that the single flying hedgehog had alerted his buddies, and now millions of them were flying through the air in our direction, all of them missing their back legs. "We're done for." one DC whispered. I turned around and saw a Warthog (the Halo vehicle, not the animal) across the way from us. "Maybe not..." I said. This one girl DC and I ran across to it. I climbed in the front, and she took the turret in the back. At that moment I remember thinking it was kind of funny for a girl to be taking the turret, but she had some kind of warpaint on her face, so I figured she had probably done this before. Apparently she had, because she was a pretty darn good shot! I drove that warthog out there in the midst of all the flying hedgehogs and as I ran the low-flying ones down, she picked off the rest of them with that turret. It was pretty intense...I saw the muzzle flashes like real light, felt the heat from the turret...everything! I guess we won that battle, because I never died or anything, hedgehog bodies were everywhere, and I woke up.

The second dream came soon after that...my 4:21 alarm had not gone off yet, so I didn't try to stay awake.

I was at some peaceful lake, in a valley, the only sign of inhabitance being a small lake-house nearby. I was talking to that girl DC that I had fought with, and according to her, we totally destroyed the hedgehogs, but one of them had flown into my head as a final move of desperation and knocked me out. I had been unconscious until that point.

I don't remember anything else, save for a few images from the other dreams I had that are too vague to even put into words, really. Tonight I'm definitely not going to play with the WBTB time, since I know that 5:21am works for me. I'll also be sure to think more about weird things happening in my dreams as a sign that could make me go lucid. Flying hedgehogs missing their back legs...why the heck didn't that make me think I was dreaming?

Again I find myself in a situation where I recall dreaming several times; at least 3 this time. Unfortunately, because I didn't stay awake long enough to think to take down notes, all but one is lost on me. And that one is, again, so strange that I'm annoyed with myself for not realizing it was a dream in the first place!

The dream I remember clearly was one of the strangest things I've seen in a very long time. I went to Walmart, picked up a copy of "Super Smash Bros. Brawl" for Wii, and then drove back home. But then, when I walked inside, several dream characters (none of them people from real life) were there, and waiting for the game. We went to play it...by going upstairs and putting the disk in the shower! No kidding. Instantly, platforms and contraptions appeared in the shower, and a bunch of pieces (which were divided into groups like heads, torsos, feet) appeared on the sink. Each person playing the game put the pieces together to form a really odd kind of animal thing. All of the animals were remote-controlled, and we put them down into the shower, which was now a SSBB level. And so we controlled the animals and made them fight that way. As we played, the shower kind of faded away and we saw forests or waterfalls or any number of things moving past the platforms as we made our robotic animals smash each other to pieces...literally. I also noticed that the remotes we were using never seemed to stay the same...every time I'd look down at mine it would be totally different. It didn't seem to affect my skill level, though. After what seemed like hours, it was down to just me and one other DC; everyone else had been KO'd. The DC hit 'pause' and the shower came back. She said the animals needed to rest.

While they rested, we went to a different store and shopped around for I-don't-know-what...everyone split up into groups of two or three and it was a bit difficult to find them all, so it seemed to take another hour or so. Whoever had anything to purchase did so and then we left. Back at the house, the animals were still there, and interestingly, neither the animals nor the remotes had changed since I last saw them. As I had gotten there first, though, I made some last-minute modifications to my animal with the spare parts that were lying around. It ended up looking like a crayfish with a porcupine body, cow legs, and robotic arms. When everyone came in, they commented about how ugly my animal looked, but I was apparently pretty confident in how it would perform, because it didn't bother me.

We put the animals back into the shower, which resumed its state of platforms and scrolling backgrounds, and duked it out with the animals on the final round of the competition.

I woke up before I could see who won

Was up later than usual last night and did not want to lose any more sleep, so I only put minimal effort into a MILD, which did not work successfully. I had a few dreams, but I can't construct anything meaningful out of what I remember of them. Just an image here, an image there. Except I do remember that I dreamed quite clearly that we had two kinds of juice in the refrigerator, so I was a bit surprised when I woke up to find only one kind in there...then I realized it had been a dream