Thread: Motley's MILD-1 workbook

Nice!

Make sure to track this every day. Write down your dreams or provide a link to your journal. Record feelings and thoughts during waking and before going to bed, specially if you wake in the middle of the night. Record your MILD attempts, meditations, etc.

Ok, here is going to be a post from what I remember. Luckily it was only four days, but unluckily is that it was still four days so hard to remember.

I distinctly remember Thursday's dreams, I'm not sure why, though. The first excerpt was Me playing Fallout: Vegas or whatever it is called. I am not sure why, as I played Fallout 3 a while ago but in the dream it was like an advertisement for the game, with a young female voice narrating the pros and cons of the game while someone was shooting some robot... Weird..

Later that night, (I was sleeping over at a friend's house) I had a false awakening. The reals ituation was that the guy had to get up at 9:30 for something, but in my dream it was 9:50 and we all overslept. The alarm rang on the guy's phone and everyone was panicking bbecause we had overslept. This was weird, because I saw the guy setting his alarm on an alarm clock before bed so I should have recognized this contradiction.

I woke up that morning very confused because of that false awakening dream and because I forgot that I was at someone else's house.

My feeling for Thursday were generally good, though some parts were bad. I saw a few friends that I haven't seen in a long time and we picked up my best friend for the weekend, so that was positive, and the only negative twas that since I hadn't been home in a few days, I was not feeling fresh because of lack of fresh clothes and shower.




For Friday, I remember I went to sleep really late and slept like a log jsut before waking uyp early. I do not remember any dreams, only taht I was having a really good dream right beofre waking up. I woke up disoriented and unhappy because this good dream was interrupted.

Friday was an angry day for me, because I guess mainly the fact that I had not gotten enough sleep. I was really happy int he morning because I went to an amusement park with two people that I highly value, but then things turned sour because we were all kind of grumpy. then things picked up a bit because of some events that happened. Unfortunately, after that, some more things happened that made me shake with anger and I very much regret that part of the day.




For today (Saturday) I also went to sleep late and woke kind of early. I do not remember any dreams right now because I did not have my journal handy and I was pur ont he spot because we had to do a lot very quickly. I cannot remember any feelings either.

Today was a very positive day, because I spent the whole day with the people I value most, because it was my Birthday celebration and that is always a happy time. In the middle of the day I started feeling alittle down because I was tired. But the start and the end of the day were really happy and joyful...

I will go to sleep now and remember my dreams.

Ok, here is going to be a post from what I remember. Luckily it was only four days, but unluckily is that it was still four days so hard to remember.

I distinctly remember Thursday's dreams, I'm not sure why, though. The first excerpt was Me playing Fallout: Vegas or whatever it is called. I am not sure why, as I played Fallout 3 a while ago but in the dream it was like an advertisement for the game, with a young female voice narrating the pros and cons of the game while someone was shooting some robot... Weird..

Later that night, (I was sleeping over at a friend's house) I had a false awakening. The reals ituation was that the guy had to get up at 9:30 for something, but in my dream it was 9:50 and we all overslept. The alarm rang on the guy's phone and everyone was panicking bbecause we had overslept. This was weird, because I saw the guy setting his alarm on an alarm clock before bed so I should have recognized this contradiction.

I woke up that morning very confused because of that false awakening dream and because I forgot that I was at someone else's house.

My feeling for Thursday were generally good, though some parts were bad. I saw a few friends that I haven't seen in a long time and we picked up my best friend for the weekend, so that was positive, and the only negative twas that since I hadn't been home in a few days, I was not feeling fresh because of lack of fresh clothes and shower.




For Friday, I remember I went to sleep really late and slept like a log jsut before waking uyp early. I do not remember any dreams, only taht I was having a really good dream right beofre waking up. I woke up disoriented and unhappy because this good dream was interrupted.

Friday was an angry day for me, because I guess mainly the fact that I had not gotten enough sleep. I was really happy int he morning because I went to an amusement park with two people that I highly value, but then things turned sour because we were all kind of grumpy. then things picked up a bit because of some events that happened. Unfortunately, after that, some more things happened that made me shake with anger and I very much regret that part of the day.




For today (Saturday) I also went to sleep late and woke kind of early. I do not remember any dreams right now because I did not have my journal handy and I was pur ont he spot because we had to do a lot very quickly. I cannot remember any feelings either.

Today was a very positive day, because I spent the whole day with the people I value most, because it was my Birthday celebration and that is always a happy time. In the middle of the day I started feeling alittle down because I was tired. But the start and the end of the day were really happy and joyful...

I will go to sleep now and remember my dreams.

Oh and before sleeping tonight I am listening to ninja's subliminal lucide while repeating "I'm Dreraming"
Just thought that may help to know.

OOOOOOKKKKK for today we have muchg better recall results, but no lucidity.

After ninja's subliminal lucid, I always get the most recall. I now realize that most of the things i recalled were in fact dreams, but during the night i thought they were just daydreams from when i was trying to get to sleep because i awoke many times during the night. However, I did write down one big piece of a dream, two things i remember from prervious dreams and I have stuff to say on my emotions during the day. So, here we go without further ado.

I definitely remember swimming related events and something with a railroad or trains.

I completely remember one piece of one dream. I was in Ukraine at my grandmother's house (Ukraine and my childhood time there occur frequently in my dreams). It was dinner. I waqs sitting in the kitchen in my normal spot watching the news. they were talking about being nice to teachers. My grandmother occasionally walked by while speaking on the phone. I had just finished dinner which was buckwheat and liver. I got up to get sweets from the sweets cupboard and the urge fell over me to sample everything. they had the "lobster candies", "red poppyseed", "cows", and waffles wrapped int he wrapper for a russian chocolate and cookies. as i was eating this I woke up and wrote it down immediately. it was 5:59, approximately 6 hours after I wnt to sleep.

I chanted "I'm dreaming" before falling asleep and when i woke up to write, I forgot to chant it and do the whole mild procedure while going to sleep, so no luucidity last night.

My day was very positive, we went to the city and rode segways to show my visiting friend the city. then we went and had dinner at a brwewery. Good day, very happy.

OOOOOOKKKKK for today we have muchg better recall results, but no lucidity.

After ninja's subliminal lucid, I always get the most recall. I now realize that most of the things i recalled were in fact dreams, but during the night i thought they were just daydreams from when i was trying to get to sleep because i awoke many times during the night. However, I did write down one big piece of a dream, two things i remember from prervious dreams and I have stuff to say on my emotions during the day. So, here we go without further ado.

I definitely remember swimming related events and something with a railroad or trains.

I completely remember one piece of one dream. I was in Ukraine at my grandmother's house (Ukraine and my childhood time there occur frequently in my dreams). It was dinner. I waqs sitting in the kitchen in my normal spot watching the news. they were talking about being nice to teachers. My grandmother occasionally walked by while speaking on the phone. I had just finished dinner which was buckwheat and liver. I got up to get sweets from the sweets cupboard and the urge fell over me to sample everything. they had the "lobster candies", "red poppyseed", "cows", and waffles wrapped int he wrapper for a russian chocolate and cookies. as i was eating this I woke up and wrote it down immediately. it was 5:59, approximately 6 hours after I wnt to sleep.

I chanted "I'm dreaming" before falling asleep and when i woke up to write, I forgot to chant it and do the whole mild procedure while going to sleep, so no luucidity last night.

My day was very positive, we went to the city and rode segways to show my visiting friend the city. then we went and had dinner at a brwewery. Good day, very happy.

Excellent work Motley! Try to chant "I lucid dream" It work for a few students and they turn lucid.

Nothing else to add. I see you read the log and followed the advice, good one!

Keep positive and focused and lucidity will come.

Hehe I actually did not read the chat until now, so I was posting hoping taht I did the right thing. Going to sleep now and I will write downa ny daydreams or tother things that pop into my mind at night so i can remember them all. Again listened to the subliminal because it has never failed to give me a amazing recall even though its not the recall track. I will mantra tonight.

Ok so last night I actually didn't go to sleep right away after my reading the forums and listening to ninja's track so I had a lot less sucess. I woke up with horrible dream recall. I guess it is improving a little because I stillr ecalled a few tidbits and feelings.

On my way to sleepw hen I was laying in bed I kept saying a mantra and trying to believe it and trying to be happy.

I definitely remember in one of my dreams I was flying and doing it badly... I think it was in a trainyard and it was very nonvivid and gray if I remember correctly.

Another part of another dream was me going into our fridge for apple juice, (our apple juice wasnt in the fridge when I checked before bed) and then I found it but it morphed into something else, I dont remember exactly, but it may have been a bitter ketchup... I felt really really disappointed int hat dream becausea of this failure.

I also remember I was rushing somewhere in a dream but I do not remember where or when.




I once again had many of those "daydreams" that I was sure were happening as I was falling asleep throughout the night after awakenings so I didnt write them down, but I think they may have been dreams since it happened on two consecutive nights in a row... I'm really confused what these are. It feels like when I am falling asleep after writing in the inght in my journal, that I get these images or movies in y head as I am falling sleep. I get these when I'm sick and sleep bad, Its like I cant get to sleep so I see these images and its realy boring... I'm really not sure if fthese are dreams or not. I will try to write down these things in my journal tonight.

I will have little time to journal in the morning because I awm going to swim practice very early.


Today was not a very good day, I wwas extremely bored and we were quarreling with my friend. Then things picked up when I went out to swim practttice. I havent swum in a week and it felt soooo good to swim again that literally I felt happy everywhere to the very depths of my soul. it was a very big positive lift and when I came home we stopped fighting and everything was good.


Ok, hoping for lucidity tonight and I'm going to bed right away after viewing DV

Don't worry.

Events on waking triggers better or worse recall/ lucidity. Keep up the good work!

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Ok! Today i have a lot to report, as I actually recorded my "daydreams/hallucinations' because I really do think they are dreams and I just didn't know it.

Before bed yesterday I posted this stuff and looked over dv and said my mantra, but no lucidity yet :\. I woke many times at night and even though I had swim practice in the morning I actually woke in the middle of a dream so I recalled most of it. Plus, jumping into the pool triggered a memory. Here we go!

I think in one of the dreams I was riding a bulldozer. When I woke up I had that picture in my mind for some reason. My next dream or segment that I recall was a very stressful one. I was deeply worried and anxious in that dream. The setting was a swim meet and this was weird because all of our summer meets ended a few weeks ago. Also, I hadn't swum in the past week and a half due to having a friend over so I was really worried when I found myself standing at the start of the pool and I was really worried because there was a big crowd on both ides of the pool and I had no idea what I was swimming and in general was scared because I hadn't practiced for a long time. The pool seemed like I've seen it before, yet there was something odd about it and I had in fact never seen something like this pool. The dream was very vivid and colorful and every single detail was perfect.

Another excerpt was a rather scary one. I could make things evil, and evil meant for some reason that they turned into a red and purple checkered design on the exterior and on the interior they were just bad. In the dream I turned a baby "evil" and then lots of people shunned me and I was really scared.
I think from the same dream, though I may be mistaken, I saw a clip from a movie I was watching in the dream. The clip reminded me of saw or the ring. in the clip, a girl was tortured because for some reason her arms hurt and it hurt to breathe. I was scared there too.

Another excerpt, possibly form the same dream as above, I was in a car garage underground, and a mafia person walks up to me and tells me to steal an "evil" car like fromt he previous dream. I do not recall any emotions form this, but I remember making some kind of connection between that and Grand Theft Auto 4.

Another excerpt that I remember was my friend's (that's visiting) mom came and dropped his sister off and just left, though they all live in Canada and it would have been illogical for that to happen. I don't know why I didnt catch this. My friend was very upset in the dream.


I will make an intermission here, because this is when I woke up and went to swim. When I came back, I took a three ohur nap. I do not remember the second dream I had in those three hours, but I woke up after about 1.5 hours and wrote a dream down...


My school was stationed at a ski resort, or very near one. I would like to point out that I have a lot of dreams about school, so It may be a dreamsign. Anyways, me and three strangers won a contest. One of the strangers I think had a buzzcut and looked like a criminal or something like that, one of them was a guy that you would find in a nightclub. and one woman, of about 26 years old. Our prize was meeting the american Idol judges and Lady Gaga. These celebrities were evidently really horny, as they were trying to seduce all of us. I remember crawling through some crawlspaces with them and going down the slide as they all sat on our laps. It was going to be a sex dream, but I decided to go bqack home which was really close (damnit, a chance with lady gaga missed heh) anyways, I exited the school, which by the way always looks different in my dreams, and somehow really quickly got down the bigger portion of the ski hill upon which our school stood. I saw a few girls I know from school and one of them had become unrealistically fat. A few girls from my school rushed over for some reason, yet everyone except for the fat girl were my pet peeves and people I didn't like so I got really angry in the dream. somehow, i spawned skis on my feet and got downhill by skiing, though it was a realy steep slope. on either side of the hill were obstacle courses and other dangers. the dream skipped ahead to me entering my house. there, my little stepbrother greeted me and we played either a racing game or a strategy game, i dont remember, on the computer. the floor was really wet from he snow.


Theres my wall of remembered dreams.

Today overall the first part was happy, nothing really happened. Then, when I got home I discovered what my visiting friend really thinks of me and america and in general visitingf and this really saddened me and I don't even know if we are still friends so yeah my evening was filled with negative emotions. I am trying to stay positive before bed, though. I will get lucid very soon!

I also use ninja's subliminal lucid, I haven't used it in a while but it really helped my recall, and since then my recall has dropped. Anyway nice workbook.

gah i keep double posting accidentally

Awesome about your recall, That is mainly why I use it too.The weird part is that I use Sublucid, not SubRecall, and thanks a lot on the workbook part! Did you write this during a WBTB? Just wondering because I just noticed that is the exact time I woke up- 5:21


Without further ado, here is my day and night for the past 24 hours! (Very excited for tonight since class just finished!)

My rercall last night was very spotty and horrible. Or maybe it was good. I'm not sure if my recall last night would be considered better or worse than what I had been already recalling. Previously, I recalled small segments of dreams. Last night, I recalled an entire dream. And it wasn't fresh in my mind easy recall like I had these past days. No. It was earned with hard work and not giving up. I woke with two small segments of dreams in my mind, but I forgot one of them while I was writing the other, so I had to piece my dream together and work hard to recall the full thing, though I think I got it all. When you read this, Percy, I would like to know if last night's way was better than the previous times. Thanks in advance.

Before sleep, I did the usual routine, with listening to ninja's track and writing out my dream from the previous night and then repeating the mantra as I fell alseep. I slept very heavily and didn't get much rest, it was a very restless night, I was very upset about some things that happened during the evening. I do not remember any of the dreams that were int he first half of the night, not even small images. I only remember negative emotions.
Then, I woke up as usual- early for swim, but feeling very tired I decided not to go and went back to sleep. This is where my dream started.
It was the first day of school, and eveyone was looking for classes. (Oh my god, here is school again... Ive been dreaming about school all summer... Dream sign?) Anyways, I had a huge backpack full of stuff and my mother made me take two bags of random things that came from my room. At fist, I couldn't remember where these bags came from or why they looked so familiar, but as I sit here now I realize these were from when we remodeled my room. Eveything had to be taken out and afterwards, I had to put the contents of those bags in their normal places in my room. I should have caught that, because it happened a long time ago. Back to the dream. I had a class with a horrible teacher that I had a while back and I was dreading it. I had some other classes that I don't remember except for my old bio class from freshman year. After that, lunch came. I was with a group of people that do not go to my school but who I know from swimming (I should have caught this). The cafeteria looked different that it should be, very different. as a matter of fact, it actually had many levels and balconies protected by guard rails and the weight lifting room from the gym was in there too. (Didn't catch this in the dream). Whenit was my group of friends turn in line to actually buy food, the cafeteria lady looked at us with a guilty look and said that there was no food left. So, with the cafeteria being a weird shape/layout than usual, we stumbled upon a door that led to a parking lot that I did not recognize, but one that slightly reminded me of the one froom our local wal-mart. There was also some building that I had no idea for its purpose and what it was. However, when we entered it through a back door, we saw some pleasant office scenery and a cafeteria. we went to the cafeteria and noticed there was a McDonald's there. We happily bought food there, and I should have caught this, since i hate the food place with a passion and would never try their crap. We came backt o the school and I just dumped my food from McDonald in the trash. Lunch was over. I went to math next. I went up a flight of stairs that I remember from a very old school, not ones we have at my current school. On the way up, I remember my dream self was playing with my sleeves. I was wearing a gray hooded shirt. Math was horrible. The desks were arranged weird. The old lady teaching was terrible, old fashioned and made us raise hands and hurt people if they talked. She had a white board, but nothing was written on it. Instead one of the books standing on the marker tray of the board turned into a screen and she taught from there. I have bad vision and could not make anything out. I was very stressed right there. I wanted to get a desk for the front row, but there were none open. I looked around and saw a girl sitting with her legs up on an empty desk. I put all of my things down, balancing all my books and the bags that I had on an open desk (D"OH should ahve seen that one and gotten lucid) and I went to ask the girl for the desk. She was playing a video game on her ruler (there was a screen between the two rows of numbers) and I took the desk and crammed it to the front row, barely squeezing between other desks. After math, I left school and my dad picked me up in his Jeep wrangler. We were driving by some kind of obstacle course that Is very similar to those seen on the TV show "Wipeouut" and I got a feeling of dejavu because I have been here before in a different dream last night. it was a huge course high above comd water made of differently shaped plates of meta or something like metal that you needed to drive over to get accross. My dad hammered the gas and we literally flew over,b ut didnt stay on the finish platform for long and fell in the water. we swam in our car to an exit out of this cold water but an automatic rocket turret spotted us. before it could shooot and do some serious damage, a nearby car blew up and sent a big wave over the turret and the thing exploded. We found an exit under a bridge and there a big man was selling guns that I have seen in various war games. One of the clips for a gun was in thae shape of a touch screen stylus and I swapped it with my actual stylus from a PDA that I found in my pocket. The guy caught me doing this and took away my PDA for an hour. My dad and I decided to drive away for an hour and not wait there. We arrived at a marketplace and we got separated. After this, I realize that I am a beggar like Aladdin and this market place is actually form the movie Aladdin. Suddenly the princess from the same movie found me and her bother tagged along, even though she didn have a brother, it was the nerdy kid in the green shirt from a Pokemon series I used to watch a while back. They took me to the princess' room and hid me. They said thatt if her dad found out I was there, he would kill me. This is the part I dont remember very well, but I will do my best. I evaded the dad for a while, every time when he would come into the room, I would climb onto the underside of the balcony and ahng there. One time an IPod cord was left leading right to where I was so I had to hide it. A guard came from the floor below and before he noticed me, I climbed back up to the room. I found out the two people had dinner without me, and there was a huge flowerpot filled wih grain for all of us. They were full and said I could haveit all. When I looked away and turned back, it was all gone and I became very angry... even enraged. The dream faded out there and I woke up.


If you read all that then you are truly a hero!

My day today was crappy in the morning with me having a bad mook. Then I got out of the house, went outside and rode myy bike around town. After that, I got back, went to driver's ed, then swim practice and then attended the super awesome MILD class in the chat.

I have been trying to incubate the flying over a forest dream for the past few hours now. I am having a hard time with imagination, but I am trying to imagine sand under my feet witha few sharppokey rocks. a fresh scent int he air. I am standing infront of the forest in which I had spent a lot of time aas a child in Ukraine. "in front" of it is actually a beach from a river. I smell fresh water and forest smells. I hear wind rustling. I see many evergreen trees and many birches loosely spaced to form a beautiful forest. I do a finger through hand RC and a nose breathing RC and realize I am lucid. The whole time I am really happy and excited because I would give a lot right now to go backt here. Then I imagine willing myself to take upp and I fly above this forest.

Very excited to dream this tonight, I will become lucid. I am certain of it. After an awesome class and thinking about dreams for the last few hours I whink I will make it.

Good night!

I also use "subliminal lucid". When my i stopped using it i dropped to only 1 dream per night. But i started using it again and got 5 long dreams last night!
And nope not a WBTB it was 12:00 in the day here where i live when i posted.

Sorry, I couldn't update my workbook yesterday, I was away from a computer until late and then I was too tired so I went to bed.

Yesterday's dreams were very hard to remember for some reason. I didn not listen to the SubLUCID TO SEE IF IT WA THE TRACK OR IF IT WAS ACTUALLY ME REMEMBERING DREAMS...

The one snippet I do remember was that my house had a rat problem and the way we disposed of these rats was by catching them, upening their stomachs like you do with your thumbs to open a grapefruit or orange, and doing the same to their livers. Everything that was being split open had a very rubbery plastic-like feel and that was very weird. In the dream I started in my kitchhen, one of my family caught a rat right in our drawer of plates, my visiting friend got one from behind the apple juice in the fridge, and I caught one from the cheese bin in our fridge and I disposed of it properly. I do not remember anything after that.


Yesterday day:
I was a very happy day full of laughter and fun, very excited but because it was so filled with these things I did not have much time to do the MILD visualization so that was bad. I tried doing it right before bed last night but I had a lot of trouble with visualizing and using 3 senses, every time one of them would get lost...

I had very terrible recall last night, I recall only one small segment of a dream that was very bleak. I remember something was being cut or something related to cutting and the dream was distressful. Last night I didn't use the subliminal track either.

I will do more visualization today.

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I had a very weird day today, in the sense that it went from highs to lows fairly quickly, but in the end I feel pretty excausted mentally and in every way except for physically today.

This recall problem is getting to me, so I switched on subliminal lucid again... I could not find many times to visualize today, I will do so before bed and tomorrow I will really try to visualize more often

I am so sorry you recall is not within you these days. That might be a sign that you are obsessing too much about turning lucid, which is good, but if your recall is affected you must not set too much pressure on yourself. Go milder in thinking about turning lucid. Try to say this mantra, "I recall my dreams and I am lucid"

Visualize yourself recalling your dreams (mainly) and breaking your dry spell. Then, you can visualize yourself in turning lucid. You need to mainly work on your recall first, with recall, lucid dreams come more to you!

I am sorry for my delay, I have been reading your workbooks but I've been insanely busy!!

Ooh, I see. I will follow the advice. I am just wondering , how do you combine mantras and visualization?
Also, are you saying that everything can be solved with visualization?

Thanks a lot, Percy I was waiting excitedly for the tips


Last night, I had another "Daydream" that I could have sworn I had when I was trying to fall alseep after waking durring the night, I just remember some golden yellow sun colors.

Another thing I remember is some kind of something related to spies and spy clothes...

I had a good fun day today, and I visualized a lot and often, though as I have already said, my visualization skills are struggling right now and I find it hard to hold a fized image with 3 sense... I will do good tonight

Yes, and do not worry about it. Keeping a static image is hard. Specially if you have important waking events.

Just keep positive, focus as much as you can and incubate the dream. That pays off over time.

Oooh lots to say today, I had a very bad night but for some reason my recall went up a bit.


I had a rough night yesterday, I couldn't sleep for a long time because either noises happened or because I drank too much or I was uncomfortable, etc. Anyways, I went to sleep around 3 AM and woke at around 11.

Surprisingly, I had a few small pieces of dreams recalled that I cannot remember now and three big chunks that may or may not have came from the same dream. Before bed I repeated a mantra and visualized a static scene to get there while lucid.

I will tell about my visualization, since I haven't been doing so yet but I really do need to. I am visualizing a forest by a summer house that my grandparents have near my hometown in Ukraine. I have many fond memories of that place and I thought it would be a nice place to go for the task. The exact spot I am visualizing Is near a very thin part of the forest that is riverside. I am standing atop a small hill on a path of dirt and grass that leads down into the small strip of forest and out onto a beach by the river. There are thick bushes and low trees blocking the lower part of the forest from view, so I just see those and the upper foliage in my visualizations. I try to imagine the scene statically, I cannot have it moving yet. I try to smell a fresh forest smell that you get right after a rain. I alternate for the third sense, sometimes trying to hear the wind in the trees and sometimes trying to imagine the warm sun on my skin and the moist ground below my feet. It is hard for me to have three senses, because the image in unstable enough with two. When I use three, everything goes away or the picture warps...


Anyways, onto last nights dreams:

I was with Jack bauer and Tony Almeida from "24" and we were doing a secret mission in a trainyard's warehouse. We snuck into an open door and into the dark warehouse. it was night. It wasn't as dark as it should have been and on the inside it was smaller than the warehouse was on the outside, and comfortably furnished like an old traditional Russian kitched/dining room that I have seen a while back at a relative's house. (I should have caught this)(I think Ukraine/Russia may be a dreamsign) Suddenly for some reason Tony walks up to the second door of the warehouse and yells at the top of his lungs. This freaked us all out and we hid against a side wall that was adjacent to the aforementioned door. We didn't turn off the lights but instead hid in shadows. When the bad guys came in, they turned off the lights and turned them on again after a little while. While the lights were off, I got a feeling of exactlly what would happen next and it did happen- Tony snuck out into the middle of the room so that the bad guys thought it was him alone that disturbed them. His plan didn't work. They took him hostage and then one approacked me and grabbed me by my LONG hair (I should have caught this- I have short hair right now) and dragged me to the center. They didn't touch Jack Bauer. Then they revealed themselves to be good guys that were really testing us to see if we were fit for a real mission. This excerpt ends here.

The next excerpt could possibly have been a continuation of the previous one. I remember I was on a train with weird people. The train had an interior tha was like a cafe and the front was like a bus with a driver and stairs and everything a bus has.I did not have fun on it and I only remember that a woman left the train. The stop was also in one of the places frrom my childhood in Ukraine.

The last excerpt was in driver's ed (school). It was time for he hands on part of the course and behind the wheel. We went to a parking lot and got a red car that was realy lumpy looking. The teaccher said to make the car drift in the sharp turns of the parking garage. When I went to take the car, I found out it was already in use even though it was just standing there a few seconds ago. I waited for the girl using it to stop and give me the car. When I went to get into the car, this bitch tried to get in front of me and into the car firrst. I kicked her out, literally and got into the car. When I started driving, my steering wheel morphed into a seat and I found myself sitting in the back seat, but not realizing it yet, and thinking of why the view is so obstructed. Then I really kicked the girl out and got in. I drifted just barely (I'm a horrible driver whenever I dream-drrive). Suddenly the parking garage taht was underground turned into an above gorund and I saw a street corner in a city with a zombie coming out of one of the shops. The exerpt ends here...



My day today was quite distressing, I had lots of stress and unhappiness. I was left out of things, put down, insulted, etc. This was done by kids smaller than me when we went to a birthday picnic of a family friend. After we left, though, I ahd a friend come over for a while and we had fun.


I will get lucid tonight. I am listening to ninja's track and will do a mantra/visualization in bed. I am worried though that since I was in a forest today, my visualization might be ineffective.

Oooh lots to say today, I had a very bad night but for some reason my recall went up a bit.


I had a rough night yesterday, I couldn't sleep for a long time because either noises happened or because I drank too much or I was uncomfortable, etc. Anyways, I went to sleep around 3 AM and woke at around 11.

Surprisingly, I had a few small pieces of dreams recalled that I cannot remember now and three big chunks that may or may not have came from the same dream. Before bed I repeated a mantra and visualized a static scene to get there while lucid.

I will tell about my visualization, since I haven't been doing so yet but I really do need to. I am visualizing a forest by a summer house that my grandparents have near my hometown in Ukraine. I have many fond memories of that place and I thought it would be a nice place to go for the task. The exact spot I am visualizing Is near a very thin part of the forest that is riverside. I am standing atop a small hill on a path of dirt and grass that leads down into the small strip of forest and out onto a beach by the river. There are thick bushes and low trees blocking the lower part of the forest from view, so I just see those and the upper foliage in my visualizations. I try to imagine the scene statically, I cannot have it moving yet. I try to smell a fresh forest smell that you get right after a rain. I alternate for the third sense, sometimes trying to hear the wind in the trees and sometimes trying to imagine the warm sun on my skin and the moist ground below my feet. It is hard for me to have three senses, because the image in unstable enough with two. When I use three, everything goes away or the picture warps...


Anyways, onto last nights dreams:

I was with Jack bauer and Tony Almeida from "24" and we were doing a secret mission in a trainyard's warehouse. We snuck into an open door and into the dark warehouse. it was night. It wasn't as dark as it should have been and on the inside it was smaller than the warehouse was on the outside, and comfortably furnished like an old traditional Russian kitched/dining room that I have seen a while back at a relative's house. (I should have caught this)(I think Ukraine/Russia may be a dreamsign) Suddenly for some reason Tony walks up to the second door of the warehouse and yells at the top of his lungs. This freaked us all out and we hid against a side wall that was adjacent to the aforementioned door. We didn't turn off the lights but instead hid in shadows. When the bad guys came in, they turned off the lights and turned them on again after a little while. While the lights were off, I got a feeling of exactlly what would happen next and it did happen- Tony snuck out into the middle of the room so that the bad guys thought it was him alone that disturbed them. His plan didn't work. They took him hostage and then one approacked me and grabbed me by my LONG hair (I should have caught this- I have short hair right now) and dragged me to the center. They didn't touch Jack Bauer. Then they revealed themselves to be good guys that were really testing us to see if we were fit for a real mission. This excerpt ends here.

The next excerpt could possibly have been a continuation of the previous one. I remember I was on a train with weird people. The train had an interior tha was like a cafe and the front was like a bus with a driver and stairs and everything a bus has.I did not have fun on it and I only remember that a woman left the train. The stop was also in one of the places frrom my childhood in Ukraine.

The last excerpt was in driver's ed (school). It was time for he hands on part of the course and behind the wheel. We went to a parking lot and got a red car that was realy lumpy looking. The teaccher said to make the car drift in the sharp turns of the parking garage. When I went to take the car, I found out it was already in use even though it was just standing there a few seconds ago. I waited for the girl using it to stop and give me the car. When I went to get into the car, this bitch tried to get in front of me and into the car firrst. I kicked her out, literally and got into the car. When I started driving, my steering wheel morphed into a seat and I found myself sitting in the back seat, but not realizing it yet, and thinking of why the view is so obstructed. Then I really kicked the girl out and got in. I drifted just barely (I'm a horrible driver whenever I dream-drrive). Suddenly the parking garage taht was underground turned into an above gorund and I saw a street corner in a city with a zombie coming out of one of the shops. The exerpt ends here...



My day today was quite distressing, I had lots of stress and unhappiness. I was left out of things, put down, insulted, etc. This was done by kids smaller than me when we went to a birthday picnic of a family friend. After we left, though, I ahd a friend come over for a while and we had fun.


I will get lucid tonight. I am listening to ninja's track and will do a mantra/visualization in bed. I am worried though that since I was in a forest today, my visualization might be ineffective.