Childhood nightmare? or a preview of the future?

[sciascia]

As a young child my father worked long hours in the coal mine. Because of lack of sleep or whatever he was always rough on my brother and I. I always feared him and never went against his word. My mother was always the protector and she somewhat favored me more than my brother when it came to getting yelled at. My father also had an easy side...he also favored me more than my brother and he always asked me if we were still pals at the end of every night. Now tradgicly when I was in the 3rd grade, my father was killed in a mine related accident. When the told my brother and I everyone in the room began to cry... but I didn't. What does this all have to do with a dream you ask? well heres where I believe it ties in. Durring the time my father was alive I would have these terrible nightmares about him and my mother. I would dream of this powerful force crushing this small yellow orb that I understood as goodness and happyness. The power always associated to my father in my mind. and after if would smash the orb my mother would pick it all up and try to hold it. At the time it would be smashed I would litterly go insane and scream and cry and throw myself at people trying to wake me. They would have to hold me down in the bathroom and dump water on me or show myself my reflection in the mirror. The true irony of the dreams that would occurre almost weekly was that my father died from being crushed like the orb in my dream. After my fathers death I had the dream less and less and now I don't ever have it at all. what do you all think?

[GestaltAlteration]

This is quite a complicated question to answer, but I'll give it my best. Dreams typically reflect the fealings you have in real life, for example if I was worried about somthing for weeks on end It woulde eventually bleed into my dreams, somthign tell me the fealing you have about your dad began to become integrated with your conciousness thus inducing those dreams. These events in real life and in sleep made it so you could never escape what you wanted to be free of thus making those fits Though your fathers death is tragic I honestly say the dreams were less of a preminition and more of being triggered by a tramatic event (In this case spread out over all your life) Now that he is dead there is nothing to fifill that tramatic event so your conciousness is returning to normal. Just my 2 cents, and I hope your doing well today!