Ok, so I've been writing every detail of the dreams I've recalled so I'm going to post a few dreams here from the last couple, but first, I'll talk a little bit about my incubation and meditations, feelings, etc... So for the most part I'm still new to lucid dreaming and am trying to figure out what works best for me. I've tried listening to some very quiet bineural beats for about 30 min each day, usually around 7 or 8pm. I've been laying down and relaxing my body with a breathing technique and slowly relaxing different parts of my body starting from my head down to my toes. What I've been visualizing is a beach with an overcast grey sky. I try to incorporate all my senses here as I feel like this is a great setting for it... I can feel the sand between my toes, smell the ocean, hear the waves... I like to just focus my breathing on the movement of the waves coming in and washing over my feet. When I breath in the waves go out and when I exhale they gently creep up onto the beach and wash over my feet. As I lay there I visualize a message inside a bottle washing in, and as I pick it up and examine it, it tells me that "I am dreaming" or coming across an absurdly large starfish, and upon coming across these moments I recreate the excitement of becoming lucid and doing RCs .Another time before sleep I've visualized myself in a forest, walking along a straight path lined with trees that swoop over the top and almost form a tunnel. I visualize a gate far at the end, one that I can't climb over. I tell myself that once I get to the gate I will realize I'm dreaming and fly over it. Because I sometimes lose my focus I try to add in elements that keep me in the scene, like the waves washing in, coming across varoius objects washed up that make me realize I'm dreaming, etc... For the forest one I visualized a deer guiding me towards the gate and motivating me to stay focused on my goal of reaching the end. I've also visualized berries that glow orange and yellow, that are amaziningly sweet. I tell myself when eating them that they are "lucid berries" and will help me stay focus and become lucid. Not really sure if the things I'm adding in will help but it's my form of externalizing some of my goals and painting a picture inside my head to keep me from getting bored and accidentally falling asleep. I think what I picked up in lesson two will help as I do these same visualizations before sleep, but I was doing it the wrong way around. Before I was doing my mantras and then visualizing becoming lucid and I now realize I need to visualize first, then do the mantras.
Ive also been doing lots of reality checks throughout the day and really questioning where I've been in the last few hours or how I got to where I am. I've had two dreams now in the last week where I've looked at my hands but even though I get excited and feel like I'm discovering something, I drift back into the stuff going on in my dream. I look at my hands, then look back, then after hold my nose to see if I can breathe through it. Also checking digital clocks when I'm around them. When I've been waking up from dreams I've felt pretty good and positive about being able to remember two long dreams. Getting close to becoming lucid again this week has definitely helped me stay focused and become more excited to become lucid again and complete this weeks task.
So, the last couple of dreams I've had... some are kind of weird but pretty interesting.
08-09
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[Non-lucid] I'm on this boat in the middle of an ocean, but it's actually more like a skyscraper that is spiraling like a screw. I'm on the top deck with my brother, a man and his son, a black woman, and an old man. We are sitting in these chairs on the top deck. I get up from my chair and look over the edge. The water around us is filled with these glowing/bright whirlpools, maybe 3-5 ft. across, and there are all in a perfect grid pattern. This was incredible for me and still really vivid in my memory, got really excited when I saw this. As this boat/skyscraper thing floats over the water, it spins around sinks down like a screw until the top deck is now level with the water. I trip over a chair as I try to sit back down in it while some of the water spills over the edge. I get sucked out into the water and can see everyone watching me as it rises back up, and the whirlpools throw me extremely fast across the water until I land on the edge of an island. It's weird though because then I remember going from the top deck down to the lobby and telling my mom my brother got sucked out to sea and was on an island. She didn't hear me though because we were in a lobby and this game show was going on in it. I watched it for a moment and the question was "which word is spelled wrong in this sentence?" and a man answers... its a word that starts with C I remember. Either way the next question is up and I try to tell my mom again but this time she answers some question correct and the host tells her she won a $100,000. Somehow I go from this dream to another, where I'm with a group of people and they are on some sort of field trip or adventure. We get to a house and they decide whos going in first, and it's me. I get hoisted in through some window and its really messy on the inside. I'm very nervous about getting caught. I look around briefly and leave through the front door. Walking through the front yard I'm around some girl at this point and kind of embarrassed by my legs, which are all dirty, bleeding slightly, and I'm barefoot.
08-10
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So this night I read harry potter a little before I went to bed. As I layed there I repeated to myself "Tonight I will perform a reality check and become lucid" and I visualized myself doing spells before falling asleep. Interestingly enough even though I wasn't lucid, I had a dream where I was skating at this old school in an empty parking lot and a couple of them were doing dueling with magic. I think it was wands but it could have been with just their hands? Kind of fuzzy on how it was happening but it mostly looked like how it does in the movies, kind of like flames, some were blue. THEN I notice one of my roommates walking up across this field and I leave and go with her. Then we are at her house and a few people are getting ready for a Halloween party. The rest is kind of foggy but from what I remember there were these groups of blue bugs the size of mice crawling on the ground. To get rid of them we were doing it in different ways, making them catch on fire, disappear... This was around the time when I woke up. I jotted these things down quickly and was pretty amazed that I actually was able to come pretty close to doing magic. Even though I wasn't lucid one part of my mantra did stick. I think I just placed too much visualization on this aspect but it did prove to me that I am more capable of incubation than I previously though, now I just need to focus all of that on becoming lucid and flying over a forest.
08-11
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First thing I remembered from a dream last night: Wu Tang clan all crammed into this like 1920s vintage car and rapping as they drive through all these old villages. Kind of like I was watching it as a music video. Then I remembered another dream as after a WBTB... my brother tells me he got sponsored playing video games and he has a sepearyte free internet connection so I can download anything I want (he usuaully argues with me and tells me it lags his games). Then I'm walking down the sidewalk in a city and these federal agents walk up to me and put their hands on my shoulders and are like "come with us." As I'm guided down the block all these people are taking pictures of me and flashes are going off. Then they turn a corner and there are like 10 more officers. They put me on a train with all these other kids my age, and they are asking me what I did and scoffing that it was just for pirating music. Then I find out that it was mom who called the police on me for it, and I'm just like "Why the hell did you do that, you don't even know what pirating is" since she is like a technophobe I totally should have spotted that and become lucid...
Thanks again for today's lesson Percy, should definitely help me in this weeks task. I will certainly try harder to keep more specific notes on my meditations/feelings so I can write more about that here. Thanks for reading!
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