Hi! It's been two weeks now that I began writing my dreams in a journal. I can recall between one and four dreams a night, and two of them featured short lucid episodes! That's encouraging, but I am baffled by the contents of my journal. I am supposed to look for dreamsigns, those recurrent elements which are specific to the dream world. Perusing the stories in my journal, I could spot about twenty recurring places, situations, actions, objects, characters or feelings that occur frequently in my dreams. Most of them are ordinary things (other people's homes, books and libraries, computers, transportation esp. trains, schools and colleges, watching movies, corridors and stairs, bathrooms and toilets, clothes, beaches, nighttime, my parents, talking about my current situation, my dream journal) and a few are more unusual (death and macabre stuff, severe disease or curse, travel, magic).
What's dreamike about the stories aren't these ingredients themselves, but the way I feel toward them and how I relate to them: they feel preposterous, ugly, unholy, sometimes downright threatening, and I invariably fail in dealing with them. For example, other people's homes often feel distasteful and unwelcoming, and refer me to my homelessness in the dream world (I'm always on the run, lost, or living on the streets in my dreams). Another example, books: often of bad literary taste, I often want to read them but never have enough time to do so. I also have a hard time with trains in my dreams: I lose my way and take a wrong train, I am unable to climb on them because doors close before me, steps are too high, or some force holds me back, I fall on railroads and die crushed, and so on. Well, you see the pattern.
So, what's a dreamsign in my case? Any of those items, or the failure/humiliation/revulsion associated with them? Both?
(By the way, sorry for the bad English syntax.)
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